Reborn since 2005

When Yan Xin received the QQ message that Xiao Shiyu was going to have dinner with Feng Xi, he was already at home and had dinner early.

Seeing this piece of news, he felt a chill in his heart, and the first thing that came into his mind was a thought: "Feng Xi, what kind of monster is she going to be?"

It felt like Feng Xi wanted to do something to Xiao Shiyu.

Two days ago, he was actually a little worried. He always felt that Xiao Shiyu would be suppressed if he went to the company to shoot product advertisements, but nothing happened in those two days, so he let down his vigilance.

I even feel ashamed of myself for judging the belly of a gentleman with the heart of a villain.

Unexpectedly, on this last day, such a thing happened, and they went to Xiao Shiyu directly.

For a while, I even wanted to send a message to ask Xiao Shiyu which restaurant he ate at, and wanted to save the scene.

——If Xiao Shiyu was suppressed, it must be because of him, he couldn't stand by and watch.

But after thinking about it, I still didn't ask.

The main reason is that he himself has some fear of Feng Xi.

This fear mainly comes from a sense of guilt, feeling that you have done something that is sorry for the other party.

Now I have no face to do anything.

If he rushed over to rescue Xiao Shiyu, he would obviously like the new and dislike the old, and I don't know how Feng Xi would be angered.

There was nothing wrong with it, but big things will happen.

He still has a little understanding of Feng Xi, that is, sometimes his mouth is poisonous, but his heart is not bad.

Even if there is a lot of dissatisfaction with Xiao Shiyu, at most it is just a lip service, so as not to cause substantial harm.

But if he wants to go there, it may cause conflicts, and no one knows what the result will be.

After much deliberation, it is better not to take care of it.

I was still a little apprehensive, worried that Xiao Shiyu would suffer some humiliation.

Being alone at home is also a little uneasy.

Sitting in the living room, turning on the TV, and playing with the mobile phone from time to time, but the mind is not here.

I kept thinking about what would happen to Xiao Shiyu's side.

At 09:30 in the evening, Gu Ru came back, and saw him watching TV in the living room alone, a little strange:
"Why are you watching TV here alone? Where's Xiaoshi? Haven't you come back from taking pictures yet?"

"I was called by Feng Xi to eat." Yan Xin said.

Gu Ru was taken aback: "Huh?"

She knew Yan Xin's messy things, so she blurted out at that time:

"This is not to vent your anger on your new girlfriend, is it?"

Yan Xin said depressedly, "I don't know either."

"Aren't you going to defend your new girlfriend?" Gu Ru asked with a smile.

Xiao Shiyu is Yan Xin's woman, but not hers. She is not as worried as Yan Xin.

Yan Xin shook his head: "There shouldn't be too many problems, but if I go there, the problem may not be small."

After explaining, he added:
"She's not my new girlfriend either, not the kind of relationship I had with Ai Lili and Feng Xi before."

Gu Ru said with a smile: "I understand, you can have sex, but you can't get married."

Yan Xin felt a little embarrassed and felt that this was scum, but he had to admit: "That's almost what it means."

"You finally understand now, that's how it should be." Gu Ru said.

Instead of laughing at him, he praised him, saying: "One couple for life, one for the rest of the life, that's the way of the poor. The rich should not be so restrained, they should enjoy a more colorful life, otherwise they will make money. what?"

Yan Xin felt that what she said was very reasonable, but she was still embarrassed to agree.

He just said: "I just don't want to worry about those messy things right now, I'll talk about it later, I just want to relax now."

"Living should be like this," Gu Ru said, "A person does not live for others, nor does he live for moral values, but for himself, and live as he feels comfortable."

Yan Xin sighed and said, "Let's do it now."

Gu Ru asked again: "Then do you still want to get married and have children?"

Yan Xin smiled bitterly: "I thought about it before, but I don't think about it now."

"Actually, it doesn't matter whether you get married or not, but you still have children," Gu Ru said seriously, "Marriage is just a certificate, but children are the inheritance of blood, and in a way, they are also a kind of continuation of life. , this is still very important.”

