Help, they came out of my dream to catch me!

Chapter 163 I'm not running away, I just want to be myself
For Teresa, it was the first time the two embraced, so intimately.

They hugged each other in the same bed, clinging to each other.

It was as if some kind of warm water had wrapped her body, warming her heart that was trembling slightly in the cold wind.

"Xia Ming, you...why..."

Her voice became a little hoarse.

Xia Ming smiled slightly and scratched her nose.

"So Teresia, you sometimes panicked? Since you have the ability to perceive good intentions and malicious intentions, you should know that no matter what, I can't be cruel to you."

"Seeing your appearance just now, do you think I will really just leave you indifferent like this?"

The corners of Xia Ming's mouth curled up slightly, proudly announcing his victory.

"This time, you lost, Teresia."

I... lost...

Teresia buried her head in his arms, listening to the hot and powerful heartbeat in his chest, her cheeks quickly turned red.

"I... I didn't lose. How do you know that I didn't pretend to be like that on purpose? Obviously you fell into my trap in the end."

She tightly grasped the soft flesh of Xia Ming's body with her fingers, and made unreasonable words.

"Hiss! Pain! Alright, you still win this time, you're the one who won the head office."

Xia Ming pretended to be in pain, and his eyes fell on the girl's shy eyes. The girl blushed and buried her head even lower.

An ambiguous atmosphere hangs in the air.

Neither of them spoke, but felt that the temperature in the quilt was getting higher and higher, and even breathing became like steam with affection.

a long time.

Feeling that the atmosphere was almost over, the girl asked shyly in his arms:

"Then...what I said just now, can you help me, Xia Ming?"

"No." Xia Ming still refused.

"Why not?"

The girl raised her lovely face from his arms, stretched out her pink fist and lightly thumped his chest.

Unexpectedly, Xia Ming changed the subject and said, "Actually...you can help me if you want."

His fingers caressed her softness, bringing the girl the pleasure she always wanted but never got, but it only lasted for a few seconds before his hand was ruthlessly pulled away.

How heart-wrenching and painful would it be to desire so much without getting it, but to lose it immediately once you get it?
"Tell me, Teresia, your past, your past, your true psychology."

Xia Ming regards the so-called help as a reward for seducing the girl.

"What are you running away from, what are you afraid of, what are you thinking, tell me, and I will give you the happiest reward, how about it?"

Xia Ming gently teased the girl's earlobe with his fingers, expressing his affection.

Do you want to tell Xia Ming completely about your selfish and ugly self and show him?

If it was before, Teresia would definitely be full of hesitation.

However, at this moment, Xia Ming's embrace made her so greedy and attached, his affection was so touching, and the reward he mentioned made her reluctant to let it go, and she couldn't bear to lose it like this.

"……it is good."

The girl's voice trembled, and under Xia Ming's repeated prodding, she finally couldn't bear the temptation and chose to confess her true self to him.

She talked about her past, how carefree she was when she was a child, when the mist struck when she was six years old, the whole family died, and only she and her brother were rescued by the fire patrollers of the Ember Organization.

The harsh education and training of those in the Embers.

In fact, my uncle Gottfried had roughly told Xia Ming about these things.

However, telling the same experience from someone else's mouth is completely different from telling it to someone personally.

From Theresia's mouth, Xia Ming understood more clearly how much the Ember Fire Organization had placed on her.

Those education and training that were too cruel and harsh for a child made the originally carefree girl completely suppress her own personality, and also planted a rebellious and evasive mentality in her.

ten years.

For a whole ten years, I have moved myself closer to another person every day and night, without rest time, without space for myself, and even in my sleep I have to watch the video of Lord Valkyrie, and I have to substitute myself into it, Completely become her substitute.

Especially after Tred failed to draw his sword, Theresia became the last hope of the whole village, and those eager expectations intensified, as if they had become arrows piercing Theresia's heart.

She must pull out the great red flame sword, and she must become a new generation of Valkyrie.

She is destined to inherit her name and power, follow her will to fight against evil dragons and ice kings, and bring hope to the people of the North.

But... Has anyone ever thought that she actually doesn't want to take on such a mission, that she doesn't want to be a Valkyrie?
She is Teresia, and none other than a Valkyrie replacement.

She... occasionally wants to be her true self.

But the kindness of the Ember Fire Organization is on her head, the hatred of her parents for being killed by the mist is on her head, the expectations of countless eyes are on her head, the pressure of morality...

It seemed that from the day she was rescued by the Ember Organization, she was doomed to lose herself, and she was doomed to face such a fate.

So when she came to this small town on her first mission to save Xia Ming, the first person she saved in her life, she was so lively and happy.

The fog is a curse, an escape, a prison.

But the reality outside is an even bigger prison.

Only in such an unsupervised place can she occasionally return to her former self.

Not the heir of the Valkyrie, not someone else's substitute, but her Theresia, herself.

So, when you find that you can't get out.

Under the panic and fear in her heart, there was a hint of joy that she didn't expect.

When it was determined that the root cause of her inability to get out came from her inner escape.

She said she had to face herself, face up to reality, and accept fate.

but……

Why...why being yourself is escaping, why facing the doomed fate is to face yourself?

She doesn't understand, and she doesn't want to understand.

In the next few days after being rejected by Xia Ming for the first time, she seemed to be returning to the previous life trajectory, playing the role of Valkyrie, trying to let herself accept that fate, but in fact, she felt more and more happy and depressed in her heart. More and more full of escape.

She... doesn't want to go out.

If you do this to yourself, you don’t have to be under those pressures, and you have loved ones and lovers by your side, what a wonderful life it is.

Is it also a mistake to want to be yourself, a kind of escape?
However, for her, this is a kind of mistake and escape.

Otherwise, everyone will not continue to be trapped here.

Otherwise, she wouldn't be so eager to seek Xia Ming's comfort.

"Xia Ming, I'm sorry, I'm so selfish and self-willed. I clearly said I was going to work hard to get out, but I kept lying to you..."

The girl leaned on Xia Ming's arms guiltily.

"Can I... still get your reward?"

"of course can."

Xia Ming stroked the top of her head with a smile.

"And I want to tell you, Teresa, being yourself is not an escape, you have done nothing wrong."

(End of this chapter)