Siren Blade

Chapter 179
Siren has finished processing the memory of biting blood, and she told me about it when I entered the dream.

However, because this is only extracted from a very small amount of spirit body fragments biting blood, the content of the memory is pitifully small.Siren told me that there is only a simple scene and some fragments in this memory.But I still had an irresistible urge. When I thought about being able to peek at the memory of the evil "girl" that haunted me, I felt an indescribably despicable excitement.

In the clearing under the moonlight, she showed me that short memory.Everything in front of me quickly disassembled and reassembled, and finally became an indoor scene.

It looks like the interior of a dilapidated wooden house, it should be a bedroom, and the lighting in the room is not turned on.It was still daytime outside the window, but the sky was overcast with dark clouds, and it was pouring downpours, with occasional low-pitched thunder.The ceiling of the bedroom is still leaking water, the air is filled with the smell of damp and rotten wood, the furniture is old and deteriorating, and there is poverty and shabbyness visible to the naked eye everywhere.

At this moment, I am looking at all this from the perspective of Bite Xue. From the height of the perspective, Bite Blood in this memory is still a short little girl, thin and weak, as if she would be blown down by a gust of wind.And she was holding a sharp knife in her hand, facing a wooden bed.There was a sleeping woman lying on the bed, the woman's face could not be seen clearly.

The childhood of biting blood seems to have been quite bad. I don't know what kind of childhood experience it was, but I can empathize with her thoughts at this moment.She thought that in her humiliated and starved life so far, this woman was the only one who could see herself as a human being.

And he will kill this woman next.

From now on, no one will love me, no one will hug me again.

She didn't have any hatred for him, and the other party had never done anything that made her uncomfortable.And when she did such an unforgivable thing, she was bound to push herself into the abyss with her own hands, and she was smashed to pieces and worthless.

Thinking of this, her heart was filled with disillusioned joy.

At the same time, she once again saw her own depraved nature.To actually feel happy for his own evilness and lowliness, how far is he going to be hopeless?While thinking this way, she couldn't help showing a sick smile.

She stared at the woman on the wooden bed, slowly raised the sharp knife, and stabbed it down suddenly after a while.
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I read her memory with the idea of ​​understanding the psychology of biting blood, but after reading it, I feel that it seems even more difficult for me to understand biting blood.

Then I went to see other fragments of memory fragments, basically there are no complete scenes in them, just some simple flashbacks.There are blood bites in her teens and twenties, and there are also blood bites in her thirties, forties, forties, and fifties. Although she is doing different things at different ages and in different places, every day The psychological background contained in each fragment is similar.She is always trying to lead others into tragedy in various ways, and sometimes involves herself in tragedy.

And looking at it, I remembered some knowledge about describing demons that I had seen before.

I've heard that real demons seek pain.Although demon warlocks often say that they sacrifice to please demons, this is just a "human-friendly way of saying".Human pursuits can be divided into two types, one is to obtain happiness as the purpose, that is, the pursuit of happiness; the other is to get rid of pain as the purpose, that is, the pursuit of peace of mind.Demons, on the other hand, do not fall into these two categories. Real demons aim at suffering, and can even be said to be existences with the sole purpose of torturing themselves.

When human beings are pursuing pain, they are either to obtain morbid happiness, or to get rid of greater pain, not for pain itself, so they cannot understand the spirituality of demons.

And if the blood of the devil is mixed with the human soul, it may give birth to a hybrid devil with extremely sick human nature, that is, a person who bites blood.

Only through the disillusionment of others or herself can she find happiness and security.

She didn't become a bad person because she was persecuted by society or others, nor did she have any tragic past events that could cause sympathy and tears. She was inherently hopelessly evil.

Not limited to mixed-blood demons, even warlocks who learn demon knowledge and imitate demons will be infected with this kind of madness, and thus unconsciously yearn for the destruction of others, and even their own.And the more powerful the demon warlock is, the more this is the case.

This can also be seen from the demon warlocks I have come into contact with in the past.

For example, Old Bone, unlike me who was muddle-headed in the past, has a deep understanding of the horror of the hidden world and the size of the Security Bureau, but he does not know how to do evil deeds frequently attacking the family members of the Security Bureau members.It's not just that he has a grudge against the security bureau, it's better to say that he is a demon warlock who regards revenge on me as an absolute value in life, but he insists on attacking the family members of the security bureau members whom he doesn't even recognize their faces and names , Bringing death upon himself.It would be fine if he was a fool who didn't distinguish between primary and secondary, but a fool has been able to get away with being hunted by the Security Bureau for many years with such a weak strength.

Another example is the middleman, he insisted on staying in Liucheng even though he knew he was being targeted by the main law enforcement warlock. It seems that this can be explained by his deep obsession with Qiao An, but even so, he can still Leave Liucheng first to avoid the limelight, or just leave the main body, and only use the avatar that is completely synchronized with his perception to continue to attack Qiao An in Liucheng. Perhaps it would be the best policy to simply kidnap Qiao An and take him away from Liucheng.With his intelligence, he completely wanted to achieve this step, but he put his body and avatar in Liucheng at the same time without knowing the so-called, and finally died in my hands.

The same is true for the succubus. She fused with the fog demon in pursuit of power. It would be fine if she could compete against Lie Que after fusion. Bairizhen fulfilled the conditions for fusion; Evil Zhao fled embarrassingly for more than 20 years under the pursuit of law enforcement warlocks in order to survive, but he didn't even care about his own demise after merging with the demon of fog; To become stronger without any means, even pushing one's personality to destruction step by step can be taken for granted as a price; fanatics are even more direct, and in order to pursue the truth, they even use suicide as a means without hesitation.

