Siren Blade

Chapter 192
The desire to form social relationships may seem like a healthy desire, but social relationships come in all varieties.Even "slave master and slave" can be regarded as a social relationship, and it is relatively more in line with the impression given by a demon warlock.But people like Bite Blood subconsciously desire to be treated as human beings, to be embraced, and to have healthy social relationships.This may also have the influence of her mother and the tortuous experiences of her childhood.

At first, when Bite Xue found out that there was such a longing in her heart, she felt a great shame.

She, who was regarded as something extraneous by others since she was a child and received all kinds of abuse and ridicule, actually longed to be treated tenderly as a human being by others?It is simply unreasonable, how can such a thing be allowed.

In fact, she has been working in the opposite direction since her debut as a half-blood demon.She is always committed to persecuting and bewitching normal humans and warlocks to imitate the actions of demons, making them become "demons" like herself, which is also one of the manifestations of this psychology.

And another manifestation of this kind of psychology is what she does to herself.Since no one thinks of themselves as human beings, let's fear ourselves as something other than human.With this in mind, she casts a hallucination spell on herself that has negative mental effects on those around her.

Contrary to the charm of the succubus, the hallucination spell cast on herself by Bite Blood will make the witnesses feel that she looks like a human being, but she seems to be nothing like a human being at all. This is the so-called uncanny valley effect.In fact, when she first debuted in the first half of the twentieth century, the uncanny valley effect had not yet spread. At the beginning, she also used revenge motives to exert that kind of horror illusion on others, and then it was a coincidence. Then I found out that doing so is really effective.

In addition to revenge, the illusion that she always enveloped herself was also a protective color when she was walking in the hidden world when she was weak. It contained the intention to prevent other demon warlocks from underestimating her because of her youthful beauty.

Although she used her thirteen or fourteen-year-old face after rejuvenation, it is of course impossible for her to be a super main-level warlock at the age of thirteen or fourteen.Her real heyday was actually in her 20s—although a super-power-level warlock in her 20s is already outrageous enough, there are naturally all kinds of incredible adventures and tribulations, as well as adventures that ordinary people can't imagine, and she has used many There are many methods with major sequelae to enhance their combat power.Those practices set the stage for her rapid decline in power in later life, but that's another story.

The point is, now I also understand why I have sexual awareness about biting blood.

The hallucination spell she cast on herself has no intention of charming other people at all. When that spell falls on other people, it is a normal deterrent effect, but it is not the same thing when it falls on me.

Some illusion spells can distort the subject's perception of beauty and ugliness, making the subject think that ugly things are beautiful and beautiful things are ugly.But such spells have the premise of invisibility, that is, the person who uses the spell and the person who is tricked cannot deviate too much in terms of aesthetic concepts, otherwise they will become playing against each other.

No matter how human beings make gestures to the beasts, the beasts will not recognize humans as mating objects.Of course, if both of them are human beings, even if there are differences in aesthetic concepts due to cultural barriers, there must be overlaps on the instinctive level, so generally speaking, that kind of magic will not be immune to different aesthetic concepts.

Only in very rare special cases, that kind of spell will be immune, and it may even be not immune, but twisted into other effects by the stubborn aesthetic concept possessed by the subject.

For example, the succubus, when she exerted her charm on me, she wanted to force me to recognize her as a "perfect woman", but after all, I can't have sexual awareness for normal human beings, so no matter how she Emphasizing my own perfection as a woman doesn't help either.

Bite Blood is the exact opposite. She wants to force me to recognize her as "something that seems human but not human", so as to achieve the effect of deterrence.But instead of deterring me, it would charm me.

The aura that seems taboo and dread to others seems to me to be magical and beautiful, and even makes me unconsciously connect it with an image in my memory, making me feel that she somehow resembles "it".

Until the last moment, when she was pressed under my body, the reaction she showed was so human-like that even her hallucination spell couldn't hold back, and I woke up from the hallucination.

It’s no wonder that when I saw the black-and-white photos she left in the last century in the headquarters, I couldn’t feel the impression that she seemed human but not human in the photos.Because her hallucination spell can make people face to face feel taboo and fear, but it can't make people decades later feel the illusion she is trying to exert indirectly through photos, or even though she can already do it now. Arrived, but at that time she was not ready yet.

I used to rely on my intuition to realize whether the truth of this puzzle is actually very simple, but the truth is actually like this...

I supported my knees with complicated emotions, and wanted to stand up and walk, but just stood up, but I couldn't stand still for a while, and fell face down on the floor.

This is the sequelae of "burning soul mode".

Although it wasn't as serious as when Mirage used two ultimate moves in a short period of time, it was about to wipe out my previous 20 days of recuperation.Now my spirit body has returned to the state of being seriously injured, and there is pain all over my body, and I can't even summon the Siren Blade with my own strength.Previously, it was possible to give the final blow to Bite Blood by relying on the power provided by the siren burning spirit body fragments.

However, compared to using the "soul burning mode" before, the pain on my body is still much less, and I can continue to move my body to a certain extent.And this kind of injury can still be resolved by resting, so I'm not so impatient.

"Let's rest and rest." The siren said worriedly, "Also, within half a month, you can no longer use the 'burning soul mode', otherwise you will really kill yourself."

"I know." I slowly returned to the chair, rectified my emotions a little, and then continued to check the memory of biting blood.

Although Bite Blood felt disgusted and confused about her true desire, out of curiosity and other complicated thoughts, she also had a period of time to try a normal way of life.

