Clearly, she doesn't want to be a concubine

Chapter 108
He was pulled back to reality, he opened his eyes, looked at her, examined her.

His heart was repeating over and over again, the person in front of him was the person he had been waiting for, and the person he had begged for so long.

She is bright and transparent, and her eyes are not limited to one family.But like him, he can see the development of things hundreds of years from a distance, but it is always fixed in the present.

"You and I are bosom friends." Kangxi finally admitted this matter.

She is the best match for him.

They have the same disposition, proud, arrogant, clear-headed, capable of controlling the world without going out, and everything works according to their plan.Even though it seems to be driven by external objects, from the beginning to the end, the development of the matter has always been in their own hands.

This is the art of kings.

There are always idiots who think that the art of an emperor lies in checks and balances.

Just like Ming Shizong Jiajing, who thought that manipulating the court was just a child's behavior.Instead, put the power under his hands, let the group of ministers and the world know that it doesn't matter if there is no emperor in this court.

As a result, Donglin became powerful, and the eunuch party became powerful, and it was difficult for the later emperors to take back the imperial power.

Jiajing thought he was a smart man, but in fact he was just a big fool.

They are wrong.

The real art of the emperor lies in only two words: control.

Everything in the world is under control, whether it is people, things, things, or even the development of things, they are all under the control of the emperor.

The emperor is the way of heaven in the world.

Everything is in the Tao, so the Tao naturally controls all things, but the Tao does not use such power, but nothing can escape the control of the Tao.

The same is true for the emperor.

Need checks and balances?unnecessary.

Because for them, everything that everyone under them possesses comes from their permission, and without their permission, those people are nothing.

Just like, even if it is as expensive as Suo'etu, only with his acquiescence can Suo'etu's guard of honor be overstepped, and the position can be even higher than that of the prince.But when he doesn't allow it, Suo'etu will be deprived of all his official positions.

To them, everything in the world is just a tool to achieve their goals, such as loyal ministers, honest officials, and treacherous sycophants.It's nothing more than a tool.

Keep it if it works well, discard it if it doesn’t work well, what a pity.

It's a pity that there are only a few real emperors after all, and those who can achieve checks and balances like Ming Shizong Jiajing did, let alone real emperors like them?
Because a real emperor must have the ability and insight to see all the essence of the world.

Because of insight, so despair, so lonely, so called lonely.

He met her.

Her presence made him feel that he was not alone.

She hides well.

However, she is still human after all, she has weaknesses in this world, and she will strike for her weaknesses again and again, leaving some traces as long as she strikes.

This trace was enough for him to see clearly what kind of person she was.

Therefore, he was always unable to get close to her completely, nor could he leave her completely.

Who can fully accept who they really are?Who can completely abandon themselves?
When everyone makes every choice, which choice is not for their own good?
They are not similar, they are the other selves in the world, and their thoughts and souls resonate.

How should he let her go?

How would he give up on himself?
He looked at her, trying to engrave her in his mind, his eyes were heavy, and he couldn't see any thoughts.

He painted her eyebrows and eyes: "Will you teach your children to fight for the throne?"

He didn't know what answer he wanted to wait for, but he just wanted to ask this question.

Umalu opened her eyes and looked at him, her gaze was like the water in an ancient well, hiding everything.

She said in her mouth: "The crown prince has decided earlier, the sixth child is not in good health, and the fourth child is now being raised by the imperial concubine, so the slave can't think about it, so he will do such a thing."

He kissed her lips.

He confirmed his intentions between the opening and closing of her lips and teeth.

At first, he thought that he loved the freedom and unyielding hidden in her eyes, her beautiful appearance, or love for no reason.

But after he had gone through so much, he finally understood.

He loved her as much as he loved himself.

Everyone in this world loves themselves unconditionally, and no one will give up on themselves.

So, even if he wanted to let go of her thousands of times, he would want to return to her thousands of times.

He kissed her lips, rubbing his ears together.

"I am pleased with you."

I am happy with myself.

At this moment, he suddenly relieved that he loved her.

But he knows better, he loves Jiangshan more.

If one day, for the sake of Jiangshan, he will kill her himself.

He murmured in her ear: "Elinzhu, don't give me a reason to kill you."

His love seems bloody and brutal, insisting on cutting people apart from the inside out, blending blood with blood, touching bone with bone, and sticking flesh with flesh.

Between the lips and teeth, there should be evil blood.

What he wants has never been any emotion that touches the surface without pain or itching, but a love that goes deep into the bone marrow.

It takes too much energy to love this matter, so he only wants to love one person deeply.

His heart belonged to this man alone, and this man belonged to him alone.

Spring night.

Kangxi had a dream, it was a long time ago, he almost forgot it.

In the dream, he suddenly appeared in the Huangzhuang where he lived when he had smallpox when he was young.

In that Huangzhuang, he made countless wishes, but none of them came true.

