I work as a teacher at a girls' school in Tokyo

Chapter 227 Everything Will Gone With The Wind Without A Trace, That's How We Live
In the living room of Yugong's house, Yugongye has already left for the time being, and only Hirakawa Zhewen and Yugong's mother are left facing each other on the sofa.

Hirakawa Tetsubun picked up the black tea and took a sip.

"Mrs. Yugong, please allow me to ask a question."

He said that when he put down his teacup.

"Have you ever thought about this question, that is..."

After a slight delay, the mother on the opposite side was somewhat prepared.

"You have given up your job and returned to your family. However, Yu Gongye is always too..."

The blunt and overly negative word 'solitary' was omitted.

"Always alone, this situation has not changed."

"..."

Because of his speech, Mrs. Amamiya stared at him blankly, but hadn't reacted in time.

Hirakawa Tetsuwen continued to add.

"It means——even though Mrs. Amamiya is indeed very intentional in returning to the family, and as a mother, you have indeed done what you can do, but... it is very likely that you are going in the wrong direction."

"..."

"I might be rude when I say that, sorry."

Hirakawa Tetsubun paused again, waiting for Amamiya's mother's attitude.

She recovered after waiting for a while: "No, that, Mr. Pingchuan, please continue."

After hearing this, Hirakawa Tetsuwen nodded: "Well, okay, then I will continue."

"Have you ever thought about the situation of Yu Gongye, although it was caused by the lack of companionship at the beginning, the solution may not be solved simply by adding more companionship."

"Let me give you an example, just take myself."

While Amamiya's mother was waiting, Hirakawa Tetsubun was brewing.

"For example, when I was a kid, to be honest, my parents didn't discipline me much."

"..." Yu Gong's mother blinked and stared at him, she could only listen because she couldn't get into the topic.

What Hirakawa Tetsuwen was talking about happened in the previous life.

Indeed, in fact, many students like him in his previous life faced a situation where their parents were not accompanied by them.

Because I lacked family education when I was young, when I grow up, all aspects have been formed. To be honest, it is often too late to accompany me in this situation.

"Because I have experienced this kind of thing, from the standpoint of a Zeng Jin's child and today's teacher, I can say that when a child is still young, the company of parents is really important."

"The companionship in childhood almost established the communication situation between children and parents."

"It's because when I was young, I didn't have much communication with my parents, so it caused a gap between me and my parents."

"Well, there's nothing wrong with that. In fact, no matter how close the relationship is, if there is a lack of communication, there will be estrangement. Even if it is as close as a parent and child, there will be."

"And this kind of gap, once created, is actually very difficult to make up."

"Because the character habits developed in childhood are indeed difficult to change."

"To give the most obvious example—"

When Hirakawa Tetsuwen said this, he smiled slightly.

"I'm not afraid of your jokes. When I was a child, even though I was a boy, I really wanted to act like a baby with my parents, and so on. I should have had this kind of thinking, since I was a child."

"But ah..."

"The paradox is that I have never acted like a baby to my parents."

"..."

"..."

Because of Hirakawa Tetsubun's words, the living room fell into a cold silence.

Yugong's mother opened her mouth, but she didn't know what to say.

Hirakawa Tetsubun was still smiling.

A very warm smile, but... It should be obvious that there is a bit of bitterness in it.

"Why not?"

"I think you may have some answers."

"It's the estrangement."

"Although I often want to act like a baby with my parents in my heart, I usually feel envious when I see classmates who can act like a baby with their parents."

"However, once it's time to do it, the appearance of the words changes when it comes to the mouth, and it has never been done, so that kind of coquettish look can't be done naturally."

"It's a bit sad, but it's true. I never acted like a baby to my parents until I grew up and sensible, and I have long passed the age of being able to act like a baby."

"I personally think that the fundamental reason is the communication gap caused by the lack of companionship."

"And as I said before, the communication when I was a child lays the foundation for the communication when I grow up."

"Children who have been with their parents since they were young and can act like a baby freely will probably do the same when they grow up."

"As for children who have not seen their parents since they were young, and may not be able to say a few words, when they see their parents in the future, perhaps there is a lot of love in their hearts, but ah, for groups like them, it is difficult to express it. of."

