The High Gate Mistress of Rebirth

Chapter 501
That evening, Li Xiang's high fever had just subsided a little bit. He opened his eyes and saw his wife standing by his side. Li Xiang had a smile on his face. He grabbed Pingyang's hand and said, "You've been here all this time?"

Because of his severe illness, his voice was hoarse, and his words were out of tune.

Seeing him wake up, Pingyang showed a smile on her face, and quickly persuaded: "Your throat is swollen from burning, please don't talk."

After speaking, she got up and came to the table to pour a bowl of tea, brought it to Li Xiang's side, and fed it into his mouth bit by bit with a small spoon.

Li Xiang drank the water and gained some strength, he struggled to get up, grabbed Pingyang's hand and said: "Pingyang, I have a lot to say to you."

His voice was so hoarse that his words sounded like broken gongs.

Pingyang stopped him and said: "Didn't I tell you, you don't have to talk too much, first recuperate well, even if you have something to say, wait for the illness to recover."

"Pingyang, these words have been held in my heart for a long time, I can't wait, so I have to say no." Li Xiang held Pingyang's hand tightly, and coughed anxiously: "Pingyang, cough cough—you Be patient and listen to me."

Ping Yang hastily fed him two more sips of water, and said helplessly, "What's the matter, it's worth your haste, you have to say it now."

Li Xiang swallowed the water that Pingyang fed, and he pulled Pingyang tightly beside him, as if he was afraid that she would run away suddenly, even though Pingyang was next to him.

"Pingyang, I know you've been holding a grudge against me because of Jiao Xing's matter."

As soon as Li Xiang opened his mouth, Ping Yang's face darkened, and she said: "If this is what you want to say, then I'm sorry, I really don't want to hear it."

With that said, she turned her head away.

Li Xiang coughed violently. After she finally calmed down, she got up and pulled Pingyang over, blocking her at the head of the bed. He sat in front of her in a kneeling posture, looked at her and said, "Pingyang, listen to me." Finish it, please, I beg you."

As he spoke, he couldn't help coughing violently again.

Ping Yang still twisted his face, and replied flatly: "If you have to say it, then say it."

Li Xiang sighed slightly, and said leisurely: "When I was five years old, my mother and father had a falling out, and my mother abandoned us three brothers and sisters and went to the princess mansion alone."

Ping Yang turned his head and interrupted: "I know all these old things. You were still young at the time, and it was really wrong for my aunt to abandon you in anger, but she never felt a big grievance at that time."

Li Xiang said: "Now I can naturally understand my mother's grievances at that time, but when she left the house, I was only five years old, Jin Yan was not yet three years old, even the second brother was only seven or eight years old, we just needed parents When it comes to caring, how can you know so much?"

Seeing that Pingyang was silent, Li Xiang continued: "After my mother left, I cried for seven whole days. The wet nurse hugged me. When I was tired, I slept in her arms. When I woke up, I continued to cry."

When Li Xiang said this, Pingyang suddenly thought of her young children, and she felt so sad that she shed tears.

Li Xiang's mood fluctuated, and he couldn't help coughing again. He took the tea on the side, swallowed two mouthfuls, suppressed his cough, and continued: "After my mother left, although we had grandma to take care of us, but at that time, grandma She is in charge of the house, and she has to take care of the affairs of the whole family, so how can she take care of it? Fortunately, the wet nurse my mother left behind is very capable. When I was [-] years old, my wet nurse died suddenly due to a serious illness."

Li Xiang smiled wryly: "After the nurse left, I cried for a long time. At that time, I thought, all the people I can be attached to will leave me."

As he said that, he looked at Pingyang and said: "Later I met Jiao Xing. At that time, Jiao Xing was only seven or eight years old. She was sold by her parents before she could remember anything. When she arrived at our house, she was already a I don’t know how many times it changed hands.”

"I remember the first time I saw her was in winter. When I came back from school, I saw the butler leading her into the mansion. When she saw me, she was scared and hid behind the gate. He just saw her pitiful, so he let the butler Arrange her in my yard. Later, when I overheard the steward talking about her tragic experience, I thought to myself, there are actually poorer children than me in this world. So, I treat her more from time to time. With care, we grew up unconsciously, and once I was depressed and drunk, we got together in a daze."

She looked at Pingyang, took her hand and said: "Pingyang, I can't tell what my feelings for Jiao Xing are, maybe I was too lonely in my heart as a child, anyway, ever since my mother and nurse left me, My heart is always empty, Jiao Xing is kind and honest, I treat her like a relative."

Ping Yang turned his head to the side, touched his tears, and replied: "You have failed her, and you have failed me."

Li Xiang coughed violently, his face was flushed with depression, and he pulled Pingyang over, raised his hand to try to cry for her, and said deeply: "Pingyang, don't cry, I feel so sad to see you cry." .”

As he said that, he sighed a long time, and said leisurely: "Pingyang, you are kind and innocent, a good woman, I am not strong, I have no ability and ambition, I really feel wronged for you to marry me , To be honest, I really don't deserve you."

Ping Yang turned around, looked at Li Xiang and said, "Why are you talking about this? Although I always wanted you to make progress, I never disliked you."

Li Xiang nodded: "Pingyang, I know you treat me sincerely."

He sighed again: "It's just that I did something to feel sorry for you before, and I am also very contradictory. I know that I am not worthy of you, and I don't deserve your forgiveness, but I really can't let you go." .”

As he spoke, the corners of Li Xiang's eyes became moist, and big drops of tears welled up in his brain. He coughed violently, choked up and said: "To be honest, when I married you, I didn't care much about you, but The longer I live with you, the more I can't live without you. I don't know when I fell in love with you uncontrollably. When I see you unhappy, I feel sad as hell. I feel more and more The more I am afraid that you will leave me, the more I am afraid that you will dislike me for my incompetence, so now, I am working very hard on my errands, cough cough cough—Pingyang, you are so good, I am always afraid that I am not good enough for you, afraid that you will never If you don’t forgive me, I’m even more afraid of losing you.”

Because of his emotional agitation, Li Xiang spoke incoherently, his voice was hoarse, and when he said these words, his voice was as harsh as a broken gong, but Pingyang heard tears streaming down his face.

She covered her face, choked with sobs and repeated: "Don't say any more, don't say any more."

　Recently, many book friends asked Li Xiang's inexplicable feelings for Pingyang.In fact, it is true that Li Xiang loves Jiao Xing, but when he first married Ping Yang, he liked this wife. Later, when the incident happened, his thoughts on Jiao Xing were exposed. After Jiao Xing left the mansion, Pingyang did not anger Jiao Xing's daughter.

　　This kind of kindness is not something ordinary women can do. No matter how many setbacks they experience, Pingyang can still keep her original intention. This is the main reason why Li Xiang gradually fell in love with her. I don’t know if everyone has noticed. Every time Li Xiang was deeply moved by the small details of Pingyang's treatment of Mei Mei, it was Pingyang's kindness that made Li Xiang fall in love with her slowly. The first love is true, but the later feelings for Pingyang are also from the heart.

　　After all, it's really hard for a good girl like Pingyang to not be tempted. Even a woman like Ah Que deeply likes our little Pingyang.

　　And Cousin Pei, he just left temporarily, their story is not over yet.

　　
　
(End of this chapter)