Detective Files II

Chapter 438 Fanwaiyi If It Wasn't For Loving You 【by Drunken Fragrance】

I don't have any close friends, except the pair of twin sisters with different personalities living in my body.They are like Yaoyue and Lianxing in "Peerless Two Pride", the older sister is smart and cold, the younger sister is gentle and affectionate, what is more similar is that the older sister has always stood at the irreplaceable highest point, and the younger sister occasionally made a sound, but was quickly dismissed by the older sister .

"Are you really in love with him?" My sister asked me.

"No," my sister retorted without waiting for me to think, "but you must get him."

The "he" they mentioned was Lu Xiangdong, the leading genius doctor in the field of criminology in J City. He was tall and handsome. The first time I saw him, I knew he was the one I was destined for.

Besides him, who else is qualified to stand by my side?

"Didn't you have several boys chasing you? They all have good conditions..." My sister started talking again.

That's right, since I was a child, I have always pursued the opposite sex, but I studied so hard, worked so hard to enter the medical school from a small town, and worked hard to become a young female forensic doctor with the best ability. men together?
And how sincere are those ordinary men to me?If I was bloated and ugly, and I only worked in a factory in my hometown, who would give me a second glance?
Everyone is like this, don't derogate me alone.

Before that, I had only been in love once.

It was in the second year of high school, and a boy I liked pursued me.He is tall and has very good grades. He is the focus of everyone's attention... Of course, he is also the focus of my attention.

Can you imagine a 16-year-old girl's first love?Simple, enthusiastic, the whole world can't match his smile, as long as he beckons, I can skip class, I can lie to my family, just to watch a movie I don't like with him, or ride a bicycle to 20 Kilometers away.

That's right, as long as I'm with him, I won't feel unworthy of anything.

Unfortunately, this kind of "love" only lasted for half a year.

Half a year later, a beautiful girl from a big city was transferred to the class. She was fashionable, cheerful, and versatile. No matter who she was, she couldn't help but get close to her as much as possible, even talking to her was an honor.

As a result... Needless to say, you have already guessed it. By the time I found out, my boyfriend and her were already as close as one person. No matter how much I let go of my self-esteem and begged, it would not help.

Since then, I have secretly told myself that I will desperately enter the big city, to be a more perfect person than that girl, and to find a one-in-a-million man to marry him.At that time, I can take him back to my hometown, and I may run into my first love boyfriend on the street, look down at his stunned and regretful eyes, and walk away.

When I was in college, among my many suitors, there was a boy who once touched my heart.

From the first time I found him, his gaze has been on me gently, and every time I look at him, he will smile warmly.

Later, he started to talk to me, helped me set the most suitable study schedule, helped me borrow the most practical and hard-to-find professional books, reminded me when to work hard and when to rest, and even helped me arrange my daily diet , What to eat is the most nutritious, what to replenish physical strength, and what to eat the most to relieve fatigue.

He spent most of my four years in college and three years in graduate school with me.

During those days, I really depended on him and liked him a little bit.But for some reason, I clearly know that my liking for him has nothing to do with love.I am greedy for his kindness to me, grateful for everything he has done for me, but I don't want to be with him for the rest of my life, because he said that he would go back to his hometown after graduation, which was his decision before he went to college.

Days like that are not what I want.

I finally came to City C and became a girl in a big city. I could be compared with her first boyfriend, so I went back to my hometown with him...

I don't want to live like that.

My life can't be worse than anyone else's, and my future can't be worse than anyone else's—at least not worse than my first boyfriend.

I didn't lie to him, since I accepted his kindness to me, I told him my thoughts.

It's just that he was too confident, thinking that he could change me in seven years.

He couldn't do it.

I don't know why it should change for him.

We are just companions on the road together for the time being, and each takes what he needs—he needs me to support him, satisfy his vanity, and let his gentle mood have a foothold, and I need his care and care , help me spend less energy on some unnecessary things, so that I can travel lightly and spend more time doing what I want to do. I will be successful in my studies and career in the future, so that I can find that one-in-a-million person .

"Your heart is too cold." My sister said.

"Why should we go back to our hometown with him? Didn't he stay in City C? If he is willing to stay and work hard together, it's unknown what kind of future he will have." My sister was confident.

I asked him that too.

He didn't want to stay in City C, because before he went to university, he promised to return to his hometown after graduation. That was a responsibility and an obligation.

So, I can't choose him, it's not that I'm cold-blooded, it's his decision.

That doesn't change, he will never be the best for me.

