Red Chamber: Bring Xue Baochai home at the beginning

Chapter 401 Suffocating Love
In this era, it is not as easy to say love as it is in later generations, and it is also easy to separate.

In this era, love is just a beautiful yearning in the hearts of many people.

Especially for women, most of the time, love cannot be declared.

This is especially true for the ladies of the big families who guard the house.

Not to mention that it is true that "the door does not leave the door, the second door does not go", and the chance to meet foreign men may be extremely limited.

For them, love exists more in novels and operas.

Even if a young girl is pregnant, she will follow her engagement and marriage, and it will be buried in her heart forever.

More women are limited by the times, or are forced, or rationally choose to close themselves.

They will not squander this beauty at will, but secretly entrust it to their future husband.

But Xiangyun is an exception.

She never expressed any hope for love, but she was full of longing for freedom.

She didn't have any good sustenance for the Wei family who was engaged.

In her opinion, the promise to Wei's family was just for uncle and aunt to take care of her more conveniently.

In other words, keeping her under the nose is more convenient to control.

In her opinion, because of her father's contribution to the family, her uncles and aunts have been put on moral shackles, so they have to show extra love to her.

But it was this kind of care, to her, like layers of clothes, which made her feel like she was about to suffocate.

The reason why she didn't want to marry into the Wei family had nothing to do with it, it was simply that she didn't want to continue living under such care.

But in such a society, marriage matters are the orders of parents.

She has no parents, so she has to obey the arrangements of her uncle and aunt.

Even if he made an appointment for her to defend the family, it was only to inform her of a result.

Apart from facing each other silently, she was unable to express any opinion on her marriage.

Fortunately, without her parents, she understood from an early age that she did not have the capital to be willful.

All she can do is to play with her sisters and enjoy the few good things while she is still unmarried.

After marriage, she will restrain herself, be a good wife and mother in the eyes of the world, and spend the rest of her life in a daze.

When she was about to accept her fate, fate played a joke on her.

She became a widow, and even the original arrangement became a luxury.

This made her already gloomy future even darker.

You can't marry a good family, and you can't escape the pressure from your second aunt.

She really didn't know how to live in the future.

Just when she was feeling depressed, the second aunt brought Feng Yibo's proposal.

This proposal is like a savior piercing the night, making Xiangyun want to catch it desperately.

Even if there is only a glimmer of light, it is enough to point out a new direction.

It doesn't matter whether Donghai County is good or not, or how the King of Donghai County is.

At least you can escape from the sight of historians and escape from the suffocating love.

"I know that my second aunt treats me very well, and I will definitely think of a way together with my uncle, but I also know that with my current reputation, it may be difficult to find another decent family."

Xiangyun looked at Second Aunt firmly, and said urgently:

"Instead of embarrassing Uncle and Second Aunt, why don't you just let me go to Donghai County, at least the side concubine of the county king won't lose the face of the historian."

She thought it was from the historian's point of view, but she didn't know that such words hurt Madam Wei's heart.

She frowned, looked at Xiangyun for a while, and then said dissatisfied:

"This matter has not yet been written off. When your second uncle comes back, first find a way to find another lover for you in the capital. If there is really no suitable candidate, then go back to Jinling's hometown and choose someone from among the old relatives." It's not difficult to be handsome, but as for the barren land of Donghai County, how can you marry and suffer?"

Originally, Mrs. Wei was a little moved by Feng Yibo's proposal.

But when she heard that Xiangyun seemed to have the intention of sacrificing herself to help the historian, she immediately denied this plan.

Xiangyun's father died in the rescue, so the historian stabilized and continued his power.

Because of his sacrifice, the historian became the top nobleman of a family of two princes.

For this reason, the entire historian must read him well.

How can Mrs. Wei make his only daughter Xiangyun sacrifice again?
If she really wanted to do that, she wouldn't be stabbed in the back?

"I once heard my sisters talk about Donghai County. Although it is isolated overseas, it is not a barren land. Not only is it connected from east to west, the sea trade is flourishing, and most of the people from the Great Wei are still immigrating. The customs are almost the same as those of the Great Wei. .”

Xiang Yun came to his senses and hurriedly slowed down his tone.

She tried to convince Mrs. Wei that Donghai County was not that bad.

"Otherwise, as the king of Donghai County, he would have enjoyed good fortune in the capital long ago, and besides, there will be three girls from Jia's family as companions, and they will take care of each other!"

It's a pity that such a remedy is not convincing for Mrs. Wei.

