rose believer

Chapter 53 Rose - Farewell
The roommate came back from the cafeteria and brought porridge and a few side dishes. The plastic bag on the outer cover of the disposable lunch box was fumigated by the heat to form dense drops of water. The roommate put the bag on the table and kept rubbing his hands:
"It's so cold, it's so cold, why is it like the twelfth lunar month in winter, how many months is it?"

No one responded.

"Ren Yu, has your fever gone? I brought you porridge."

Still no response.

The roommate gasped, took a few steps back, and stretched his neck to look at Ren Yu's bed.

where else?There are traces of being covered by the quilt, the things on the table, the books, the backpack, nothing has been moved, even the computer is still in standby mode, and its owner didn’t even spare time to turn it off, the standby button is glowing blue Ying light.

Another roommate just came back from the laundry room with the plastic tub in hand.

"What about Ren Yu?"

"Aren't you there? I don't know, I was there just now."

"Where did he go? Didn't he have a fever? He still went out with a fever?"

The class of the medical school is really tight, and the students will spontaneously organize self-study in the morning and evening. The rhythm is tight and the level of hardship is even worse than that of the third year of high school. Under such high pressure, Ren Yu, who has always been diligent, invited half One month off, this became the talk of the roommates.

"What do you mean moved? She dropped out of school? Or what?"

Jiang Limei's mother passed away, and she lost a family member, but it doesn't matter, he can be her family member.

Jiang Limei's voice was clear and clear, she was a different person from half a month ago.

The phone number that had contacted him later became empty. No one knew how many contact methods Jiang Limei had changed. In short, all the old friends in Ancheng lost contact with her.

"No, she has gone through the check-out procedures. It is said that she is going out to rent a house to live in. There are many rental houses near our school." Most of them are shared with her boyfriend.The roommate didn't say this sentence, she guessed that the person in front of her might be Jiang Limei's boyfriend.

Mother Ren was silent for a while, and said in a deep tone, "Xiao Xun, you should do your work first, the future is important."

Jiang Limei froze for a moment, and said yes in a hoarse voice.

"I'm on leave, I have something to do at home."

Ren Xun was blocked and speechless.

Ancheng is so small, and the business people have their own circle, and they can't hide what happened to any family. Ren's father and mother knew the news much earlier than Ren Xun, and Ren's mother just comforted her son: "Don't mess up, keep your mind , let's go see your Uncle Sheng, we'll talk about it later."

This is the path that Ren Xun had thought about early in the morning.

But at this time, there was no one around her.

Ren Xun didn't understand: "Are you talking about me?"

Many years later in a foreign country, Ren Xun also took advantage of the dead of night to think carefully. The separation of young love is not as unconscious as it is said in literature. Everything has an opportunity and a source.

"Aren't you Jiang Limei's boyfriend? Her closest person is you, you ask us?"

It took a lot of effort to get in touch with this professor. If you can be included in the list of creators of the album, even if it is the last inscription position, it is not easy. This means that you can get recommendations from first-class foreign art schools. Those who go abroad for further study should not waste their talent and enthusiasm.

Ren Yu learned the general idea from Ren Xun's mouth. Not long ago, Jiang Limei's mother had an accident during a minor operation. Ren Xun didn't know the specific reason, but roughly figured out from Jiang Limei's hoarse voice that it was due to anesthesia. It is not a medical malpractice, not the responsibility of the hospital.

"Nonsense." The roommate is a local girl from Yangcheng. She spoke in a cute tone. She ran away, ran back, and took out a thick envelope from her bag: "The money is here, and I will return it to you."

He received Jiang Limei's call half a month later. It was an unfamiliar phone number. There were noisy people over there, and it looked like an open-air park.Ren Xun didn't know, he just heard Cantonese that he didn't understand, there was noise, and even the crisp sound of chess falling on the board.

Jiang Limei secretly told Ren Xun that her baby name was Xiaoyu, which was given by her mother, and only those closest to her knew it.Her bright eyes are like stars picked up from the water.

He knew that Jiang Limei had returned to Yangcheng.

