he sees your voice

Chapter 391 This is the moment when everyone is at a loss 2
It turned out that the whole department knew that she had a very controlling boyfriend.

Xiao Xiaoxiao's hospital is where Xiao Xiaoxiao works as an intern with A. In addition, Xiao Xiaoxiao is also in Shenwai, so there are more opportunities for the two to meet.This is how people communicate, even if they are in the same city, they may not see each other once in half a year.Both of them are too busy to ask what they want in their hearts.

In this way, it came to mid-November in a blink of an eye, and the weather became even more unpredictable. It was raining continuously and it was cold and cold.There will always be a lot of holidays in the second half of the year. Some people will look forward to November 1st when they enroll in the fall. In less than half of the semester, students start to look forward to the winter vacation.Gu Chu is not that keen on vacations, she has been wandering outside for too many years, and she cherishes every minute on campus.

The clubs in the school are busy again, November is nothing, and the focus is on Christmas Eve and Christmas. Although there is still some time left, various celebrations in the clubs have begun.Gu Chu didn't have the time to participate in club activities. Although the art club approached her many times, she rejected them all.The days when holding a guitar and forcing the senior sister to want to kill her are gone forever, and those friends who accompanied her crazy are not there, things are different, so she doesn't want to miss it any more.

It's just that she made a fool of herself in the hospital that day. Because of Xiao Xiaoxiao's guarantee, she was allowed to enter the operating room for clinical observation. Although she could only watch from a distance, it was already a great honor for her as a student. .Naturally, Gu Qimin is the chief surgeon of Shenwai, and his assistant is Xiao Xiaoxiao. Gu Chu is just envious of Xiaoxiao's ability to calmly stand on the operating table and perform surgery.

The previous clinic was different from this one, and this time it was even more "live broadcast".People say that surgeons are more like physical labor, which is true. Specialists in surgery and orthopedics joined forces to lift the patient's skull and cut the thin layer of meninges, so that the structure of the brain can be clearly seen.Gu Chu stood at the scene, staring at the clear image on the screen, feeling uncomfortable.

It's not that I haven't seen more disgusting scenes when I was with Lu Beichen, and it's not that I haven't taken human anatomy class when I was in school. It just feels visually uncomfortable.But when a blood vessel in the brain suddenly ruptured, and the blood spurted out from the patient's head and splashed all over the body, the equipment next to her started an emergency reminder. My heart is throbbing and aching.

She couldn't bear it anymore and rushed out of the operating room.

Gu Chu didn't eat lunch, stayed in the garden of the hospital, and then called Lu Beichen.There was a quick connection there, and it sounded like he was busy, in a meeting, or something, but he wasn't alone anyway.The moment Gu Chu heard his voice, Gu Chu's eyes turned red, and he suddenly realized that in fact, she has been protected by him so well all this time. When she was working in the laboratory, even if she didn't dare or what No matter how difficult it is, she will not feel that the sky is falling, because she knows in her heart that no matter how strict Lu Beichen is to her, he will always stand in front of her when she encounters a problem.But now, it's time for her to face her work alone and face difficulties. Without him, she feels like she has lost her wings.

She also worked in a hospital before, but she was just a small pharmacist. To put it bluntly, she helped people get medicines and did not involve any technical work.Now, she is an intern at Shenwai, a doctor who is about to pick up the scalpel and go to the operating table. Dazed is different, at that time she wanted to die, but now she doesn't want to die, it's the kind of inexplicable hesitation and fear of the unknown future.

She didn't speak for a long time after the call was made. Lu Beichen sensed her mood and asked her with a smile what difficulties she had encountered.It took her a long time to relieve the blockage in her throat, but as soon as she opened her mouth, tears came down, and although she was not wailing, her nose started to sob.

"What's wrong?" Lu Beichen was made nervous by her on the phone.

"It's okay." Gu Chu desperately scolded himself for being worthless in his heart, then pinched himself hard, and then diverted the emotions that were almost out of control, and said, "I don't know if I will be a good doctor..."

Lu Beichen did not comfort Gu Chu blindly. He knew Gu Chu well. If nothing happened, she would never say that. You must know that she is very excited these days. Whenever he asked her about her situation, she would always tell Gu Chu happily. He feels great.He was silent for a while, then asked softly, "Tell me, what happened?"

Gu Chu almost wanted to tell him what he saw in the operating room, but he held back and thought for a while and said, "I... I just entered the operating room today."

"and then?"

She pursed her lips hard and clenched her fingers tightly, "Then I saw Xiaoxiao using the scalpel so skillfully, I felt that I was far behind her."

As a genius, a sudden loss of self-esteem can also cause emotional interference. This is human nature, so when she said this, Lu Beichen understood it logically.Smiling low, "Being able to be on the operating table requires a lot of practical experience besides being talented. It's not the first time for Xiaoxiao to be on the operating table. One day you will be able to do it too."

