fringe artist

Chapter 213.
What is the most important thing for an actor.
Chen Li'an has been thinking about this question all the time, and now he has made several movies with different roles, but Chen Li'an has not found the answer.

The only character that touched him and allowed him to play it with his life was Extremely Cold, and only the role of Qi Lei gave him a skin-to-skin feeling, understanding from the bottom of his heart and integrating into that fictional character physically and mentally.

Use your own emotions and flesh and blood to turn that fictional character who only exists on the script into a real person.

The athletes among the winners are very good, Fengyue Zhongqiu is very good, Sanger in the Red River Valley is very good, and even Wei Qing in the middle of the night singing is also very good.

But none of these characters really touched Chen Li'an, making him tremble from the depths of his soul.

Originally, he thought that Okagawa in Nanjing's Christ would be like this, a character that fits his personality very well, nothing more.

But at the end of the performance, he suddenly realized that things were different from what he had imagined. The role of Okagawa slowly merged into his flesh and blood in the game between him and Yasuko Tomita.

Chen Li'an was holding a dry leaf in his hand with the name of Okazawa written on it. He suddenly remembered the tenderness and sweetness when he taught Jinhua to write before.

In the bright and spacious room, on the remodeled Japanese-style tatami mats, Jinhua was lying on the ground with a pen, ink and clean rice paper in front of her. Behind Jinhua, Okagawa held her hand and taught her to write.

"This is your name, Jinhua." Okagawa said softly in Jinhua's ear.

Jin Hua looked at the crooked words on the paper, read out her name, turned her head to look at Okagawa with a smile, and asked impatiently, "You taught me to write your name."

"Okay." Okazawa took Jinhua's hand and wrote his name on the paper.

Jinhua carefully looked at Okazawa's name, trying to keep those words firmly in her mind, but she was very dissatisfied with her crooked handwriting and couldn't make his name so ugly.

"I wrote your name so ugly."

"Just practice more, and then you can write it several times a day."

"It's a waste, paper is expensive."

Okagawa rubbed her head fondly, telling her not to worry about these things.Jin Hua happily wrote down the name of Gang Chuan on the paper over and over in Gang Chuan's arms until all the paper was used up.

Jin Hua lay on Okazawa's body, tore off the kimono he was wearing at home, and said with a brush, "I want to write on you."

The mild afternoon sun came in through the window, Okagawa was lying on the tatami, and Jin Hua sat on him and wrote his name on Okagawa's back with a brush piously and earnestly.

Okagawa lying on the ground felt the smooth touch of the ink-stained writing brush on his back, felt a little itchy and felt his heart beating faster, feeling that he really fell in love with this girl who took her name seriously.

The leaf in Chen Li'an's hand was blown by the wind and slowly fell to the ground. He picked up the leaf and recalled his thoughts, not sure if he fell in love with her in the play or outside the play.

In the past few days of filming, there is no shot of Chen Li'an, but he will still go to the set every day to see Yasuko Tomita and Jin Hua's life after being ruthlessly abandoned by Okgawa.

The destruction of beautiful things will arouse the greatest compassion in human nature. Chen Li'an silently watched the golden flower whose faith was destroyed, and was defeated by life again.

Seeing her lose her source of livelihood, she had no choice but to return to the flower building in order to survive, and was deceived by the old bustard and bullied by a guest infected with flower disease.

Watching her suffer from the flower disease and having a mental breakdown, watching her washing her body in a breakdown.

Watching her get lied to by a white guy, saying he is Christ was able to take away her blemishes.Seeing that even if she is insane, she is still kind and unwilling to infect others with the flower disease.

Seeing her believe in Tufangzi, she stood on the street holding a steamed bun stained with the blood of the executed prisoner who was beheaded and ate it in big mouthfuls.

Watching her write the name of Okazawa on the leaves every day, watching her praying for Christ to return Okazawa to her.

Chen Li'an has been watching all this with cold eyes, it seems that what happened to Jin Hua has nothing to do with him, his heart is as hard as a stone.

It's just that Okagawa in his heart kept shouting and struggling, yelling frantically for Chen Li'an to save Jinhua.Chen Li'an closed his eyes and sat on the bow of the wooden boat, his body swayed gently with the boat, as if recalling the scene of meeting Jinhua for the first time.

