Chang'an is good

Can you forgive me?

Chang Suining looked down at the woman who was full of pleading and hoping for a sliver of redemption.

She believes that Yuzhu at this time is sincere, guilty, and even a little pitiful.

But, she shook her head—

"No."

Her voice was very soft, but it made Yuxuan's hand holding the hem of her clothes subconsciously stop shaking and pleading.

"I can die, everyone is mortal, but the world is unfair, the sword should be in my own hands, it is absolutely not up to you to decide how I die."

Amidst the sound of rain, there was still no ripple in that voice.

"Anyone who tries to interfere with my life and death, no matter what the reason is, there is no possibility of forgiveness for me."

Yuxie's expression trembled, and for a moment his face was ashen, as if he had received the most peaceful yet most terrifying sentence in his life.

She didn't know whether it was His Highness who pulled back the corner of his clothes, or she couldn't grasp it anymore.

Her hand slid down to her side.

Chang Suining crossed the threshold.

She is just an ordinary person who cherishes her life. If she can forgive someone who wants to kill her, then she really does not deserve this chance to live again.

How to use her life, only she can decide.

Even though there were many helplessness in the previous life, in the final analysis, all choices and decisions were her original intention, and it was herself who drew the sword towards her in the end.

She was unwilling to die like that, but she did not regret it.

She repaid the man's gift of childbearing, and at the same time fulfilled the true voice in her heart-she has never regretted sacrificing for the land under her feet.

She endured the humiliation and kissed Beidi when the country was most turbulent, in exchange for Dasheng's three-year recuperation opportunity, and then had the strength to fight, and thus gained the peace of the northern border for more than ten years. She exchanged her life for these, yes It is cost-effective and worth it.

And if he was really poisoned to death by the tea made by Yuxie in the first place, and died in such a useless way, then he would really want to linger and not rest in peace, and he would have to climb out of the coffin and stab people with a knife in the incarnation of a ghost.

"Yes... How dare I open my mouth to ask His Highness for forgiveness." Yuxie sat slumped in the same place, with a very sad smile on her face full of tears: "I should have died a long time ago to apologize, instead of living so far... ..."

She really regretted it.

As early as when she saw the people His Highness arranged to rescue them, she had already regretted to the point of despair.

Everyone wants to survive, but it depends on what to exchange for. If the thing that is exchanged for vitality is too large and heavy, this insignificant life will be meaningless, and it will become an irresolvable sin.

She's not dead yet because she's crazy.

But everything at this moment, although temporary, is extremely clear.

She shouldn't have asked His Highness if that sentence could forgive her. Asking that sentence is also a kind of criminal karma.

"My maidservant shouldn't ask His Highness for forgiveness anymore... To see His Highness again today, and to be able to tell all this, is already a kind of gift and relief for this maidservant."

"Wait for the servant girl to wash away all her sins before going to serve His Highness..."

She closed her eyes, immediately sat up, and rushed to the piano table, trying to bump her head.

"Oh!"

Chang Suining kicked up one of the wooden sticks piled up next to the door of the wooden house for chopping firewood and making a fire. The stick flew towards the jade chip with the sound of the wind, and hit her in the crook of her hind leg.

Yuchai fell to the ground, her voice was startled: "Why does Your Highness want to save me..."

"This matter is over, you may still be useful, let's live like this first."

Chang Sui Ning Yuluo, picked up the umbrella at his feet, propped it up, and walked into the rain.

In the pitch-black wooden house, Yuxi lay prostrate on the ground, weeping uncontrollably.

And as the pot of incense in the corner of the wooden house gradually burned out, she also slowly lost consciousness and fell there.

This incense is medicine, after inhalation, people will gradually fall into a coma and will forget some things after waking up, even if the memory is scattered and unclear-the medicine was given by Shen Sanmao, and it is said that it was also one of his cheating methods in the past.

But because the medicine is hard to find and expensive in the West Market, he is only willing to use it to do some big business with stable profits... such as entertaining big and rich guests like Sui Anna and others who are stupid and rich.

Chang Suining had taken something that could detoxify the fragrance in advance, and was protected by a veil. At this time, he walked into the rain and was blown by the wind, and the feeling of drowsiness disappeared.

She was holding an umbrella, but she didn't walk out of the bamboo forest, but sat down in a gazebo in the forest.

"It's Yu Zeng!"

Yuxie's answer seemed to be still in his ears.

Chang Suining held the folded wet umbrella in his hand.

Goodbye Ah Zeng, she has become Chang Suining, and Ah Zeng has also become Yu Changshi, who is in charge of Si Gongtai. Although she was a little surprised by this, she never felt that there was something wrong with it. On the contrary, she did it for Ah Zeng. more happy.

The old man was safe and glorious in the past, she can rest in peace as a ghost, and she is happy to see her as a human being.