"Hmm." She mumbled.

Annoyed in her heart, she knew how busy Lu Beichen was. This phone call had no effect other than burdening him. Could it be that she dared not go to the operating table and wanted Lu Beichen to teach her by hand?This kind of emotional change is far beyond his reach in Beijing, and the only one who can help her is herself.He was in Beijing, and he was involved in major cases where human lives were at stake, but she caused him trouble because of her own emotional problems. Thinking about it, I felt quite ashamed.

Lu Beichen was always patient over there, and comforted her, "Everything takes your time. You have just returned to school. Although it is the last year, you have not been in contact with clinics for too long. Don't worry, you have to give yourself time to adapt. .”

"I'm fine, I just feel a little uncomfortable." She didn't want him to worry, or else she felt that she was really useless.

Lu Beichen smiled, "Students who are about to graduate will always be at a loss for society, and you are the same now."

"I have worked before." Gu Chu retorted.

"The work of a three-legged cat." Lu Beichen gave her a fair evaluation, "In the future, you will be the one who controls the life and death of patients, so it is normal for you to be under a lot of pressure."

Gu Chu pursed his lips, "It's not as serious as what you said."

"Doctor Gu, you'd better be skilled in medicine, or you'll waste my time sending it to me." Lu Beichen teased her.

Gu Chu smiled, feeling better, "I won't let you have a chance to catch me."

Someone called Lu Beichen. She heard Luo Chi's voice clearly. She was probably discussing a case again, so she immediately said, "I'm fine, go get busy."

"I'll call you at night." Lu Beichen said.

"Um……"

When she was about to hang up, she called his name again.

He laughed, "What's wrong?"

"I miss you."

She misses him, whether she sees him or not, she misses him terribly.This kind of emotion is very strange, and it was the same when Lu Beichen was in Shanghai, she would miss him even if he was by her side, even if he was in his arms, it seemed that she would be afraid that he would disappear when he let go.Maybe, because there are too many people around him, the more she loves, the more she is afraid of losing.

After finishing the call, just as the phone was in his pocket, a voice came over, "Is your boyfriend comforting you?"

Gu Chu turned his head to look, it was Xiao Xiaoxiao.Thinking of the scene in the operating room in the morning, his face was red and white, and he didn't speak, his legs curled up on the wooden chair.Xiao Xiaoxiao sat down beside her, and handed her a cup of hot milk tea, Gu Chu took it, didn't drink it, just used it to cover his hands.

"If you don't eat, you should drink some water." Xiao smiled and looked at her, and said.

Gu Chu shook his head, "I can't even drink anything."

"I thought Lu Beichen comforted you well."

Gu Chu sighed softly, "I didn't tell him the truth."

"Why hide it?"

Gu Chu felt that her palms were warmer, and the coolness dissipated a lot. She lowered her eyes, "Actually, I don't even know what I'm afraid of, but I just can't stay in the operating room."

"You have undergone desensitization treatment before, so you are not sensitive to blood again?" Xiao Xiaoxiao asked doubtfully.

Gu Chu thought for a while, then shook his head, "I don't seem to be allergic to blood."

Xiao smiled and nodded, "Yes, you have been with Lu Beichen for so long, if it is visual discomfort, then the corpse is more visually stimulating."

Gu Chu put the milk tea aside and sighed heavily.Lu Beichen once ordered Yujing to give her desensitization treatment, but Yujing was "soft-hearted", and she didn't get in touch with the case later, so the matter was over.

After a while of silence, she asked again, "How is the patient in the morning?"

Xiao Xiaoxiao's expression was calm, "The patient had brain complications during the aortic arch surgery. His age made the operation too risky, and his blood pressure wave has been unstable, so he couldn't be rescued."

Gu Chu's heart tightened for a moment. For some reason, her nose became sour and her eyes turned red again. Her heart was terribly blocked. Her mind was full of the scene when her parents were sent to the hospital for emergency treatment. Crazy, and eyes full of blood, suffocating.After Xiao Xiaoxiao saw this, she tugged at her, "What's wrong with you?"

"That person is dead, isn't it?" After a long time, she managed to squeeze out her voice.

"Correct."

Gu Chu raised his eyes to look at her, seeing her indifferent expression, felt a little uncomfortable, "Smile, you lost your life, why do you look so indifferent?"

Xiao Xiao smiled slightly startled, and then asked, "Then what do I want? Cry a lot?"

"That patient is yours, isn't it?"

"Yes, and he lived in the hospital for a year. During this year, I was responsible for his condition."

"Then why are you still..."

"Xiao Chu, we doctors can't be overwhelmed with sympathy. In this kind of place, we have to face so many life and death every day, and we have to be emotional for it. So shouldn't we be exhausted?" Xiao Xiaoxiao said softly, "Our The duty is to heal the sick and save the sick, but one should not invest too much emotion in the sick.”

(End of this chapter)