He saw his little self standing under the tree, making a wish piously, and made the last wish.

Little he said, "I want one that comes for me..."

He added: "The ones who come only for me."

The traveling monk begged for a bowl of water.

After the monk finished drinking the water, he clasped his hands together and handed him a bell, a simple copper bell, strung with broken bright yellow beads.

The monk said, "Your wish will definitely come true. The person you are waiting for will definitely come to you."

The monk's eyes fell on the bell, and he said everything calmly: "When she comes to you, after you give this bell to her, she will never leave you again."

At that time, he didn't know whether it was true or not. He took the bell, clasped his hands together, and made a sincere wish: "Then I hope she will come soon, I will treat her very well, and I will give her everything I have. "

As his voice fell, a white light descended from the sky and landed in Yanjing.

Kangxi woke up from the dream, his chest heaving rapidly.

He clearly remembered that when he was a child, he did not see this beam of white light.The next day, he took that car and left Huangzhuang.

He suddenly remembered that Huangzhuang was given to Umalu two years ago because he sympathized with Umalu's pain of losing his daughter.

He sat on the bed and thought about things slowly.

He didn't know if it was an illusion or it was real. When the white light appeared in Yanjing, the traveling monk turned his head to look.

he does not know.

He was so upset that he couldn't sleep, so he stepped out and knelt down on the ground.

Liang Jiugong stepped in quickly, took out his coat and waited for him to put it on. He walked under the moonlight like water, but he did not leave the Yonghe Palace.

He said: "You go to the Ministry of Internal Affairs and ask for a copy of Concubine De's file."

Liang Jiugong asked Wei Zhu to do it.

Kangxi really couldn't calm down, and he didn't want to disturb Umalu, let alone ask someone to urge his concubine.

Yuan Qingqing came forward with tea to serve Kangxi.

Liuli looked gloomy from a distance.

How could she not understand that Yuan Qingqing was trying to fight for favor, otherwise how could she do such a thing.

This is a custom, the tea and snacks in the small kitchen will be prepared all night, if the masters need it, they just need to send someone to get it, why bother Yuan Qingqing to do such a useless thing.

She had a terrible heart attack.

She was afraid that the emperor would think it was Master De's intention, after all, before, she followed Master De's wishes and asked the emperor to go to Wanliuha's residence several times overtly and secretly.

Now, if the emperor refuses, Master De will lose face; but if he accepts, Master De doesn't seem to have much face.

She spat in her heart, not being a son of man.

She just hung her head and didn't look any further.

It was no longer a scene she could intervene in.

Yuan Qingqing imitated Umalu's appearance, with a gentle smile, and waited silently.

Kangxi couldn't see Yuan Qingqing's plan, he looked at her under the moonlight, and finally took a sip of tea: "You are more scheming than her."

Kangxi lightly told Liang Jiugong: "Remember it as a promise, send it to Xianfu Palace, don't hinder Concubine De's eyes."

Liang Jiugong wrote down: "Yes."

Kangxi mentioned: "Ask the Ministry of Internal Affairs to palm their eyes when delivering things to the Yonghe Palace. Don't send anything dirty or smelly."

Liang Jiugong smiled apologetically: "Yes, yes."

Yuan Qingqing just pretended not to understand, and stood obediently with her head bowed.

Kangxi was unhappy, and stepped out of the Yonghe Palace.

Liang Jiugong has to deal with a lot of messy things, so it is inevitable that the nose is not the nose, and the eyes are not eyes: "Promise master, since you can't wait, I will move today."

After all, he asked the little eunuch to wait for Yuan Qingqing to clean up.

Liu Li didn't want to talk to her at all, but went into the house.

Only Umalu said abruptly: "The emperor is gone."

"Let's go." Liuli was silent, but still said, "Yuan Qingqing competed for favor, and was granted by the emperor."

"That's her blessing, let her go." Umalu said unconsciously as he picked the bed sheet.

Umalu added another sentence: "Just pay attention to the bracelet for me."

Liuli was a little annoyed, but she knew very well that this was the nature of Master De, so she swallowed it.

At this moment, a sentence echoed in her mind, what would Master De do without herself, how would she survive in this palace, wouldn't it be that she would be eaten to the bone.

She knew that her master was extremely smart and would live well without herself, but she couldn't help but keep thinking like this over and over in her mind.

Liuli thought, she has to help her, she has to help her master.

She said, "Yes."

Umalu said: "Sleep."

Liuli took a break and listened to Umalu's breathing, and after a long time, she heard Umalu fast asleep.

Yuan Qingqing packed things by lighting a candle.

Li Qiaoer, who was on a day off today, woke up from her dream and asked in a daze, "What's wrong."

"It's nothing, just be the master."

"Oh." Li Qiaoer responded, and was about to fall asleep again, but woke up from the dream again, took ten taels of silver and handed it to her, "You have to be good."

