Siren Blade

Chapter 149

I never thought of myself as someone who didn't deserve to die.

When Saber Tooth demanded my life for the second time, if I hadn't been worried that Blue Bird and Siren would be involved, I would probably have surrendered my life like the first time.At this moment, Qiao Licao seemed to have temporarily given up on persuading me on the issue of whether I was a bad person or not, but she went back and tried to use other methods to make me feel that I was at least not a damn person.I can understand her words and intentions.Although I understand, I can't find a way to win her head-on.

However, I still felt that there was something wrong with her words.Where is the problem? For example, human life should not be measured by numbers?That alone doesn't seem like enough, but I can't find any more strong points for a while.I thought, maybe I was entangled in her point of view; or, it was my inner meanness, and I unconsciously wanted to follow her words to climb up.That's why I can't refute her eloquently here.

"For the relatives and friends of the people I killed, no matter how many people I save in the distance, it is still not as important as the important people who get along with them day and night." In the end, I could only slightly avoid her words , responding to her from a less positive perspective.

And this is not empty talk.In fact, that's why Saber Tooth couldn't forgive me.Even if I join the righteous camp, I can't change it. No, maybe in his opinion, it is because of this that it is even worse.And although it is not appropriate to use the evil move as an example, I did think of the experience of the evil move at this time.

For the victim, if there is anything more evil than "increased harm", it may be the reformation of the perpetrator.

My shame in hating my sins is real, but is the desire that drove me to commit them in the past false?
"Do you still remember how Xiaojing's parents thanked you for saving Xiaojing?" Qiao Gancao asked.

"Of course." I replied.

"You also gave up your life to save me from the hands of the old bone, do you remember this incident?" She asked again.

"I remember." I recalled that I was at a loss when faced with her thanks, and I was also teased by Qingniao with a smile.

"The relatives and friends of the person you killed in the past must still be cursing you from afar." She said, "But, is only the curse real, and gratitude is false?"

I felt as if I had been penetrated into my heart by her, and even my thoughts just now were taken into account, and I didn't know how to respond, "How...how can this be the same. Besides, no matter how I save others in the future, the people in the past It cannot be resurrected either. In this world, there are mistakes that are destined to be irreparable."

Suddenly, she stood up, walked in front of me who was sitting, and looked at me condescendingly.I thought she was going to say some words that tried to invade my heart again, and I even felt a little uneasy.She was so eloquent and persuasive that I was worried that I would really be swayed by her words.She must have a lot of opinions in her heart, and she knows how to package them in a form that I can't refute, leaving me speechless.

But in the end, she didn't pour out the strong words as I expected, but just gently put her arms around my head, and slowly stroked my hair.I was taken aback, but there was no sensationalism in her action, and it even made me subconsciously think that if I had a sister, maybe it would be like this.Now she seems to have really become my sister.

"However, I still hope that you and Qingniao can be happy, and hope that you can usher in a happy ending like a dream." She said slowly, "It's not 'should not', from the bottom of my heart, I hope you are happy. Only Jade Bird can bring you real happiness, and only you can make Jade Bird happy."

"I..." I was speechless again.

"This is neither a reason nor a debate. This is my wish." She let go of my head, stretched out her finger, and gently tapped my forehead with a smile on her face, "So, become Be happy, Li Duo, and then bring your happiness to Blue Bird."
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Joe Licorice's words stuck in my head.

Can I really make the blue bird happy?

Of course, this is not a question of whether we can do it or not.Even if Qiao Licorice doesn't say anything, I know very well that this is something I have to do no matter what.It's just to implement it in a specific direction, but I only have entanglements.Whether it's a question of my own good or evil, or how to make the blue bird happy, I always do this.It seems that what I said to myself in the past has become a prophecy, and the strong entanglement is always entangled in the rest of my life like a shadow like a punishment.

I think, I must be sorry for the blue bird.

It was like this from the very beginning, when she got lost on the mountain in the past, I just had to wait obediently, but I had to do superfluous things, dragging her and me into a world of pain.

Even now, after the ups and downs of joy every night, I embrace her closely and I can capture her deep loneliness.

Because I couldn't produce the correct feedback to her body, she seemed to feel the intense joy in the body, but also tasted the feeling of yelling at the wall in vain in the spirit of despair.Even if a voice came back, it was only a lonely echo.I sometimes try to act and make her think I'm having fun too, but she's just too perceptive and my poor acting just makes her sadder.

I couldn't even give her a child due to the radical body modification on a biological level.When I die in the near future, she will be alone.What should I do?
Even if I find a way to extend my life in the future, should I accept it shamelessly?Or is it just like Qiao Licorice said, this is not a question of whether you should or should not, but a question of whether you want it or not?
I slept, but not for rest, but to check the memories of those demon warlocks in the dream, to see if there were clues that could help break through the fog or defeat the fanatics.Unfortunately, such clues cannot be found casually.I had no choice but to wake up from the dream, and then walked out of the room, wanting to go to the window in the corridor on the second floor to see the scenery outside.

There is no difference between day and night in the outside world, and it is still daytime until now. Through the windows, you can see the ruins of the city shrouded in gloomy mist.In front of the window, there was already someone who came first, a girl in thin white clothes who looked fragile.Although her back was facing me, I recognized her as Xiao Jing.

