Siren Blade

Chapter 123 Li Yan continued

Dreams can wake up - in the past, I always said this sentence to others, but now the positions are exchanged, I become the questioner, and Li Yan is the answerer.As I silently chewed on these words repeatedly, thoughts of impermanence suddenly arose in my heart.

"Also, I don't want to stay in this kind of place and be killed by monsters." Li Yan continued, "If I can only choose between 'continue to be tortured by monsters as a young man' and 'wake up as a middle-aged man' If you choose one, you can only choose the latter.”

"It's true." Hearing this, I couldn't help laughing, but it was laughing at myself.That's true, the reason why I had the option to "stay in the healing dream" was because the healing dream was a world that was friendly to me.If Qingniao really seals the demon, I can live a peaceful life in the world over there, and even join the demon hunter department to strive to become my ideal hero.

But what is there in the dream here?Empty ghost towns, eternally dark skies, monsters who choose to eat people... Compared to staying in this kind of place, returning to the real world and being a middle-aged man is no big deal.

What answer did I expect from Li Yan just now?

"However, it is within my expectation that I will not be very promising in the future, but I will still beg for a wife and even have a son?" Li Yan's face showed a look of surprise and unacceptable, "You really Are you not deceiving me?"

"That's true," I said. "Is there a problem with that?"

"Honestly, I have a headache," he said. "I have no intention of having children or even getting married..."

While speaking, he was still looking at my face suspiciously, and suddenly said in a tone that seemed to be a joke, "I have a feeling from the very beginning that your face seems familiar. It seems... looks somewhat similar to me, could it be that you are my son in the real world?"

"Your son is 19 years old this year, and he disappeared a long time ago. Do you think my face looks 19 years old?" I tensed my facial muscles and asked without changing my expression, "What's more, my name is Ren Sai , not Li Sai."

Maybe it was because of the way I tensed my face as if I was in a bad mood, so he quickly apologized.I also felt that there was something wrong with my attitude, so I explained that I was not angry.Back and forth, back to the topic just now.I asked, "Why don't you want to get married and have children?"

He thought about it, and then asked me, "What kind of person do you think I am?"

I reviewed his previous performance and experience in my mind, as well as the fragmentary clues about my father in my memory.He is very smart, and he has experienced so many deaths without being mentally disturbed. He can also talk to me fluently, which shows that he has good psychological adaptability to harsh environments, and it is not an exaggeration to call him resilient.

However, his personality lacks hardness, and it may be difficult for him to break through when he encounters difficulties.Some people may find ways to resist when encountering things that make them painful, and even take the attitude of preferring to be broken than to be whole.And he is more inclined to accept helplessly and work hard to adapt.

I briefly stated these evaluations, and he laughed at himself after listening to it, and then said: "Lack of hardness...you are right. I am really not manly enough, and sometimes I will be judged by others." Bian, I only know how to go with the flow. So, if I get a wife who is similar to me, the husband and wife will just stare at each other when they encounter difficulties; It's even more painful to be bullied. So I might as well be alone, at least I can be at ease, and I can avoid many expenses of married life, don't you think?"

"What about children? Is it okay if you don't have children inheriting yourself?" I asked.

"It's okay, I don't expect my children to provide for me in the old age. Besides, my family is very poor, and I don't have much to offer, and I probably won't earn much money in the future. If I were a child, I definitely don't expect to be reborn in this family." He said, "And I hate children very much. If I really want to give birth, I will definitely regret it in a few months and shed tears."

"Really? But I heard that many parents felt the same way at first, but they all changed their views later on. No matter how hard and tiring they are, they still love their children and feel that their children are the angels in their lives." I said.

"That's definitely self-deception. Still 'angels'? Have they never been children, don't they know how annoying they were before? It's just a scene for others to hear. They don't know how to be parents and insist on being parents." It’s no different from being a hero.” He expressed a very personal opinion, “Besides, since they have already given birth to their children, they can’t say, ‘It would be nice if they didn’t give birth to that child’ You can’t say it to children, and you can’t say it to anyone. So I have to try my best to say it in the opposite direction. Even if you can’t deceive others, it’s good to deceive yourself.”

He added, "Although I don't know what I will think in the future, I am still very young now, and I still want to find opportunities to play outside. After giving birth, there must be many trivial things that make people want to die."

"But what if your parents force you? For example, arrange a blind date for you and force you to go to meet the other party, but you really can't refuse." I began to paint such a picture, "After you go, you find that the blind date is also with you I’m in the same situation, and I also think children are very troublesome. After chatting with each other, I found that the other party is okay, so I just made do with marriage, but you made an appointment not to have children, and you are responsible for most of the living expenses. Marriage and living together are purely for deal with each other's parents."

"It's not like that...it's not impossible," he said.

"But it's not surprising that something happens even if a man and a woman live together. No matter how good the security measures are, there is still a risk. Later, you accidentally 'killed'." I continued to describe the future, or Said it was a picture of the past, "and the news leaked to your parents and elders, and then your parents forced you to use all means to make the child born, even saying that if you dare to abort, you will hang yourself Out of the mouth. There is nothing you can do, but in the end you have to obey."

"Well... Although I don't know what the other half's personality is, I have been unable to stick to my own opinions since I was a child, and I will probably become like that in the end..." After hearing this, he sighed for a long time, "But if In that case, that child is too unlucky..."

"Have you ever thought about changing yourself for the sake of your children?" I asked.

He said without hesitation, "No!"

