dream village

"Dad, you... what's the matter with you?" Zhang Tao felt a little terrified when he saw his father's tense and extremely serious face.

"Sit down! I have something to chat with you." Renlong pointed to the chair beside him and said solemnly to Zhang Tao.

The father who has always been joking and not very meddling rarely speaks in this manner!What is worthy of his prudence and seriousness?And it seems that this posture is not a matter of few words, Zhang Tao muttered to himself.

"Tugu, I have talked a lot about you with Gao Zi and your classmates from the city in the past few days, and let me know more about your performance in school. Generally speaking, you I am doing well in life, work and study, and the failure of the college entrance examination this time is considered an unexpected accident. I know that you feel very uncomfortable, and the family members are actually also uncomfortable. Your mother cried secretly several times. "

Zhang Tao didn't answer, but a mist appeared in his heart.

Renlong then asked lightly, "Let's just leave those matters behind and forget about them. What are your plans in the future?" When he said this, he looked at Zhang Tao sharply, as if he wanted to dig something out of Zhang Tao. secret.

Zhang Tao couldn't stand his father's gaze, he lowered his head and said uneasily, "I...I haven't thought about it yet."

Renlong was a little angry and taught, "Is there any need to think about it? What did your classmates and brothers say? They were all very sad and unconvinced, and clamored for you to be responsible for all your expenses next year. Show your face for them by entering a top ten prestigious school. What a classmate and brother! I am proud and happy for this. Your school and teachers also sent messages through Gao Zi to give you encouragement and comfort, and to waive your tuition and miscellaneous fees , invite you to continue to re-study. Not to mention the family members, even if you don’t eat or drink, they will also support you to continue to re-study and enter the university. We have discussed your affairs together several times, your mother said After raising two more pigs in half a year, Mengxue said that Shuangqian would pick up charcoal as soon as she landed, and Mengfang also yelled that she would drop out of school to protect you."

After a pause, he said earnestly: "I'm not saying this to put pressure on you, but to tell you that you are the hope of the whole family! The family spent so much money on your education, and now it's only one step away. We all hope that you will be proud after high school, and you already have advantages and strengths, as long as you work a little harder, you can definitely make a comeback."

Zhang Tao lowered his head, his eyes were moist.His father's words hit his heart again and again like a heavy hammer, and he felt sad and confused again.There are three paths in front of me, re-study, part-time job, and farming. How should I choose?

Renlong continued to speak in a deep and deep voice: "I guess the reason for your unsteady mind now. Maybe you still want to continue your dream of running away from home and wandering in the rivers and lakes, but you are blind everywhere with a high school diploma and no skills. Running, what can you do well? Besides, didn’t you learn enough lessons during the summer vacation? Maybe you want to farm at home and make some efforts to change the appearance of your hometown. But what do you use to change? Use your mouth or your body What about your strength? Your heart is good, but think about it for yourself. Is this possible? I didn’t hit you, Tugu, stop fantasizing and daydreaming! As long as you decide to farm, it won’t take a few years. I dare say that not only can you not change your hometown at all, but you will let your hometown change you. Your blood and ideals will all be rubbed into the mud of your hometown with your sweat. Although the university entrance examination is not the only thing in life One road, but compared to farming at home and running around the world, perhaps this is the safest and brightest road.”

Although almost everyone in the village knew about Zhang Tao's investment of 200 million yuan to set up a farm, Renlong didn't know about it, and Zhang Tao didn't dare to tell his father, because he was naturally afraid of his father.Besides, he also knew that in his father's mind, the only way out was to go to college, and he would never agree to it.Therefore, he only adopted this method of cutting first and playing later.And he also thought about it, let the village cadres and some prestigious elders tell his father about this matter first, if there is a buffer process and time for his father to think, if he explains it again, maybe his father will accept it. up.

However, what my father said tonight still moved Zhang Tao a little bit, and hit his soft threat. The thoughts he had during this period of time were a little shaken again, as if he felt that a certain college was really beckoning to him.yes!Repeating reading is the easiest and most convenient way, and it also meets everyone's wishes.With one's own strength, it is entirely possible to squeeze into the single-plank bridge for the university entrance exam.Working and farming are full of many unknown risks and hardships.Perhaps this is actually just a dream constructed by myself because of timidity and cowardice to escape the reality of failing the list.

Renlong's words continued. He especially emphasized: "You are the eldest son in your family. You must carefully consider everything you do. You must not be rash or impulsive. You must consider yourself and the people around you, especially your relatives."

Having said that, he solemnly mentioned Zhang Tao's tired mother and his sister who dropped out of school, "When you make a decision, think about whether you are worthy of what they have given you."

Finally, Renlong patted his son on the shoulder and said comfortingly: "Okay, don't think too much! Dad also suffered from this, so don't fall in the same place again. I heard from Mengzi that they plan to Go back, and you go with them too. There are not many things at home anyway, you go to see Nana, and go to the school to talk to the teacher and see when to make up classes." After finishing speaking, he left Zhang Tao who was in a daze walked away.

Zhang Tao felt that it was time to carefully consider his father's words and his own future, and he couldn't escape.He strolled out of the bay.The two gangs on the Heping wine shop were fighting in full swing, and yelling and yelling sounded from time to time.A large number of children gathered on the playground of the elementary school. They were playing, chasing, and fighting carefree.Some adults also stood there in twos and threes to join in the fun. They smoked cigarettes leisurely and chatted about topics of interest to each other.

Tonight, the stars are shining brightly, the moon is shining like silver, and all kinds of sounds collide, interweave and echo in the sky above the mountain, creating a peaceful and lively atmosphere in the countryside.But all of this has nothing to do with Zhang Tao, his heart is full of contradictions, and all kinds of contradictions are twisted together to weave annoying melancholy.

"Should I repeat my studies? Go all out and continue to repeat my studies, but can I get into the university? What if I fail again?..."

Zhang Tao didn't dare to think about it anymore, and the result of thinking about it made him fearful and afraid.