"That's not OK!"

She flatly denied Xiangyun's remarks, and seemed to feel that her tone was a bit harsh.

Suppressing the irritability in his heart, he softly comforted him:
"It's better to find someone in the capital or back to Jinling. After all, you are also the daughter of the Marquis Mansion. Are you afraid that you won't find a suitable in-law's family?"

In normal times, Mrs. Wei said that she was the same at home, and Xiangyun has always been well-behaved and sensible.

Having said that, the conversation between the two should end.

But today's Xiangyun doesn't want to be sensible anymore!

She didn't want to suffocate, so she could only grab this life-saving straw.

Xiang Yun pursed his lips, swallowed again, finally mustered up the courage, and said pleadingly:
"Second Aunt, I've listened to you for everything these years, can you just let me choose once?"

"Xiangyun! What nonsense are you talking about?"

Mrs. Wei looked at Xiangyun in astonishment, then laughed again and said:
"I'm also in a daze. It's best to discuss this matter with your second uncle. It's really impossible to talk nonsense with a girl like you."

As she spoke, she waved her hand to signal Xiangyun to go down.

If it is normal, Xiangyun should follow the good advice and go back to his room to reflect.

But today, she was uncharacteristically, and no longer listened to her wishes.

Instead, it stands straight and straight, like a nail.

The atmosphere in the room became mysterious.

Mrs. Wei frowned slightly, and was about to speak when Xiangyun said first:
"Since I was young, people in the house have been saying good things about you, saying that I don't have parents, but fortunately you are here."

There was no emotion in this tone, but Mrs. Wei was slightly taken aback, thinking that Xiangyun was going to play the emotional card.

But just squeezed out a smile, wanted to comfort a few words, but heard Xiangyun continue:

"Since I was a child, I didn't dare to move my chopsticks until you told me to eat. I didn't dare to reach out even if I was hungry. If you asked me to eat, I would eat it all. I didn't dare to let go even if I held on."

Living under the fence, the young Xiangyun was afraid that Mrs. Wei would be unhappy and would have nothing to eat.

She doesn't know what rules are, but she has learned to read people's faces.

This kind of sensitivity is hard to describe, and only those who have experienced it can understand it.

"Since I was a child, I've always dressed when you told me to, no matter how tight or hot it is, I dare not show the slightest bit in front of you."

Facing the suffocating concern, she dared not be dissatisfied.

I only dare to relax in a place where Mrs. Wei can't see.

Every time before returning from Rongfu, she would tell Baoyu to come pick her up later.

"Since I was young, when you asked me to study, I studied hard. In order to perform well, I even dreamed of memorizing."

It is years of hard work that makes him a talented person.

But I dreamed back at midnight, but I didn't have the joy of learning at all.

It's all the fear of making my aunt unhappy if I can't memorize it.

"Since I was a child, you asked me to be a female celebrity, and I have always been a female celebrity. Even in the middle of the night, I can't keep my eyes open, and I dare not stop."

The young Xiangyun was very sleepy, and could fall asleep under the shade of flowers after drinking some wine.

But under Mrs. Wei's example, she never dared to be lazy.

Even if you go to Rongfu, you have to bring your homework with you.

The only thing to be happy about is that the maids and sisters of the Rong Mansion saw her pitifully and would help her.

"Later, you asked me to promise to the Wei family, even if I didn't want to marry, because I knew that if I married, I would never be out of your control, and I would live under your rules forever, but even so, I I never thought of disobeying you."

Mrs. Wei was stupefied after listening to the progressive layers of resentment.

She always felt that she was stricter with Xiangyun than her daughter, and it was all for her own good.

Xiangyun's obedient and sensible behavior in front of her also made her more convinced that she was right.

But listening now, why does it sound like he is treating her harshly?
She felt that letting Xiangyun marry her natal family was for her own good.

Her nephew, Wei Ruolan, is also outstanding among the younger generation of honored relatives.

If it weren't for her aunt's strong support, Xiangyun wouldn't be able to turn at all.

But now, it sounds like the Wei family took advantage of it?

Mrs. Wei looked at Xiangyun in disbelief.

But she opened her mouth slightly, but she didn't know where to start.

And Xiangyun's complaint.But still going on.

"Now, I have heard everything I should listen to. Since God made me a widow and gave me a second chance, I want to make my own decisions, okay? Second aunt?"

Is this the well-behaved, sensible, well-educated Xiangyun in her eyes?

