only god

Chapter 546 How should the gods know us?
Soon after, Mulla said goodbye to the study. When he came in, he was full of excitement, but when he left, he was left with nothing but depression and disbelief. He walked on the corridor where the afterglow passed, and almost fell down several times. Fortunately, he fell down. The servants nearby helped him up in time to prevent the king from losing his manners.

The darkness slowly filled the corridor, like a river filled with lead water under the roar of steam engines.

Belfan watched him leave. When the door was closed, they did not say any more farewell words, only one sentence:
"Goodbye, Your Majesty."

This goodbye means farewell forever,
Belfan had made final preparations. Even though King Mulla reiterated time and time again that his life would not be in danger, the scholar still resolutely chose to drink the bitter wine like a chaste woman who could not bear to be humiliated.

Faced with those things, he no longer thinks about them.

At this moment, the study room returned to darkness and silence. The scholars were all gone, and only Belfan was left here. He did not light a lamp, but slowly sat down under the afterglow of the setting sun. He sat in front of the desk, I slowly picked up my pen in the darkness, as if I wanted to write something.

"No matter what you want to write, writing in the dark will never last long."

After a while, a familiar voice came from the corner of the study. Belfan raised his head in surprise, then turned around and saw a familiar figure.

Xilan appeared behind him at some point, watching him quietly in the darkness.

"Suddenly disappear, suddenly appear...

I think I know who you are. "

Belfan slowly calmed down his surprise, picked up the paper on the table, and said with a wry smile:

"I also wanted to leave you a letter, but it seems it's not necessary."

The dwarf scholar did not ask when Sealand came.

He felt that Xilan should already know about his relationship with Mulla.

Xilan looked at him and said:

"I'm waiting for you to make your choice.

Once this choice is made, it cannot be regretted.

Belfan, you should not stop here. You are talented and gifted, and you still have a further road to go. "

The dwarf scholar did not answer. He pondered for a moment and then said:
"You might as well listen to my letter."

Xi Lan nodded slightly.

So Belfan took a deep breath,

"Silan, I am happy for you. Even though you have left this place of right and wrong, many people here still remember you and regret not listening to you.

The only thing I don't regret is that I feel that I can't leave this place. Once I leave, I will let go of my obsession in this life. Even if the rest of my life is like a rich man, it is just a doll, let alone waiting for me. There is only poverty. "

After finishing speaking, Belfan added:

"It's part of the beginning."

Xilan nodded,

"It looks like you're not leaving here.

But...are you really that sure?

People's thoughts are always changing. Today's thoughts are different from tomorrow's. In my opinion, you are just impulsive..."

In the darkness, both sides could not see each other's faces clearly, but they could capture each other's movements.

Belfan shook his head,
“Trust me, this was not a spur of the moment thing.

I've thought about it a lot.

Zealand, in history, you were a disciple of the prophet, a preacher and founder of the church. Your life and mission were to spread the sacred teachings and teach the way to the heavenly city. You have been there countless times. I won in debates and sermons, but you couldn't convince me. "

In the darkness, the dwarf scholar turned his head and saw that the sky was completely darkened, and the subtle chirping of birds could be heard in the night.

"why?"

asked Zealand.

"Mu La always thought that I was a true believer who did not believe in the true religion. He once said that I was as cowardly as a true believer.

Those scholars were often amazed by my knowledge and achievements. They mistakenly thought that I was a true believer many times at first, because they did not believe that a traditional dwarf could achieve such a level.

Frankly speaking, my past life has marked me as a true believer. I once went to Deschanel to practice, and the clergy there left a deep impression on me.

I have always had a favorable impression of True Religion.

But I am not a true believer, I have not accepted your teachings, and I do not have to force myself to live for love, for the Lord, or for the afterlife. "

Belfan slowly narrated, his posture relaxed,
"I envy you, Xilan, on the path you pursue, you have got the best.

