Reborn since 2005

Chapter 344
Yan Xin went back to the village by taxi, and it was past six o'clock when he got home.

Fortunately, he called his dad in advance, and his dad prepared his dinner.

Before getting into the taxi, Yan Xin also went to the largest backgammon supermarket in the county to buy some food, including fish and meat, as well as zongzi twists and so on. The custom of the Dragon Boat Festival here is not only to eat zongzi, but also to eat twists. , I don't know what's in it.

Dad Yan doesn't know how to make zongzi. In the past few years, during the Dragon Boat Festival, he just bought a few cheapest zongzi in the town to deal with it.

Now that you have money, of course you have to buy something good.

The taxi drove all the way to the door of the house. After getting out of the car, he took out two large bags from the trunk. They were all things he bought in the supermarket.

I didn't bring a change of clothes.

This is not going to another place, this is his home, and some of his clothes are left at home, some bought during the Chinese New Year, and some bought when he returned home during the Qingming Festival last time.

When Dad Yan saw his son coming back, he was very happy, but he couldn't help but scold him when he saw that he had bought a lot of things:

"Buying so many things again, what a waste? We have everything at home, so we don't need to spend that money."

"It's okay, I don't have a lot of money here, and my boss even sent me thousands of dollars for the festival." Yan Xin said with a smile.

In the matter of spending money, if you pull the fictional boss out for a while, you can stop his father's mouth.

The things he bought looked quite a lot, all of which were affordable, and together they cost two to three hundred yuan.

If you paid thousands of yuan for the festival, and spent two or three hundred yuan, it would not make people feel extravagant.

Bring those things into the house, and put those that should be in the refrigerator. There was nothing in the refrigerator, but since he came, it was almost full.

Going out again, I saw Lao Liu from the next door talking to his father, and greeted him: "Xiaoxin is back again, why didn't he drive back this time?"

Yan Xin laughed and said, "I don't have a car myself, and I always drive the boss's car. The boss has no objection, and I'm also embarrassed, so I came back by car."

"How's work going now?" Lao Liu asked.

"It's okay," Yan Xin said, "The salary was raised a little last month."

"You still have the ability!"

Old Liu praised him.

Then he said to Dad Yan: "Old Yan, your fate is better. You have raised such a promising son who can earn money and has filial piety. In our village, you are the most blessed one."

Yan's father quickly said: "Where is it, the children in your family are very good."

"It's far worse than your Yan Xin." Lao Liu said with a sigh.

Although Yan's father tried his best to deny it, judging from the expression on his face, he was very happy and proud of having such a son.

Yan Xin couldn't say anything, so he walked into the kitchen with a smile.

But there was a little bit of sadness in my heart—is his father really a blessed person?
Not to mention that I encountered such a fate in my previous life, even in this life, the economic conditions are good, and I lived in a small villa, but I was just alone at home, and my life was quite lonely every day.

People who are only in their 40s have decades of life to live under normal circumstances, and the next days will be such lonely days. It is quite sad to think about it.

——In my hometown, is this already considered happiness?That happiness is too cheap.

Lao Liu chatted for a while and then left. Father Yan also entered the kitchen, turned on the lights in the kitchen, and pulled the dining table aside to the center of the kitchen. After serving the food, the father and son began to eat.

During the meal, Dad Yan asked about Yan Xin's current work situation, how he paid back the money he owed to build the house, and how much he owed now.

Yan Xin was just talking nonsense, telling his father that his salary had increased, and he had received a large bonus some time ago, and he had already paid off most of the debt.

Now I only owe 2 to [-] yuan, and I can pay off all the debts before the National Day without affecting my quality of life.

He was talking nonsense, but Dad Yan carefully calculated:
If the debt is 2 yuan, it will be calculated as 2 yuan.

Now he has 5000 yuan in his hand, which was accumulated from farming and helping others.

In addition, 1 yuan was lent to the Feng family in six groups.

If the 1 yuan is repaid, plus interest, it will be [-] yuan a year.

Then there are fifteen thousand and six.

It is only 4000 yuan away from paying off the debt.