In Chen Li'an's heart, he seemed to see Okazawa kneeling in the dark and begging himself to save Jinhua, seeing him keep saying how much he loved Jinhua, seeing his regret, and crying bitterly.

In a trance, I saw him holding the child in front of his Japanese wife and showing a happy smile. He completely forgot the Jinhua far away in Nanjing, the girl who loved him deeply, and the girl who brought him joy. .
Chen Li'an opened his eyes, looked at the willow branches hanging down by the river bank, and muttered to himself, "Okagawa, what kind of person are you?"

"Do you really love her, or are you hypocritically using deep affection to deceive yourself from the condemnation of your conscience and the strange eyes of the world?"

Chen Li'an sighed faintly. Looking at the blue sky, he would always think of the scene when he was with Yasuko Tomita. If he were Okagawa, would he fall in love with Jinhua?

After a long time, Chen Li'an sighed helplessly, if he were Okagawa, then he would definitely fall in love with Jinhua.

So don't think too much about it.
When the boat was docking, Chen Li'an got out from the other side of the cabin, passed through the small and dark cabin, and when he stepped onto the bluestone shore, Chen Li'an had already disappeared. His beloved girl.

After meeting Jinhua again, all of Okazawa's demeanor disappeared, only endless regret and heartache, looking at the crazy but still remembering that he loved Jinhua deeply, Okazawa also felt that he was going crazy.

Everyone in the crew looked at Chen Li'an and Yasuko Tomita silently, everything about actors disappeared after them, and only Okagawa and Jin Hua stood in front of the camera.

Sitting in front of the monitor, Ou Dingping couldn't help shaking his palms slightly, and he didn't even dare to direct the camera how to shoot, for fear that it would affect the performance of Chen Li'an and Yasuko Tomita.

This kind of performance does not require any shooting techniques, as long as you look at them, you can feel two real characters and a real emotion!

At this moment, Ou Dingping suddenly understood a truth, great movies do not have fancy lens language, and some things will only destroy the beauty of the movie, the performance of the actors, and the most authentic emotions of the characters.

some things go too far
If Chen Li'an knew what Ou Dingping was thinking, he would definitely ask him to write it down and send it to Director Cheng.

How good is Farewell My Concubine, there are no paradoxical voice-overs and no hazy filters, only the most touching stories and performances.

In the next two weeks, the shooting efficiency was unbelievably high. Even the supporting actors in the show would be infected by the performances of Chen Li'an and Yasuko Tomita, and were unconsciously led away by them, and the level of performance was a bit higher.

Under the hazy sky in the early morning, Chen Li'an looked at the silent Yasuko Tomita and gently grabbed her hand, as if he was very reluctant to part with the last scene.

Yasuko Tomita turned her head to look at Chen Li'an, her eyes full of nostalgia, then she gently pulled out her hand, turned her head to look at the ready camera and nodded slightly.

Ou Dingping took a deep breath and shouted: "Christ in Nanjing, the last scene, the last shot, let's begin!"

Jin Hua was wearing a bright red scarf and wearing a hat of Okazawa on her head. She stumbled and ran on the railway. When a breeze blew, the hat on her head fell to the ground, and there was no trace of Okazawa on her body anymore. .

Okagawa followed behind Jinhua, looking at her back with pampering eyes, and made up his mind to take her back to Japan, never to be separated again.

Jin Hua ran and smiled, and seemed to have returned to her carefree self in the golden rapeseed field. Jin Hua suddenly fell to the ground while running, and the big red scarf slowly fell in the breeze.

Okagawa ran over quickly, hugged Jinhua in his arms, and lifted her head with a smile, like a doting father, gently wiped the broken grass leaves on her face, but he didn't feel it. The breath of the golden flower.

Okagawa's hands stopped, and the smile on his face also froze. He gently stroked Jin Hua's face with trembling hands, his throat seemed to be blocked, and he couldn't even say the word Jin Hua.

