unfortunate black cat

Chapter 63 I Could Go On

"Crackling..."

Dense raindrops hit the car window, blurring the scene outside the window.

Like the sound of beans falling, they sounded one after another, echoing in people's ears.

This seems to be a lullaby, but listening carefully, it seems too hasty, with the depression and boredom approaching gradually.Urging you to return to dreamland.

"Ah! (Come on!)"

In the wind and rain.

A certain woman's wail sounded like a needle swallowing blood.

And because the distance is too far, it is even impossible for people to hear clearly.

"Ah! (I want you all, to live through my nightmares!)"

"Wow wow wow..."

It was as if the endless rain covered the sky and the sun.

It swallowed up the lonely bus in the middle of the road, and also swallowed up the small light of the headlights.

……

"I am a very beautiful girl."

"Everyone around me has told me this since I was a child."

……

Probably when the bus passed an intersection.

Jiang Sheng, who was still on high alert, suddenly lost consciousness.It's like a machine malfunctioning, or a kite breaking its string.Its thoughts suddenly drifted away, disappearing between the water and the sky.

And when it woke up again, its perception had already fallen into the memory of a stranger.

The other party's voice slowly rang in its ears.

Be on the verge of leaving, intermittently...

It seems to come from nothingness, and it seems to come from the whispering narrative of the "person" of the black cat.

This made Jiang Sheng gradually fall into confusion.

The spirit is no longer clear, and the eyes and ears are confused.

It seems to have forgotten who it is and where it is.

Forget what you should be doing right now.

The whole mind of the black cat was occupied by that sudden memory.

It was even impossible to distinguish for a while, whether it broke into a memory, or it retrieved a memory.

It just thinks back, thinks back.

Immersive, full of five senses.

It's like looking back on a certain period of my own life.

……

"My mother said that my appearance made her envious."

In short, the voice in memory was not troubled by Jiang Sheng's confusion.

It just used that incomparably flat tone, continuing to describe one picture after another, as if it was a picture salvaged from the deep sea.

"My brother said he would take care of me and protect me."

"Friends say I'm like a princess in a castle."

"Papa said that I was his favorite baby."

"So, every time my mother saw me, she would pinch my arm with her hands."

"So my brother drove away every kid who wanted to make friends with me."

"So the classmates in the class said that I was defiant."

"So my father tortured me in the name of being drunk when I was 16 years old."

……

Breathing became difficult, Jiang Sheng's lower body suddenly felt pain, and countless chaotic and terrifying images suddenly poured in, and then became fragmented again.

In my impression, someone who should be trustworthy and close.

Injured it in the most cruel way.

Yes, the current Jiang Sheng seems to have merged with the fragile girl.

share her emotions.

experience her experience.

That series was like a nightmare experience.

Dirty, shameful, embarrassing, shameless.

All kinds of images that are enough to make people dare not face them are spliced ​​again and connected into images.

Makes one want to self-destruct.

Those emotions hidden in the dark seem to have turned into tentacles and come out of the curtain.

Climbed onto the body of the black cat.

Dragging it, towards a deeper darkness.

……

"Mum hated me, she started burning my palms with cigarette butts."

"My brother couldn't face it after knowing the truth, and even called me a cousin."

"Dad used to sleep in my room and no one could stop him."

"I didn't dare to go home, so I begged my classmates and teachers to take me in."

"At first, things were a little bit better."

"In less than half a month, rumors spread everywhere."

"Because my father told others that I came out to 'work', two hundred a night."

"No one dares to take me in."

"Even later, I did start 'working.'"

……

When the memory came here, Jiang Sheng's heartbeat almost stopped, and it felt like a hand was strangling his throat.

It was an impenetrable despair.

However, everything is obviously not ready to stop here.

"Time passed quickly, and I suddenly vomited because of my brother."

"Mom took me to the hospital, and my brother stood there without saying a word."

"A year later, Dad was in a car accident and Mom died of stomach cancer."

"I inquired about the process and learned that my brother did it. He spent a year planning two accidents."

"On the phone, my brother said that he wanted to get his child back. For this reason, he owed a lot of debts."

"He asked me to help him, but I ignored it."

"So he kidnapped me, on a rainy night."

……

"My brother is crazy. When he put the baby's skull in front of me, I was absolutely sure of this."

"He said he would skin me and pretend to be me and die with the child. That way, we could be together forever."

"Hehe, madman..."

"The funny thing is, I wasn't scared at all. I was so peaceful when the knife went into my navel."

"This is the first time in my life that I am so calm."

"Maybe, this is the relief."

"Yeah, I'm relieved."

"but why!"

"Why should my life be buried with these bastards!"

"Why don't I deserve to feel the beauty of being alive!"

"Why! I'm ready to start from scratch, but you guys are coming to ruin my life!"

"You, you! Why do you ruin my life and kill me in a place like this!"

"I could have."

"You can feel family affection, friendship, and love."

"I could have survived even the scars, the fragments, the darkest days."

"But why, why!"

"Why do you pester me endlessly even when you die!"

"I hate it, I hate it so much!"

"I could have gone on!"

"I've survived all the hardships and I'm only 22!"

"But you are such a disgusting, dirty, cowardly, vile and shameful bastard, why did you come to me at this time and still want to kill me!"

"I will not let you go!"

"Remember, I won't let you go..."

……

Wraith, human skin raincoat.

Resentment, life that is not miserable enough.

(End of this chapter)