rose believer

Chapter 9 Dawn - The Bonfire
During these days when Jiang Limei was hospitalized, her biological clock, which had been reversed for many years, was actually corrected. She went to bed at [-] o'clock every night, and woke up at [-] o'clock the next morning.

But one-handed.

The patients in the whole ward are either hanging their arms or sitting in wheelchairs. The scene of morning exercise together is very joyful.

Ren Yu had an outpatient clinic in the afternoon, and when she went to the inpatient ward in the morning, she saw Jiang Limei panting and leaning on the railing at the end of the bed to catch her breath. She waved her hand to Ren Yu: "It's too bad, Doctor Ren, I was the first in the class in the 800-meter run in high school." , and now it's trash."

Ren Yu stepped forward with a smile: "Well, I remember."

"Usually my colleagues call me to go to the gym. I don't like to go, and I don't like the smell of the gym. Now it seems that I can't go anymore. I will apply for a card when I go back."

She took a sip of water quickly, and the sun reflected through the window on her plain face, clear and childish, without a little charm.

Ren Yu quietly waited for her to finish drinking the water. "Is Doctor Ren looking for me?"

"Yes, your operation is tomorrow, and I want to talk to you today about the details."

"Okay, let's go." Afraid of the cold, Jiang Limei took a khaki cashmere shawl, wrapped it around her body, and followed Ren Yu out of the ward.

The conversation room was on the other floor. In the elevator, she kept staring at Ren Yu's back.

The white coat is spotlessly clean, his shoulders are straight, and he walks smoothly, no matter how you look at it, he looks pure and kind.Four words, harmless to humans and animals.

Looking at her again, she was leaning against the elevator wall wrapped in a shawl, her figure was slender and swaying.

Like an insane old goblin.

Jiang Limei was amused by the strange adjectives in her mind, she burst out laughing, everyone in the elevator turned their heads, Ren Yu also looked back at her, and asked softly, "What's wrong?"

Jiang Limei couldn't hold back her laughter, she covered her mouth and waved her hands repeatedly.

The conversation room was a large room, which was divided into several small cubicles by screens, most of which were occupied, and they walked to the innermost one and sat down.Ren Yu sat next to Jiang Limei and showed her the notice in the folder.

There are ten sheets of paper densely packed with small characters. Jiang Limei glanced at it, her head dizzy.

"Doctor Ren, it's all about it"

Ren Yu told her page by page:
"This is a notification of surgical risks. Various unexpected situations may occur during surgery. Modern medicine cannot completely avoid them, but medical staff will do their best to treat them."

"This is the anesthesia/anesthesia notice. Your operation is under general anesthesia."

"This is a surgical plan. You may add steel nails or steel plates to your arm. Which one to use depends on the situation during the operation."

Jiang Limei was really curious: "Then will it sound when I go through the security check in the future? Didi Didi Didi?"

Ren Yu froze for a moment, then smiled: "No."

"Oh, okay." Jiang Limei was a little frustrated: "I thought it would be like in the movie."

Ren Xun was led away by her jumping thoughts for a while, and it was really interesting to imagine such a scene. Looking at her again, he was already immersed in reading the risk notice.

Although ten lines at a glance, it takes time to read through so many pages.

The cubicle was not soundproof, and the conversation between the doctor next door and his family members could be heard clearly. It seemed that the surgery was a bit risky. Jiang Limei heard a low sobbing sound, as if piercing into the heart.

Everyone in the world suffers, and Jiang Limei has a deep understanding of these four words in the past few days in the hospital.

She frowned slightly, and the momentary tension was captured by Ren Yu.

Ren Yu hesitated for a while, but temporarily let go of the doctor's objectivity and rigor, and gently reminded:
"These risks exist in theory, but the chances of them appearing in reality are extremely small, and your surgery is not too big, so you don't need to be too nervous."

"Really?" Jiang Limei said to herself very lightly and quickly, and then laughed.She laughed so flawlessly that Ren Yu was a little taken aback, as if the low tone and tension in her tone were just his illusion.

"Doctor Ren, borrow a pen."

Ren Yu handed her the ballpoint pen pinned to his chest.

