run away!Crazy Apprentice Chase Teacher Crematorium

Chapter 182
Things are at an impasse.

Xu Dongqing knew that Da Ziyan was stubborn before, but he still didn't expect him to be so stubborn.

On the matter of not allowing her to die, Da Ziyan showed an unexpected persistence.

But... no matter how hard he struggled, he couldn't escape the control of fate.

Although he had been prepared for a long time, even for a long time, when death really came, Xu Dongqing still felt a little caught off guard.

This day, she had just finished teasing Da Ziyan that he was wasting his efforts, she might fall asleep one day and then he would be gone, and then she would turn around and feel sleepy, which would be a long sleep.

She didn't know how long she slept, but she felt that she had no strength in her whole body, and it was difficult to even move her fingers. Her head was groggy but she still had a little consciousness, so she felt very sleepy and wanted to sleep. .

The heavy, clumsy and immobile body was like a heavy cage or shackles, tightly trapping her. At this moment, she had a feeling that a voice in her heart said that as long as she fell asleep, the shackles would not be able to trap her. Hold her, and she will be free.

When she was dying, she felt as if she was being hugged tightly by someone whose heartbeat was fast and heavy, and her breathing was also very heavy.

In her whole world, only the heartbeat and breathing of that person remained.

"Master, Master..." Drowsy, she seemed to hear Da Ziyan calling her, but she was not sure that it was Da Ziyan, although the voice was indeed his, but the flustered, nervous and sad The tone of voice is not like what Da Ziyan would say.

Da Ziyan hated her so much, how could he still panic because of her, he should learn to grow up too.

Must be hallucinations, yes, hallucinations.Thinking of this, Xu Dongqing was inexplicably relieved, but suddenly felt a little sad.

In fact, she still wants to say a few words to Da Ziyan, look at him carefully, and say goodbye seriously, knowing that the breathing and heartbeat must belong to Da Ziyan, Da Ziyan is hugging her now, as long as she opens her eyes, she can see again That face, but I just couldn't open my eyes.

The eyelids were so heavy, like a huge and indestructible iron gate, between her and Da Ziyan, no matter how hard she tried, she couldn't open it.

If she had known that going to bed this time would be a farewell, she would definitely not have said this joke. After all, Da Ziyan would be so sad if she made it a prophecy.

Xu Dongqing sighed from the bottom of her heart. She sighed a lot during this time, almost as much as the first half of her life.

But this time should be the last time, because she can clearly feel that her body is getting heavier and heavier, and her consciousness is being stripped away from it, as if she is taking off a heavy shell, the process is slow and slow. And irreversible.

It turns out that this is what death feels like, neither scary nor painful, but one cannot be prepared for it.

Xu Dongqing wasn't afraid, but it was a pity that he hadn't had time to say goodbye.

Forget it, the world is impermanent, and there are always many regrets. It is good luck to die in Da Ziyan's arms. We have been together day and night for so long.

That's right, one should be content, Xu Dongqing thought of this, and finally stopped trying to compete with herself and opened her eyes. She listened to the heavy breathing and heartbeat, and gave up struggling contentedly, quietly waiting for sleepiness. Sweeping and coming, I feel that the body's life reaction is getting smaller and smaller.

Finally, a piece of pure darkness enveloped her, the sound of heartbeat, breathing, the sound of wind outside the window, and the sound of snow could no longer be heard. This black curtain cut off her last connection with this world.

Gradually sinking into darkness, the last picture of her life appeared in her mind.

In the exquisite small courtyard, behind Da Ziyan was a large expanse of beautiful sunset glow, but his eyes were brighter than the sun, he looked at her with eyes full of love, and called her softly: "Master."

At the last moment of his life, what Xu Dongqing saw was such a scene.

why?
Xu Dongqing himself didn't understand either.

She just looked at Da Ziyan, at him, and at herself in his eyes.

The sunset spread from behind Da Ziyan, and he turned into a black silhouette, only those obsidian-like eyeballs reflected her figure so clearly.

As if looking in a mirror, Xu Dongqing saw a drop of tear in his eyes.

Tears flowed through her eyes, and she felt the scorching pain in her heart again.

"Da Ziyan." She finally said to him, "I never betrayed you."

This sentence, after all, blurted out.

The regret in her heart was finally expressed to this imaginary silhouette in this way at the moment of the end of her life, in the illusion of her own imagination.

In a daze, Xu Dongqing understood why he had never told Da Ziyan the truth.

She lied all over the place, deceived everyone, and also deceived herself.

But in fact, the most real reason was nothing else, but just... she was afraid.

She is a selfish Xu Dongqing, she is afraid that if Da Ziyan is still unwilling to forgive her when she tells the truth, what should she do?
She was even more afraid. Everything she did was a mistake from the beginning.

She was afraid that the choice she made for Da Ziyan was wrong.

In the name of being good for him, she forced him to make the same choice after another, but in fact, she never asked Da Ziyan if he wanted it or not.

She was afraid that Da Ziyan would say that it was because of her that he became like this.

So she didn't say it, she didn't want to say it, she didn't dare to say it.

... Until now, at the last moment of her life, she heard herself say——I never betrayed you.

But... I only dare to say it in my heart, the real Da Ziyan will never be known, nor will I be able to hear it...

But everything doesn't matter anymore, it doesn't matter whether you say it or not.

When people die, the lights go out, and when she dies, she will disappear with these pasts.

Da Ziyan is very good, it's because she doesn't deserve Da Ziyan's feelings, it's very profitable to be with him for so long in this life, but in the next life, let's not see each other again.

Xu Dongqing watched as the sun behind Da Ziyan became more and more scorching, until the surrounding area became pale, and Da Ziyan's silhouette also disappeared.

She looked up at the blank sky and closed her eyes.

She has struggled for so long, and at this moment, she is finally... quiet.

Xu Dongqing is dead.

It was a matter of course, but when Da Ziyan looked at Xu Dongqing, he finally closed his eyes, closed his lips, and then... stopped breathing.

He suddenly felt a heart-piercing pain, like an extremely cold and extremely hot iron pestle, pierced from the depths of his abdomen, smashed his internal organs, and finally stopped at his heart place.

"thump."

His heart seemed to be pinched severely, and the pain made him almost unable to breathe.

"thump."

He heard his heart beating, beating so slowly and so thrillingly.

In a trance, he felt as if he had died too.

He tried his best and tried his best, but in the end he couldn't keep her.

He finally lost her.

(End of this chapter)