As for Ah Zeng doing things for the Empress of Ming Dynasty, she also felt that there was nothing wrong with him. As an eunuch, Ah Zeng had limited prospects, and facing the new emperor's promotion and reuse, he had no room or need to refuse.

Although she was a bit arrogant at times, she was not selfish enough to think that the former subordinates should stand still for her as a dead person, like a widow and buried, decayed and miserable, and unrealistic.

Besides, Ah Zeng and the others are not aware of the estrangement between her and the Empress Ming, and the matter between mother and daughter is not humane for others. In their eyes, it is the empress she once protected——

Therefore, Ah Zeng now has a new owner, so there is nothing wrong with it.

However, if the poisoning of jade chips really passed through his hands, if he had already had a new owner at that time and betrayed her, then it would be unforgivable.

Chang Suining looked at the raindrops falling like threads outside the pavilion.

Back then, the act of jade chips was for survival, so what was Ah Zeng doing for it?
If it is true that another new owner is voted for, who is the new owner?

Or, is it true that the one he is loyal to now is Empress Ming?
And all of this is worth investigating on the premise that what happened back then was indeed what he did——

That letter may not necessarily be without strangeness.

The other party wants to talk to Yuzhe, but they should also consider the mistakes that will occur in human nature. Yuzhe is not a born traitor, and he will betray her because of a mistake, or he may choose to present the letter to her in a moment. In front of him, if this is the case, the other party's intention and identity will be completely exposed——

Even if the possibility of the latter is smaller, wouldn't the attacker really think of this possibility?

She is not someone who trusts the old department blindly, but she cannot lose her mind by falling into the anger and embarrassment of being betrayed.

Nowadays, the clues are limited, only the words of Yu Xie alone, if you want to prove it, you need more evidence.

And before that, she had inquired secretly that those officials who went to Beidi with her back then, whether it was Wu Xi, the eunuch in charge, or others, were no longer alive.

Yuzhu is the only one who is still alive.

But right now, she obviously didn't have the conditions to question Yu Zeng face to face. If she was not careful, she might die a second time soon.

For the time being, we can only gradually figure out the truth.

If she wants to have the power to resist all of this head-on, she is indeed still far away.

Chang Sui Ning got up with an umbrella.

But she will do it.

As Cui Jing said, she can't afford Zhanxiu yet, but she can try to get something else first.

This process is the only way to accumulate strength.

This time, she will always remind herself to walk more steadily.

The girl raised her hand and took off her veil, her white clothes were covered with rain and mist, and she walked out of the bamboo forest alone with an umbrella.

……

The next day, Chang Suining confessed to Chang Ren that he sent an available person to come to Zhuangzi to supervise the farm affairs for her on the surface, and take care of Yuxie in secret.

Often the blade should be lowered.

……

In the afternoon, Chang Suining returned to Xingning Fang.

The next day was fine, so I went to the Imperial College.

This time is different from the previous return to the Imperial College, with the ferment of the matter of going to Tailou, now almost all the students in the school do not know Chang Sui Ning.

But because Chang Suining only studied and fished at Qiao Jijiu's residence, the students didn't have much chance to meet the rumored Mrs. Chang.

Recently, Qiao Yubai discovered that more and more classmates came to visit him. Some of them came here yesterday, and they came again today. Let’s say they were visiting him. The first sentence of the ten sentences asked about his injuries. The whole sentence is asking him about Ningning.

A few of the thick-skinned ones even came here for ten days in a row, and every time they sat for a long time, they almost got the words "I'm also sitting today waiting to meet Mrs. Chang" on their faces.

On the 11th, Qiao Yubai returned to the library to continue his studies.

Many students gathered around - "Hey, Yubai, why did you come back so soon, why don't you rest for a while?"

"..." Qiao Yubai always felt that it would be more appropriate to replace the "eh" sound with "ah".

After returning to the academy, the number of people surrounding him every day continued unabated.

Qiao Yubai didn't resist this, and even enjoyed it.

After all, it was his sister, and no one else could have imagined such a blessing.

Who would think that his sister is too good?
Cui Lang is also inquiring about things related to Chang Suining recently, but what he is focusing on is Chang Suining's preferences - although he already has a standard answer in his mind, he doesn't care about Mrs. Chang's liking for beating people. It's so good to do what you like.

After inquiring about some unusable news with Qiao Yubai, he returned home on a vacation, and heard that his elder brother had just come back to visit his grandfather. , borrow the courage to use the mysterious spell ", and ran to find his elder brother.

The big yellow dog with its head messed up stood where it was, staring blankly at the boy in pink who was walking away quickly.

When Cui Lang came outside his grandfather's study, he saw his elder brother standing in the porch talking to his younger sister Cui Tang.

Cui Lang was taken aback for a moment, but he also relaxed a little bit, leaned forward and bowed to his elder brother in a serious manner, in order to ease the tension, he had nothing to say: "A Tang, why are you here?"