How can a woman who is still in the boudoir, even if she is a widow, dare to dictate her own marriage?
Is this when your uncle and I die?
At this moment, Mrs. Wei could no longer suppress her emotions!
She has worked so hard, but Xiangyun, who was raised like her own daughter, has such resentment towards her?

This caused Mrs. Wei, who hadn't gotten over her natal affairs, to burst out with grievances in her heart.

Her eyes were red, and she suppressed the tears from rolling in her eyes, and said aggrievedly:

"Xiangyun! What are you talking about? What are you talking about, which is not for your own good? Letting you eat, let you dress, let you study, let you be a female celebrity, how come these things are all in your eyes Harsh treatment? If I hadn't heard it with my own ears, I would have thought it was some heinous sinner who abused you!"

Madam Wei's voice was like weeping blood, and her lips trembled slightly.

Having said that, she couldn't hold back her tears any longer, and asked in tears:
"You feel your conscience and say, have I treated you as my own all these years, have I ever treated you harshly?"

Seeing this, Xiangyun habitually wanted to give in.

But she has already said hurtful words, how can she take them back?
She simply knelt down on the ground and said earnestly:
"I know Second Aunt, you are doing it for my own good, and I am also grateful for your many years of nurturing and teaching, but Second Aunt, I am also a human being!"

Now that the matter has come to this point, Xiangyun's emotions also exploded.

With the tears falling down, she cried again:
"I'm not an emotionless wooden clay sculpture, nor a marionette at the mercy of others. I don't want to be enshrined there as my parents' spirit seat!"

As soon as these words came out, Mrs. Wei jumped up like a spring.

"Snapped!"

She slapped Xiangyun on the face, pointed at her again, and said tremblingly:

"you you you!"

Xiangyun moved out of his parents, which immediately made Mrs. Wei furious.

She has been cautious in her words and deeds all these years, for fear of being found out a little wrong.

But outsiders all praised it, but the person concerned didn't appreciate it.

What he had always been proud of was instantly shattered by Xiang Yun.

How could she accept this in her heart?

Mrs. Wei also played Xiangyun for the first time, and she couldn't help but regret it after the fight.

But the dignity of the elders made her not regret this choice.

Her hands were frozen in the air, and her face changed back and forth several times.

In the end, the whole person sat back down a little bit, and murmured:

"Okay, okay! I can't control you. My sincerity over the years was wasted, but in the end I got your resentment. If I had known this earlier, my heart would rather be fed to dogs than to control you!"

Seeing that Xiangyun stopped crying after being beaten, and looked at her stubbornly.

Madam Wei suddenly felt angry again, and said angrily:

"Get lost! I won't take care of your business anymore, let your uncle take care of it!"

As she spoke, she suddenly clutched her heart and tilted onto the kang.

"Ouch~ Ouch!"

When Xiangyun saw it, he couldn't care less to argue.

She didn't even have time to get up, she hurriedly moved her knees forward, and crawled to the side of the kang to visit.

While reaching out to hold Mrs. Wei, she asked anxiously:

"Second aunt? Second aunt? How are you?"

Madam Wei closed her eyes, gasped heavily, and uttered a word:

"roll!"

Seeing that she was fine, Xiang Yun was slightly relieved.

"I'm sorry, I will remember the kindness of my second aunt in nurturing me. I also know how kind my second aunt has been to me these years. If I have the opportunity, I will repay Second Aunt's kindness a hundredfold!"

Mrs. Wei asked, and slowly opened her eyes, tears streaming down her face.

"I've been born out of my heart! I can't afford your return!"

Seeing her open her eyes, Xiangyun stopped talking.

Immediately kowtowed a few times silently, then bowed his head and retreated.

Only Mrs. Wei was left in the room, staring at the ceiling with empty eyes.

I don't know if it's introspection, resentment, or self-pity.

But Xiangyun who came out let out a long sigh of relief, as if he had lifted some burden.

Whether you can go to Donghai County or not, you don't have to pretend anymore, do you?

On the other side, after Feng Yibo took the initiative to fight for it, he temporarily put the matter behind him.

The New Year is just around the corner and he's got his hands full.

This New Year, not only are there routine ceremonies to be busy with, but there is also one more important thing.

At that time, the nobles with names and surnames from the entire Wei Dynasty will gather in the capital.

The work of the Ministry of Rites is even more important.

Because the 15th year of Invesco is about to pass.

Great Wei is about to change Yuan.

(End of this chapter)