Reborn since 2005

Chapter 314

Gu Ru has been busy since the New Year's Eve, and has been busy until after the first lunar month.

She has enjoyed the benefits brought by being popular, and the price of commercial performances has soared. It starts at 20 million yuan to sing a song. Some performances require several songs to be sung, and the price is more than 50 yuan.

From the feedback on the spot and the media, it can be seen that she has indeed become popular and has become a hot singer, realizing her original dream.

But after realizing the dream, suddenly there is some emptiness.

After chasing something for more than ten years, I suddenly found it, and then found that it was nothing more than that.

The sudden explosion brought her a lot of glory, but it also brought her a lot of trouble.

When performing in other places, you have to be cautious when traveling. If you want to go to a famous local place, you are told not to do it.

——she's a star now, and being recognized could cause trouble.

Enjoyed the dividends, but lost a lot of freedom.

Of course she knew this truth before, but at that time she felt that it was worth sacrificing some freedom in order to become famous.

But now that he has become famous and earned enough money for retirement, he finds out that it is boring to wear a mask and sunglasses when going out.

More importantly, she is very clear about where her upper limit is, and she has reached the upper limit now.

Her own potential is not that high, but she has encountered more than a dozen good songs.

It wasn't for those songs, she couldn't reach this height.

If any professional singer sings those songs, it is possible to reach her current height, and there will be many singers who can surpass her current height.

Among professional singers, her skills are not top-notch, at most she is above average, and her appearance is about the same.

She is luckier than those singers because she met Yan Xin, a creative talent.

However, Yan Xin also told her clearly that all the songs she wanted to write have already been written, and without the previous state of mind, she will never be able to create such songs in the future.

There were no new works released for several months, which also proved that Yan Xin was not lying.

——If good music can be created, Gu Ru believes that Yan Xin will definitely create it, because Xingguang Yu is his own company, and he can make money from it.

If you don't come up with such a work, then you really can't write it.

She understood that her potential had been exhausted.

No matter how hard you try in the future, it will be impossible to reach a higher level, but to go downhill step by step.

That's all for her dream.

The only thing that can support her to go on is money.

But now she is earning a lot of money.

I have already got what I want most, and suddenly I am very tired of this kind of life, and I don't have much motivation to continue.

She didn't find it hard to pursue her dreams in the past ten years. At that time, she had a goal and was motivated to move towards that goal.

Now that I have no motivation, I suddenly feel very tired.

In order to increase her popularity and get a better performance price, she will participate in some radio and TV programs, and will also accept interviews from some media.

Then she said something against her will on it, and she felt that it was quite tiring.

Fortunately, she doesn't mix circles, otherwise, there will be more people to make friends with, and it will be even more tiring.

The reason why she didn't mix in the circle was also because she heard some stories in the circle, and she felt that it was not what she wanted.

Being in the circle can make more money, and she has more choices, but her need for money is not very strong, so she gave up the circle, and gave up the sophistication that welcomes her.

With her current popularity, as long as she wants to, she can still get a lot of commercial acting opportunities, but she can't bear it later, and chooses to give up those invitations.

Then I returned home the day before Ching Ming Festival and went to visit the grave with my parents.

For the so-called dream, I have confronted my parents for more than ten years, that is, the relationship between them has eased in the past two years, but it is not very close.

Now she has lost the motivation to continue chasing her dreams. When she returned home and saw her parents, she realized that more than ten years had passed. Her parents were both old and had gray hair.

When she saw that scene, she felt sad.

The time of more than ten years did not leave too many traces on her body, it just made her mature from immature youth.

However, in the same ten years, her parents have grown from middle age to old age, with white hair on their heads and wrinkles on their faces.

After returning home, it was inevitable to urge her to get married.

She said that she is still very busy now and has no time to talk about this. Later, she also said that she does not want to get married and have children, but wants to live a carefree life by herself.

And she also complained a few words - she had to face such a problem every time she went home, which made her very stressed and didn't want to go home.

Her parents didn't force her anymore.

It’s just that when she was visiting the graves of her grandparents, her mother said to her: “When my father and I die, you still miss us and come to visit our graves every year. But you don’t get married and don’t After giving birth to a child... probably no one will clean up the weeds in this cemetery, right?"

This made Gu Ru very sad.

If her parents had said such things to her ten years ago, she would not have taken it seriously.

But now seeing that my parents are old, saying such things in front of the graveyard of my grandparents, I feel very sad.

It turns out that the parents are old enough to think about their future affairs.

And she herself is in her 30s.

Aging and dying used to be something far away from her, something she had never considered.

But now, I suddenly feel the huge pressure from birth, old age, sickness and death.

At that time, she could only comfort her parents with a smile: "I just said that I don't want children for the time being, but I don't mean that I don't want children for the rest of my life. Don't worry, I won't give up our Gu family. And I assure you, if I have children in the future, I will Make sure his surname is Gu, to inherit the incense of our Gu family."

"But you are already 32 years old. If you don't hurry up to get married and have children, you will become an elderly mother in the future." Her mother said worriedly.

"Mom, don't worry, I'll be busy this year at most, and then I'll do nothing, just wait to have a baby, and I have to give birth to two more!" Gu Ru said.

She only talked about having children, not getting married, because she didn't want to get married at all.

With her current conditions, she doesn't need to rely on a man to live, she can raise the child by herself.

As for how to have children without getting married, there are too many ways in modern society, she is not worried at all.

It's just that it's not easy to tell her parents.

Her parents also heard that something was wrong, but they didn't pursue the details.

Just such a daughter, with a very rebellious personality, who was able to break away from a wealthy family for her own dream and struggle outside for more than ten years. Now that she has strong financial capabilities, they have no ability to force this daughter to obey their orders. idea.