Seeing that Yan Xin was silent, he said again: "You are still young, you may not understand this, but when you get older, your thinking will be different, and you will still want to have a child."

Yan Xin smiled wryly.

Although he is only in his early twenties now, he has the experience of his previous life. In his last life, he lived in his thirties. In the last few years of his life, especially after his father passed away, he really wanted to have a child, and he really wanted to have a child. kind of.

It's just that the economic conditions are so bad that I can't afford to support children at all, so I can only put out that idea in the end.

Before his father passed away, he also regretted not being able to hug his grandson.

That was the pain of his previous life.

In this life, he still wanted children, and even thought it would be better to have more.

I will not be so lonely in this world, I can also make my father happier, and I can comfort my mother who is under the nine springs.

It's just that who to live with is now a big problem.

Gu Ru also thought about it, sat next to him, and said:

"Actually, I was just like you when I was young. I didn't want to get married, let alone have children. Now, I still don't want to get married, but I want children, and I'm even a little anxious."

Yan Xin glanced at her: "But you are only in your early thirties, so there is no need to be so anxious."

"At the age of 35, you will become an advanced maternal age again. It will become more dangerous to have a baby. I am almost 33 years old now, can I not worry?" Gu Ru said.

"How did you change from not wanting children to wanting children?" Yan Xin asked curiously.

Gu Ru said: "You know, in order to chase the so-called dream, I had a falling out with my parents, ran away from home, came here to work alone, and didn't go home for several years. Later, I reconciled with them , and then I went home and saw that most of their hair was gray, only to realize that they were all old, and then realized that they would be old too, and would leave me in the end. By that time, I would have no relatives .Suddenly want a child..."

As she said that, she was also a little dazed:

"When I was young, I was angry with them. I ran away for more than ten years. I felt that they didn't understand me at all, and I hated them a little bit. But when I met them again, I was very sad to see them getting old. They saw me I couldn't hold back my tears, and I was even more sad. Then I realized that relatives are relatives after all. If you get angry with friends, you may no longer be friends in the future. But with relatives, no matter what kind of conflict occurs, After all, they are still relatives. Even if they are separated for ten years and thousands of miles apart, they will still be missed, sad, and sad... I am their thoughts, and they are also my thoughts. But if one day they are gone, In this world, I have nothing to think about, how lonely is that? So I thought, I still have to have a child. And what they worry about most is that I have been single all the time, and I will have no one to accompany me when I grow old. To have a child, they will be very happy, and I can feel at ease..."

Yan Xin remembered the events of his previous life, and sighed: "Yes, it's better to have a child."

After thinking for a while, he said, "It's better to have more children. There is only one child, and the risk is too great, so we should have more children."

Gu Ru smiled: "I also want to have a few more children, but now I'm almost 33 years old, and I don't have any. Even if I'm pregnant now, if I give birth to one, I will become an advanced mother after giving birth to the second one, so I dare not have more. .”

Yan Xin nodded: "That's true."

Then he said: "Then you have to find a partner quickly and have a child quickly."

Gu Ru sighed:

"But I don't want to look for a partner. I don't have the time or the mood to look for it. Although there are many excellent men in this world, in terms of proportion, there may not be one excellent man in a hundred men. If according to my According to the standard, there may not be one outstanding man among 1 men. If you look for it yourself, the probability of finding a man who is not satisfied is too high, and if you fail, you will ruin your life. I don’t want to take that risk.”

She said and smiled again: "And when I think about sharing the bed with a man and living for the rest of my life, I feel that life is meaningless."

When she said these words, her eyes fell on Yan Xin.

Yan Xin didn't dare to look her in the eye, looked at the TV, and said, "If that's the case, you can consider doing a test-tube baby."

Gu Ru said: "It's not that I haven't thought about it. Many people have learned about it. First, our country doesn't support unmarried women to do test-tube babies. Another thing is that the technology is not particularly mature. The risks of doing test-tube babies are relatively high. Big, the risk is greater than being an advanced maternal age, and now I am at this age, I don’t really want to take this risk.”