"Children who are not used to expressing their emotions to their parents will find it difficult to express them when they grow up."

"It's like acting like a baby that I could never do when I was a kid."

"..."

"..."

In speechless silence, Hirakawa Tetsubun drank the black tea in front of him in one gulp.

Afterwards, he asked lightly, but as if he had hit a fatal weakness.

"Allow me to ask you a question."

"Student Yu Gongye, has she ever acted like a baby to you?"

"Have you had it before? And after that, after you started to accompany her, have you?"

"..."

……

Hirakawa Tetsufumi left, and under the leadership of Ms. Hatsaki, walked out of the gate of Amemiya's house.

"Mr. Hirakawa, please go slowly."

"sorry to bother you."

Ms. Hatsaki, who was wearing a maid outfit, bowed behind her. Hirakawa Tetsufumi said goodbye to her and turned away. Behind her, the door of Amemiya's house was slowly closed.

Tetsufumi Hirakawa walked towards the tram stop.

The scenery along the way is just right, the afternoon sun is very bright, the swaying shade of trees on the sidewalk, the cracked light and deep tree shadows are intertwined, swaying on the body.

Hirakawa Zhewen began to think of the silent answer of Amamiya's mother before leaving.

Obviously, the answer is no.

She lacked companionship since she was a child, and even if Yugong's mother corrected it later and returned to the family, this kind of companionship was a little too late.

The estrangement between Yu Gongye and his mother has already arisen.

Although... Does Yu Gongye want her mother to accompany her?think.

Is there a gap in communication between her and her mother?existing.

This is not a contradiction.

It is not uncommon for people to be able to say anything in front of others, but unable to say a word in front of their parents for a long time.

The second-year middle school girl who can show her heart wantonly in front of him, but it is difficult to show the real her in front of her mother, and she can't even act like a baby.

That's it.

Moreover, facing the mother who gave up her job and returned to the family out of compensatory psychology, one of the problems that Yu Gongye must face is——

The love out of compensation is speechless, and this speechlessness is imposed on the two people who already have a communication gap, making this speechlessness even more secretive.

If Yu Gongye was alone, she might never be able to share her inner feelings with her mother.

Secondary two, with a hidden body, her true appearance can never be shown in front of her mother.

And because of her mother's denial—

"If the child gets sick because of this kind of thing, it will be very troublesome."

The denial from the closest people made this girl deny her appearance in her heart, let alone show her appearance like this.

Hirakawa Tetsufumi was the only one who gave her affirmation.

So it is not difficult to imagine the trust of this second-year girl in him.

But of course this is not enough, the affirmation from her mother is what this girl wants most.

Therefore, Hirakawa Zhewen agreed to resolve this matter with her, and communicate this matter clearly with her mother.

Obviously, the communication gap caused by the lack of companionship cannot be solved simply by being accompanied again.

Under the premise that the estrangement has already arisen, an opportunity is needed to eliminate the estrangement.

What Hirakawa Tetsuwen did was to create this opportunity for them.

But this kind of opportunity cannot be created immediately, it needs to be done step by step.

Today's home visit, what Hirakawa Zhewen did was to plant a seed in Yugong's mother's heart, making her realize that the problem had not been solved, and Yugong Ye was hiding something from her.

The reason for the concealment lies in the estrangement and the lack of communication.

And now the seeds have been planted, just waiting for the next time to let it germinate.

This will take a while, don't rush.

However, if the process goes well, maybe it can be resolved during the school festival?
The plan has already been drawn up in the mind, just waiting to be executed.

That's it, take your time.

just...

Hirakawa Zhewen, who was wandering slowly on the road, looked at the clear blue sky, pedestrians and vehicles around him, and his thoughts followed the high sky.

Because of the conversation with Yugong's mother just now, the misty memories of the previous life began to emerge, like broken ruins covered by dust, the dust was blown away by the wind, revealing a little trace of existence.

What happened to the parents in the previous life?
Sadly, or perhaps not sadly, most of the memory has been forgotten, even the face is blurred.

