troublemaker

Chapter 670 Six Life Is Hard

The city is big, the world is big, and people's hearts are big, so there are many children who lose their way.

Zhao Chuxi has always felt that no matter what he does, it depends on his comprehensive strength. Otherwise, if he is not strong enough, he will force himself to keep moving forward and climb up. The final result will be to lose himself and fall into the abyss.

Zhao Chuxi likes No.16, and No.16 is also the woman who has the greatest influence on Zhao Chuxi in Xi'an. This kind of liking has nothing to do with love, but a very complicated thing. How many people can think highly of Miss from the bottom of their hearts? Profit is definitely one.So far, Zhao Chuxi can't forget the day he met NO.16, that kind of exhaustion, that kind of strength, that kind of cleanliness.Going from a slum in a small county to going to a university in a big city is no more difficult for a family like the Qin family. What NO.16 has always wanted to do is to rely on his own efforts to change this family so that his parents can live a better life , to make her younger brother a little bit of a future, so when her parents were seriously ill and asked for money, her younger brother asked for money to go to college, and the burden of the family was on her, she chose a path of no return.

It's just that no one understands her, and few people know how pure her heart is, because this is her original intention, and her original intention is to hope that this family will be better. A few people can stick to their original aspirations, so no matter how far they go, no matter how fast they walk, no matter how high they stand and how far they stand, only by not forgetting their original aspirations can they maintain the truest self.

As the "Avatamsaka Sutra" says, if you don't forget your original intention, you will always...

Whenever Zhao Chuxi was at a loss and helpless, he would think about the silly No. 16, who was so stubborn to treat himself to Pizza Hut, and told him so distressingly, my name is Qin Ran, and he liked him so much but suppressed it in his heart.Zhao Chuxi didn’t feel that God owed her anything for being able to achieve today’s achievements. She had endured hardships in the mountains for more than 20 years before standing at the height of the crowd, but she felt that God owed NO.16, owed her too much, I owe her an ordinary and stable life.

This world is unfair after all.

The northwest wind is blowing, the sky is getting more and more gloomy, the weather at noon is more like evening, I don't know when the snowflakes will start to fall, it seems that the weather forecast is still very accurate.

Zhao Chuxi squatted on the ground, placed the fruit tributes and began to burn incense and paper money. Qi Si'an next to him quietly accompanied Zhao Chuxi and did not disturb her. Everyone has their own secrets, and everyone has the softest part in their hearts. Qi Si believed that this must be the softest part of Zhao Chuxi's heart.

"More than a year in the blink of an eye, time flies so fast, I originally wanted to come to see you earlier, but unfortunately I am too busy, there are too many things, sometimes I really want to go back to Qilian Mountain, carefree every day, just waiting for the sunrise and sunset , but I know, I can’t go back. So, don’t be angry with me, hey, I know you’re definitely not angry, you’re so good, how could you be angry. There’s been a lot of things this year, and I’ve had a good time , I don’t know how you are doing over there, and you don’t know how to dream more about your life there, so that I can know how your life is going over there.” Zhao Chuxi whispered while burning paper money, as if saying goodbye to Cheng Zi When Xin and Susu were together, Zhao Chuxi laughed from the bottom of his heart, and Zhao Chuxi is the same today, without any pressure, he let go of everything, just like sitting on a recliner with his grandchildren at sunset after entering his sixtieth year Telling about your own life.

Qi Si also squatted down at this time, and burned the paper money with Zhao Chuxi, Zhao Chuxi smiled lightly and said, "Is it surprising that I brought a beautiful woman here this time, well, I know you must be worried about me over there I brought her here because of my personal problems. Her name is Qi Si, she is my fiancée, isn't she very beautiful, you have to praise me for my good eyesight, good luck, don't scold me, I can talk poorly in front of you, we are getting married soon , but you can't see it. Qi Si treats me very well and loves me as much as you do. I would say that in the future, when looking for a wife, I must find someone like you. It seems that God has favored me, and finally let me I got my wish"

Zhao Chuxi looked at Qi Si, and the two looked at each other and smiled.

"Everything is fine at home. Qin Ying returned home after graduation. I think you must know. Don't worry, I will take good care of them and come back to see them every year. No matter what, I treat myself as half of the Qin family. , so their affairs are my affairs, so you don’t worry about it. Also, I didn’t have time to tell you last time. This time I will tell you about my current life. I don’t know if I told you last year that I am no longer in Xi’an Well, I'm in Chengdu now, it's a very good place, and you will definitely like Chengdu. I don't have to work so hard to work three jobs every day, and I also have to watch who wins and who is bullied. Now I am very good, see you, I drove that Land Rover. As for me in Chengdu, it’s even more powerful. Anyone who sees me has to call Zhao Ye, don’t worry, I’m not bragging, it’s true, if you don’t believe me, you can ask Qi Si, so Ah, don't worry about me, I'm not like last time, I know what to do and what to do," Zhao Chuxi continued, as if reporting a year's work.

Qi Si never knew how hard Zhao Chuxi's life was in Xi'an, but from Zhao Chuxi's several conversations, she knew it must be harder than she imagined, but she was relieved that when Zhao Chuxi was in Xi'an, there were There are so many people taking care of him, Erpang, Susu, Cheng Zixin, and now that there is Qin Ran, Qi Si couldn't help but say emotionally, "Qin Ran, I'm Qi Si, thank you for helping me take care of my future in Xi'an, I know you I don’t need to say thank you, but I still have to say it. Don’t worry, I will be by his side in the days to come and take good care of him. No matter what happens to him, I will never leave him, because I am the same as you. It was the greatest luck to meet him in my life.”

