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Chapter 177 Even I Don't Know
Man is a very tangled life.

While wanting to change the past.

On the one hand, I am afraid of losing what I already have.

The afterglow of the setting sun reddened everything in sight, and the sea breeze blew Fang Xiaoling's long hair, and after hugging and sighing, it floated down on the deck.

She could vaguely hear Xiaolan and Li Mengling's laughter when they were playing around, which made Fang Xiaoling a little scared.

If Roland had waited for her parents on her birthday when she was seven, maybe her soul would not be lonely.

In that case, the pendant on Fang Xiaoling's neck would no longer exist, and Xiaolan would not appear either.

Why did the pain that seemed obvious at the beginning become the source of happiness now?

"What are you thinking about?" Roland walked to her side, "You seem to be restless lately?"

"It's nothing, I'm just reflecting on myself. I really shouldn't travel to the past without authorization and try to change your life."

"Good sister, don't be stupid, it's been more than a month." Roland patted her on the shoulder, "I don't care anymore, why are you still struggling?"

Fang Xiaoling looked at the sea, was silent for a while, and then asked in a murmur, "Sister, do you think your life is lucky?"

"What do you think?" Roland put a coat on her and shook his head slightly, "Of course it's not lucky, it's even chaotic, like a storm on the sea, you can't see the contents clearly, but you can clearly feel it. Extremely dangerous."

"Then if you were given a chance to live again, and your life was up to you, what kind of life would you choose?"

Hearing this, Roland thought for a while and wanted to answer, but he hesitated to speak.

After a long time, she replied: "I don't know."

"I thought you would tell about a dream journey." Fang Xiaoling said, "I just fantasized that if I didn't know anything, I wouldn't have anything to do with Gaota. Although I divorced Shen Yi, it's been a long time. I’m sure I’ll be able to meet a new fate, right? At that time, I can have a child, just like my sister’s parents, and live an ordinary life, which is pretty good.”

"If you could choose again, would you choose that way?" Roland looked at her, with some anticipation for the answer in his eyes, "I thought about the same as you at first, but I always feel..."

"I always feel that my final answer is to continue my current life, right?" Fang Xiaoling squinted and smiled, "Even if we can choose again, we will still do the same thing because of the existence of the other party."

"Maybe." Roland said softly, "But I still really want to change what happened when I was 16 years old, but I'm also afraid that after I change, I will lose my current ability, and Gaota will do more excessive things. There is no way to deal with it.

So... even if you want to change, you have to defeat the tower first. "

Fang Xiaoling didn't speak. After a while, Roland continued: "Xiaoling, you should have seen that Mengling and Xiaolan had a lot of fun recently, but she was actually suppressing her true inner thoughts? I don't know [Purple Rhyme], but I can also feel that she is a little..."

Having said that, Roland seemed to have made a decision, and asked simply, "How long will it take?"

Fang Xiaoling's hands were tightly grasping the railing at the edge, she knew that this problem could not be avoided.

Roland only asked her today, and he already trusted her a lot.

What's more, she didn't ask what she was doing?Or is there a plan at all?
What she asked was: How long will it take?
"almost."

Fang Xiaoling's answer actually means: I don't know.

Roland nodded, she hesitated for a while, and said, "Xiaoling, I didn't mean to urge you.

It's just that today is December 12th, and a week later, it will be the time for me to negotiate with the tower owner.

Of course, we can now travel to that point in time to negotiate.

Or, just don't negotiate at all.

Or, even if the time has passed, it doesn't matter, and then go back to that time to negotiate.

But I still want to remind you that December 12th is an important time node. Both Gaota and Li Mengling are paying attention to this time.

Well... Actually I care too.

Hopefully, before that time comes, you can make some moves.

Even if it's just a sign of resistance. "

"What if there is still no sign of it on the 25th?" Fang Xiaoling didn't want to hit Roland, but she still asked, "Sister, do you still remember what I told you in the mall? This is a gamble.

Unconditional trust is difficult in itself.

If you give up now, I don't blame you.

But, I sincerely, sincerely, please, please believe me. "

"My good sister, it's not that I don't believe you, it's just..." Roland frowned, and clenched his fists involuntarily, "I'm very scared. The bloody and terrifying things I experienced since I was a child have not made me the way I am now. so scared.

I thought it would be a lot easier to give everything about myself to someone I trusted.

But the reality is completely the opposite.

I'm not afraid of you giving up, not afraid of you not doing your best, and not afraid of you really standing on the side of the tower.

I believe you.

You will definitely fight with all your strength, even if you lose, it is definitely not your responsibility.

But I'm still afraid.

I am not afraid of losing.

I'm afraid, then I will blame you. "

"elder sister……"

"Xiaoling, if I fight by myself, I can still blame fate.

But now, I really put everything on you. "

"I understand." Fang Xiaoling stretched out her palm, "But I really can't confirm it, because I don't even know the real plan."

Seeing that Roland hadn't spoken for a long time, Fang Xiaoling explained: "At first, I was looking for an independent space, but I couldn't find it. Later, I wanted to find a small island, so we went to sea.

But just now, I changed my mind again.

It's time to start planning. "

"what?"

"You heard me right." Fang Xiaoling pushed the messy hair on her forehead behind her ears, "Sister, please call Li Mengling over, I want to announce my plan."

After reacting for a while, Roland said, "Xiaoling, you know it's pointless to do this, because we can't confirm whether you really want to announce the plan, or are you acting for the tower to see."

"It doesn't matter. Didn't I say that if you want to defeat the tower, you have to rely on your own feelings." Fang Xiaoling looked up at the sky and said, "Guys in the tower, you have a new game, let's take a guess." , the plan I will talk about next, will the Anti-Fate Squad really implement it?"

After a while, Roland called Li Mengling.

Xiaolan also followed.

The three stood in a row, as if waiting for the captain to speak.

(End of this chapter)