Among them, even if Yuchi and the fanatics are not demon warlocks, they will probably go on the road of self-destruction.Therefore, perhaps it is not that the more powerful the demon warlock is, the more self-destructive it is, but the more self-destructive the demon warlock is, the stronger it is.

And Bite Blood is completely different from most demon warlocks who unconsciously pursue destruction. According to the psychological background I frequently captured in those flashback clips, Bite Blood has a very clear awareness of his own destructiveness, and In terms of "condition", it is also very different from other demon warlocks.If the demonic blood of the succubus is still very thin, then the concentration of the demonic blood biting the blood is too high, so that it is deeply mixed into her human nature.

From the moment she was born as a half-blood demon, she was completely out of touch with normal happiness.She is born crazy, and what is hidden in her mind is a diseased human nature.While she was crazily humiliating and destroying others, she also longed to be humiliated and destroyed.In other words, she has extreme sadism and masochism at the same time.

However, this presents a problem that cannot be ignored.

Why is she so afraid of death?
It is natural for a normal personality to have the fear of death, but it is undoubtedly self-contradictory when placed on her self-conscious extreme personality.

The next day, I woke up from the dream.Looking at the time displayed on the wall clock, it is morning.I remember that I slept on the dark lap pillow last night, but now I am sleeping on the bed in her room.It seems that she moved me to the bed to make it flat after I fell asleep, and even helped me take off my shoes and socks.

In addition, I am sorry to say that she also took off my clothes. I searched around the room and couldn't find my clothes. I don't know where she hid my clothes and why do that.

It might sound ambiguous for a woman to undress a man, but I don't think she would have any chance of feeling that way about me.However, it is true that Zhu An's thinking is puzzling to me.Put yourself in the shoes and think about it, if biting the blood killed the blue bird, I would not kill the biting the blood afterwards, but put her on my lap, take off her shoes and socks after she fell asleep, and then lightly touch her Take off her clothes and put her on the bed, and cover her with the quilt?No matter how you think about it, it's not right.Of course, me and the blue bird and biting blood are different from her and my husband and me, and perhaps they shouldn't be so rote.

I found a large bath towel in the bathroom and draped it over my body, planning to go to my room next door.I remember I put the shipping container model there, with a change of clothes in it, but Pearl Dark should be there too.Since I slept in her room last night, she should have slept in mine.It's really a good thing she didn't take the opportunity to attack me last night.

"It's okay, I've been staring at her all night. If she wants to do something bad to you, I'll wake you up as soon as possible." Siren seemed to have heard my heart.

"Thank you." I said.But even if Zhu An really made a move, she would not be able to bypass my danger awareness, maybe she herself understands this.

"Also, she is relatively normal when you look at her, but after you fall asleep, she is scary, and she feels crazy." Siren said in a low voice, "I think she must have a serious mental illness."

She added, "Probably not lighter than you."

It was really complicated for her to say that.

It seems that the darkness in my eyes is different from the darkness in other people's eyes.

The quiet and strong Zhu An in front of me seemed to be just an image she played, and she didn't let me see her real face for a second.

I was a little curious about what Zhu An did last night to make Siren feel that she had a mental illness. I was about to ask Siren to "replay" it, when I saw someone push the door open.It was Zhu An who walked in, carrying a few paper bags in her hand.

"You're awake." She walked to the bed, put a few paper bags on the bed, and took out something from them, "Then change into this suit."

What she took out looked like she had just bought clothes,

"Where are my original clothes?" I asked.

"Your clothing is no different from that of a middle school boy. I threw it away to prevent you from wearing it to act as a couple with me. You have a young face. Since you want to pretend to be someone else's husband, you should At least you have to dress up a bit more maturely," she explained.

I have nothing to say when she criticizes that clothing looks like a middle school boy, because before she mentioned it, the concept of "clothes" didn't even come to my mind.It's no wonder she wants to take my clothes away, but it's okay to ask my opinion on this kind of thing.Although I can't say no to her.

Blue Bird never complained about my clothes.However, recalling carefully, Jade Bird doesn’t seem to pay much attention to dressing, mainly for the convenience of activities, and doesn’t like to wear skirts. She likes simple, neutral and refreshing dresses.It's just that any clothes look good on her, and even if it's a neutral outfit, with her such a good figure, it's hard to realize that she's wearing an outfit that the opposite sex can refer to.

And the pearl-dark black gauze dress highlights the feminine style, or the style of a lady, with a bit of mourning taste.At this moment, Zhu An came over with the new clothes, as if she wanted to put them on for me with her own hands, but she didn't listen to my refusal, so I could only let her manipulate my body like a puppet.

Standing in front of me, she was half a head shorter than me, tidying up my neckline and shoulders like a sister, and getting close like a newlywed wife.Yesterday, she kept a distance from me on purpose, but now she is probably considering that she will play a couple with me in the future, so it may be that she has done a good job of thinking for herself, and the sense of distance has temporarily disappeared.

After she was done, she took two steps back and inspected me after the change.I felt that my clothes were a bit old-fashioned, and she watched me fall into a long silence.

"Let's go." After she finished speaking, she turned and walked out of the room.

I followed, and the siren made a voice in my mind, "She is very dangerous, I feel that she is probably planning something terrible."

"There's no need for 'probably', I know she wants to kill me. And it's not 'find a way to kill me', she already has a way. She didn't do anything to me right now, just because that probably isn't a direct and effective method." I understand very well that last night, she actually had a real intention to kill me, but it was not so clear at that time.

But now I clearly feel that she is completely determined to kill me.

(End of this chapter)