I, the only extraordinary in this world

Chapter 1 Gradually rots in the ordinary
"Li Heng, do you really want to leave?"

The young man who was slowly packing his things at the workstation raised his head. His face was a little thin and his cheeks were slightly shrunk, but his bones still showed that he was a pretty handsome young man.

"Hey, I lost another comrade who can fish at work~"

Xiao Chen at the next station sighed softly and said softly.

Li Heng smiled: "There will only be more and more comrades like this in the future, and there will be no shortage of me."

He patted his shoulder and continued to pack his things.

Fishing?
If you need to calculate when you go to the bathroom, you have to run out of breath to get takeout, and you must start a summary report after work... In this work mode, go to the roof to take a few breaths of fresh air during the short-term slack of the personnel supervisor ( Of course they are going to smoke) Even if they are fishing~
It feels like it's a dead fish.

Soon, Li Heng had almost cleaned up, and now he realized that even though he had been in this company for four or five years, there were really few traces of him.

After five years of operation, it was cleaned up in 10 minutes.

"Let's go? Sigh~ I still have a bunch of approval documents in my hand, I really don't have time to send you off..."

Li Heng shook his head and said with a smile: "No need, you are busy, I know how much work the company has arranged, so don't waste time"

Hearing what he said, Xiao Chen also laughed and agreed.

Anyway, he was the only one who greeted Li Heng. The rest of the people were all buried on the shore, the keyboard crackling, the phone ringing non-stop, not many people noticed that there was an empty seat here.

However, when Li Heng walked out of the big office, he looked back and found that Chen Zheng happily put his printer, small self-heating tea machine, and takeaway tray on Li Heng's workstation.

After all, there are too many things on the shelf on his seat, which looks very bloated. Although he will definitely be criticized by the personnel supervisor for doing so, as long as he doesn't find it for a while, it will be fine if he can keep it for a day.

It seemed that he had been thinking about it for a while, Li Heng smiled wryly and walked out of the gate.

Walking out of the company gate, out of the shadow of the office building, came outside and looked at the gray sky, the weather today is not very good.

"Go back, go home..."

Six years ago, after graduating from university, he left his hometown and came to this first-tier city in China—Donghai City.

Some people say that life is a circle, but Li Heng didn't expect this circle to be so short.

I used to be an energetic young man full of expectations and longings. When I first arrived, I saw the city full of lights, feasting, and high-rise buildings like forests. I thought that my life would bloom again and bloom gorgeous flowers.

But the reality taught him a lesson, making him understand that ideals are just "you think so".

When he first joined this large company, he saw the difference in the world. In the same department, there were also interns and salesmen. The normal six-month conversion period for some people only took three months.

Is it because that person is smart and capable?Is it because that person is skilled in business?
It wasn't until later that I learned from other colleagues that his uncle was a B-level customer of the company. After graduation, he didn't look for a job at home, so he arranged to come here temporarily.

His biggest achievement during the internship period was to invite people from the department to drink coffee for a week. Since then, all his internship tasks have "accidentally" scored to Li Heng and several other interns, and he only needs to be there. I was happily chatting with my female colleagues in the office about what new styles were released this season, and I had never even heard of those awkward foreign names of Li Heng.

Li Heng also received the coffee he invited, but he couldn't drink it, it was too bitter.

But at that time, he felt that this was just the beginning, this kind of small accidental phenomenon, it was no big deal, as long as he worked hard and worked hard, there would always be a day when he would be seen.

Then he saw one after another that the veteran employees who had been working hard for seven or eight years were fired because of the reason of "illegal handwriting". When the notice was received, the man stood in front of the personnel office door in a daze, raised his hand to knock on the door and hesitated to put it down. I stood in front of the door for more than ten minutes over and over again, and finally left with a face ashamed.

And the personnel supervisor was standing behind the shutters in the office, watching him indifferently.

The real reason is that the department leader has changed, and the new leader has formed a team. As for the old employees?
Ha ha.

At that moment, he suddenly realized that sometimes personal efforts and will are not so meaningful?

But if you really want to say how dark and cruel this company is, it is not enough to be a man-eating and exploitative factory.

But every day I woke up with the alarm, and fell asleep in the early hours of the morning looking at the work group that was still sending messages. I ordered a takeaway to solve my daily eating in the middle of the busy day. I wasted one after another in meetings that gradually became meaningless. go time...

why?

He often stares up at the starless city night scene, and asks such questions that no one can answer.

Everyone seems to be smirking and pretending to be happy to live a life without change and repetition, and calculate the slightest possible benefit. Even the order of using the shredder in the office can make people in the same department divided into seven groups. The eight small groups went to secretly slander.

There are also people who are slick and know what's going on, wandering around in front of various leaders, and are so well-informed that they even know exactly what brand of ice cream the leader's son likes to eat, and when the leader loses power and fails in the struggle, he can be so decisive And it was so hot that he kicked it away and replaced it with a new high platform and pillar.

Li Heng realized the gap between himself and others. This kind of ability is something he doesn't have, and there are certain things that people like him can't do.

He used to look down on such people, but after a long time, he no longer looks at such people maliciously, it is a way of survival.

And the facts have also proved that this society and the environment are indeed more suitable for this way of life. It is also a kind of ability, and I am not as good as a human being.

After a long time, Li Heng also lamented that his young self had a higher heart than the sky and a thinner life than paper. He was not as good as those kings, not as good as those cunning, and not as good as the real second generation.

I am just a mortal.

The car drove very fast, and soon returned to the rental house. He continued to tidy up the room of about [-] square meters and organize the things he wanted to take back.

Then he found a pink hairpin from the crack of the bed, and he felt a sense of loss when he saw this thing.