Yuan Qingqing was about to shed tears, she wrinkled her nose vigorously, suppressing the sour feeling, she smiled and said, "Don't worry, I will be fine."

Li Qiaoer hugged her, went to bed, hugged the quilt to watch her tidy up.

After tidying up, Yuan Qingqing went out, came to the gate of Yonghe Palace, looked back, and followed the little eunuch resolutely.

Kangxi has returned to Qianqing Palace.

Wei Zhu has already fetched Umalu's file.

Under the candlelight, he looked at the file and slowly counted the time.

On March 16, [-]th year of Shunzhi, his birthday, he made a wish, and the monk asked for a bowl of water and gave him a bell.

That day, white light fell on Yanjing.

Two months later, Uya Weiwu's wife was pregnant with a son.

Pregnant in October.

On March 17th, the [-]th year of Shunzhi, Wuya Weiwu's wife gave birth to a daughter, named Malu, Uyamalu.

Is this because he loves her too much, so it is far-fetched, or is it true?
he does not know.

There was only one day between her birthday and his birthday, but six years between her age.

Then, 16 years later, this person crossed the vast years and the sea of ​​people, and finally came to his side.

In the middle, I went around and missed a few short years.

But as soon as this person appeared, he recognized her. From then on, he fell in love with her and tried his best for her.

She has always had no desires or desires, but she will never leave him.

He should hate her, but he doesn't know what he should hate her for.

Back then, he only promised to have someone who came for him.But there is no promise that this person must love him.

He finally regretted it belatedly. If he could do it all over again, could he promise that this person would love him?

In the deep darkness of the night, he felt a bit of coldness that penetrated into the marrow of his bones.

If the ghosts and ghosts he guessed are all true, then what he can do for her is too meager.

Although he has the ambition of being one emperor through the ages, his experience from childhood to adulthood has made him deeply understand that in the matter of love, he is not loved, and he is the one chosen last.

Therefore, when this person came to him, he felt a deep fear.

If she was just a concubine, he was good enough for her.

But if it is really the soul that God promised to come only for him, what can he give her?

He seemed to be unable to give her anything, all he brought her was hurt, deep grief and despair.Even, it seems that from the beginning to the end, he never protected her.

Yes, even if he is the lord of the world, he still can't protect her.

There seemed to be too many things between him and her, such as country, power, status, and relatives.

He still couldn't protect her.

This realization made him feel as painful and sad as he felt when he watched his biological mother die.

He can't do anything.

He is still the sad child who cannot give the same treatment to his biological mother.

Once the dawn dawned, Kangxi still sat there, letting the red candles shed tears, and letting Liang Jiugong light the candles several times.

It was as if a piece of cotton had been stuffed in his throat, and he couldn't swallow it or spit it out.

He looked up, and he could see the Yonghe Palace in a trance, and he could see Umalu who was still resting.

All his energy seemed to disappear in an instant.

　From Big Eye Boy, Ju Xuanya
　　In the later years of Emperor Kangxi, "Parents did not have a day of joy, this is what I regret for 60 years"

　　Empress Xiaokangzhang's original status in the harem of the Shunzhi Dynasty was not clear, and probably only Xiaofu was promoted.After Emperor Kangxi came to the throne, she was promoted to the highest rank, and she was only at the same level as Concubine Ke, Concubine Gongjing, Concubine Duanshun, and Concubine Shuhui.In October of the first year of Kangxi, she was honored as "Empress Dowager Cihe", and then the Ministry of Internal Affairs gradually promoted her treatment to be equal to that of Empress Dowager Renxian (Xiaohui).

　　The thing to pay attention to here is "step by step".For example, Xiaokang's food expenses were raised first.But there are still many benefits that cannot be improved for a while.Emperor Kangxi tried his best to fight for these things for his biological mother.

　　In the most vivid example, in December of the first year of Kangxi, the Ministry of Internal Affairs stated that the Empress Dowager Renxian (Xiaohui) had a large number of gold and silver vessels, while the Empress Dowager Cihe (Xiaokang) had few of these things. Cihe Empress Dowager (Xiaokang) made some?According to the instructions of Emperor Kangxi, it was made according to the example of Empress Dowager Renxian.The Ministry of Internal Affairs also said that Curry can't produce so much gold and silver at once, what should we do?Emperor Kangxi continued to give instructions and made all the treasures in the treasury.

　　According to official documents, at that time, Oboi and other auxiliary ministers did not seem to recognize the identity of Empress Xiaokangzhang, and hoped to suppress her treatment.Emperor Kangxi was only ten years old at the time, and he did make efforts for the treatment of his biological mother.It's a pity that Empress Xiao Kangzhang passed away in February of the second year of Kangxi. The feeling of "the son wants to support but the relatives will not wait" is really uncomfortable.

　　
　
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