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On July 7th, Yan Xin not only knew that he was blocked by Ai Lili, but also that he was blocked by Feng Xi.

Because when he sent a message to Feng Xi, he also received a reminder to be blocked.

In addition to being lost, there was also a strange feeling—as if the two women had become a couple, and he had become an outsider.

Fortunately, he knew that Feng Xi and Ai Lili had normal orientations, otherwise he would always have doubts about whether his scum had contributed to their true love.

I had a meal with Chen Li outside at noon, and then went back to my home.

Home is still the same home, but without Ai Lili, it feels too empty all of a sudden.

Sitting in the living room in a daze for a while, a sudden feeling of sadness came from my heart.

I feel that I am still too greedy. I could have lived a happy life, but I wanted to double that happiness, and I ended up in this end.

Cool and cool.

In the future, this house will not have the same laughter as before.

Thinking of this, I feel more and more desolate.

He didn't even go back to the bedroom, just sat on the sofa in the living room in a daze, feeling that the world seemed boring.

In the afternoon, Yan Xin received a message from Xiao Yin: "Boss, Mr. Ai said that she will not work in our company in the future and wants me to take care of the company's affairs. What's going on?"

He thought for a while before replying to the message:
"You can take care of the company's affairs first. The general manager is not here. You, the assistant to the general manager, are the biggest ones. You should take more responsibility."

Xiao Yin: "Is Boss Ai really not going to do it in the company?"

Yan Xin also did not give a clear answer: "She has the idea of ​​leaving, but she is not sure yet. You can manage the company's affairs first. If you feel that there are too many things to do, you can tell me and I will find someone else."

Xiao Yin immediately said: "Boss, don't worry, I will do my best!"

Although she was curious about what happened, why the general manager suddenly didn't do it for no reason.

But the boss didn't take the initiative to say it, and it was not easy for her to ask.

I always feel that it should be related to feelings, and this is not something she should ask as a subordinate.

But she still called Gu Ru, talked about this matter, and expressed her guess.

Gu Ru didn't know what was going on, so she just told her:
"What happened to the two of them in private, you don't want to tell others. As for the company's affairs, since the two of them let you take care of them, then you should take care of them and do things well. At the same time, you have to be ready for Lily to come back at any time. It's an opportunity for you, but don't get carried away. Just do your part and don't let the road go to waste."

It is indeed an opportunity to exercise the powers of the general manager as an assistant to the general manager.

But if you really think that you are the general manager of the company, that's a bit inappropriate.

Gu Ru was reminding her.

After all, this company is still Yan Xin's company.

The young couple quarreled and gave her a chance, but one day they reconcile again, and everything will return to zero again.

Getting carried away is not a good thing.

After hearing what she meant, Xiao Yin quickly said, "Sister Ru, I understand, I'm just an assistant to the general manager, but now I have to take care of some things."

"That's what it means," Gu Ru said, "but it's also a rare opportunity to hone your skills. If you perform well, you won't suffer any disadvantages."

After finishing talking with Xiao Yin, Gu Ru called Yan Xin and asked him directly:
"Yan Xin, are you having trouble with Lily?"

The relationship between Xiao Yin and Yan Xin is not that good, so it's not good to ask directly, but Gu Ru can.

On the other end of the phone, Yan Xin sighed: "It's not that there's something wrong, it's that there's a breakup."

Gu Ru was taken aback: "Why did you split up? What happened? I think Lily has a good temper. How did you make her blow up?"

"Feng Xi came over yesterday..." Yan Xin said depressedly.

Gu Ru immediately understood: "Is this being caught right?"

"Yeah, I was careless!" Yan Xin said.

With a wry smile, he added: "Of course, if I escape this time, I won't be able to escape the next time. I deserve it."

"Both are separated from you?" Gu Ru asked again.

"Yes, they are the kind of people who can't get sand in their eyes, and now both of them have blocked me." Yan Xin said.

"Should!"

Gu Ru said gloatingly.

Yan Xin sighed: "Yeah, it's all my fault, and I have nothing to say when I'm in this situation."