In the second half of the year, the grain and cotton were sold, and with the subsidies for growing grain, it was more than the three to four thousand yuan.

After such a calculation, I finally feel relieved - even if my son can't keep that high-paying job, relying on the family's money, he can still pay back the arrears for building the house this year.

In just one or two years, to be able to build such a beautiful new house and pay off all the arrears is already quite remarkable.

It's not that Dad Yan is too sensitive, but that he is really poor. Based on his experience in the past few years, when things change, they often change not for the better, but for the worse.

So he was always worried that Yan Xin would lose that high-paying job, even though Yan Xin repeatedly reassured him that there was no problem, he was still a little uneasy.

Ever since I was talking about building a house, I have been worried about such things.

When I first built the house, I was very worried when I thought about how much money I owed and how many years it would take for Yan Xin to repay the money if he suddenly lost his job.

Hearing from Yan Xin that the arrears are decreasing one by one, the worry has gradually decreased, but it has not been completely let go.

Until now, knowing that even if Yan Xin is unemployed now, he will be able to repay the debt this year, it is completely relieved.

There are many smiles on the face.

In the past few years, he was burdened with heavy debts, and he had to support a son to study, which made him unable to breathe.

He didn't want his son to be burdened with heavy debts in the future.

Now that the debt is no longer a big problem, it's easy.

He told Yan Xin his thoughts, which made Yan Xin a little funny, a little touched, and a little sad at the same time.

Sometimes there is even an urge to confess to his father how much wealth he has now.

That way you don't have to worry about running out of money.

But after hesitating for a while, he still didn't say anything about it.

Having said that, his father will no longer worry about his financial problems, but he has more worries.

There has always been a saying in the society that wealth is not revealed. It is really not a safe thing for a person to be rich and be known to be rich by others.

Don't worry about economic issues, worry about security issues, that is a bigger worry.

It's better to let his dad think that he is just a day laborer who happens to get a good salary.

The salary is much higher than that of ordinary migrant workers, and it is not to the extent of getting rich. It will be enviable, but it will not be enviable to the point of taking risks.

That's about the same size.

While chatting, he thought that it was not easy for his father to live alone in his hometown, so he asked one more thing: "Dad, you are only in your 40s now, and you are not old yet. Do you want to consider finding another one?"

Yan's father blushed: "You child, why do you keep talking about this matter? I've said it all, I don't have that idea, I live a good life alone."

"It's good for you to live alone now, but if you have a cold, I can't come back outside, and there is no one to bring tea and water, so what should I do?" Yan Xin said.

Yan's father thought to himself: "It's not like I didn't have a cold before, and no one came to bring tea and water. Didn't I get over it?"

I can't say this, because Yan Xin was at home a few times, but when he saw it, it was as if he hadn't seen it, and he hadn't taken care of him.

At that time, this son was still rebellious, just like him and Youchou, it was naturally impossible to take care of him.

Saying something like that now would be suspected of overturning the old account, and it would make the son feel uncomfortable, so naturally he couldn't say it.

He only said: "Looking for a companion is not looking for a nanny, is it just to find a companion for someone to take care of?"

"Take care of each other," Yan Xin said, "They take care of you when you are inconvenient, and you also take care of them when they are inconvenient, and support each other to live, wouldn't that be better?"

"There is a doctor in the village." Dad Yan said.

"It's not just about being sick," Yan Xin said. "It's mainly because you live alone. I still feel a little too lonely."

The son actually felt sorry for his loneliness, which moved Yan's father a little.

Then I thought about my life in the past few years, and it was indeed quite lonely.

Feeling a little sour in my heart, I didn't speak, just sighed.

Yan Xin said: "If you don't want to stay in the countryside, follow me to the city, so that when we are together, I can take care of your life."

Dad Yan was a little moved, but he shook his head after thinking about it, and said helplessly, "What am I going to do in the city? I don't know anything except farming. Going to the city will only drag you down, and can't help you in anything." .”

Yan Xin said with a smile: "My monthly salary is more than 1 yuan now, and my monthly income is higher than your annual income from farming. If you don't farm, it won't affect our quality of life."