But she failed and gave up.No one will treat her as a human being.It is not impossible to pretend to be a normal human being. It is easy for her to deceive others, but she hopes that her true self will be accepted.She hoped that the other party could still treat her as a human being on the basis of knowing everything about her, not as a half-blood demon.

How difficult is that kind of thing, people who really know her will not treat her as a human being.In the eyes of everyone who knows her, even the succubus who is absolutely loyal to her, she is not so much a "human with demonic blood" as a "humanized demon", and what she does is There are so ghost animals and insane.Even when she cooperated with fanatics last time, although she had interests, she also wanted to personally participate in the destruction of a city and the wailing and bloodshed of hundreds of thousands of people.

Even she knew that she couldn't be hugged.

So she kept her conflicted desires buried in her heart.

However, as mentioned earlier, this desire, like her desire to be shattered, is determined by her material basis, and it definitely does not mean that she can forget it just by forgetting it.

As the years passed and her age increased, even in her 90s, when she was about to die, her desire was still not extinguished, but inflated.

Even she herself didn't seem to be aware of this, but as a bystander, I could see that her desire was so strong in her subconscious, and even affected her nature.As a half-breed demon, she should be content with the destruction of her own life, but her human side wants to live, at least she doesn't want to die until she is treated as a human and hugged.

However, her wish is doomed to be fruitless.

She is destined to kill all those who can hug her with her own hands, and she smiles with joy in despair in the pool of blood.

Not only me who was looking at her memory, but even she herself couldn't tell whether her wish wanted to be hugged, or if she wanted to shatter it with her own hands after getting a hug.

I silently checked to the end, and saw why she coveted "it" in the past.However, that answer was the same as why she gave me the feeling of being human and not human, which made me think "is that just it?", and I didn't want to say anything more for a while.Then, like closing a book, I temporarily withdrew from her memory.

I thought, maybe...although it's just a possibility, Bite Blood may not have really died yet.

When she attacked me in the subway tunnel and in the theater, she placed the bat in all the places where I might appear in advance, so that she could shoot me in the first place.Since this was the case the first two times, the third time—that is, the last time—is no exception.When she was killed by me in the Ruins of Random Numbers, she also placed a small amount of bats outside.

In other words, I didn't eliminate all of her bats.

Moreover, even though I interrupted her "return journey" continuously, the bats she deployed outside were still able to gather somewhere outside in an instant through the "return journey", and then tried to reconstruct themselves.

However, the number of bats she differentiated is very small, in order not to affect the combat effectiveness of her body.

The reason why Bloodbite in the period of decay was able to heal the body that was killed by the Siren Blade after using the precognitive dream on me for the first time was because she discarded the bats corresponding to the body parts, so it can be seen that discarding some bats will not affect my body. her life.It's just that she can't flexibly use this kind of simulated elemental skills during the period of decay. Just abandoning a few bats will cause damage to her spirit, and she can't decompose and reconstruct herself as she likes; Ten percent of bats are still able to reconstruct themselves without harming their own spirit.

But the bats she left in the outside world didn't even have half of [-]%. Even she herself wasn't sure if she could reconstruct herself with such a few bats. She had never tested that kind of thing.And I, who can always sense whether she is in the same city as me, can't sense her existence now.

Is she really dead, or is she in a near-death situation that even I can't sense?I can't judge.

If she is still alive, then no matter where she goes to the ends of the earth, I will find her and kill her.

Feeling almost rested, I turned my attention to the next thing.

There are other things mentioned in Zhu An's text message to me.Before she left, she checked all over the mansion, and finally found several laboratories, which contained some seemingly important technical materials that were likely to be closely related to the missionaries' destruction plan.She didn't know if there was an anti-theft trap set up by the missionaries, and she didn't dare to touch it rashly with her strength.And when I was fighting Bloodbite, she confirmed my superiority from a distance, and thought that I would come back victorious, so she entrusted me with confirming the technical data.

What is intriguing is that she did not contact the Security Bureau to receive those dangerous technical materials. It seems that she also has a certain degree of doubts about the Security Bureau.

I recalled what the missionaries had said in Memories of the Red Gloves.In the ancient times that I don’t know how long ago, several super organizations like the Security Bureau carried out an earth-shattering genocide plan, and wiped out all the people who could not detect the hidden things, but in the end caused a large-scale riot among their own people. Awareness degradation phenomenon.They acted as if Homo sapiens wiped out all other species, including Neanderthals, in ancient times—or were they actually the same event?Impossible, humans at that time probably hadn't developed civilization yet.

In short, the Security Bureau is definitely not a benign organization, and I don't think I should hand over those dangerous technical materials without hesitation.But it's not good to just keep it in your own hands, so you might as well hand it over to Lie Que later, maybe he will know how to properly handle those technical materials.

I found those laboratories and saw those things in them. They did contain the destruction plan materials mentioned by Pearl Dark, but there were also some other items that might be more important——I found the fanatic part here Inheritance, fanatics' research materials in many academic fields are packed in well-labeled boxes.

One of the boxes labeled "True Powers" caught my attention.I cautiously opened it to check, the contents inside were pitifully small, and I don't know if it was because the missionary's research field had nothing to do with the power of the true spirit, so the fanatics didn't leave much of those things to each other.Most of them are things that I can't understand, but there are also parts that I can understand.

I picked up one of the tech sheets.

What is described above is a ritual spell that realizes the ability to foresee dreams through the power of the true spirit.

(End of this chapter)