"But it's not a bad thing for you," Gu Ru said. "Standing on two boats and worrying about it all day is not a good day. Now that we've broken up, you can still be free."

Yan Xin thought to himself: "But I don't really want to be free..."

He prefers to be with the person he likes.

It's just that the number of people he likes is a bit excessive.

Gu Ru heard him moaning on the phone, and comforted him:

"Actually, there's nothing wrong with that. Think about it. Both of them broke up with you. Now no one can control you. There are so many excellent women in the world. With your current conditions, there are many young and beautiful girls who will come to you with a wave of your hand. You lost two big trees and got a whole forest. What's wrong?"

Yan Xin said: "But I don't want to get a whole forest..."

"You haven't even tried it, how do you know you don't want to?" Gu Ruyu persuaded him earnestly, "Yan Xin, you are also an adult, stop treating yourself as an innocent little boy, judging from the fact that you are stepping on two boats, you are a scumbag at heart, there is no need to restrain yourself, just scumbags can make you happy."

Yan Xin: "Eh... I'm not that bad, am I?"

"From a certain point of view, you are more scumbag than Chen Li," Gu Ru said, "Chen Li had so many women, and in the end he broke the heart of one Liang Wei. The ratio is less than 100%. You only have two women, and both of them were injured. The ratio is [-]%. Whether it is the absolute number or proportion of women you hurt, you surpass him, and you still say you are not a scumbag?"

"He was playing with women!" Yan Xin was a little bit aggrieved.

I also added a sentence in my heart: "And, in terms of percentage, I am not 100%, only 60.00%."

——There is another Xiao Shiyu!
It's just that he was too embarrassed to say it.

"But those women are also willing to be played by him. They came and walked away with a smile, and none of them were hurt. But you hurt one after another. Who do you think is scum between you two?" Gu Ru said.

Having said that, Yan Xin had to admit: "Okay, I'm scum."

"Since you are a scumbag, then you can go to the scumbag at ease," Gu Ru said with a smile, "Don't hold yourself back, and find a few more young and beautiful ones, so that your youth and wealth will not be in vain."

Yan Xin broke up with two girlfriends at the same time, and fell in love twice, and Chen Li even pretended to comfort him.

Gu Ru didn't even pretend to be happy, she seemed a little gloating.

It looked like she thought it was a good deal.

"Forehead……"

Yan Xin was a little speechless. He felt that this friend was too foolish, and he wanted to let himself be bad.

"I'm not in the mood right now..."

He said very honestly.

"Are you still hurt by love?" Gu Ru asked.

"Sister, I just broke up with you yesterday, can I come out now?" Yan Xin said depressedly.

"That's true, no matter what, we can get tomorrow." Gu Ru said.

He persuaded him again: "Don't get into a dead end, don't be overwhelmed. When something like this happens, I can understand that you are in a bad mood, but you have to think about the positive side. In fact, this is not a bad thing for you..."

Then, I remembered a very important thing:
"By the way, they didn't ask you for a breakup fee, did they? They didn't want to divide up your property, did they?"

"No," Yan Xin was a little unhappy, "You know them too, you should know that they are not that kind of people."

"Don't say that," Gu Ru said, "You have a family property of several hundred million, but there is not much morality that can overcome the temptation to carve up a few hundred million."

There was no room for Yan Xin to refute, and continued:

"Those properties are still yours. You have nothing to worry about. You can choose from a lot of excellent women in the world. You will only meet better ones, not worse ones. As long as you want, you can have them at any time. You will never be lonely in this life—unless you enjoy that kind of loneliness yourself."

Yan Xin was not very willing to listen to such words, as if he was born to be a playboy, he said: "Sister Ru, don't comfort me, don't worry, I won't be overwhelmed."

"Seeing your tone of voice, why do I not quite believe it?" Gu Ru laughed and said, "How about I call Xiao Yin and ask her to come over to accompany you tonight?"

A youthful and beautiful image of Xiao Yin suddenly appeared in Yan Xin's mind.

This girl is very beautiful. When we first met, I thought this girl was very beautiful.

