The High Gate Mistress of Rebirth

Dong Qing was silent for a while, then replied: "I can't blame you entirely, I'm also at fault. I know you have concerns in your heart. I should have explained it to you before you came here."

After Dong Qing talked about this, she obviously felt that Li Kun's hand holding hers stiffened and she lay beside him. She even felt that his breathing became tense.

It turned out that he actually cared about her past so much.

Dong Qing said slowly: "After I passed the imperial examination and entered the palace, I won the favor of the queen. The queen transferred me to the East Palace to work as a clerk for the prince, specifically responsible for taking care of the prince's reading and calligraphy."

She paused and then continued: "I have been extremely talented in reading since I was a child. I am even better than those men in learning, calligraphy and painting. I am not bragging. Before I entered the palace, I had never seen anyone of my age. Among them, there are people who can do better calligraphy than me."

"It wasn't until I saw Prince Edward's handwriting that I saw his calligraphy for the first time, and I was completely shocked."

Speaking of this, Dong Qing sighed slightly and said leisurely: "If you suspect that I have any personal feelings for the prince, to be honest, I don't have any."

She further explained: "When the courtiers repeatedly informed the palace to select a concubine for the prince this morning, the queen did intend to bring me and the prince together, but the prince had no such intention. I was really disappointed about this for a long time at that time."

As she said that, she smiled bitterly and replied leisurely: "At that time, I thought it might be because I liked the prince too much, so I felt sad. But later, when I got married and got along with you, I slowly Please understand slowly that my feelings for the prince are not actually love. I am naturally strong and aloof. I was just rejected by others, so I felt unwilling to do so."

After saying this, Dong Qing sniffed, looked sideways at her husband on the pillow, and asked, "Am I very hypocritical?"

Li Kun patiently listened to what his wife said. He held his wife's hand tightly and replied, "Who is a saint? It's normal for a talented woman like you to be a little competitive."

As he spoke, he turned his head, met his wife's gaze, and asked, "If you marry the prince, depending on your temperament and talents, you may become a queen in the future."

"In the end, if you marry me, you will completely miss out on that kind of glory."

At the end of Li Kun's words, he sighed slightly, with unconcealable sadness in his tone.

Dong Qing replied: "You know me very well. Before I came out of the cabinet, I did have such ambitions. I even thought that a woman like me should become the most noble woman in the world."

After that, she smiled self-deprecatingly: "But now that I think about it, I was really ridiculous at that time, even though I became the most noble woman in the world. If I didn't have the respect and love of my husband, what fun would life have? I have been since I was a child. I lost my mother, I haven't felt any tenderness since I was a child, and I don't know what it feels like to be loved. If I had met you earlier, I'm afraid I wouldn't have had such thoughts at that time."

After Li Kun heard this, his heart suddenly became brighter, and a smile appeared at the corner of his mouth unconsciously.

"How old were you when you entered the palace? You were still a child. What did you know?"

Dong Qing squeezed Li Kun's hand in annoyance and said angrily: "You are now more tolerant."

Li Kun let out an "ouch" when he was pinched, but did not pull back his hand. He only smiled and replied: "If you had opened your heart to me earlier, how could I be separated from you?"

After Dong Qing heard this, she sat up in anger, stared at Li Kun and replied: "You clearly doubt me in your heart, but you don't say it clearly, and you let me guess. Are you still reasonable?"

Li Kun felt guilty for a while, and hurriedly pulled his wife and said: "Lie back quickly, be careful of getting cold."

Dong Qing threw away Li Kun and said in one breath: "You moved to the study alone and deliberately ignored me. I ran to the study to look for you that night, but you actually let them shut me out and refused to see me. I thought Let me explain to you, with your attitude like this, how can you sincerely want to make peace with me?"

Thinking of that night when she desperately put down her body and went to the study to look for Li Kun, but was blocked from the door, Dong Qing was still angry. She cried: "I have never stooped down to beg anyone, but I have never stooped to ask for help. I'm so humiliated by you." After hearing this, Li Kun sat up quickly and said anxiously, "When did you go to find me? I don't know."

Dong Qing wiped her tears and said with choked sobs: "Stop pretending to be ignorant. When Pingzhou came out, he made it clear that you didn't want to see anyone."

"This Pingzhou is really a fool." Li Kun cursed bitterly, and as he said that, he came over and hugged his wife and said, "I really don't know the conscience of heaven and earth."

Dong Qing broke away from Li Kun's arms, raised her eyes and asked, "You really don't know that I went to find you that night?"

Her eyes were wide open with surprise, and her long eyelashes were stained with tears.

Li Kun nodded slowly and solemnly replied: "I really don't know."

He was afraid that his wife would not believe it, so he explained: "I have been waiting for you to find me, hoping that you can open up and tell me clearly. At that time, although I stayed in the study, I was stretched every day. My neck is waiting for you to come, so how can I turn you away.”

"I must have said that I wouldn't see anyone, so this confused Pingzhou must have misunderstood."

After saying that, Li Kun cursed bitterly: "This Pingzhou is really hateful."

"It's quite hateful!" Dong Qing also chimed in angrily and cursed.

Li Kun hugged his wife and lay down, tucked her into bed again, and replied: "I can't let go of this, so after I came out, I was angry with you and refused to write to you."

He raised his hand and touched the cheek of his wife in his arms, and said softly, "Actually, I think about you every day."

Dong Qing hugged her husband, raised her eyes and asked, "Now that we have talked it over, you don't want to get angry with me anymore, okay?"

Li Kun smiled and said: "Actually, I have stopped being angry with you for a long time. After being out for so long, my thoughts have already diluted those barriers."

"Then why don't you write to me?" Dong Qing asked.

Li Kun replied: "When I first came out, I was really angry with you, so I refused to write to you. But after a few months, I was no longer angry because of the past, but I was angry with you for refusing to do so." Write to me."

"Everyone's wife sends letters home from time to time, saying that they have been sent something. My wife is the only one who refuses to bother with me. I'm angry about this."

At the end of the sentence, Li Kun's tone was full of grievance, and he even seemed to be crying.

Dong Qing did not retort, let alone argue with her husband. She hugged him back tightly and said softly: "It was my fault. I shouldn't have pretended not to care about you just to save face."

"Actually, I am worried about you at home every day. If you don't believe me, go ask the servant." She raised her head from his arms and looked at Li Kun.

The grievance on Li Kun's face immediately disappeared. He lowered his head and kissed his wife, murmuring: "I believe it." (End of Chapter)