Fairy on top

Chapter 559 Afraid of hurting you
"No." Yu Chen didn't seem to want to say more, but looking at my tearful eyes, he frowned and said in a compromised way, "It's exactly the opposite of what you think."

Quite the opposite?What's the meaning?
I thought Yuchen didn't love me anymore because of these memories.On the contrary, does that mean he loves me more?Since he loves me more, why does he alienate me?Isn't this contradictory?
I looked at him puzzled, "Why on earth are you alienating me?"

"Because I'm afraid," Yu Chen raised his hands to hold my face, rubbed the corners of my eyes lightly with his thumbs, and wiped away the tears from my eyes, he said, "Lin Xi, I'm afraid that I can't control the desire in my heart and hurt you. "

Yu Chen said, Yunling and I reincarnated in the ninth life, and he was there for all of them.Unlike Yun Ling and me, he has always been alone. No matter how hard he tries to hold on to the people around him, he ends up being betrayed by everyone.

Those memories flooded into his brain and mixed with his own, which occasionally gave him the illusion that his current happiness was unreal.

When he first had this feeling, he liked to cling to me, and the real touch to me made him feel at ease.But during that time Fu Lian was training him and teaching me spells.The two of us were separated.

Hearing him say he was feeling uneasy made my heart pound and sting.I asked him distressedly, "Why didn't you tell me?"

After asking, I realized that I was too careless.If he doesn't say some things, I should think about them too.

Some people have a childhood shadow, and when they grow up, they will have nightmares when they think about it.What's more, what Yu Chen recalled was the memory of the Ninth World, it was like a swamp, dragging him, who finally got ashore, to the abyss of the swamp again.

No matter how determined his mind is, he must have a process of acceptance and digestion.But we didn't give him this time, we kept asking him to become stronger.

Something happened to Fu Lian, something happened to the Feng Clan, something happened to Yun Ling, everything was on him, and he was asked to take the lead.We are so used to relying on him, but we all forget that his essence has been destroyed, and he has just melted into a new body.At first he couldn't even control this body, his memory was still in confusion, he didn't need us to do anything for him, he just needed time!
"Don't cry." Seeing that my eyes were red again, Yu Chen wiped my tears and said, "I didn't say it at that time because I thought it was nothing. I can still distinguish reality from memories."

Yuchen was very sensible, although the memory flooded him like a flood, he was not affected by the memory too much at that time.He could tell the difference clearly until one day in Fu Lian's portrait, after he killed the golden dragon, he lay down on the ground and fell asleep in extreme exhaustion.

He had a dream.He dreamed that I was wearing a bright red wedding dress and standing in front of the boudoir window.Outside the window is a peach tree, pink and white peach blossoms are in full bloom, and the breeze blows, and the petals fall lightly.

He stood under the peach tree, looking at me in the window, Fengguanxiapei, a beautiful appearance he had never seen before.At that moment, he was still thinking, dreaming of such a scene, is this implying to him that he owes me a wedding?
At this time, 'I' seemed to have discovered him, with joyful light in my eyes, and I raised my hand to greet him.

Yu Chen pursed his lips and smiled lightly, feeling very satisfied.He also raised his hand, and when he was about to say hello to 'me', he suddenly heard 'me' call out sweetly, "Yun Ling!"

Yu Chen froze in place.

Yun Ling, dressed as a groom, ran over from behind him, entered through the window, and embraced 'me'.

Then he woke up with a start.

After waking up, he found that he was the only one around, with injuries all over his body.Yuchen has nothing to do with fragility, but at this moment, the environment he was in overlapped with the memories he kept popping up during this period of time, making him somewhat confused whether his situation has never changed , he was still alone.About me, it's just his delusion.

After a while, the chaotic brain regained consciousness, and he became that rational Yuchen again, with a clear distinction between reality and memories, but the fear that had penetrated deep into his bones just now lingered.

Later, he heard me calling him, he ran over, and found me lying alone in the passage, surrounded by blood, and Fu Lian was gone.

He found me and took me back to the Demon King's palace, which I know.What I didn't know was that the moment he found me and saw me lying in a pool of blood, he suddenly had an idea, that is to take me away, hide me, and let me only belong to him.

Of course, his reason didn't allow him to do such a thing, but the more he recalled the past, the stronger his thoughts became.

He used to be domineering and possessive, but he never thought of imprisoning me.Now he knows that his thinking is very dangerous, he is controlling his desire, so he doesn't want to, but he doesn't dare to get too close to me, he is afraid that he will lose control.

He's paranoid, he's restless.He stayed in the dark for too long, and when he saw a little light, he wanted to take the light for himself.This piece of light can only be his own salvation. If the light can't do it, and he wants to shine on others, then he will extinguish the light, and then fall into the darkness together.

He would rather destroy the salvation he could not get than give it to others!This is what he thinks now.He knew it was wrong, and he was controlling it and working hard to correct it.

When I finished speaking, I was stunned.Yuchen's eyes were a little flustered, he looked into my eyes and said, "Lin Xi, don't be afraid, I just need time, when I sort out the past memories, I won't have such thoughts anymore. I can control it Myself, I won't hurt you."

I shook my head, feeling so distressed that I almost suffocated, "Yuchen, I'm sorry..."

Sorry, I didn't know you had such a mental journey.Nine generations of loneliness is just a word to me, but to Yu Chen it is a series of suffocating memories.If it's possible, I'd rather Yuchen didn't recover his past life memories.

He just wants to be Yuchen.The inner demons and the chaos in the heavens are not his responsibility.Why should he endure torture in order to settle these things!

"Yuchen, I'm not afraid of you."

Of course I believe that he is sensible enough to control his behavior, otherwise he wouldn't be able to bring Yunling back after having such emotions.

I held his face in both hands, stood on tiptoe, and kissed his lips lightly.

Yu Chen's body froze, he subconsciously wanted to push me away, but I stopped him.My body was close to him, and my lips stroked his lips, "Yuchen, I love you, I belong to you alone, you can do whatever you want to me."

Yuchen's Adam's apple rolled, and his voice was hoarse, "Lin Xi, I'm not joking with you, you'd better stay away from me. Give me a while, and I will deal with the troubles these memories have caused me. When I recover, we will be like you again." Same as before."

"I don't." I refused decisively, "Yuchen, you are not alone anymore, you have me, you don't have to be like before, deal with everything alone, bear it alone. Yuchen, I will By your side, I will help you... Ugh!"

Before I could finish speaking, Yu Chen lowered his head and sealed my lips.

The eagerness and force of his kiss, the restraint and patience of this period of time were indulged in this moment.

I have a feeling that he wants to take me here no matter what, I feel a little flustered, and my mouth still hurts.When I was hesitating whether to push him away, Hu Jinyue's voice suddenly came over.

"Oh my God!" Hu Jinyue exclaimed, "Didn't you two come out to kill people? Why did you bite on it? There are corpses all over the yard, and there are still people who didn't close their eyes after death. Don't you two feel the chill around you?" Yes, the atmosphere is not quite right?"

(End of this chapter)