At that time, she was just a newcomer in the workplace, and she also liked to wear hot pants, and would touch him intentionally or unintentionally, and occasionally she would bow her head and walk away.

It's just that Ai Lili came over later, so she didn't do that.

Then, I heard from Ai Lili that this young and beautiful girl seems to have something to do with Gu Ru.

Not sure, but judging from the eye contact between the two of them, it seems that there is something.

As for whether it is an unspoken rule in the workplace or a pleasing relationship, it is not known.

Hearing what Gu Ru said now, my heart skipped a beat.

Then I felt that I was too a beast - I had just broken up, and I was not serious about the pain, but I was thinking about what to do with other women, it was simply too shameful.

No matter what, it will take a few days of pain.

Otherwise, what are these two relationships?
Shaking his head vigorously—even though Gu Ru on the other side of the phone couldn't see it at all—"No, really, I just want to be alone now."

Gu Ru could only say: "Okay, then you can just be quiet, don't get overwhelmed."

Before hanging up the phone, I thought about it and added:
"If you feel uncomfortable in your heart, just call me and talk about it. It's also good, but don't hold it in your heart."

"I know, Sister Ru, go do your work." Yan Xin said.

Hang up the phone and continue to be in a daze.

Continue to be sad.

Thinking of the good time with Ai Lili, her tenderness and kindness, and how sad she must be now, I couldn't help but shed a few tears.

Thinking of the good times with Feng Xi, their past and present, and how sad she must be now, she couldn't help shedding a few tears.

Then he condemned himself, it was so beastly, two people who were so kind to him were actually hurt by him.

It hurts those closest to you.

Just like before he came out to work, it was his father who hurt him.

It can also hurt the people closest to you.

In a daze, only one afternoon passed.

During the period, Chen Li also called him, asking him how he was doing, persuading him a few words, and making an appointment to have dinner together in the evening.

Maybe he was still afraid that he would be overwhelmed.

In fact, Yan Xin really didn't have the idea of ​​committing suicide, he was sad, but he also felt that he still has so many assets now, and he can still live a happy life in the future, there is no reason to commit suicide.

In my previous life, I was too helpless. I was so poor and got a terrible disease. There was really no point in living, only pain.

If you haven't reached that point in your life, there's no need to be overthinking it.

Suffering is there, and it is very uncomfortable.

But not to that point.

I ate dinner with Chen Li in the restaurant outside the community.

During the meal, Chen Li mentioned that he wanted to take him to the nightclub to have a good time.

But Yan Xin resolutely refused: "No, I'm not in the mood to go."

Chen Li looked at him worriedly: "How about I go to your place to stay with you at night?"

Yan Xin knew that it was because his friend was worried that he couldn't think about it. He was a little moved, but he felt a little annoyed.

With a wry smile, he said, "No need really, I'm not that fragile, I just want to be alone, you don't have to be with me."

"Okay." That's all Chen Li could say.

After returning home and taking a shower, Yan Xin didn't have the idea of ​​watching TV or surfing the Internet. When he returned to the bedroom alone, he turned off the lights and went to sleep.

But I couldn't sleep at all.

Looking at the dark night with both eyes open, I feel that the whole person will be swallowed by loneliness.

Lots of messy thoughts.

People's emotions are more difficult to control at night, and they are more likely to be sad.

Especially in the case of one person.

No one to enlighten, no one to accompany, will fall into boundless loneliness.

After staying in this mood for more than an hour, Yan Xin couldn't take it anymore, picked up the phone again, found a number, and dialed:
"Where are you?"

"I'm at home."

On the other side of the phone, Xiao Shiyu's voice came over.

"Are you free now?" Yan Xin asked.

"You're free," Xiao Shiyu said with a trace of surprise in his voice, "Are you back?"

"No, I'm still in Yangcheng." Yan Xin said.

"Oh……"

The sound is a little lost.

"Can you come to Yangcheng tomorrow?" Yan Xin hesitated for a while, and then said, "I'm very lonely now, I want to have someone to accompany me, Xiaoshi, can you come over tomorrow?"