The little poor boy in the 80th compound is a master of metaphysics

Chapter 181 The price of growth

"Heh, heh." After hearing what Su Yan said, Sun Mang actually laughed.

Su Yan just looked at him calmly, knowing that it was just him venting his sadness.

"It turned out to be like this. You suddenly changed your attitude towards me. I thought it was my own sincerity that touched you. I didn't expect it to be grandma." Having laughed enough, Sun Mang laughed at himself.

Su Yan resisted the urge to slap him.

"So? What do you want?"

"I don't want to do anything. No matter what reason you accept me, you are helping me. I only hate myself for being too weak, and I can't even protect my only family. But it's just me who is so useless that I still want to go Save others. Su Yan, do you think I'm particularly ridiculous?"

At this moment, in Sun Mang's eyes, there was only deep denial and sarcasm towards himself.

"I don't think you are ridiculous. Although you are still weak, you have been working hard. Your grandma and I have seen this hard work, but if you want to give up, I will not force you .”

Su Yan has always been rational, even when facing the current Sun Mang.

His own life is of course his own choice.

"Su Yan, do you know what I can't forgive myself the most?" Sun Mang's voice was suppressed and suffocated.

Su Yan was silent.

"I was so excited when I came out of Li Qing's house that day. I felt that I had become stronger. When you asked me the details, you completely forgot the little mirror I brought out of Li Qing's room. I think It's insignificant, if I hadn't been so conceited at the time, grandma wouldn't have..." Sun Mang couldn't go on anymore, and slapped himself hard.

"Even if there were no incidents that day, your grandma would have left. I think the old man chooses this way to protect you because he is willing." Su Yan did not wait for his remorse to finish, and emphasized it again.

Sometimes people feel pain, just because they grasp the root of the pain and refuse to let go.

"You have to accept the reality, is it because your grandma is gone, and you have to die together? Or live up to your grandma's good intentions and live according to her wish. These are what you should think about."

Sun Mang held his head in his hands, unwilling to let Su Yan see his cowardly tears.

"I know it all, but Su Yan, I'm really sad."

Really, really sad.

Su Yan took a step forward and patted his shoulder hesitantly.

"No one will accompany us for the rest of our lives, especially if we choose the path of exorcism, our future is doomed to be full of darkness, blood and death. You can make yourself decadent and shrink back, but don't take too long until you can stand up More courage is needed."

"I said that no matter what kind of life you choose next, I will support you. You think about it carefully, and then come to me."

Following Su Yan's departure, the courtyard became completely silent.

Sun Mang sat alone in the yard, looking at every corner was the figure of grandma...

The days have returned to calm.

Su Yan was not idle during the time at home.

The day after Li Qiuhua and Su Mo moved out of the compound, she called the construction team to clean up everything inside and out.

She didn't care what kind of environment she lived in, but she was worried that Su Jiang would fall in love with him.

At first, Su Jianguo refused. After all, the family not only has no money, but also owes Wu Qi a foreign debt. Even Su Qiang's child support was paid by Su Yan during the divorce, so he didn't want to pay at this time. Extravagance.

But Su Yan made him not have to worry about money, not only paid off Wu Qi's debt without telling him, but also immediately paid the construction team a deposit in advance.

Now Su Jianguo couldn't do it if he didn't agree.

The great fanfare of the Su family aroused a lot of discussion among the people in the compound.

But Su Yan doesn't care what outsiders think.

Not only at home, she also sent a sum of money to Granny Li.

She knew that Granny Li's usual life was extremely frugal, and she didn't need too much expenses at all, so she asked Granny Li to hand over the money to the village chief to pave a good road for the village.

Daliushu Village is really too remote, not only in the col, but even the roads in the village are rugged, and when it rains, the outside is full of mud and water.

Su Yan also specially told Granny Li in the letter that the world outside is very vast and the money is very easy to earn, so she should not worry about anything.And she will also look for opportunities to tell her father that her eyes have recovered.

After experiencing what happened to Grandma Sun, she seemed to know how to cherish the relatives around her even more.

After such a busy week, she also waited until Sun Mang came to the door on his own initiative.

Sun Mang, who hadn't seen him for just a few days, lost a lot of weight, and was completely skinny, with a fine layer of stubble even appearing on his face.

But fortunately, it seems that his complexion has recovered a lot, and his eyes are full of energy.

"Su Yan, can you go out for a walk with me?"

Without the laughing and joking in the past, he seems to be a different person now, polite and reserved.

Su Yan is already mentally prepared, "Okay."

The two came out of the compound, and Su Yan calmly followed Sun Mang.

When the two walked out of the county, she probably understood where Sun Mang wanted to take her.

Sure enough, I finally arrived at Grandma Sun's grave.

Sun Mang knelt in front of the grave and kowtowed to Grandma Sun. He is no longer out of control like he was a few days ago.

"Su Yan, can I say it in front of grandma?"

Su Yan said: "Yes."

Sun Mang's firm eyes fell on Grandma Sun's tombstone, "I've decided to be an exorcist in the future."

Su Yan was not surprised. Although he usually looks like a fool, he is extremely persistent on this road.

"But I won't be by your side anymore." Sun Mang finally turned his head to look at Su Yan, with too many suppressed emotions in his eyes.

"Why?" Su Yan felt it was necessary to ask clearly.

Sun Mang worked hard, "Because I am not worthy to stand by your side now. I am too weak and self-willed. From the beginning, I will only drag you down and bring you trouble."

"I don't think so."

There was indeed noise and trouble, but she never regarded him as a drag.

"I know. Su Yan, you are really not cruel at all. Although ordinary people seem cold and only interested in doing business, you have a very warm heart. Others annoy me and look down on me, only you Treat me as a classmate, a partner, and teach me skills."

Sun Mang never said these words to Su Yan or anyone else, but now he really wants to say them.

Su Yan looked at him hesitantly, "I'm not as good as you said."

"You have. It is because of you that my life is different. It is you who give me the goal to pursue. If I stay with you all the time, or I can get the best care, but I also want to I want to be able to stand in front of you when I encounter danger one day, instead of just watching the relatives and friends I care about the most fall into danger." Sun Mang's voice was trembling slightly at the end.

He has lost his grandma, and he must not lose her.

"So?" Su Yan probably understood what he meant.

"So I plan to leave this county, go outside to practice, and really let myself grow up, is that okay?"

Until now, Su Yan is still the backbone of Sun Mang.

Only her words can make him completely at ease.

(End of this chapter)