Get off work and become a magical girl

Chapter 65

"Other ideas..."

Although she still hesitated emotionally, Lin Xiaolu followed the delphinium subconsciously.

She began to try to analyze herself, thinking about whether there were other reasons for her depression these days, and as she walked a certain distance, an answer came to her mind:
"Actually, when I first learned about these things, I felt a little sorry for my father."

The delphinium on the side stumbled and nearly fell to the ground.

Lin Xiaolu hurriedly reached out to support her: "What's wrong?"

"There seems to be a hole in the ground." The delphinium stood still again with a straight face, pretending to be calm and indicating that he was fine, relying on the lack of vision at night, he made up a reason.

"Is that so?" Lin Xiaolu looked back suspiciously, only to see that the road under the silver light of the moonlight was smooth, and the "hole" in Delphinium's mouth was not seen at all.

But she didn't think too much, didn't try to get to the bottom of it, just pretended that she couldn't see clearly, turned around and continued to follow the delphinium.

"Did anything happen between you and your father before?" Delphinium asked in order to change the subject while walking on the somewhat quiet sidewalk.

The idea of ​​asking this matter has been around for a long time. In fact, she really wants to know what the cold war with her father is like from her daughter's perspective.

Lin Yun has always felt that the conflict between himself and his daughter is mainly due to lack of care and communication, so after Lin Xiaolu ran away from home, he has been trying to make up for this.However, when she started to get in touch with her daughter as a delphinium, and gradually understood some of her daughter's true thoughts, she found that the truth did not seem to be the case.

"Rather than what happened, it should be said that it was a unilateral misunderstanding."

Lin Xiaolu followed delphinium step by step, "At the beginning, when my mother passed away, he concealed the whereabouts of her body and was with other young women at the same time. This made me think that he didn't love my mother anymore. I want to take this opportunity to leave her and me and find another woman."

"Later, I quarreled with him and ran away from home. Many things were very rigid, but I always felt that it was his fault, so I never thought about forgiving or understanding him."

"Ha, now that I think about it, there may be my own judgment."

"Because he was very strict with me when I was a child, so strict that I was a bit annoying, so when I felt that he was wrong, even if I asked him the reason on the surface, I actually didn't want to hear the answer, and I already judged in my heart whether it was true or not. He was wrong."

The two walked all the way, slowly passing the Xizhao Bridge on the Xiting River. It was almost midsummer, and in the hot night, only the water was still cool.

There was no traffic on the bridge at twelve o'clock in the middle of the night. Delphinium and Lin Xiaolu just walked along the sidewalk one after the other, and the crisp footsteps echoed on the bridge.

"...What about now?" Delphinium did not directly express her own opinion on Lin Xiaolu's "introspection", but continued to ask.

If she was just a "delphinium", then she could judge Lin Xiaolu's right or wrong from the perspective of a bystander; but as the party involved in the parent-child cold war, she actually knew that under such complicated circumstances at that time, she and Lin Xiaolu talked It doesn't matter who is right and who is wrong.

Both her and her daughter's original intentions were to maintain the existence of this family, only because they knew different information: the daughter didn't know that her mother was a magical girl; their identities and feelings were different: as a father, he failed to understand his daughter's suspicion and helplessness at that time.In the end, it will become such a huge difference.

In terms of communicating with children, as a parent, I should always take the initiative, but I didn't realize it at that time.

On the other side, Lin Xiaolu also continued: "Because he showed me the photo of you and your mother before, and now I know that he didn't want me to know the truth about my mother's death."

"After all, I heard from him that my mother is actually a very strong magical girl, but she died inexplicably. Facing the enemy who can kill my mother, even if I know the truth and even develop hatred because of it, I'm afraid I don't know what I can do." something."

"It turned out that just because I didn't know why my mother died, I always thought it was a simple accident, and put all my hatred and hostility on him."

"He should have done this out of good intentions, but I responded to him like that..."

——"If you can tell your father what you think, I'm afraid he will be very happy, right?"

Delphinium suddenly said, "Instead of telling me here, if you tell him directly, the effect will actually be better."

"Would it be too late to say something like this now?" Lin Xiaolu said with a sad face.

"It won't be too late."

Delphinium shook her head, turned her face to the side, and looked at the river under the bridge expressionlessly, making it impossible to know what she was thinking: "No one can guarantee that they will not make mistakes in matters such as family relationships."

"You are a daughter for the first time, and your father is also a father for the first time. You are both novices in your positions, and it is inevitable that you will make various mistakes. If this mistake is still in the category that can be forgiven, Why not give each other another chance?"

"What's more, in this matter, your father may have stopped blaming you for a long time."

Regarding this matter, there was some kind of unclear emotion in her words, as if she had her own experience about it.Although it was very vague, even the dull Lin Xiaolu could feel it a little bit.

So she stared at Delphinium in a daze, and subconsciously asked, "Delphinium, do you... have children?"

Delphinium stopped and gave her a sideways look.

"you guess."

After dropping these two words, he continued to move forward.

Lin Xiaolu quickly trotted and followed.

Delphinium didn't ask any more questions for some reason, and Lin Xiaolu just followed her all the way. The two of them walked to the middle of the bridge and came to the middle of the Xiting River.

Lowering her eyes, she glanced to one side, Lin Xiaolu's expression was a little complicated.

Because she felt that since she had decided to express her inner doubts, there were still some questions that should not be avoided.

It's just that this matter is different from what I said before. As a magical girl, her next words may really disappoint Delphinium.

It has nothing to do with the identity of her mother, nor the conflict with her father, but rather disappointment with Lin Xiaolu herself.

Although she kept asking if Delphinium was disappointed in her, in fact, she didn't want Delphinium to hate herself at all.

If possible, she also hopes that she can be like Xia Liang, who can always behave well-behaved and lovable in front of others; always be able to properly activate the atmosphere to make others happy; and always be so good that Delphinium can also feel for herself. satisfy.

But now, let alone these things, she seems to have lost even the most basic quality of being a magical girl.

Because these days, she gradually felt that she seemed to have lost the courage to fight.

Should I really say something like this?If you just keep silent like this, if you just pretend like nothing happened, at least you can still be like this...

Thinking of this, Lin Xiaolu's thinking stopped.

Because she suddenly saw that Delphinium turned her head and looked at herself with those clear blue eyes.

Under the moonlight, those eyes were like the purest sapphires, with a few touches of silver light, and seemed to be able to speak, looking at him with encouraging emotions.

Lin Xiaolu pursed her lips, then mustered up the courage to open her mouth.

(End of this chapter)