Flower Moon

Chapter 9 I want to stay

"Yes, they're all dead, but so what?"

A Yin raised her head, stared at a pair of big innocent eyes, and said innocently to Tao Yueer: "Brother Hua Ling said, as long as they are still in our hearts, they will not die."

"..." Tao Yue'er was too surprised to speak.

She couldn't believe that Hua Ling, who was indifferent to others, would say such words.

"Brother Hua Ling is not lying to us." As if seeing Tao Yueer's obvious disbelief, Ayin insisted stubbornly and seriously: "Every one of us will die. I watched them leave us one by one with my own eyes. But we are a family, and death is not a separation for us, but a reunion. Each of us is waiting for the time to reunite."

"So...you always take them with you when you eat?"

Ayin nodded: "In this way, they will be with us forever."

"Hua Ling told you this too?" Tao Yue'er was a little surprised.

"Yes!"

"..."

After thinking about it, Tao Yue'er didn't think that Hua Ling was someone who could say such warm words.But after thinking about it, I felt that it was also possible.If you lie to children, only children will believe it.It is reasonable for Hua Ling to be gentle to them.

He was just too lazy to be gentle with her.

A Yin wiped a bowl for the last time, then suddenly raised her head, thinking: "But after you came, brother Ling seems to be a different person..."

"A different person?" Tao Yue'er wondered again: "Where did he change?"

Ayin didn't think about it, and replied casually: "Brother Hualing actually cooks himself and cooked so many delicious food for us. I have been here for more than half a year, and I didn't know he can cook!"

Tao Yue'er was taken aback for a moment, then said in astonishment: "Isn't he the cook here?"

A Yin shook his head: "He's always been in charge of eating."

"..." Tao Yue'er opened her mouth halfway, and was even more surprised.

She looked at Hualing busily busy, cooking and washing clothes, how could she not be the same person as she said?
If he never cooks, then who does he suddenly start cooking for?

He didn't feed himself either.

It can't be done for her to see, right?
It took Tao Yueer a long time to say in a daze: "Then what do you usually eat?"

Ayin thought for a while, dragged Tao Yueer back to the kitchen, scooped up a spoonful of uneaten white porridge on the table, she raised the spoon high, and then tilted the spoon in mid-air.The white porridge made a straight line in the air and fell back into the bowl, splashing a little bit of water.She pouted and said, "Here, just eat this. Whoever is free will cook. Once you cook a big pot, this is the food for the whole day. There are no carrots, cucumbers, or scallions, let alone minced meat. .”

Amidst Tao Yueer's astonishment, A Yin patted her on the shoulder and said, "For Brother Ling, you are different from us. The burden of saving Brother Ling falls on you, come on! "

"Save?" Tao Yue'er frowned again, and asked, "Does he need help from others?" He has hands and feet, is healthy, and has a bright heart, and he doesn't look like he needs help from others.

A Yin nodded vigorously: "Brother Ling is the one with the most serious mental illness among all of us! Don't think that he is fine on the surface, but in fact he is more sensitive than anyone else, and all the anger is accumulated in his heart. If this continues, sooner or later It will explode!"

Tao Yue'er opened her mouth halfway, and said in astonishment, "Where did you start talking about this?"

Ayin's expression was filled with a seriousness that she wouldn't have at her age, as if she had a terrible secret.She pulled Tao Yue'er to sit on the threshold of the kitchen, looked around, and made sure no one was approaching before she said quietly: "I'm only telling you this, please don't spread it."

Tao Yueer nodded vigorously: "I will definitely not say it."

"It's like this-"

Ayin's thoughts were vague, and he told a tragic story that made the listener cry and the listener sad.

Hua Ling grew up in a family of officials since childhood, and her father was a prefect with considerable power.It's a pity, once the emperor and the courtiers, after changing the emperor, Huafu was exiled to Lingnan because of the wrong faction, and the family was separated from each other.But because of his good looks, his mother was taken as his own by the new prefect. Later, because she couldn't bear the humiliation, she threw herself into the river not long after.Hualing was also reduced to an official slave, and was sent to the theater to babble all day long to please the superiors.His original name was also erased, and he was only named "Ling", which means "actor".

And he originally had an unmarried wife, who severed ties with him because of his family's decline, and became engaged to the new prefect's son.When the wedding day approached, the prefect's mansion brought in two red sedan chairs.One is the daughter of Mr. Liu's family, and the other is a flower girl with many flowers tied up inside.

That's right, the son of the new prefect not only fell in love with Hua Ling's daughter-in-law, but also Hua Ling.From then on, he and his fiancée married a man together, and lived an even darker life.

But even so, he never thought of committing suicide.He vowed to wait until his father came back to reunite with his son.Later, Hua Lingxu and Wei Snake finally gained the trust of the prefect's family, and escaped on a dark and stormy night for a month.Because no one dared to come to the Plague Center of the Salesian Bureau, he hid here and stayed there for more than half a year.

"No wonder..." Tao Yue'er murmured to herself after hearing this, but couldn't recover for a while.

"No wonder what?" Ayin asked strangely.

——No wonder Hua Ling hates me so much.

——Because he can't see others committing suicide.

His life has been scattered from the clouds, and he has never thought of giving up, but apart from her heart being hurt, she actually didn't eat any words, but threatened that she would never live again.

No wonder he is so indifferent to himself.

Tao Yue'er looked at the children in the yard who were suffering from the epidemic and still refused to give up their lives. She suddenly remembered the words he said when she first met Hua Ling:

——"The today that you give up easily is the tomorrow that the deceased dreamed of. Life comes and goes, and every day is a life that cannot be reproduced. Are you really going to give up on this?"

He actually wanted to persuade himself not to commit suicide.

Tao Yue'er can finally understand why Hua Ling always has no smile on her face at such a young age, indifference has become his pronoun, and indifference has become his motto.

He is alone, brighter than the moonlight.There is nothing more thankful than encountering beauty in the most desperate moments of life.Because I have experienced darkness, I yearn for light even more.A person who can face life positively has hope in his heart, no matter whether life is difficult or difficult, he will not live too badly.

Hua Ling is such a person.

In the evening, Tao Yueer found Hua Ling at the foot of the mountain.At this time, he came down from the mountain to collect herbs and was about to water the taro in the field.

"I don't want to die." Tao Yue'er caught up, grabbed Hua Ling's sleeve, and said solemnly: "I want to stay and take care of the children with you."

The evening sun shines on the top of the mountain, which has a different kind of quiet beauty.

Hua Ling turned her head and gave Tao Yue'er a faint look.

Tao Yueer's gaze was firm, with a gleam of light and expectation that had disappeared for a long time.

The contempt in Hua Ling's eyes gradually faded, and it took a long time before she finally nodded slightly, and said a word lightly:

"it is good."

(End of this chapter)