in nightmare time

Chapter 161
Soon the meeting was stopped by a policeman who came in, and they took Leng Lin away in front of Fang Yun and Qiu Zhuo.

In desperation, Fang Yun immediately got up and wanted to catch him, but was pulled back by Qiu Zhuo, "We don't know the specifics of the matter yet, let's go back and talk about it first."

She didn't know what kind of mood she was in, she followed Qiu Zhuo all the way to say goodbye to Police Officer Chen with heavy steps, and then to the policewoman who received them before.

When saying goodbye to the policewoman, Qiu Zhuo didn't even bother her too much, and even chatted with the policewoman for a while.Fang Yun sat on the bench and watched them chat briskly about something, and his heart suddenly became empty.

All the real relationships before seemed to have suddenly become so illusory, and now looking back, it was just the illusion of a dream.

At some point, the corners of Fang Yun's eyes were wet. She lowered her head and wiped them off, then gave herself a relieved smile, got up and left alone.

"Okay, I got it, thank you. I may still trouble you after I complete the relevant procedures. Please give me your advice then."

The female police officer also smiled and said: "Don't worry, as long as it is within the scope of my profession, I am happy to help Lawyer Qiu."

After saying goodbye to the female police officer, Qiu Zhuo turned around and found that Fang Yun was no longer on the bench. His heart skipped a beat and he quickly ran out of the police station.

He searched anxiously on the left and right roads, and when he looked around, he looked up and found Fang Yun squatting behind the buttocks of the off-road vehicle crying, and hurried up to pull her into his arms to comfort her.

"Why don't you wait for me to run out by myself, and still hide here and cry?"

He gently stroked her hair, and comforted: "Don't worry, your husband will support you when the sky comes down."

Fang Yun couldn't help crying in his arms anymore, Qiu Zhuo panicked, "What's wrong with my Yun, why is he suddenly so sad, is he worried about Leng Lin's case?"

Fang Yun leaned in his arms, feeling more complicated and entangled than ever before, and he didn't know how to explain to him clearly the entangled psychology during the time spent with him.

She loves him, but she is also incomplete. The first time she fell in love with him was something she didn't think of. He was still young, so he recovered on his own.

But this can't change the matter that has caused substantial harm to her, and she can't pretend that this matter never happened because she recovered on her own, although she knows that as long as she chooses to hide him, Qiu Zhuo will definitely not ask .

The most he suspected was that she had been molested by Leng Lianshui, but she couldn't deceive him like this, let alone face her heart honestly.

If she needs to live hypocritically in this life, what's the point of all her previous efforts.

"I want to tell you about me." This was the second time Fang Yun raised this topic with him.

Qiu Zhuo looked at her very seriously, and said with doting eyes and distress: "Although I have told you that it is not important, but if you really want to talk to me, I am willing to be a good listener."

He stroked the broken hair on Fang Yun's forehead, "But we have to go home now, it's late. Tell me when you get home, okay?"

"Ah."

……

They were leaning on the bed, they had never been so peaceful without any disturbance.

Qiu Zhuo turned his head to look at her nervous expression, gently stretched his arm from under her neck, hooked her lightly, and hugged Ren'er in his arms.

He rubbed his chin lightly against her hair, and gently stroked her arm with his arms around her.

"Actually, I know what you want to say to me, isn't it the fact that I was bullied by Leng Lianshui when I was a child, it really doesn't matter to me at all.

What I love is you, nothing else, not to mention that you were also a victim in that incident, how could I be the kind of person who blames the victim, the person who should be condemned should be the perpetrators, not you. "

A warm current suddenly passed through Fang Yun's heart, and he slowly raised his head to look at him, and he also looked at her, his eyes were clear and pure, without any ripples, only distressed and infinite love.

She leaned softly into his arms again, and then slowly began to tell the story of the past.

In the story, there is the bewilderment and fear, pain and helplessness of a six-year-old girl; there is the disgust and wisdom, innocence and hatred of a teenage girl.

There are expectations and hopes for parental love, and then slowly despair; there is fear and doubt for Leng Lin, and then distress and guilt.

After saying this, she rubbed her arms in her arms and said: "I liked you when I was very young, but I dare not tell you, I am afraid that you will think I am a bad girl, because I have already been bullied at that time.

Later, when I was about to forget about this matter again, I was suddenly taken away by Leng Lianshan. When Mu is my wife, I suddenly feel like the whole world has collapsed. "

"Then you ignore me."

Qiu Zhuo rubbed her hair and said: "You said that you liked me at that time, but you were afraid that I would think you were a bad girl. Do you know that I liked you far more than you liked me at that time? At that time, I couldn't live without you.

But I dare not tell you what I mean, and I am also afraid that you will dislike me as a melancholy boy, suspect that I am not sunny, and dislike me as a savage boy who grows up without the love of his parents. "

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have vented all my anger on you at that time, but I was really afraid that you would look down on me and laugh at me after knowing all this, and then leave me.

After living for more than ten years, you have been ignored and bullied for more than ten years. You are the only person who gave me light in my darkest moment.

I'm selfish, I don't want to see you abandon me, so I chose to abandon you first. "

"It turned out to be two wounded hearts, no wonder they are so attractive, if you want to say light, I really don't deserve it.

I have lived in the darkness that I created for myself since I was a child. When my parents were not around, I would always choose to hide in a dark corner and heal alone.

At that time, I was contradictory and fragile. I was afraid of loneliness and darkness, but I chose darkness and loneliness countless times.Maybe in my heart I have always thought that only the big black can suppress the black, and only the big alone can suppress the lonely.

At that time, I didn't even know how beautiful people under photosynthesis are, until I met you, and I saw the golden sun shining above your head.

I have envied you countless times and wanted to be close to you, but since I am a dark individual, I am naturally suitable for walking in the shadows.

So I have been walking in the shadow of Leng Mu and the others, following your beam of light, and then I finally got my wish to go forward and retreat with you, but suddenly one day you ignored me, my God at that time All collapsed.

You can't imagine how the bright world that was just built is suddenly plunged into darkness again. Without you, I don't even have the courage to live. You are still afraid that I will despise you. "

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(End of this chapter)