meaning of aurora

Chapter 38 Generalized my son (seeking first order)

Broadly my son:

Seeing letters is like meeting.

It has been 14 years since your mother left us.

Over the years, the gap between us father and son has grown deeper and deeper.

Dad has always wanted to have a chat with you.

But I can't always find the right opportunity.

I'm sorry, my son.

Dad has caused you a lot of grievances because of his own selfish interests.

Dad shouldn't change your college entrance examination choice.

Over the years, my father regretted it unceasingly.

This is a father's mistake that can never be forgiven.

This is a fact.Dad didn't want to hide.There is no way to modify it.

Whenever I think of it, my father always asks himself.

If the facts are irrefutable, all explanations are meaningless?
So even if there is a chance to meet, Dad can't open his mouth.

that night.In Longqiao Village.

you say.

As long as Dad can give you a piece of evidence, you can take out two models of Wan'an Bridge, even if it is a new one, you will believe Dad.

It wasn't until that moment that Dad realized that what you really care about is not just volunteering.

Guangyi my son, Dad has no way to make another model of Wan'an Bridge.

In the year of your college entrance examination, Dad's hand was seriously injured, and it was impossible to do any fine carpentry.

That sounds more like an excuse, right?

What if Dad told you that Dad can take out two models of Wan'an Bridge?

Put together with this letter, there are two photos of the model of Wan'an Bridge.

The models in these two photos, in the eyes of the public, must be only a little newer and a little older.

But Dad believes that with my son's professional eyes, he will be able to see that the two models are slightly different in detail.

After reading the photos, I don’t know if you would still like to listen to Dad talk about the cause and effect of this incident.

In the year of your college entrance examination, the application of traditional wooden arch bridge construction skills into the most critical period.

There are many scholars who want to win this topic, but almost all of them belong to paper.

Dad also applied for a national project, focusing on Wan'an Bridge.

You probably already know the final result of this project.

Now it seems that this is the most direct reason why you can't forgive Dad.

You may not be able to understand Dad's feelings for Changqiao Village and Wan'an Bridge.

On the day my father was born, the Wan'an Bridge was destroyed by the flood.

Because of this incident, Dad was considered an ominous person and was given away at a very young age.

This matter is not a secret in Changqiao Village.

Ever since your father was adopted by the Nie family, your grandpa Qiu and grandma Qiu have always said so.

Although your mother only went to Changqiao Village once before you were born, she must have heard about it and will definitely tell you.

Dad wants to tell you that sometimes what we see and hear with our own eyes is not necessarily the truth, let alone the whole truth.

Your Grandpa Nie and Grandma Nie are a very powerful family with a small Western-style building in Shanghai.

Knowing that the Nie family was going to adopt a boy and take him to Shanghai, your uncle, second uncle, and fifth uncle all expressed their desire to go.

Your uncle thinks that he is the oldest, and after going to Shanghai, he can find a job within a few years and send money home. No one is more suitable than him.

At that time, your second uncle was only interested in studying, so he directly asked your grandpa and grandma whether they would send him to the best school after he went there.

Your fifth uncle was still young at that time, and his reason was the simplest, because the bag of candy brought by the Nie family was so delicious, he wanted to follow him there, so that he could have candy every day.

Your other two uncles have relatively no clear ideas. Although they are a little reluctant to leave home, they can't help expressing curiosity about Shanghai and a better life, and they want to go there more or less in their hearts.

You may not be able to understand why every child of Grandpa Qiu and Grandma Qiu wants to leave home, because they have no affection for this family.

This is the reason for that era. At that time, the family was really poor and the population was large. They were so poor that they often had to go hungry.

Everyone who wants to leave, the first thing in their hearts is to keep the remaining brothers from starving.

The real reason why your uncle wants to leave is because he feels that he eats the most.

Because your Grandpa Nie and Grandma Nie are older, they actually want to adopt your uncle or second uncle more.

But in the end, your Grandpa Qiu and Grandma Qiu decided to let the youngest father go to Shanghai.