Jiang Limei pressed her finger on the top of the ballpoint pen, creaking it, her eyes fell on the paper, but she said to Ren Yu:

"Doctor Ren, you are the one who operated on me, right?"

Ren Yu said this before, but for some reason she wanted to ask it again.

Ren Yu stared into her eyes, paused for a few seconds, and responded seriously: "Yes."

"it is good."

She didn't ask any more, as if the subtext was to have infinite trust in him, she picked up the pen, and wrote her name on the signature place with a few swipes.

Jiang Limei has a gentle and charming appearance, but she writes with strength and style, horizontal and vertical, like a sharpened edge.

Ren Yu watched her finish signing, and saw her sitting wrapped in a shawl, as thin as a wisp of smoke, in sharp contrast.He swallowed, and spoke after deliberation:
"In fact, these signatures should be signed by your family members. Of course, the patients themselves can also, but"

But it will always be better if someone is with you, and you will feel more at ease.

Ren Yu thought of the man who was dressed in a trendy dress and did nothing. He wondered if he had come to deliver things in the past few days.

"I don't have family in Ling City, so it doesn't seem right to ask friends to sign." Jiang Limei seemed sleepy, squinted her eyes and yawned: "Speaking of this, Doctor Ren, can I add you on WeChat?"

They met for so many days, but they never found a chance to add WeChat.

Jiang Limei was open-minded, but Ren Yu hesitated.His hand was in the pocket of his white coat, and the phone was inside, but he didn't take it out.

"We have rules." Ren Yu rarely showed embarrassment.

Jiang Limei instantly understood: "Understood, the doctor must avoid suspicion. I have no other intentions, just an old classmate."

Before she finished speaking, Ren Yu hurriedly interrupted her, and he handed the ballpoint pen back to her:

"You can write it down, and I'll add you after the operation."

Really. Jiang Limei pondered for a long time but couldn't figure out a suitable word to describe Ren Yu.A little sassy, ​​a little serious, and a little .cute?

Jiang Limei suppressed a smile, wrote down her phone number on the white paper, watched Ren Yu meticulously fold and fold the paper, and put it into the pocket of the white coat.

He was wearing a black sweater, a very basic style, with one side of the round neck exposed.

"Doctor Ren"

Jiang Limei narrowed her eyes, raised her hand, passed her fingertips over the collar of Ren Yu's sweater, and pressed down a white cat hair?

"Do you have cats?"

Ren Yu froze.He seemed to smell the perfume on her wrist, which was a warm woody fragrance.

".Well, sorry."

Jiang Limei laughed loudly: "There's nothing to be sorry about, it's just like this if there are fur kids in the house, what kind of cat do you have?"

".The pastoral cat."

"That's great, I like cats too."

Jiang Limei didn't think much, she didn't notice Ren Yu's nervousness, she just found it interesting.The contrast between holding a scalpel during the day and a cat feces shovel at night is interesting, as if it broke the doctor's rigor and sense of distance all at once.

Doctor Ren is indeed rigorous.

Jiang Limei didn't know that her mobile phone number was searched many times on the Internet that night.

She is a legal person of the company, and she can find company information, work promotion, and Weibo, which she has abandoned for several years, by following the phone number. There is nothing in it, only a few irrelevant news reposts.

Ren Yu looked down on himself from the bottom of his heart, like an unreasonable bastard, spying on others in the dark.

But he couldn't resist.

Like a traveler walking in the snow, exhausted for too long in the endless barrenness, suddenly picked up a jug of spirits.He was erratic and just wanted to drink alcohol.

Finally, he searched WeChat according to Jiang Limei's mobile phone number.

The nickname that jumped out was an emoji rose, and the profile picture was a selfie of her, which seemed to be at a ski resort, with the blue sky and snow-capped peaks behind her, and she was smiling happily.

Ren Yu also curled the corners of his mouth unconsciously.

He saved the avatar picture in his mobile phone, went to bed early, and arrived at the hospital half an hour earlier than usual the next morning.

Huang Youhui was on duty last night. After breakfast, he yawned and entered the office. He saw Ren Yu standing in front of the window in a daze.That's his habit, every time before the operation, he would be in a daze for a while, not knowing what to think, maybe it's a special decompression method?