Lu Xiangdong is the most suitable candidate.

He is young and promising, with a handsome appearance. Although he is a little indifferent to people...but he is exactly the type I like, because I always think that such a man is loyal and reliable, and he will not try to win the favor of young girls with his eloquent tongue.

More importantly, he is a leader in the field of criminology in J City, which will be of great help to my future career development.

"It's not like you're looking for a husband, it's more like social public relations - and you've listed one, two, three benefits." The younger sister spoke again.

"Shouldn't all rational people be like this? She is a 26-year-old adult, not a 16-year-old silly girl who only acts on emotion!" My sister seemed very reasonable.

At this time, I was completely on the side of my sister, taking the capture of Lu Xiangdong as the ultimate goal as if I was dealing with official business, and formulated a step-by-step strategic plan to implement it step by step.

I first appeared in front of him with excuses again and again, expressing my admiration and admiration in the most euphemistic way, showing my femininity while telling him my work ability and professional quality.I know that these are my strengths, the things I rely on for my confidence, and the things that the pug-like men around me value.

The funny thing is, Lu Xiangdong never even looked at me more.

What's even more ridiculous is that the one who caught his attention was Tian Mi, a fledgling dorky rookie whose body and appearance are far inferior to mine.

This was a great setback for me.

Frustrations unheard of in over 20 years.

I'm really not reconciled, I was admitted to the medical school, entered the city bureau, and resisted the temptation of countless men, but I couldn't win against Lu Xiangdong, a mere freak.

How can I get Lu Xiangdong to focus on me?

I believe that as long as he looks at me more, he will know who is superior and who is inferior, who is good and who is bad - as long as he has eyes, it is not difficult for anyone to choose.

In order to achieve this, I let go of my pride, tried my best to attract Lu Xiangdong's attention, and made friends with Tian Mi, keeping abreast of the progress of their relationship.Fortunately, everyone can see that Lu Xiangdong cares about Tian Mi, and treats Tian Mi differently from others, only Tian Mi, a fool, can't see it.

After careful consideration, I found that Lu Xiangdong seemed like an invincible fortress. I could only start with Tian Mi, a silly girl, and let Tian Mi withdraw from the battlefield automatically. When the time came, Lu Xiangdong was sad and disappointed. If I wanted to capture him, wouldn't it be easy?

So, first I deliberately asked Tian Mi to act as a messenger for me to express my love to Lu Xiangdong; then I bought a gift for Lu Xiangdong, saying it was from Tian Mi to trick him into accepting it, and then turned around and told Tian Mi that Lu Xiangdong accepted me one's gift……

To be honest, I don't even bother to use such boring means to snatch a man. Since I entered college, I don't have to do anything or spend any time to attract the attention of any boy. I just need to look at him more and show two more smiling faces. , the other party came over consciously.Even my first boyfriend was the one who pursued me first, I just stayed with him obediently, without using any tactics at all.

But no matter, in order to achieve my wish, I can't control so much.

I just want results, no matter what means I use.

Sadly, I am really no match for Lu Xiangdong.

He can see the meaning behind all my actions at a glance; he can see through all the tricks I have tried my best.

Because of this, he rejected me clearly and without showing any affection.

My self-esteem was shattered by him, and I couldn't even put it back together.

I thought I had such a strong heart, but at this moment, the only thing I could do was to sit alone in a dark corner like an ordinary woman, sobbing silently.

"Are you really in love with him?" My sister asked me again.

This time, my sister didn't speak.

I really fell in love with him?
I do not believe.

I just think that he is the best for me and meets all the conditions I want.

This is not love.

I don't need to cry over not having someone I don't love.

As I said this to myself, I wanted to get up and stand in the sun and work hard like before, looking for the next eligible target and fighting the next battle.

I worked my ass off to make myself think less about him.

I laughed out loud to forget the sadness I had.

However, in the dead of night, I still couldn't sleep all night, thinking of him habitually.

To distract myself, I turned on the TV, and the singer inside was singing softly: "If it wasn't for loving you, why would I not be able to fall asleep late at night, every thought is about you, I miss you so much... "

The name of the song is "Love".

Is this love?

If the state in the song is really love, then I really fell in love with him; however, I don’t think so, because I have always felt that only unconditional, pure feelings like first love are love.

I'm just like a child who wants to catch a butterfly. When I want to catch a butterfly, I slow down and hold my breath to approach the butterfly. My heart is first caught by the butterfly, that's all.

[Continue Lu Xiangdong's episode from tomorrow! 】

(End of this chapter)