They tell you that Grandpa Nie and Grandma Nie, no matter which child they adopt, as long as they remember things, they may come back by themselves.

Only children like my father, who were said to be ominous by the villagers at birth, would never be able to come back if they were sent out.

In this way, this child will only recognize the parents of Grandpa Nie and Grandma Nie for the rest of his life.

When things got to this point, your uncle told Grandpa Nie and Grandma Nie that Dad is the smartest in the whole family, and if he goes to Shanghai, he will definitely have a great future.

He also said that he had already made up his mind, even if he went to Shanghai, he would definitely not change his name to Grandpa Nie and Grandma Nie's parents.

Your other uncles also showed their own stubbornness in the same way.

In this way, Dad became the child who was adopted to Shanghai.

I went to the best school, lived in the best environment, got my PhD all the way, and then stayed on to teach.

Dad doesn't know how you'll make sense of this.

But Dad is grateful for everyone.

The first thing to bear the brunt of course is to be filial to your Grandpa Nie and Grandma Nie.

They gave Dad the best of everything.

But not long after their father got married, they passed away one after another before they had time to see you born.

Dad didn't know the truth about being "abandoned" from your uncle until that time.

Dad just thought, to be filial to your Grandpa Qiu and Grandma Qiu, and to take care of your uncles' children as best I can.

Back then, your five uncles gave Dad the best opportunity to receive education.

Dads want to give their kids something in return.

In the first few years, my father's abilities were limited, and some of the money was left by your grandpa and grandma Nie.

In this matter, there is a big difference between father and mother.

Such differences can be regarded as accompanying you in your childhood life.

Dad knew that what Dad did was somewhat inappropriate.

But, I'm sorry, Dad has never regretted this matter.

Your grandfather Qiu dedicated his whole life to the traditional construction skills of wooden arch bridges.

As he got older, he began to need someone to pass on the mantle of wooden arch bridge building skills.

At that time, you started to go to Changqiao Village for winter and summer vacation.

You quickly showed aptitude for the craft.

Many people in Changqiao Village said that you are a natural carpenter, and you should inherit the construction of wooden arch bridges in the future.

Your mother had a big reaction to this incident, thinking that the villagers were being kidnapped morally.

Since then, whenever I talk about Changqiao Village, I get excited.

Can you believe it?On this matter, your father and your mother are of the same mind.

My son I understand.

My son was not a natural carpenter.

He can become a pianist by learning the piano.

He can become a mathematician by studying mathematics.

There are many possibilities in his life.

He wasn't just a kid with a talent for carpentry.

At that time, there was no such thing as world heritage application and ancient building protection.

Unless there is no choice, no one would want their children to learn a traditional skill that is facing loss.

Not to mention hard work, there is no future.

And you, my son who has been excellent since he was a child, obviously does not belong to the situation of no choice.

If someone had to inherit Grandpa Qiu's mantle, that person should be Dad.

Since then, Dad has adjusted all research directions to the traditional construction techniques of wooden arch bridges.

Dad is different from you.

Although Dad has many choices, Dad has special feelings for Wan'an Bridge.

Even if there is no future, Dad still wants to try hard to see if he can create a different path for the traditional construction skills of wooden arch bridges.

Year after year, from learning the skill to applying for the World Heritage, everything went smoothly.

Although Dad is not as smart and talented as you.

However, as long as Dad puts all his energy into it and only does this one thing, he can definitely do well.

In the photo, the model of Wan'an Bridge, which looks relatively new, was completed before your college entrance examination.

It was a nearly perfect model, no worse than the one my gifted son made after his exams.

What Dad said is true. If you don’t believe me, you can enlarge the photo and compare it yourself.

Dad is happy about it.

After more than ten years of hard work, Dad has turned himself into a master of wooden arch bridge construction skills, and he can completely inherit your grandfather Qiu's mantle.

With such a foundation, if I apply for projects, guide students, and apply for World Heritage, I will definitely be able to pass on this skill.

