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Chapter 60 I Fly Once, Even Without Any Traces
"Bei Dao... Teacher Bei Dao, you are still here."

There was unstoppable joy on Kaneda's face.

He was surprised that Kitajima Koma would stay here.

At the same time, does this also show that Mr. Bei Dao is willing to take over the cat...

Then he saw a line of homeless men behind Kitajima Koma.

Could it be that they were blowing wind in Teacher Bei Dao's ears?
Abominable.

If it is because of some words they said that Mr. Bei Dao is not willing to raise a kitten, then this is an unforgivable thing.

Absolutely unforgivable.

The violent heaving of his chest was caused by anger.

The cat in his arms suddenly let out a meow.

Strange to say, a meow is better than anything else.

Mitsuo Kaneda's panting like a broken bellows gradually subsided, and after a while, he put on a smiling face.

It was obvious that he cared about the cat.

So much so that cats are put first.

Even if you are angry, you don't want the cat to feel it.

And this cat... seems to be really human, and it still calms his emotions.

Could it be true...

This kind of saying that there is an afterlife may be a kind of white lie.

People believe that there is an afterlife, and people believe that even the dead will become other guardians by their side.

So, those who are alive, what you need to do is to live a good life, with the heart of the dead, to feel the future world, to see the future sunrise...

The dead are always there, and the living are healthy.

"Mr. Jintian."

Kitajima yelled softly.

"In the!"

Misho Kaneda was shocked.

"You said before that there is not much time left. What do you mean?"

Kitajima Koma thought of Okawa Masato who was running in that snowy night.

If Mr. Kaneda wants to go down this road...

After all, these homeless people said that he had been trying to commit suicide before.

As a person who has successfully committed suicide, Kitajima Koma is very experienced.

But here is the problem.

They are all suicides.

Asking him to persuade Jin Tian Gannan not to commit suicide, he was a little speechless.

What qualifications does he have to persuade others?
"No. I won't kill myself."

Mitsuo Kaneda lovingly stroked the cat in his arms.

"In the past, what I thought about most was how to die, especially during that time, I felt that I lost the whole world."

"I am very serious about the issue of death, and pursue extreme rigor."

"Because only in this way, I can go after my wife and daughter. As for those who died, they will change to do other things to protect you silently, it's bullshit."

Mitsuo Kaneda sat aside, took out something from his arms to feed the kitten who had been in the tent all the time.

"But all my plans were ruined by those bastards. Their reason is not to let me live well, but to not want to cause trouble. This reason sounds very ridiculous, doesn't it?"

"So in the end I decided not to die here, but to bid farewell to the world alone."

"But just when I was about to make it, it showed up."

Bei Dao Kou hummed lightly.

He didn't have that transformation, which sounds a little phony.

Just relying on a cat can change everything?
impossible.

Once a person decides to commit suicide, he must be the most courageous person in the world.

"Then I thought, since it's all like this, why not live for a few years?"

"It's not empathy, it's just thinking that if you can't die all the time, then try to accept it?"

"More importantly, he is very dependent on me. Then he has a kitten."

Mitsuo Kaneda was frowning. His level was limited and he couldn't describe the organization in more specific terms. He could only use some simple language.

He also didn't know if Mr. Bei Dao understood what he wanted to express.

But the more I talk about it, the more cloudy it becomes.

"Then I also checked, and I can't live by myself, there are evil things in my body." He smiled happily: "It is also an old cat. I think, maybe this time, if possible, we Will leave this world together.

So now the only thing I'm worried about is it. "

"It can be regarded as a thought of this world."

Looking at Mitsuo Kaneda who was extremely calm at the moment, Bei Daoju was far less calm than him.

More of a shock.

Although Mikio Kaneda's expression was messy, he understood.

Is this love?

In order to get a wife, he gave up everything about himself and kept pursuing death.

Maybe, maybe not.

Kitajima Koma herself has never experienced so-called love.

I don't know much about love itself.

As for the love that is mentioned, it is the squabbling when you are young, the companionship after middle age, or the companionship after old age, etc.

He didn't know much about it either.

He was shocked.

A person who is ready to give up the world, after making up his mind, will exclude everything related to this world.

Empty yourself, unload all burdens.

Such a person who had given up a little, would actually try to accept things from this world as a burden?
Someone once said that falling in love with someone is like moving into a house.

From strange to familiar, from curiosity to habit, and then learn how to get along and how to adapt.

Grind away all the edges and corners and avoid all the bumps.

In the end, I calmly accepted the imperfection and collected all the sharp corners.

The two slowly reached a tacit understanding that was comfortable with each other.

Isn't it the same in this world?

It's the same experience over and over again.

After all the running-in was erased, these edges and corners grew out again.

To experience this pain again, who wants to bear it?
So they embrace death.

But oh, death is a very strange thing.

People spend their whole lives pretending it doesn't exist, even though it's one of life's greatest motivations.

Perhaps, time is also a strange thing.

Perhaps the most exasperating moment in everyone's life is when they suddenly realize that they have reached a point where they remember more than they look forward to.

Even though they may or may not be young.

Maybe grief is a strange thing, too.

When Mrs. Jintian left Mr. Jintian, he did not die with him at that time, but he was no longer alive.

So, love is even more of a strange thing.

It came out of nowhere.

Love is not loving people, it may also be loving the world.

Looking at Mitsuo Kaneda playing with the two cats, Kitajima felt that there was really something more in his empty body.

Maybe love is not so complicated in the first place.

To love the world, there is no need to let yourself live a fulfilling life, let yourself live a bright and aboveboard life.

There is no need to cater to others, to prove yourself.

The so-called love is sustenance and inheritance.

Two people love each other and have a child, and the child thrives on everything they have.

In the future, the children will grow up, get married and start a business, and have the next generation.

From generation to generation, in this way, life has continued and love has sustenance.

Even after a hundred years, it will be a handful of ashes, nothing left.

Does it make sense?

Bei Daoju asked himself.

At this moment, he overturned what he said to Oshima Kazuya before, that living is just living and has no meaning.

Significant.

Existence is meaningful.

Because it is a legacy.

The unique inheritance of life.

There are no traces in the sky.

Yes.

But I used to fly...

Because I am also an inheritance...

(End of this chapter)