Yan's father still shook his head: "I won't go, I'll be a useless person if I go there, and I still need to rely on you to support me."

"You are my dad, isn't it normal for me to raise you?" Yan Xin said, "In such a difficult situation, you raised me so much and paid for me to finish high school. Now that I am capable, I can You should enjoy yourself."

"I'm only in my 40s. How can someone in their 40s rely on their sons to support them? People will scold me if I say that," Dad Yan said.

Then he said: "Even if you want to support me, I have to be 60 years old when I go to where you work. Now I can still support myself, so it's better to stay in my hometown."

Yan Xin knew that he would have such a choice, so he was not very disappointed, and said: "Since you don't want to go to my place, then I think you should find one. Dad, you are only in your 40s this year, and you will have a long time to come." , Will you live alone for the next few decades?"

When he came back this time, he felt that his father looked younger than before, probably because of the better life and better mood, he looked like an ordinary rural person in his 50s or [-]s.

There won't be so many things to worry about in the future, and the economic conditions will improve, so it won't be a big problem to live another 40 to [-] years.

For such a long time, living alone in my hometown, it is too difficult to think about it.

At least Yan Xin couldn't bear that kind of loneliness.

When he came back this time, he hoped that his father would find another companion even stronger.

His father lived alone in his hometown, and he couldn't enjoy happiness outside, which would make him feel unfilial.

Father Yan was a little surprised, and looked at his son: "The children of other people don't want their parents to find a stepmother. Why are you more anxious than me as a father? You just want to find a stepmother for you." ?"

Yan Xin said seriously: "Dad, I hope you can live a happier life. I don't want you to choose to live alone because you worry about my opinion, and I don't want you to choose to live alone because you can't forget my mother." , My mother knows it underground, and she certainly doesn't want you to live so alone for decades to come."

His words stunned Dad Yan for a while.

Living alone these years is really lonely.

There are many inconveniences in life, but this can still be overcome.

However, the loneliness in my heart is the most difficult to bear.

These years have been very hard, but I can't find anyone to talk about those sufferings, and there is no one to comfort myself.

Sometimes the pain in my heart is so unbearable that I can only go to the grave of my deceased wife and talk about those things.

Imagine your dead wife lying there, listening to yourself say those words.

But he also knew clearly that his wife was no longer in this world, and it was impossible to hear him speak.

After finishing speaking, no one will comfort himself.

Sometimes there would be a gust of wind blowing from the grave, and he could imagine that it was his dead wife comforting him, and he would even cry bitterly because of this imagination.

However, that was just his imagination.

In the real world, he gets no comfort.

He survived these years, not because he has strong willpower, but because he has no other choice but to survive—the only option left is to die, but he still has a son, He still has this responsibility, he cannot choose to die.

If you can't die, you can only suffer.

That doesn't mean he likes this life.

——Most people in this world do not have the ability to choose their favorite way of life. The reason why they live in that way is because that way of life is already the best way of life that they can choose.

In the past two years, I was in my 40s, and I looked like an old man in his [-]s in the countryside. There is a reason for this.

Nor was it purely physical torture.

There is the same mental torture.

If he could, he didn't want to live in such a miserable state all the time.

When a matchmaker mentioned last year to help him find a partner, he actually thought about changing his way of life.

But I was afraid that my son would be unhappy, and I felt that I was sorry for my late wife, and I was also worried that I would find a woman who liked to make troubles, which would make the house restless.

Too much trouble, just refuse.

But how to live alone in the future is still a scary question, and he doesn't even dare to imagine what will happen when he gets old.

I can only be sure that it is definitely not a happy life.

Now hearing his son's persuasion, I couldn't help but relax a little.

Then he sighed again and said with a wry smile:

"It's not a question of whether I want it or not. I'm already at this age, who can see me?"

Yan Xin became happy when he heard his words, and said:

"That's hard to say. You are not ugly. Besides, our family has such a beautiful small villa, and the family is not poor. Living with you is not bad."

Father Yan thought for a while, then blushed and said, "Let's talk about it later, I'll think about it."

(End of this chapter)