A sickly beauty becomes a god in a horror game

My name is Ji Qingyue.

In fact, I thought that I had good control over my life.

For the first half of my life, that seemed to be true.

Even though I grew up in a single-parent family, and even though my mother always had endless complaints and pains, I still managed to do what I wanted to do smoothly.

I got into a good university and met someone I really like.

His name is Bai Fengwen. He is very romantic, but sometimes he may be too romantic, but it doesn't matter. No one is perfect. The main thing is that he is good-looking. I like all beautiful and beautiful things.

He is very gentle and always asks for my opinion. If I show dissatisfaction, then he will follow my ideas.

This was fine at first, until I suddenly realized something after getting married.

He is a little too dependent on me.

I don’t know how to say it. Maybe some people will think I’m outrageous. Because my husband is so obedient and obedient to me, I actually feel that he is too opinionated and too clingy. He should do his own thing. Things should have their own lives.

Just like I feel that I also have my own life, shouldn't marriage be about two people going hand in hand to pursue their own ideals?
We started arguing, but those arguments were soon put aside when I found out I was pregnant.

Initially apprehensive, I admit that at the moment of my pregnancy, I thought of my family.

In my opinion, I have shattered the suffering that my mother has endured throughout her life, and I have walked out of a new life.

I will not listen to a man's words like my mother and reduce myself to nothing.

But... I thought wrong.

People who come out of the quagmire are covered in mud, and they seem to have stood in the sun. However, the mud on their bodies will gradually dry out, harden, and stick to their skin, causing the skin to lose moisture and become dry and itchy.

I want to pick it off, but it hurts so much. It seems to have become a part of me, integrated with my skin.

I felt like I was having a long nightmare.

At the beginning of the nightmare, I finally got out of the quagmire, got a happy marriage, and gave birth to a beautiful daughter.

My daughter is cute and smart.

However, I found that I had the shadows of my parents on my body, and those shadows also enveloped my daughter like a shadow, pulling her into the same nightmare.

My husband is the same as before, he will even complain about me, give his energy to the children, and no longer love him as before.

I was so angry that we had our first quarrel. I thought he was being unreasonable.

Later, our quarrels became more and more frequent, and the nightmares became more and more severe. I entered an endless cycle of terror.

Later, I saw my daughter huddled in the corner looking at us in fear.

She has had different talents from other children since she was a child. She has an excellent memory. I know that my daughter will never forget everything.

I don't know how to make up for it.

If I die, will the shadow and nightmare hanging over my daughter disappear?
I didn’t know what I was doing. I felt like I had gone crazy. There seemed to be countless voices in my head. I seemed to be in a different world. The recurring nightmares entangled me, strangled my throat, and made it impossible for me to breathe.

I gave up struggling.

Because I'm really tired. Why is this happening?Why can't I do it?

Sorry my baby...

……

I asked Bai Feng to ask.

I grew up knowing that I was different from other boys because they would tease me for being sissy.

I like clean and tidy, I like beautiful things, I yearn for beautiful things.

So I met my wife.

She fits my ideal ideal perfectly.

We are together and have a baby.At first I was very looking forward to the arrival of the child, when I found out she was pregnant.

But later I discovered that raising a child is not as simple as giving birth to her.

The voices from the past reappeared.

Why are you so worthless?

Sissy.

whee.

My sister once said, brother, why can't you be like other boys?Is your personality too soft?
I used to think, what does it matter?I am me, others are others, and I am not sorry to anyone.

But now I suddenly feel that I am really, really useless. I can't help my wife bear her pressure.

Her spirit collapsed day by day, and I collapsed day by day.

I should hold on at times like this.

I started trying hard to change.

But everything was like a nightmare. Step by step in this nightmare, I finally lost the most important person to me.

They all said my wife was dead, I didn't believe it, I thought she was just missing and she would come back or I would go find her.

But what about the children?

At a certain moment, I will think viciously, it would be better if I didn't have this child.

But soon I realized that even without this child, what should happen would still happen. In the final analysis, I was too immersed in fantasy, and life and fantasy are different.

I think I'm crazy.

When I scared my child away again, I chased her in panic, fearing that something might happen to her.

I didn't see the truck speeding by.

When I was involved, I saw my young daughter looking back with horror in her eyes.

Ah, I do deserve to die.

……

I am Ji Qingyue.

Is death a relief?

perhaps.

Because facing the problem head-on, solving the problem, and bearing the cost of the problem requires a lot of courage.

We are each struggling in the game of fate, and life always falls into reincarnation after reincarnation.

But the wheel is moving forward.

When I saw Bai Feng in the game and asked, I knew that he would finally come.

In fact, I am not qualified to accuse him, because I am the same.

Are the things I thought were good for my children really so?

When I heard her tell me, Mom, I am fine now and I already know what I want to do, I knew that I could really let go.

Bai Feng asked too.

everything is over.

But I know that my child's life has just begun.