Huang Youhui didn't care, and didn't bother. After a long while, he let out a "huh" and went to check the operation schedule:

"Brother, isn't it right, is it your surgery today?"

"Yes." Ren Yu said lightly.

". When was it changed? Did I remember wrongly?"

Huang Youhui was confused, Ren Yu was supposed to take turns these few days, but he voluntarily worked overtime.

He flipped through the patient's medical records before thinking: "Oh, I remembered, is this someone you know? Your friend?"

Ren Yu didn't deny it.

His uncontrollable nervousness may be because the person lying on the operating table is related to him, so he can't do things that have nothing to do with him.

Even though he knows better than everyone else that this is just a minor operation, like an assembly line, he can't remember how many units he has touched since the beginning of his regular training.

Calculating the time, there is still plenty of time, so Ren Yu has a thought.

Jiang Limei should be in the operating room at this time.

He guessed that according to Jiang Limei's personality, she should be chatting with the nurses in the preparation room at this time, but even if she wasn't nervous, he wanted to go and see her.Just look at it.Reassure her and reassure yourself.

Ren Yu walked to the preparation room, opened the door and went in.

On the innermost hospital bed, there was a slender figure.

Unlike the Jiang Limei he imagined, she was lying quietly, with only a sticky arm exposed, hanging with salt water.Seeing him coming, she just blinked and tried to squeeze an unnatural smile.

Ren Yu couldn't say a word of what he had thought up.

Her pale and miserable face made him panic.

The nurse asked in surprise, "Doctor Ren, why are you here?"

Ren Yu didn't speak.

Seeing Jiang Limei's and Ren Yu's eyes meeting, the nurse guessed that it was someone she knew, so she turned her head to do her own work.

In Jiang Limei's eyes that were almost begging for help, he walked to the hospital bed and stood still.

Jiang Limei knew that her complexion was not good now, so she didn't hold back anymore. There was a dazzling white light behind Ren Yu, but her eyes were as black as the moon setting in the deep sea.

"Doctor Ren." The fasting before the operation made her voice hoarse: "Tell me, if I fell asleep now, would I not know anything?"

"It won't hurt, and you don't have to be afraid. Everything will be fine when you wake up." Ren Yu has also seen many patients who are nervous before surgery, most of them have never experienced it, so they are afraid.

Jiang Limei shook her head: "I'm not afraid of pain, I believe in you."

She repeated it repeatedly, not knowing whether she was comforting Ren Yu or herself, and finally closed her eyes.

"Doctor Ren, when my mother died, she was in the operating room."

Any case of stagnation of breathing.

"It's just a minor operation, but the anesthesia caused shock. I know the doctors have done their best. No one thought of such a situation. I'm just afraid."

Afraid of repeating the same mistakes, afraid of bad luck coming again.

Ren Yu finally knew why she had such a weird expression when she read the surgery risk notice.

Jiang Limei wanted to walk through her most painful memories in person, and it felt like Ling Chi.

His consolation has become nonsense, everyone knows that the risk is extremely small, but it is such a small point, falling on a person or a family, it is ruined.

There was no response for a long time.Ren Yu's throat seemed to be stuck by something, and he couldn't make a sound.

"Ren Yu."

Jiang Limei sighed, and what fell with her breath was a cold tear from the corner of her eye.She endured it very hard, but she still failed:

"Ren Yu, I haven't told anyone about this."

It was the first time she talked about the memories she least wanted to mention, and it was also the first time she called his name.

It's not Doctor Ren, it's just Ren Yu.

It was also the first time for Ren Yu to see Jiang Limei like this, with all the hardness and radiance gone, like a melting mist, so fragile that it might dissipate and evaporate at any time.

He didn't feel that such Jiang Limei was more approachable, on the contrary, he felt a kind of loyalty that was almost sacrificial from the bottom of his heart.

He wanted to be loyal to her, to surrender to her in the absurd and painful life.

Ren Yu stretched out his hand and put his palm on Jiang Limei's closed eyes.

"There is me."

His voice was cold but convincing.

Jiang Limei could feel the knuckles of his fingers as he wiped away that unseemly tear for her. The warmth of his palm was like a bonfire lit in the winter smog.

Jiang Limei had to admit that she was really greedy for this temperature.

(End of this chapter)