You can listen to God’s words, receive your mission, and you have reached the end of the road, but for me, the end of my road is still far away.Even though people's thoughts are always changing, my thoughts will never change.

Because my road is still not exhausted. "

Looking at Belfan, Xilan said in relief:
"Among the true believers, there are countless geniuses who cannot reach the end of the road."

Belfan took a deep breath and replied:
"Yes, so many people have not reached the end of the road, they are still walking on the road.

But I can't accept it, I can't go like them.

O Zealand, your Lord has given you infinite happiness, and I know that you would also like me to become a true believer, if possible.

In fact, although I am not a true believer, I still believe in the truth.

But I will not accept that happiness. The life of a true believer is not suitable for me. You see that I am so approachable. In fact, I am arrogant and conceited. I will never learn to be as humble as you. Therefore, I cannot accept the fact that I am a pioneer. .

It pains me. There is a huge difference between mortals and gods. Before the advent of divine creation, we could all say: This is a matter of course to cover up our incompetence.But when the path of divine creation appears, this reason loses its validity. We must face our incompetence. I am very painful. I cannot do this. "

In the quiet darkness,

Belfan explained his thoughts, and Sealand listened silently, feeling sentimental at the same time.

The birds were still chirping in the night, like the messenger of death approaching gradually.

Lead-colored rain began to fall in the dark sky. Behind the thin mist, the tracks of the stars flickered. Belfan looked at the starry sky. After a moment of silence, he spoke again:

"For thousands of years, mortals have been looking up at the stars.

Priests often say: so and so is the anger of the gods, or so and so is the will of the gods.

Have you discovered that these words are all spoken from a human perspective. These words are all about people understanding and recognizing gods.

For thousands of years, countless mortals have spent their efforts just to understand the vast starry sky.

But can one day,
It’s not how we understand the starry sky,
But how should the stars know us..."

When he said this, Belfan couldn't help but cry. Clear tears slowly fell from the corners of his eyes. He seemed to be feeling sad for all the mortals in the world.

Xilan sat quietly, watching Belfan shed tears.

After a moment, Belfan reiterated again:

"I will not become a true believer.

You often say that you represent the truth, but there are so many philosophers in the world, but not every wise man is a true believer.

Your god promises you another kind of happiness, which is different from the happiness in the underworld. Although that kind of happiness is worthy of my yearning, it is not worth letting me give up my obsession for it.

Xilan, you said that I should not stop here. I still have a further road to go, but I feel that I should stop here.

Even if I have a longer road to walk, I still won’t reach the end of the road after walking it.

This is in line with the old saying: "All rivers flow into the sea, but the sea is not full." '

My thoughts will not change. I am ready to face death. "

After hearing this, Xilan pondered for a long time, and then, as if giving his last comfort, he asked softly:

"Are you really going to choose to die?
Is there no beauty left in this world for you? "

Belfan turned his head, looked at Xilan, and said slowly:

"I remember that for many true believers who have worked diligently throughout their lives, they are looking forward to the arrival of the world after death.

I think I feel the same way as they do - this world is too painful.

If I accepted your faith and became a true believer now, I would not die.

But I would not accept it, nor would I accept the opportunity to go to heaven.

You believe that only happiness in heaven is the most beautiful and the final destination after death.

But you are wrong. In fact, before the true religion came, we had already learned how to welcome death, just like the old saying - at the end of life, we should drink bitter wine.

After the bitter wine enters the throat, it is the time of death, and the soul returns to the underworld and is handed over to the hands of the judge. "

Belfan had made up his mind. No matter what Xilan said or did, he had chosen the next path and would not change it again. He stood up and hugged Xilan.

He made a sound like farewell:
"If your God is blessing you, please make more contributions to Him. I heard people say that countless people have sacrificed for good things in the world, but not many people are willing to treat hypocritical villains and cunning villains equally."

Xilan understood that this man had chosen his own ending. No matter what he said or did, Belfan would not change his mind. He had made up his mind and no one could change it.

(End of this chapter)