What is also sad, or not sad, is that now when they are mentioned, there is only a vague impression left, and their emotions are also indifferent, without sadness or joy.

It's hard to say whether this is sad or not.

Forgetting is a human self-protection mechanism.

If you live a new life with pleasant, nostalgic, sad...all kinds of things from the previous life, and these things are engraved in your mind, then if you live a new life, these unforgettable memories will only Become an indelible scar?
Because I will never see you again.

The result of being unable to forget is that a person will always sink into the past and never get out.

Even a newborn body and a decayed mind will drag people into the abyss.

From this point of view, forgetting is necessary.

The faces of his parents, friends, and the teacher who gave him expectations in the previous life are all blurred, leaving only rough memories and rough events, marking that they have indeed left traces in his life.

But there was nothing else, not even the name of his own past life.

Memories after a lifetime have become old noise-filled movies, and when recalled, only tiny nostalgia remains.

In this regard, it can only be said that forgetting is the beginning of a new life.

At the beginning of this life, at the stage of babbling, Hirakawa Zhewen's memories of his previous life hadn't recovered, and it was not until he was about to enter kindergarten that some fragments gradually emerged.

If all the memories, all the clear memories, were just given to him from the very beginning, would he still be able to integrate into his current family so easily?

Can you easily integrate into the life of this world?
The obvious answer is no.

So, again, forgetting is the body's self-protection mechanism, forgetting is the beginning of a new life.

When Hirakawa Tetsuwen repeated this sentence, he thought of, besides the blurred things of the previous life, there was also a very clear image of a young girl in this life.

It's Shiori Shinohara.

"Everything will go with the wind, without a trace, that's how we live."

……

The next day, Sunday, September 9th, Hirakawa Tetsuwen met Yu Gongye at home.

"Student Yugong, come in."

"This body is disturbing."

The girl who was well-behaved in front of her mother yesterday was wearing a Lolita skirt in front of him today, showing him her unique umbrella closing skills.

I have to say, it's really impressive.

Opening the door to give way, a girl holding up her skirt and saluting came in.

Then he treated this place as his own home, put on his slippers, and walked into the living room under Hirakawa Zhewen's subtle eyes.

"Teacher Hirakawa, what's wrong?"

"……nothing."

I don't know what kind of complicated mood Yugong's mother will have when she sees Yugong Ye like this in front of him.

Hirakawa Tetsubun just thought about it substitutingly, and his mood was very complicated.

The daughter completely disguised herself in front of her, and only showed her real appearance when facing others...

But is there any way, he is the only person who positively admits the existence of the two personalities in Yugong Yezhong, and if he imagines the psychology of this girl who has lost her mother's company since she was a child, she will know that this dependence all the time is not for no reason up.

Thinking of this, Hirakawa Zhewen could only accept this reality with a little helplessness.

"Okay, sit down."

After getting rid of the strange thoughts in his mind, Hirakawa Zhewen walked to the sofa and said to Yu Gongye who suddenly stopped.

But after two steps, he knew why Yu Gongye stopped suddenly.

A cat is lying on the sofa.

"..."

Even after nearly half a month, facing Michael, Hirakawa Tetsufumi would still recall the morning when Yu Gongye was taken off the bath towel by the cat in the living room of his house.

——Forget this too, forgetting is the beginning of a new life.

Hirakawa Tetsuwen quickly got the bad picture out of his mind.

Fortunately, it has been nearly half a month after all, and the impression is not as deep as it was at the beginning.

After regaining his senses, Hirakawa Tetsufumi walked over and took away Michael who was lazily lying on the sofa.

While hugging, the white cat meowed twice in dissatisfaction.

Hmm... I don't know what to say.

Throw it on the ground, let it find a place to sleep again, and then in the back of Michael walking, Amamiya puffed her cheeks, looked away from the cat, and sat on the sofa.

"After the teacher left yesterday, did Amamiya's mother say anything?"

After Hirakawa Tetsuwen also sat down, he asked.

"Nothing." Yu Gongye shook his head.

"That's it. Okay, then let's start preparing for the follow-up plan."

"Ah."

(End of this chapter)