Doing the math, it has been almost two months since my girlfriend left, and there is probably no chance of seeing each other again in the future, after all, my hometown is thousands of kilometers away from Donghai City.

This issued card belonged to a girl named Chen Xi, who met him more than two years ago.

The life of the two is very happy. He still remembers that he bought this card for her not long after they met, and then he didn't know where it went. She was anxious for a long time, but she didn't expect to find it here.

They will cook together, clean up together, and tidy up the [-]-square-meter rented house. She will also laugh at the fish she cooks for being too fishy, ​​and she will also laugh at her vegetable sprouts for being uncooked, and then the two of them will go down together. Ordered fried noodles.

At that time, I would keep imagining the future with her, and I would always pay attention to the information of various big real estates in Donghai City. Individuals worry about it together, and finally the two go to have a spicy hot meal together to relieve their worries.

She would also shave herself and trim her eyebrows, saying that he was too fussy. Li Heng was still not convinced and said that she bought too many bottles and jars, and she said they were all discounted and not expensive.

Now the crude dressing table is empty, and Li Heng feels empty in his heart when he looks at it.

But none of this could last forever, even Li Heng knew in his heart that he was just afraid of this day.

But reality is reality, what should be there will never be less, and what should come will always come.

After meeting her parents that night, Li Heng was probably mentally prepared.

Her parents are actually quite polite, unlike urban novels where snobbery is written on their faces, yelling that you are worthy of my daughter's low-level clichés.

At least the process was relatively polite, but after inquiring about Li Heng's family background, personal assets, and work status, he frowned slightly, and then said a few simple words.

"We still hope that our daughter can settle in Donghai City"

"Well, I don't want her to be too burdened in her future life."

The words are very simple, the meaning is also expressed very clearly, and Li Heng understands it very clearly.

Sometimes there are not so many dramatic conflicts in reality, it is just so straightforward, simple and direct but hurtful.

Li Heng said that he can understand, but also wants to fight for it.

So many people in the world can make money, why can't I?
TikTok, Red Book, Douban, Zhihu, etc. There are so many video posts showing off wealth that can drown people. There are people who earn a luxury car in 20 days from a side job, deliver food to buy a car and a house, and flip sneakers. Baobao earns 20 years’ wages as a wage earner, earns a few thousand a day from self-media, and earns millions a year from writing novels online...

Can you say that you are not envious or jealous?That's fake. I always feel that all the wealth in the world has gathered on you?Can you give me a little bit, just a little bit.

Just a little bit is enough to continue your love.

In the end, Li Heng's struggle is just a struggle. Delivering food can't earn a car or a house, at least not within ten years. I was really happy when I was making a video and watched the number of hits rise from single digits to double digits, but that's all.

As for writing novels, it cannot be said to be a bright road, at least it is a dead end.

When I was young, I probably never thought that he would be so ordinary when he grew up, that he would be powerless even in the face of major events in life.

In the end, he could only choose to face the reality and accept it.

On the night when he made the decision, he took Chen Xi to a rather expensive western restaurant for a meal, and they usually would not want to come here.

What was said and talked about that night, I don't remember very clearly, the only thing I remember is Chen Xi's red eyes, he can't think about those eyes, otherwise he will feel very uncomfortable.

In fact, before that, her parents had intentionally or unintentionally revealed to him the various blind dates they had arranged for their daughter. There are civil servants within the system; there is a Taobao store that has earned a physical store in Donghai City; there is also a certain real estate sales champion holding a big pile of year-end bonuses...

"I'm a loser..."

Li Heng commented on himself in this way, he flinched and gave up. He is also a member of the society. He has no background and can't mix with others. How can he not be defeated?

"You are a good girl, I hope you will be happy in the future"

Putting down the pink hairpin in his hand, he didn't take it with him, leaving it here, in the past.

After packing up everything, I finally found out that there were only two suitcases and a large bag. These were all traces of myself in this city.

Sitting on the high-speed rail and looking at the scenery of speeding and receding outside the porthole, Li Heng's mind was empty and he had nothing to think about.

Choosing to leave and return to his hometown was also due to physical pressure. Years of overtime work, staying up late, eating fast food, and emotional anxiety...had caused various hidden dangers in his body. Every autumn and winter, he felt chest tightness and shortness of breath. Chang, especially the rainy and humid climate of Donghai City, made him feel like his lungs were stuffed with cotton wool.

I saw it in the hospital, and the doctor only said that the physical condition is too poor, and the respiratory tract has chronic damage, and it needs long-term conditioning to keep it relaxed and happy, not overworked, and the nutrition must be able to keep up.

Li Heng can only say, um, if I can have this kind of life, I won't have to look for you.

The high-speed railway traveled thousands of kilometers across several provinces and cities, passing through countless mountains and rivers. Looking at the continuous scenery outside the window, Li Heng couldn't help but secretly sighed.

The vast world is so vast, why does one person live in such a narrow and aggrieved way.

After most of the day, he returned to his hometown province, then got on the bus and then transferred to a country bus. After traveling through several villages, he finally returned to his hometown village.

However, I don't know if it was because of the long journey and a hypoglycemia attack. When he got off the car, his eyes suddenly turned black, his head fainted, and he fell on the side of the road.

In the darkness, an indescribable brilliance surged from the depths of Li Heng's consciousness. It was like countless hundreds of millions of fireflies gathered in one place, and it was also like the nameless color at the beginning of the creation of the world. Heng's consciousness and memory were combined and turned into four big characters - transforming the mortal into the holy!
If you can prove to be extraordinary in one life, why bother to rot in this world.

(End of this chapter)