Seeing Jinhua's pale and pale face, Okazawa held her tightly in his arms, eyes filled with tears, his mouth was slightly open and he couldn't make any sound, like a machine that was so sad that it lost its soul.

Everyone in the crew who had been watching from the side had red eyes at this moment, and tears rolled down uncontrollably from the corners of their eyes.

Sitting on the ponytail, Ou Dingping felt a great sadness. At this moment, he suddenly realized that he might never be able to make such a movie again.

He was sad for Jin Hua and Okagawa, but also for himself.

No one called to stop, nor stepped forward to tell Chen Li'an and Yasuko Tomita that the filming was over. Chen Lian held her and trembled non-stop, tears from his eyes slid down his cheeks and dripped on Yasuko Tomita's face.

Warm tears fell on Yasuko Tomita's heart like a boulder, and it hurt her heart. The man she loved the most was crying for her.

Yasuko Tomita forgot everything, opened his eyes and looked at Chen Li'an, reached out and gently wiped away his tears, and said softly: "I'm still here, I'm still here."

The moment Yasuko Futian spoke, Chen Li'an completely lost control of all his suppressed emotions, and cried hoarsely while hugging Yasuko Tomita, calling Jinhua over and over again.

Watching this scene, Ou Dingping silently asked the photographer to turn off the camera, and then gestured for everyone to keep quiet and pack up their things quietly.

Standing in the distance, the assistant director looked at Chen Li'an who was holding Yasuko Tomita and was crying bitterly, took a puff of cigarette and said to Ou Dingping in a hoarse voice: "Chen Li'an is too involved, won't it be affected?"

Ou Dingping shook his head and said, "It's okay, leave it to Yasuko Tomita, and professional actors have their own way of acting, so don't worry."

"Well, what should we do now?" The assistant director looked at Chen Li'an, who would not be able to slow down for a while, and then looked at the crew that had already packed up, and said somewhat tangled, "We just wait?"

"Wait." After Ou Dingping finished speaking, he turned and left.

The assistant director stamped out the cigarette butt in his hand, looked at Chen Li'an's figure, and couldn't help muttering: "It's really worth waiting for us, he is a good actor."

Futian Yasuko leaned in Chen Li'an's arms, wiped away his tears, and said over and over again that I was still there and the filming was over.

But Chen Li'an didn't seem to feel it, he was immersed in the emotion of losing his lover and couldn't extricate himself for a long time.

In the depths of Chen Li'an's subconscious mind, he looked rationally and soberly at himself who kept crying bitterly. He knew that the person crying was not himself, but Okagawa.
Yasuko Tomita's words will not have any consoling effect, it will only make Okazawa more broken, his golden flower is really dead, and will never come back.

After a long time, Chen Li'an gradually stopped crying, and took a serious look at Yasuko Tomita, as if he wanted to remember this face that was exactly the same as Jin Hua, then he raised his hand and gently stroked her face and smiled.

"Are you okay, Li'an-kun." Yasuko Tomita was a little afraid of Chen Li'an's current state of mind, he was out of the play himself, how could he get into the play so deeply.

The tears on Chen Li'an's face stopped, he withdrew the hand that was caressing Yasuko Tomita, exhaled slowly, and then said hoarsely: "I'm fine, it's just that there are too many emotions accumulated in my heart, and I need to vent them out. "

Gang Chuan has also left with the dead Jin Hua, and now only Chen Li'an is still feeling the faint sadness.

"It's fine, it's fine." Yasuko Tomita put his arms around Chen Li'an and patted him on the back, tenderly like a mother.

Chen Li'an, who returned to the hotel at night, seemed to have completely shaken off the influence of the character on him, and drank and chatted with Ou Dingping and the others.

Yasuko Tomita has been sitting next to Chen Li'an, seemingly unaffected by the role, but in fact there is a shadow of Jin Hua in every move, and even the way of speaking still retains the habit of Jin Hua.

Chen Li'an observed Yasuko Tomita silently, and finally he was sure that this girl was a little bit of a mess.

I thought I was out of the play, but in fact I fell deeper.

Ou Ding and Hirano found out, but he had nothing to do, and now he didn't care about the actor's affairs, he just wanted to go back and make the film later.