I am speechless.

He thought for a while, "But..."

"But?" I asked.

"Although I don't think I can love a child, I can't hate him. I have been immersed in the beating and scolding of my parents since I was a child, and I still feel that it is very painful. So if I have a child, even if I can't warm him, at least I can’t hurt him.” He said, “I can’t let him go hungry either. It’s really hard to feel hungry, although I still want to play, but since I have a child, I can’t help it. I can only make money with my heart and try my best to feed him. No worries. You can’t even have enough food and clothing, right? Also... I really want to go to college, but my parents won’t let me go, so I must give him a chance to study with peace of mind.”

I recall my past.In that home, I have at least no memory of going hungry.And it's actually not as shabby as he predicted. In my impression, the family has never lacked anything, and I can afford a nanny.Even if it can't be said to be outstanding, it can be regarded as well-off.

Looking at it this way, I am not satisfied.But, what a greedy person I am, I still want more from them.I want them to tell me what they want me to be, and I want them to expect something from me.

"Aren't you going to be a good father?" I said.

"Really? But I definitely don't like the child." He said, "I guess I don't even want to say anything, I don't want to see him. If the child asks me for something, I will definitely hide away."

"Why?" I asked.

"Because children are really troublesome. I have been a child myself, so I know it very well. And I don't know how to do it other than beating and scolding. Love, guidance, it sounds beautiful, but how to practice it? He said, "Anyway, I have never seen anyone around me grow up to be a good child under the wise love and guidance of their parents, which shows that it is really difficult."

"So, you are afraid that you will beat and scold him?" I asked.

"Well. I grew up being beaten and scolded by my parents, so I know it really works. But I also know it's definitely not a good thing. I still hate them. Say what is good for me and good for me , In fact, it’s all for my own satisfaction. And they are always self-righteous and pointing fingers at my life, obviously they can’t arrange their own life well..." He sighed and shook his head, and then said, "In short, what does that child want to do? It's all right, I won't beat and insult him, let alone try to control his future. Let him decide for himself."
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Whether what Li Yan said at this time was the motive for my future father to treat me coldly, I have no way of knowing.Perhaps after a series of experiences, my father also changed his mind. Although his behavior was still in line with Li Yan's ideas, he actually had another way of thinking.After all, Li Yan in front of me is not yet married and has children. After she actually gets married and has children, she may find that things are completely different from what she imagined.

However, I still accepted it as an answer, but for a while I didn't know how to digest it.

And the development of things did not leave me that much time.

While I was still having mixed feelings, the blue bird's voice came from the bluetooth headset, "Li Duo! We have observed a main-level spiritual wave reaction approaching you at high speed!"

I broke free from my complicated state of mind at the first time, and half a second after her voice fell, I felt a strong, hot, bloody smell coming from the right rear of the direction where I and others were walking. The evil spiritual fluctuations.

Almost at the same time, Joan, who was walking in the front, suddenly looked back.

"Joan, take Li Yan and run!" I warned immediately.

And the voice of the blue bird in my ear became tense, "This reaction...is Yuchi!"

With a bang, the wall on the side of the street was smashed into pieces like an explosion, and a three-meter-high blood-red armor rushed out of the turbulent smoke.This is obviously what Qingniao once described to me, the battle armor made by Yuchi with his own blood.

Yuchi was indeed in this dream!

He appeared here to prevent us from taking Li Yan away.

As soon as he appeared, he turned the right arm of the armor into a huge sharp blade, and slashed at me, and at the same time let out a roar, "Devil Li Duo!"

I instantly summoned the Siren Blade to block the blow in time, but the shock and sound waves generated by the fierce collision of the two weapons directly swept Qiao An and Li Yan to the ground behind them, and made them deaf on the spot.Yuchi put all his weight on my weapon, trying to overwhelm me with brute force.I actually felt as if there was a mountain pressing down on me, unable to move.

Joan scrambled to his feet and tried to escape with Li Yan, while the latter murmured to himself in pain and dizziness, "Li Duo? Isn't his name Ren Sai..."

Suddenly, Yuchi glanced at Qiao An.He seemed to think about it, then raised his other hand and pointed at Qiao An and Li Yan.

Although I couldn't look back, I used my awareness to perceive the scene behind: while Yuchi was pointing at them, Joan immediately took out the talisman against blood spells from his bosom, but he didn't use it on himself, but quickly It stuck to Li Yan's body.In the next instant, the blood in the bodies of the two rioted at the same time, pouring out from the seven orifices unstoppably.

This is Yuchi's blood spell!
Qiao An has a strong inner spirituality, and Li Yan has a talisman that defends against blood spells, so Yuchi can't kill them instantly.But if it lasts for a second or two at most, Li Yan will die; after a few seconds, Qiao An will die too.

Li Yan is the core of this mission and must be brought out of the dream as soon as possible; while Qiao An may not be able to resurrect in the dream like Li Yan.None of them can die here, I must move the battle field immediately.

Taking advantage of Yuchi's distraction, I burst out with all my strength, and slammed the three-meter-high armor in front of me like a shot put.

"Run!" I dropped these words and sprinted towards the direction where Yuchi was knocked into the air.

Not long after I sprinted out, I saw him rushing towards me with a movement that was obviously faster than mine.At this moment, he was no longer what he was before. The huge armor he wore on his body became deformed and distorted, and even had the texture of flesh and blood.It is not so much armor as it is a living demon.

(End of this chapter)