I didn't hide my footsteps, she looked back vigilantly.Seeing it was me, she relaxed and greeted unskillfully, "Li Duo."

I noticed that her face looked tired and even obviously depressed, which was not like the happy girl who had finally reunited with her parents before.what happened?I tried asking her to see if there was anything I could do.

I don't know if the effect of the "Quick Talk" talisman is still there, she is more at ease with me, or she also really wants someone who can consult her troubles.In a few words, she expressed her troubles.

"Dad saved thousands of people here, and everyone said he was an amazing person, and I thought so too. He was like a savior to the people in this shelter," she said.

"That's the truth." I also agree with Ming Yi's achievements.

"However, I used to think he was just a bad alcoholic gambler and a bad father who didn't expect his family." She said, "Even my mother thought he was a danger to the family. With a husband who doesn't know what is called work, "

"There's nothing you can do if you think so, it's force majeure." I said.

"Yes, force majeure. So..." She turned her head and looked straight at me, "After we leave the fog, my mother and I will return to the same life as before, forgetting everything that happened here Clean it up, and treat daddy like a rotten person again, is that right?"

Although I really want to tell her that things won't turn out that way, but unfortunately, she guessed very close.

The reason why she can correctly understand so many non-sensical situations now is because she is in the present continuous tense of hidden events.Just as living beings show a stress response in the face of life-threatening situations, even people without advanced awareness can continue to recognize the secret before returning to the normal world, which can also be regarded as a kind of survival strategy. instinct.

Conversely, once she leaves this environment full of uncommon sense, her consciousness will inevitably return to a form full of common sense.

If there is something wrong, it is that after the incident is over, although she will not be able to recognize the secret, she will not really continue to regard Ming Yi as a bad gambler.Because secret memories are not really forgotten, they just settle in the unconscious.So she will unconsciously understand that her father is a powerful character.

However, that perception also deteriorates over time.

After returning to the normal world, Ming Yi will continue to engage in dangerous jobs that their mother and daughter do not know, and they are destined to have no relationship with the world Ming Yi lives in.The two sides are like intersecting lines, but they just intersect at a certain point, and then the distance between them will only become farther and farther away.

Mingyi was not an ordinary person from the very beginning. He has advanced awareness, so he can become a part of the hidden world after encountering secret events. For their mother and daughter, encountering secret events and even meeting Mingyi , It's just a discordant accident in life.

Over time, those memories of "thinking Ming Yi is a dangerous man who doesn't know the so-called" accumulated in large numbers, and sooner or later they would regard Ming Yi as a dangerous man who didn't know the so-called.

In the common sense of secular society, the term "yin and yang separated" represents the inability to contact the living and the dead.But in the tradition of warlocks, the secret represents the feminine side of nature, and the separation of yin and yang means that the residents of the hidden world are destined to have no relationship with the people of the secular society.

I could only tell Xiaojing what I knew, she showed a sad expression, looked at the scenery outside the window, and did not speak for a long time.
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Ming Yi found me, and he said that he was planning to go out to collect supplies and asked for my assistance.

He was also collecting supplies outside before, but unfortunately he met us halfway, so he had to interrupt the work at hand and take us to the shelter.But the work still needs to be done, and he doesn't mean to be lazy because of this.It's just that his strength cannot be said to be strong even if it is a compliment. There are often dangers in the process of collecting materials. With my help, the action will become fast and safe.

I also have no plans to eat free rice in the shelter.I also told him before that I will try my best to help if there is any trouble in the shelter. Although I am a little concerned about whether Qiao Licao will have problems if he stays alone in the shelter, he must not break his promise on such a small trouble.After repeatedly discussing with Qiao Gancao how to deal with potential safety hazards, I set off with Mingyi.

Ming Yi mentioned to me while walking ahead that the food and water needs in the shelter are not that urgent. They have stored enough survival materials in the shelter for more than 20 days.It's just that it's always bad to sit and eat, and the purpose of going out is not only to collect supplies, but also to search and rescue survivors.

The shelter's views on newcomers are not so positive, after all, one more person is one more mouth to eat.It is not necessary to expand the manpower and power. In case the refuge is invaded by a group of demons, or some demon warlocks defeat Ming Yi, the number of people in the refuge is no more than 1 people and [-] people. There will be decisive differences.

Half an hour later, we came to a deserted street.After a brief inspection, it seems that there are not many demons active in this area, probably because there is no prey here.Ming Yi lent me his container model for storing materials, and took another storage item to temporarily split up with me to collect materials.Soon, I found a convenience store, ready to start from here.

And at this moment, the strongest and most vicious crisis since my debut as a law enforcement warlock broke out.

Before I had time to walk into the store, a huge, even unprecedented sense of danger suddenly rose in my heart.A large group of bats like ink droplets rushed out of the dim shop, the situation was so sudden that even I had no time to react.The swarm of bats overwhelmed me like a tsunami, and when I summoned the Siren Blade, the swarm of bats flew behind me.

Under my swift gaze, all the bats quickly gathered in the middle of the road into a mass of indistinguishable dark matter, and formed a silhouette that looked human but not human.Then, the blackness of the substance slipped down like ink on the glass, and turned into a black dress, revealing the long white hair, red eyes, and the face of a girl with a magical charm.

"I've been waiting for you for a long time, Demon Li Duo."

Bite Blood showed a malicious smile.

(End of this chapter)