The paper money was burned out quickly, so Zhao Chuxi stopped talking and just squatted there.

After a long time, Zhao Chuxi said slowly, "In Xi'an, meeting them is the happiest thing for me. No. 16 taught me a lot and made me understand a lot of truths. You must not think that she is a lady." , we met in Shanshuiqing, I worked as a security guard there, and she was a lady there, I never thought she was a lady, because she was different from all the ladies, she was purer than them, her eyes were more than anyone else Qingqing, she is also the best person there for me, because I understand her, I love her, I love her strength, I love her stupidity. You have also seen the conditions of the Qin family, the father is paralyzed, and the mother is infected with various diseases. Illness, her younger brother is in college, and the pressure of life is all on her. She has plunged herself into the abyss just to make the family better. Most of the children from small places hope to change their family conditions through their own efforts, so they They are hard-working, so they take risks. Unfortunately, many people lose their way in the end and forget what they wanted in the first place. No.16 is different from them. Her life has no dreams or ambitions. There is only such a small request. What a pity God Failed to make her wish. She has been persisting. She said many times that she could hardly hold on anymore. She was too tired and bitter. That kind of suffering is not ordinary suffering. Few people can understand it, but when I think about it at home , she can only continue to persevere, persevere. She just wants to wait for Qin Ying to graduate, then leave that city and return to Pingyao, and find an honest man to marry and have children. How handsome, she just needs to be nicer to her and her family, this is her life pursuit. Seeing that Qin Ying is about to leave her career, she doesn't have to suffer anymore. It's a pity, it's a pity, she committed suicide, she chose took such a path to defend their dignity.”

Zhao Chuxi began to tell the story about No.16, Qi Si listened quietly, her eyes couldn't help reddening, she didn't expect Qin Ran's story to be so sad, and Qi Si was shocked when he heard that Qin Ran chose to commit suicide in the end.

"I know she likes me. Shanshuiqing is known to many people, but she never dared to tell me that she didn't deserve me. She was afraid that she would not even have this liking after she told me, so she used what she thought The right way is good for me," Zhao Chuxi sighed with emotion.

Qi Si wiped away tears and said, "Qin Ran is a good girl"

"Well, yes, she is better than anyone else, but she is also more miserable than anyone else." Zhao Chuxi shook his head and smiled wryly.

Life is very hard, and children from poor families are even more miserable. This simple word of suffering cannot be said, and it is not enough for outsiders to explain it. Only oneself understands it.

We've said everything we need to talk about, and we've talked about everything we need to talk about. If we continue talking, Zhao Chuxi was afraid that No. 16 would feel like he was talking too much, so he said, "Stop talking, let's go. It's the same sentence, see you next time."

Standing up, Zhao Chuxi made a bright joke at Qin Ran's grave, then held Qi Si's hand, and left without looking back.

At this time, the whole world has already been covered in silver, so beautiful, so clean...

Outside the cemetery, Qin Ying leaned against the Land Rover in a daze. It had been almost two years since the incident happened, but he still couldn't face his sister, couldn't forgive himself, he didn't know how many nights he woke up crying, that was the thing he regretted the most in his life , If God could do it all over again, he would never say those words. He could think of how painful his sister was, otherwise she would not choose to commit suicide.

Everything was caused by himself, so every time, he only dared to come here, he didn't dare to go in again, he just wanted to use his whole life to repent and pay off the debt.

Seeing Zhao Chuxi and Qi Si come out, Qin Ying secretly wiped away her tears, and smiled at Zhao Chuxi and Qi Si, "Brother Zhao, sister Qi Si, come out."

Zhao Chuxi noticed Qin Ying's strangeness, so he didn't rush to get in the car, but took out a cigarette and handed it to Qin Ying, "Do you smoke?"

Qin Ying was not polite, took the cigarette, took out the lighter and lit it for herself, and then for Zhao Chuxi.

"How's work?" After all, he was Qin Ran's younger brother, no matter how hard Zhao Chuxi could not forgive him, he had to face it.

Qin Ying said with a bitter smile, "Civil servant, that's it, it's okay."

"Do you want to do something else?" Zhao Chuxi continued to ask.

Qin Ying replied, "Now that the economy is in a downturn, it's not easy to do anything, not to mention I don't have the capital."

"As long as you have an idea, try to do it. At least I can invest in you." Zhao Chuxi said straightforwardly. He is not short of money now, and he can support Qin Ying whatever he wants to do.

Qin Ying quickly said, "No need, brother Zhao, really no need."

"I'm not for you, but for your sister, for your parents. You know, if I help directly, your parents will always feel sorry, but they will be very pleased that you make their life better and better." Zhao Chuxi said truthfully that this was what he meant.

Qin Ying also recovered, nodded in embarrassment and dared not speak.

"If you think about what to do, call me, and I'll check it out. If it's really good, I'll get someone to help you. Both Qin Bing and your parents have the phone number," Zhao Chuxi said very coldly.

The snow was getting heavier and heavier, so Zhao Chuxi didn't dare to stay. After speaking, he threw away his cigarette butt and got into the car. Qin Ying bit her lip and followed her into the car...

Half an hour later, they returned to Chengnanbao Village, but after the Land Rover drove into the street, Zhao Chuxi and Qin Ying couldn't help being angry at what happened at the gate of Qin's house...

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