"Mother asked for a peace talisman in the temple yesterday, and I specially sent it to my elder brother."

"??" Cui Lang felt dissatisfied and hesitated to speak.

Normally, he would be the one to do the adventures, but when it came time to give gifts, it was Ah Tang!
Openly eating alone, right?
Even if you take him with you!

Thinking of the days when he worked as a cow for A Niang, Cui Lang felt aggrieved for himself - A Niang knows that a son's life is also a life.

"Eldest brother, just take it..." Cui Tang handed over the safety talisman, and there was a tension rarely seen in his voice.

As long as she and Cui Lang could remember, they had rarely seen their elder brother, and after the elder brother joined the army, it was even more difficult to meet each other, not to mention the word "friendship".

The eldest brother is cold-tempered, and there is a serious gap between him and his father. In the words of the mother, the father alone caused the trouble, and the three mothers also suffered. It is really a crime.

And after the surprise discovery that the second brother was drunk and hugged the elder brother's thigh in public in the Dengtai building, and it was said that the elder brother didn't kick the second brother away, the mother became more courageous, and that's why she had the audacity to present the peace talisman today move.

But it's hard to say whether the eldest brother will accept it or not.

Knowing the source of confidence behind his mother's act of daring to give the peace talisman, Cui Lang became more and more angry. This is half of the country he laid down for A Niang, but A Niang crossed the river and demolished the bridge.

But... Will the eldest brother pick it up?

Cui Lang quietly paid attention to the hand of his elder brother hanging by his side.

The eldest brother's hands are big and beautiful, not fair and weak compared to the writing hands of many Cui's children, but more and more reliable.

After a while, the big hand reached out, and under the dappled afternoon sun, it took the safety talisman.

"Thank you." Cui Jing said.

Both Cui Tang and Cui Lang were overjoyed, although they tried their best to suppress it, joy still overflowed from the corners of their eyes and mouths.

Cui Lang looked up to the sky and shed tears of relief from the bottom of his heart, the half of the country he risked his life for was indeed solid!

Because Cui Jing accepted the safety talisman, the atmosphere around him became much more relaxed.

Cui Lang also had the courage to ask: "... Eldest brother is more familiar with Mrs. Chang, do you know what Mrs. Chang likes?"

Cui Jing looked at him, and asked without answering: "Why do you want to inquire about her preferences as a girl?"

Cui Lang was inexplicably disturbed when he heard this, and his voice became softer: "Brother Hui, I want to take Madam Chang as my teacher and learn how to play polo from Madam Chang."

After all, it shouldn't be an unforgivable idea to raise your eyelids and look at your elder brother secretly, right?
Cui Jing said "oh".

Cui Lang cautiously asked, "Brother, do you think it's wrong?"

Cui Jing: "Not at all."

Cui Lang smiled: "Then..."

Cui Jing looked at him: "You asked about her hobbies, is it to prepare for the apprenticeship ceremony?"

Cui Lang nodded like pounding garlic.

Cui Jing thought about it, and wanted to say "she likes to eat chestnuts", but when it came to her mouth, she didn't say it for some reason. It felt a bit like she didn't want to share some secrets with others, but... what is it that she likes to eat chestnuts A secret worth keeping?
This felt a bit inexplicable, and Cui Jing quickly classified it as "it's not appropriate to talk about the girl's personal preferences with the younger brother at home"——

He then took a serious look, and finally said: "If you want to learn from the Chang family, it's better to follow the usual practice."

practice?

"What is the custom that elder brother said?"

On the way back, Cui Lang asked Cui Tang.

As for why he didn't ask the elder brother directly in front of him just now - the elder brother has told him the answer, if he still doesn't understand, doesn't it seem that he is not very clever?

"It should be the practice of the eldest brother when he wanted to pay homage to General Chang." Cui Tang said.

Cui Lang's scalp felt cold when he heard it.

The elder brother's method of apprenticeship in the past was to send him to the door and have someone beat him up!
He doesn't have the courage to sacrifice half his life as a teacher apprentice ceremony!
Cui Lang shook his head again and again, and said with a dry smile: "Thinking about it carefully, I actually don't want to learn that much..."

"No, brother wants to learn." Cui Tang looked at his second brother slightly with a smile: "I guess mother will agree with brother."

The mother wanted to take them to join her elder brother's great cause, and one of them was a plan called a shortcut, which was to get as close as possible to Chang Niangzi and make friends with Chang Niangzi.

Sure enough, when Mrs. Lu learned about this, she persuaded her son forcefully.

The next day, before going out, Cui Lang borrowed courage from his own dog, and when he returned to the Imperial College, he went to find Chang Suining, and mustered up the courage to explain his desire to be a teacher.

It's just that Chang's wife's reaction was beyond his expectation.

Cui Lang: The life of the son is also the life

I wish you all a happy March [-]th. May you all be free, independent, happy, at ease, and fulfilled~