After dinner in the evening, Yasuko Tomita followed Chen Lian back to the room, and thoughtfully helped Chen Lian hang up the coat that Chen Lian had taken off.

"Jingzi, when are you going to return to Japan?" Chen Li'an asked while sitting by the bed.

Yasuko Tomita was stunned for a moment, unable to realize why he wanted to go back to Japan for a moment, and it took a long time before he came back to his senses, and stared blankly at Chen Li'an.

"I don't want to go back." Tomita Yasuko looked at Chen Li'an and said.

Chen Li'an sat down holding Yasuko Tomita's hand and said, "Have you forgotten why you want to act in this movie?"

Yasuko Tomita shook his head and nodded again, looking at Chen Li'an in silence, those temporarily forgotten obsessions came back after returning to reality.

I broke my previous pure image and acted in this movie to save my acting career.

Her own obsession slowly pulled Yasuko Tomita back from Jinhua. She still liked her current life better than that simple girl who believed in Christianity.

Chen Li'an reached out and rubbed Yasuko Tomita's head and said, "Okay, forget about Jinhua and forget about Okagawa. You are Yasuko Tomita, the last innocence of the Showa era, and a well-known artist who will stand on stage again."

After hearing Chen Li'an finished speaking, Yasuko Tomita hugged Chen Li'an suddenly and cried bitterly, tears streaming down uncontrollably.

Maybe it's because I feel sad for Jinhua's ending, or maybe I find myself envious of Jinhua, her simplicity, and her bravery.

Futian Yasuko hugged Chen Li'an and cried for a long time, finally looked up at Chen Li'an, at Jin Hua's beloved Okagawa, stroked his face and said, "Let me be Jin Hua again, please."

Chen Li'an nodded, gently hugged her and called Jin Hua softly.

It was a quiet night, only two men and women in the room recalled the past happy times, strolling by the river, running in the field of rapeseed, and writing together in the sunny room.

When the dark sky outside the window gradually brightened, the two stopped remembering, looked at each other in the twilight of the morning light, and then released all their emotions in one go.

It seems that I want to give all my love to the other party at once this morning.

I don't know how long it took, the sunlight outside was already very dazzling, and the crazy panting in the room gradually calmed down, only the messy clothes all over the floor could prove the madness just now.

Yasuko Tomita propped herself up and sat up, silently took a towel, wiped off the sweat stains on her forehead, and wiped off the marks left by Chen Li'an on her body.

Chen Li'an couldn't help but dug out a pack of cigarettes, walked to the window and smoked silently, the blue smoke slowly drifting away in the sunlight.

It seems that in the past month or so, all this has been a dream, and now it is time to wake up from the dream.

Yasuko Tomita picked up the clothes on the ground, put them on one by one, and then came to behind Chen Li'an, hugged him from behind, felt his body temperature, stretched out his finger and wrote the word Chen Li'an on his back.

Just like Jinhua wrote his name on Okagawa, Yasuko Tomita said softly after finishing writing: "Li'an-kun, I'm going back to Japan, I hope to see you again in the future."

Chen Li'an felt like a golden flower in reality, who was ruthlessly abandoned by Yasuko Okagawa.

"Good luck and hope this movie can make you a goddess all over Japan again."

Yasuko Tomita let go of Chen Li'an's hand, looked at his back against the light and said, "I will definitely!"

Chen Li'an said without turning his head, "Then, goodbye."

"Goodbye."

After a while, Chen Li'an extinguished the cigarette butt in his hand, and when he turned around, Yasuko Tomita was no longer in the room.

When Chen Li'an packed his luggage and went downstairs, he realized that Yasuko Tomita had left early.

Looking at the blue sky, Chen Li'an stretched himself, and left with his luggage.

How come and how to go back, nothing seems to have changed, only the price of motorcycles has increased.

More than two hours later, Chen Li'an's plane landed in the capital.

Looking at the dusty sky and smelling the bad air, Chen Li'an took a deep breath obsessively: "This is the taste of hometown!"

Bah bah bah!Just too much sand!
(There are two more chapters, post them later, you can read them tomorrow, or you can choose to wait, anyway, I don’t go to work tomorrow. Hehe.)
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