Chang'an is good

The Holy Cemeter Emperor's voice was not loud, but it was filled with deep persistence, as if this question had been lingering in her mind for too long. She had asked it in her mind countless times and was determined to hear an answer.

Li Suining paused and reminded, "Your Majesty, my mother is the Ninth Lady of the Zhong Family. This matter has been settled at the Ceremony of Returning to the Clan."

"Yes... I know." The Holy Ce Emperor was afraid that she would leave, so he looked at her back and said in a concession: "But you must have heard of Ah Shang's story... If you were her, would you hate me?"

Li Suining did not move for a moment, as if he was thinking about whether to answer "on behalf of" Li Shang.

The Holy Ce Emperor's voice was hoarse with difficulty and guilt: "The reason why she married Beidi was because of my request..."

"No." Li Suining corrected calmly: "She wanted to rest and recuperate in Dasheng."

Emperor of the Holy Ceremonies: "If she really believes this, why doesn't she want to recognize me?"

Li Suining stood still for a moment, and finally spoke.

Then let's make it clear, bring it to a conclusion, and finally give each other an explanation.

"Her original intention was indeed to make the country prosperous. At that time, she thought about it and it seemed that there was no better way."

Li Suining's voice was very soft, and it really was like she was talking about someone else's story: "But many people advised her not to agree. Her teacher said something at the time - if there is no better way, then choose a less good way and use it as a temporary measure. Then we can work together to find a solution. Why must everything in the world be accomplished by one person?"

"She refuted the teacher, but late at night she couldn't help but fantasize that maybe they could really come up with another solution together. After all, in addition to the teacher and subordinates, she also had a powerful mother -"

"She thought that if her mother also did not allow her to marry, she would discuss a 'not so good solution' with her mother, so she waited for her mother to come find her."

The Holy Cemetery Emperor was somewhat stunned. At this point, she was a little hesitant to listen to the next sentence, but that sentence still reached her ears clearly:

"Her mother really came to look for her, and just as Your Majesty did just now, she addressed her as A-niang—" Li Suining's voice remained calm: "That A-niang was not as tough as before, but seemed to have really become an ordinary A-niang, showing a fragile and ashamed look she had never had before, and asked for her to go to marry."

"At that time, she suddenly had a very strange feeling. If someone else asked her this, she would not be touched at all. But she inexplicably felt that such words should not come from a mother’s mouth——"

"People always have too high expectations of mothers, and she suddenly felt that she shouldn't be so selfish and harsh."

"But she suddenly thought, over the years, she never seemed to have made any demands on her mother. On the contrary, she had always been meeting all of her mother's expectations. Was it really too much for her to expect this just once?"

Li Suining: "So at that moment, she suddenly felt a little aggrieved."

"Fortunately, the grievance was only for a moment, and she soon figured out one thing -" Li Suining: "Her mother was originally a careless person."

The reason for being wronged is to ask for attention and love, but these heartless people cannot give it to you.

At that moment, she suddenly felt relieved about the "favor" that Ah Xiao had received in his childhood. She just felt that Ah Xiao was also very pitiful.

The Holy Ce Emperor stiffened and said subconsciously: "I was wrong... I promised you that I would take you back in three years. I planned to make it up to you, but who knew..."

"——Who knows?" Li Suining tilted his head slightly and repeated these two words: "This trip to Beidi is a life-threatening journey. How could Your Majesty not know?"

"Your Majesty, are you willing to think this way to comfort her or to make yourself feel better?" "If your Majesty is wrong, then yes, it is." Li Suining: "But it is not because I failed to be a so-called good mother, but because I never saw one thing clearly - whether it is the heart of children or the heart of the people, these things collectively called human hearts are all like fine sand. If you only want to control them firmly in your hands, they will all slip away."

"With your majesty's intelligence, you would have thought that Li Shang would be willing to marry the Northern Di people, but during the days when Li Shang was waiting for her mother to express her opinion, your majesty became afraid."

"Your Majesty is afraid that Li Shang might waver. Even if there is only a slight possibility, Your Majesty will never allow such a mistake to happen, so as not to affect your plan. So Your Majesty would rather ask her as A'niang."

"She noticed it, so she agreed." Li Suining: "This is the best solution, and it can also repay her gratitude. There is no reason for her not to agree."

"But now that both are clear, the saint doesn't need to insist on it anymore."

"Saints are born with a lack of love and trust. Forcing love is not necessarily a good thing. You will be exhausted and your children will be suffocated." Li Suining: "It's good to have no debt to each other."

"People cannot choose their parents when they are born. The only thing in the world that is most overbearing and unreasonable is kinship. Even if they are not suitable to be mother and daughter, it cannot be changed - fortunately, Li Shang is very lucky."

"Your Majesty asked her if she hated——"

"She doesn't hate it, she feels very relaxed."

After Li Suining finished speaking, he raised his hand, opened the bead curtain, and left.

The Holy Ce Emperor stood there in a daze. After a moment, her gaze moved to the window frame. She saw the eunuchs and maids bowing and seeing her off. The figure was as open and light as the wind and disappeared from her sight.

At this moment, a hollow fear suddenly arose in the heart of the Holy Cemeter Emperor.

Ah Shang did not accuse, question, or complain, nor did he mention a word about what happened in Beidi...

Those words were spoken calmly, but they made her realize very clearly that she had really lost Ah Shang.

This kind of loss is far more complete than the separation between life and death.

Her daughter came back, but also left completely.

The impact of this feeling of being out of control was even greater than the moment she fainted and fell to the ground when the Bian army broke through the capital.

The empress seemed to have been drained of all her strength. She clenched the dragon staff in both hands and slowly sat back.

When the maid walked in, she saw the emperor tightly grasping the dragon staff. His usually straight back suddenly bent, as if he had aged a lot in an instant. She was slightly startled, but did not dare to step forward rashly. She could only wait anxiously by the side.

There was no chill in the evening breeze, and it felt like being brushed by soft and clean feathers when it blew on my cheeks.

Li Suining was enjoying the wind without looking back.

Halfway through the journey, a female soldier came up to her and said, "The Grand Tutor has told me to pass on a message that when you are done, you can go directly to the Grand Tutor for dinner."

"Okay." Li Suining smiled and walked forward: "Let's go and see what delicious food the teacher has prepared." (End of this chapter)