After finishing speaking, I was silent for a while, and then said: "Of course, if there is no solution in another year, I will take the risk to have a test-tube baby. If it is not convenient in China, I can go abroad to do it. At worst, I will give birth to a mixed-race baby— — It’s just that I heard that the management over there is very chaotic, and many sperm donors are homeless, and it’s quite dangerous to pretend to be social elites…”

Yan Xin could only say: "Indeed, foreigners are unreliable."

Gu Ru looked at him for a while, then said:
"How about you help me?"

Yan Xin looked at her in shock: "Ah? Sister Ru, what are you talking about? How can I help you?"

Gu Ru took one of his hands: "Help me have a baby. I can't have a baby by myself, or we can cooperate to make one. You produce seeds and I produce land. When you have a child, I will also have one." Boy, isn't this a win-win?"

In fact, Yan Xin had already felt that Gu Ru had that kind of thinking about him, but he didn't have that kind of thinking himself.

In his heart, Gu Ru is his very good friend and his business partner, but she is not a woman who can be ambiguous.

Especially after knowing Gu Ru's orientation, he only treats her as a buddy.

Sometimes, when I saw Gu Ru, who was out of sight, I couldn't help but have thoughts in my heart, but that was just a normal reaction, and I had no intention of implementing it.

He is too familiar, and he has always been treated as a buddy, so he really can't let go of that hand.

Knowing that she has that idea, she can only pretend to be confused, and pay special attention to her words and deeds, so as not to make the other party misjudge.

Now that I heard Gu Ru express her thoughts directly, she couldn't pretend to be confused anymore, so she could only say with a wry smile:

"Sister Ru, I have always treated you as my own sister, how can I do such a thing?"

"My dear sister?" Gu Ru repeated, "Don't you think it's more exciting?"

"Forehead……"

Yan Xin quickly declared: "No, although my private life is a bit messy, it's not so perverted. Sister Ru, don't get me wrong."

Gu Ru looked at him pitifully: "So, aren't you going to help me?"

Yan Xin sweated profusely: "Sister Ru, you are so beautiful, and you are still a big star. As long as you are willing, you will definitely find a very good man. There is no need to look around at the door of the house and take a long-term view."

Gu Ru said: "Do you think I haven't looked for it? But I just haven't seen anyone who is better than you. You are handsome and talented. The children we give birth to will definitely be excellent."

It's hard for Yan Xin to say that the talents he showed are all fake, and he can be a security guard with his real ability, not even the security squad leader.

He could only say: "I'm really not as good as you imagined. I'm a scumbag who only scored more than 100 points in the college entrance examination."

Gu Ru was stunned for a moment: "Why did you only get more than 100 points in the college entrance examination? I asked you before, didn't you say that you got more than 300 points in the exam?"

"I never said that!" Yan Xin quickly denied, "I only said it was less than 400 points."

Gu Ru remembered: "If it's less than 400, isn't that more than 300?"

"But even if he gets more than 100 points, he still doesn't score 400." Yan Xin said depressingly.

This is a very embarrassing thing, he didn't want to admit it, but now he has to admit it in order to let Gu Ru get rid of his thoughts.

When Gu Ru thought about it, more than 100 points were indeed within the category of less than 400.

Some looked down upon it: "Why did you do worse than an art candidate like me?"

Yan Xin bowed his head: "It's because my IQ is too low and my learning ability is poor."

Gu Ru shook her head: "No, if you are so bad, how could you write such good lyrics at such a young age?"

Then I understood: "You must be because your family has no money for you to study, and you don't want your dad to work too hard, so you deliberately didn't do well in the exam, making him feel that such a score is meaningless even if you repeat the exam, so you can come out sooner. Working part-time, sharing worries and solving problems for the family."

Yan Xin thought: "You are the second person who understands me so well."

She blushed and said, "No, I'm just out of my mind."

Gu Ru didn't believe it: "I don't care, anyway, I think you are excellent, and I want to cooperate with you to have a child, so you just say that as best friends, can you help me with this?"