Even if it was just to help stabilize Jiang Limei, she was in a state of madness on the phone, laughing and crying for a while, it was completely a stress response to a sudden and severe emotional trauma.

Theoretically, there is a risk of shock in surgical anesthesia, and the probability is extremely low, but once it hits it, it will be called every day and the ground will not work.

At that time, Ren Xun was full of vigor, and the future painting scroll was in front of him. When he was coloring and laying out, if there was anyone who could pick up the paintbrush with him, that person must be Jiang Limei.

"Then Jiang Limei?" The sky in Qinghai is so far away, it makes people feel empty, and once the fire is lit, there is no way to find a burning path.The professor who took him had a weird temper and was very strict. Ren Xun hid in the parking lot outside the museum and made a phone call, with a silver line snaking across his head. He told Ren's mother: "I will buy a ticket to go back now, and I will go with Jiang. Light rain."

Mother's funeral has been dealt with, many relatives and friends came to express their condolences and comfort, and Uncle Sheng Lin is taking care of it, so how can there be any tricky things that require her, a half-old child, to worry about?

He hesitated at that time, and chose the former between the unfinished art exhibition project and Jiang Limei. The fate is so thin, but in fact, it has been broken since then.

Something at home?What happened at home?

At that time, Ren Xun was running an exhibition with all the famous professors in Qinghai. It was a joint exhibition between Kumbum Monastery and Tibetan Culture Museum in Xining, which was very complicated and laborious.On the way, I received a call from Jiang Limei. No matter how thoughtful I am on weekdays, I am only in my early 20s. How can I experience life and death at such an age?Ren Xun was at a loss. While comforting Jiang Limei, he called Ren's parents and asked his parents to help.

But he didn't know Jiang Limei, he was too confident and conceited, like most boys of his age.

The social etiquette between adults and adults, not to mention that the Ren family and the Sheng family still have business cooperation, their first concern is the widowed Sheng Lin, not the widowed Jiang Limei.

No audio.

Someone booed: "Ren Yu is in a relationship?"

He wanted to be with Jiang Limei.

In the wechat group of the dormitory, several roommates became more and more curious and discussed frantically.Not only that, but in the following week, there was no news from Ren Yu, and his ~ roommates only received a short explanation in the group:

The girl waved her hands in relief: "It's all here, a dollar is not a lot, you can order, anyway, I have to leave school. Fortunately, you came today."

This time, without hesitation, he immediately flew to Yangcheng, but was told by Jiang Limei's roommate downstairs in the dormitory that Jiang Limei had moved out.

Ren Xun was busy with the art exhibition during the day, and called Jiang Limei when he went back at night, fulfilling the responsibilities of a boyfriend remotely. He told Jiang Limei that he would be able to go back within a week at most, and he would accompany her to deal with those difficult things. During his absence , no matter what, you can call Ren Mu for help.

The two boys sat down separately, without saying a word, the warm porridge still exuded heat, but at night, when the porridge cooled down, and when all the other roommates who had been in class for a day came back, the dormitory building became noisy again. The beds are still empty.

The text message was concise and to the point: "It's not convenient for us to meet now, you go back first, after a while, maybe it's winter vacation, shall we meet in Ancheng?"

The roommate looked Ren Xun up and down. He was a tall and handsome boy with beads of sweat on his forehead. The anxiety in his eyes was not fake. He stood under the scorching sun for a long time.

".Why don't I give you a copy of our class schedule? You can go to the teaching building to find her, she still has to attend class. What's your surname?"

"I know you've been looking for me, but don't do this again. My high school classmates were terrified. They thought I committed suicide. Some people almost called the police."

After two years of getting along, they probably knew that Ren Yu's family conditions were very good, and his parents were in business. It's not an exaggeration to call him a rich second generation. Such a boy was born to be the favored one, so what troubles would he have?Even if there are, most of them are mediocre hypocritical diseases.

It was as if the life force on which she depended was alive again.

Ren Xun didn't understand what it meant.

Ren Xun didn't understand why Jiang Limei insisted on breaking up. He knew that maybe he hadn't fulfilled his boyfriend's responsibilities, but Jiang Limei returned all his apologies:
"I'm not blaming you, but you know that life is really long, and the hurdles to be overcome at each stage are different. We just didn't go along the way."

