Song Dynasty female artist

My name is Zhao Rui.

Ever since I can remember, everyone around me has been respectful to me because I am the only legitimate son of my father.

One day, my mother brought my fourth brother to the Qingshou Palace and said that we two could keep each other company from now on.

It was only then that I learned that my fourth brother's mother had passed away.

It was rumored in the palace that Fourth Brother's mother was the Emperor's favorite woman, and even after her death, she would give Fourth Brother the best.

I was young at that time and didn’t understand this sentence.

But when my father posthumously conferred the title of Chen Fei on my fourth brother's mother, I saw my mother sitting alone in the courtyard in a daze.

When I grew up, I realized that my mother was sad at that time.

I once wondered what my mother was thinking when she brought my fourth brother to the Qingshou Palace to study literature and martial arts with me under Tutor Gu.

I was not interested in learning martial arts, so later on Master Gu taught me, and my fourth brother followed Commander Zeng to learn martial arts.

Master Gu also taught Fourth Brother a few moves, so even though Fourth Brother looks like a child, his attainments in martial arts are quite impressive.

Sometimes, Master would bring his eldest daughter, Gu Yanxiao, into the palace to play with us.

Over time we became familiar with each other.

Xiaoxiao is a very cheerful girl. As she is a cultivator, she likes to compare herself with her fourth brother to see who is better.

I always watch the show from the sidelines.

Fourth brother came to the Qingshou Palace. Whenever father had time, he would have dinner there.

After dinner, he tested me on my homework and then watched Fourth Brother demonstrate a few sets of boxing techniques.

During those years, I could clearly see that my mother smiled more often, and we seemed like a real family.

A few years later, my father's health deteriorated day by day. Doctor Tong tried many methods, but there was no obvious improvement.

My father is more strict with me.

I began to frequently come into contact with government affairs, and my father gave me full authority to handle some matters that were neither urgent nor important.

Even if there were things I couldn't handle yet, he let me learn from him.

During that time, I felt so tired.

At one point I didn't want to be the crown prince.

My mother seemed to see through my thoughts and guided me. Then I realized that my father’s health was really not good. As the crown prince and the future emperor, this was a responsibility I could not evade.

Master Gu also told me a lot in a roundabout way.

It turns out that my master had already noticed my thoughts, but as a subject, he was not in a position to say it out loud.

I was only twelve years old when my father passed away.

Thanks to the full support of my master and several important ministers during those years, I was able to sit firmly on the throne.

The world was at peace at that time, and the court officials urged me to take a concubine and establish a queen. I was very annoyed because I already had someone I liked, but I had no idea what she felt towards me.

Taking this opportunity, I proposed to go on a secret visit.

I can foresee that the court officials will try their best to stop me, but I have made up my mind that I just need to convince Master, Han Shumi and others.

After that, she naturally left the palace as she wished.

I didn't expect that Xiaoxiao would come with us.

The feeling is so wonderful that it cannot be expressed in words.

After leaving the palace, I felt the vastness of the world, and I could understand what Xiaoxiao said: The palace is like a huge cage, who would like that?

Yes, who would like to lock themselves in a cage? Not to mention that she is used to being free in the sect, even I don’t want to go back to that cage after I got out.

Everyone yearns for rights, but I yearn for freedom more.

But as a descendant of the Zhao family, I have no choice.

I loved every day I spent away from home, and I also knew clearly the purpose of my incognito tour. Wherever I went, I would first understand the people's sentiments, and then enjoy the scenery. That period was my first time.

Especially when I am alone with Xiaoxiao, I can hear my own heartbeat.

One night, I pretended to be asleep.

I just wanted to stay with Xiaoxiao for a moment longer, and I didn't expect that she would personally send me back to the tent.

It was warm in the tent and I was a little confused. In the dark, I couldn't control myself looking at Xiaoxiao's profile, so I did a bold move.

I kissed her on the face.

A dragonfly skimming the water does not leave no trace. The feeling of joy exploded in my heart.

Xiaoxiao ran out shyly.

Maybe she was shy. Her eyes adjusted to the darkness and I could clearly see her red ears and neck.

I feel very happy in my heart.

Does Xiaoxiao's behavior mean that she has me in her heart?

So is she willing to be my queen?
But she said that the palace was a big cage and she didn't like it.

The joy that had just risen up in me was like a basin of cold water poured over my head, and every part of my body was cold.

However, I knew clearly that Xiaoxiao was unwilling to enter the palace, but I couldn't help but get close to her. As long as I was close to her, I felt happy and joyful.

We traveled south, solved many cases, and encountered many dangers.

But the most dangerous thing was that our whereabouts were leaked, leading to an encirclement and killing by the Liao Dynasty. At this time, my master and I realized that there were spies from the Liao Dynasty in the court.

But at that time, there was only the suspicion, but no clues.

The news of my return to Beijing was leaked. After discussing with my master, we decided to take advantage of the situation. We would first set a trap, let them fall into it themselves, and then catch them in the trap.

The ten cultivators from the Liao Dynasty were all captured by us.

I can imagine what expression the Liao Emperor would have when he got the news.

Just thinking about it makes me feel good.

On New Year's Day, I arrived in Kyoto. My happy time was over. I had to sit in that seat every day, listening to them quarreling and finally throwing the blame on me.

When I thought about how I have spent decades like this, I suddenly felt like there was no hope in life.

If she were to accompany me during these lonely days, would it become more enjoyable?

I tried to express my feelings to Xiaoxiao.

But Xiaoxiao was determined not to enter the palace.

She didn't want to share a husband with so many women, and she didn't want to be locked in that cage, which was extremely boring.

I told her that as long as she agreed, there would be only her and the only woman in the harem.

She still didn't want to.

I was sad, but I told myself to let it go.

I let go and started to choose concubines. Women of all kinds entered the harem, and I tried to look at them, but those beauties were all the same in my eyes. All of them combined were not as good as Xiaoxiao's smile to me.

I regret it. Why did I agree to my mother taking a concubine? Why did I agree to this?

Just because Xiaoxiao refused, I took my anger out on these women. What could I prove to Xiaoxiao using these women?
Then I am such a fucking bastard, am I still a qualified emperor?
These women are also my subjects. Even if they entered the palace with impure intentions, it was me who spoke first and gave them the opportunity.

So at the beginning, I indulged them.

As long as it's not excessive, it's fine.

Once a suitable solution is found, they will be dismissed from the palace.

It’s just that some women are too impatient. They start to act up not long after entering the palace, and some even cause deaths in order to win favor and eliminate dissidents.

This is something I cannot tolerate. (End of this chapter)