You don't know how happy and proud Dad was at that time.

As long as I try hard enough, my son will not be judged.

He can do what he wants to do, go where he wants to go, and study the major he wants to study.

My son Guangyi, please trust Dad. Dad never thought of including you in the system of gratitude to the Qiu family.

You are you, dad is dad.

You should have a wanton life, which is also the meaning of all my father's efforts.

The time has come to the stage when you have to apply for volunteers at the end of the college entrance examination.

When you came back from Changqiao Village, I watched you report to Tsinghua University.

After that, you said that you wanted to visit Dad's studio.

Dad gives you the keys, and your mom drives you there.

You're outside the studio, signing for a bunch of packages.

Each one is packed very tightly and protected by a wooden shelf.

Your mother asked what you were, but you didn't tell her.

You didn't go home after going to the studio, and went on a graduation trip with your classmates.

Probably out of concern, your mother went back to the studio that night.

She never knew about your model of the wooden arch bridge in Changqiao Village...

I'm sorry, my son, Dad didn't want to tell you about this. After so many years, please allow Dad to be selfish again.

Your mother couldn't accept that you often went to Changqiao Village.It is even more unacceptable that you spend your time making models of wooden arch bridges.

She set a fire in Dad's studio and burned all the models.

When Dad arrived, everything in the studio had been burnt beyond recognition.

Only the model of Wan'an Bridge, because it was placed in a glass cabinet, was only slightly blackened by smoke.

You might think that model was a birthday present for Dad and deserved special treatment.

Coincidentally, that glass cabinet was originally custom-made to hold the model of Wan'an Bridge made by Dad himself.

When Dad rushed in to rescue the model, he was injured by the falling glass handle and was sent to the hospital.

Dad was lucky at the time that the model was only blackened and not burned.

In order to avoid further accidents, Dad asked the students to submit the models and projects overnight.

Because the model was smoked and my father was injured, he didn't look at it carefully, so he thought the model was made by himself.

Until my father’s student came back after delivering the model, he told me with lingering fear that fortunately I made a backup of the model in advance, otherwise it would be too late to submit and get the project.

At that moment, Dad got three messages at the same time.

First, my hands are useless.

Second, the model that I made with my own hands was destroyed when the students rescued it.

Third, the professors from Tsinghua University were also applying for the same project, but they were finally finalized because they failed to submit the model.

All the information mixed together, at that moment, destroyed my father's efforts and all his beliefs in the past ten years.

That day is the deadline for your college entrance examination volunteer application.

You, who filled out the volunteer application early, are still happily traveling outside with your classmates.

Dad didn't know what was going through his mind at the time.

The only idea that gradually became clear was not that his hand was useless, but an academic flaw.

I submitted my son's model. If my son goes to Tsinghua University and becomes a student of another professor who applied for the project, will I be committing academic fraud?

Then will I be unable to hold my head up for the rest of my life?

So am I still encroaching on my son's academic achievements?
Driven by this strong idea, Dad shook his useless hand and changed your wish.

Only when you are added to Dad's subject, and only when you become Dad's student, will it not be regarded as encroaching on your achievements, and will not leave academic flaws.

Dad was kicked in the head by a donkey.

Dad knew that an apology would never solve anything in a life event like this.

So Dad never apologized to you.

It's not that I don't want to, it's that I don't dare.

can you trust papa
Dad really didn't mean to make your model old and pass it off as his own.

Can you understand Dad's timidity?

After more than ten years of hard work, only one thing was accomplished, and it turned out to be a flaw in the end.

I'm sorry, Big Head, it was Dad who was wrong.

From your point of view, Dad is indeed a person who can do anything for his own subject.

Dad never dared to expect your forgiveness.

That day, you said that as long as Dad can give you a piece of evidence, as long as you can produce two models of Wan'an Bridge, you will believe Dad.

Dad didn't dare to ask you, so he wrote this letter with a pen.

My son in a broad sense, only the evidence left in the photos, can it be counted?
(End of this chapter)