Now that he is willing to compromise, it is already a surprise.

If they are willing to have children, in their concept, they can have someone to rely on when they grow old, and they will not be alone, so they are relieved.

As for getting married or not, it's not that important anymore.

It is of course better to get married and have children and live a normal life.

But having children out of wedlock, in the minds of parents, is better than not getting married and not having children.

Gu Ru was able to make such a compromise, not because of her parents' persecution, nor because of her parents' begging, but because she was really touched.

When the parents are there, there is still a home, even if that home is not returned very much.

When her parents are gone, she will be alone.

After calming down and thinking about it, it was already a terrifying thing—for a person of her age.

This time when I went home, I deliberately stayed with my parents for two days, and I also thought about many things that I would never have thought about before.

Slowly, I regained the feeling of home.

Her family runs a factory and doesn't make much money, but under normal circumstances, she can earn hundreds of thousands a year, and the family is not short of money.

After going home for a few days, she doesn't need any material subsidies for her family.

What her parents need more is her company.

She is now over 32 years old, [-] years old in real time, and the things she thinks are not the same as before.

Her parents are old again, and they are no longer strong in front of her.

The home now is not the same as it used to be.

A few days of companionship also gave her a new understanding of her parents, and she gradually accepted from the previous rejection.

There is still some fear in my heart, fearing that one day my parents will leave me.

She knew that such a thing would happen one day, but she didn't know how to face it.

Thinking about it now makes me collapse, and I don't know what will happen when I really face it.

Singing the song "Where Did Time Go" now, I have a deeper feeling.

Once while singing, I burst into tears suddenly.

At this time, I have some doubts in my heart-how can Yan Xin, a young man under 20 years old, write such feelings?
I've been feeling a little down these past two days.

After returning to Yangcheng, I found out that she was the only one living in her house, and even Xiaoyuan moved into the house she bought, and her mood became even more depressed. She didn't even go home and stayed here with Yan Xin.

When I was eating dinner, I was arguing for a drink, and I was also depressed, so I wanted to drink to relieve my sorrow.

She and Ai Lili drank a bottle of red wine, which was quickly finished.

Then open another bottle.

She went downstairs to the supermarket to buy the two bottles of red wine.

She has been a singer for more than ten years, and she has to go to some social occasions, and she has also developed a drinking capacity, which is better than the average person's drinking capacity.

Ai Lili didn't drink as much as she did. She drank at most half a bottle of two bottles of red wine.

The rest went into Gu Ru's stomach.

Once she drank too much wine, she started to talk too much. She started talking about what happened when she went home a few days ago, about her parents urging her to get married and have children, and also about her thoughts.

As he was talking, his eyes suddenly turned red, and he scolded himself: "I'm really not a thing, I'm too selfish, I've been chasing my so-called dream for more than ten years, and I've had so much trouble with my family. They have been hurt for more than ten years. At least half of the white hair on their heads is white for me."

Yan Xin echoed: "Poor parents in the world! I was also very rebellious for a few years and treated my dad very badly. I should have broken his heart in those few years. Looking back now, I can't wait to slap myself a few times."

Chen Li also drank some wine, but what he drank was beer, and he shook his head to express his disapproval: "Don't be pitiful to the parents of the world, it's not that all parents in the world are so pitiful, some parents are really not good, and what they give to their children is not necessarily love. , but harm."

Ai Lili thought of her own mother, and she took it for granted.

Her mother was the shadow of her childhood, the shadow of her adolescence, and the shadow of her adulthood.

That is, after getting to know Yan Xin, he gradually got rid of that shadow.

But she didn't say it.

She really didn't feel the warmth of the family, she just felt that the family was what bound her.

Yan Xin wanted to refute Chen Li, but soon thought of Ai Lili's parents, and then thought of Feng Xi's parents, and felt that what Chen Li said made sense.

Some parents are really bad.

Ai Lili's father seemed to be very kind to her, but he had always refused to give this daughter a title. If something happened, he would have to sacrifice his daughter to save his son.

That kind of fatherly love, that's it.

Not to mention Ai Jing, she only regarded Ai Lili as a tool to make money from the beginning to the end, and she didn't deserve to be called a mother at all.

Feng Xi's parents were very kind to Feng Chen, with complete fatherly and motherly love.

But for Feng Xi, the daughter, she was quite harsh.

Yan Xin had no contact with Chen Li's parents, so he didn't know, but from Chen Li's narration, it seemed that they were quite partial.

Thinking of this, he sighed and said to Chen Li: "Of course there are exceptions, but most parents still think about their children."

Chen Li shook his head: "Not necessarily the majority."

Then asked Liang Wei: "How do your parents treat you?"

Liang Wei drank some beer with him, but not much, pursed her lips, and said, "That's it, maybe they want to treat me well, but they don't have the ability to treat me well, I always feel that I am not as good as others happy children."

Chen Li raised his wine glass to touch her, drank it down, and said with a smile:

"I feel the same as you. No one else's children are happy, um, nor are my brother happy."

He also said: "When we have children in the future, we can't be partial, and don't be that kind of unfair parents."

Liang Wei glanced at him and said in a low voice, "You drank too much."

Chen Lidao: "How can I drink too much? Just this little beer, can I get drunk?"

Liang Wei said: "Our country's policy is to only have one child."

Yan Xin couldn't help but laughed.

It is still true now.

But in a few years, I will gradually let go of the second child, the third child, and even beg you to have another child.

The impermanence of the world can be seen here.

Chen Li muttered: "As long as I want to, what if I have two children? Can't I afford the fine?"

Gu Ru said with a smile: "I've thought about this issue. You can go abroad to give birth to a child, directly apply for a foreign household registration, and when you return to China, you will still be a foreign guest. The treatment will be very good."

(End of this chapter)