".Depend on."

Ren Xun thinks that he knows Jiang Limei, she is delicate but tenacious, she may panic and collapse when encountering things, but she will soon pack up her mood and start again. If she is willing to call him, it means that she has adjusted.He asked where she was now, but Jiang Limei didn't speak.

Jiang Limei has never returned to Ancheng since then, nor has she seen him again.

"I don't know! You call him, and the counselor is in the group to count the application for admission to the party. Has he not submitted it yet?"

Ren Yu felt that a fire was burning in his heart, but when he thought of Jiang Limei's pale face and tears, the fire was extinguished again, and he moved into the ice cave.Limbs and bones were frozen, and the chill was oppressive.

Ren Yu has never seen her cry. He has accompanied her in the dark to experience many setbacks and collapses, but she has never cried. At most, her eyes are red. Ren Xun said that Jiang Limei's voice is hoarse, what is it? degree?How many times did she cry?How many nights have you not slept?

Ren Xun accepted the class schedule, but received a text message from Jiang Limei the next day.

What was the name of Jiang Limei's best friend in Ancheng No. [-] Middle School?Ren Xun can't remember, but since there is no news from the college classmates, let's pin our hopes on the high school classmates.Ren Xun asked his acquainted teacher from No. [-] Middle School to search around, and also contacted the girl who had a good time with Jiang Limei.

In the graduation season of senior year, Ren Xun flew to Yangcheng again, and a large number of students wearing academic uniforms took pictures on the playground and at the entrance of the library. On such an important day as the graduation ceremony, Ren Xun guessed that Jiang Limei would not be absent, but was told that Jiang Limei was the first to take He got his graduation certificate and signed three parties, and left Yangcheng early.

The weather on her side seems to be fine, there is no wind, and the summer in Yangcheng is so long, she stood under the thick green sycamore leaves, and broke up with Ren Xun in the quiet of the afternoon.

"The art exhibition is over. I asked for leave after delivering the materials at school and went home, but Uncle Sheng Lin said that Jiang Limei had already returned to Yangcheng." Ren Xun hugged his head in pain: "I called her roommate, but she didn't call back at all." School, I don't know where she went, no one has heard from her."

The roommate saw the back of a tall boy from a distance, and ran over wiping his sweat with a bachelor's cap in his hand: "Hey! Why are you here again? You come here every now and then. Are you tired? Jiang Limei is not here."

Ren Xun believed it.

Ren Xun broke down, but Ren Yu couldn't show the patience of an older brother. He asked his younger brother in a harsh tone that he didn't even notice:
"And then? Are you really leaving her alone?"

This was the first time in three years that Ren Yu did not return home at night for no reason.

Ren Xun didn't realize that during the few seconds when Jiang Limei paused, she was filled with disappointment, perhaps with inhumane despair.

Ren Xun was completely confused and didn't answer, but the girl stuffed the envelope into his hand with an unquestionable gesture: "Okay, please, don't let me be a sounding board anymore, and tell you the truth, the money you gave Jiang Limei these years She confiscated nothing, and kept it with me, let me find a chance to return it to you together."

A young man doesn't know what it means to be sad, what absurdity this is.Teenagers' thoughts are the most bitter, and they are intensified in every possible way because there is nowhere to resolve them.

If there is, it is overwhelming emotions that are difficult to resolve. Sadness and loneliness are like a huge shadow under the hood. Jiang Limei doesn't know how to deal with herself.

Ren Xun wanted to ask, but the girl had already run away quickly.He wanted to deposit the money to the school in the name of Jiang Limei, but the school refused on the grounds that the graduates could not be contacted.In the end, Ren Xun sent the money to Jiang Limei's home in Ancheng, although she didn't know when Jiang Limei would go back.

It was 2016, WeChat payment began to cover a large area, sharing technology spread out, the world was getting better, it was spinning up, and brilliant fireworks were blooming, and it was handed over to everyone.

It's time to say goodbye.

It's time to go, too.

(End of this chapter)