Roaming in the dark

Chapter 455 Sheng Chuncheng finished speaking

After Sheng Chuncheng finished speaking, it was Sun Hong's turn. Sun Hong said, "Actually, my experience is quite simple."

Sheng Chuncheng asked: "You won't leave school, and after arriving in Hangzhou, you never fell in love again?"

"No, but that is not love." Sun Hong said.

"What's that?" Sheng Chuncheng asked.

Sun Hong didn't make a sound, both of them were silent. After a while, Sun Hong sighed, and she said:
"Actually, it's quite difficult for us to have a family and a normal life."

"You mean, because you became a female bank president?" Sheng Chuncheng asked.

"Not only as a female bank president, but also as a female loan officer. It is very difficult to have a happy marriage. I am not married until now. One is that I am afraid of marriage, the other is that I am disappointed in men, and the other is, In fact, I am quite disappointed with myself, and I don’t think highly of myself.” Sun Hong smiled wryly, “I feel that I am destined not to be worthy of a normal marriage.”

"why?"

"Nowadays, every bank has a lot of female presidents, but as far as I know, there is no one who has a family or not. When we get together, we all cry when we talk about it. No one believes it. Look at our appearance. Glamorous, I thought we were hypocritical, but in fact we were not.

"The unmarried ones are mostly like me. They each have their own difficulties, and they are very different. Those who have already married, it seems that none of the marriages are happy. It's either a cold war or a hot war. In our industry, as I said, The original 'Miss West Lake', who interviewed me when I was conducting the interview, her husband all called into the work unit, and the scene was horrible."

Sun Hong smiled wryly and shook her head, then asked Sheng Chuncheng, "Do you know why it's so unbearable?"

Sheng Chuncheng said, "I don't know, why?"

"This, I really thought about it, but the more I thought about it, the more afraid I became." Sun Hong said, "Think about it, who are people like us who deal with people like us, and who deal with the branch president directly. Whether it is a loan or a deposit, the business will definitely not be small. We will not talk about dealing with an individual industrial and commercial household, right?

"The people we deal with are basically successful people according to secular standards. If you deal with successful people every day, your horizons will naturally increase. If you look at your husband or boyfriend, they are all unsuccessful. , she will despise her in her heart, no matter whether she is willing or not, after a long time, this kind of thinking will come naturally.

"Female bank president, outside, I eat and play with those successful people every day. Whether it's a joke or a hypocrisy, they will always say flattering words to you. You will be very happy when you hear it. .

"Every day you go out drunk and go home, you are almost exhausted, and you are terribly uncomfortable, but when you get home, you see that unsuccessful man, not only does not know how to pour you a glass of water, but also puts on a stinky face. Showing your face, if you think you are outside all day long, don't go home, don't drag the land, don't cook, and don't tutor the children in their studies, will you get angry without a name?

"Fuck you, if I do all these things at home, it's fine. I can also take the children to and from school every day, go home on time every day, and cook all the meals. It's fine. You can buy the house. Earn, you earn the tuition for children’s remedial classes, you buy the famous brands you wear, and you buy food for home, you earn it back, can you earn it?

"A big man, he doesn't have the ability to fart, he can only play tricks at home, talkative, my mother, I am outside, I have seen many successful men, and when I come back, I will be angry with you, a bird man, fuck you.

"It's just such a mental journey. It's the same. Think about it, how can family life be happy? The less happy she is, the less she wants to go home. Anyway, if she doesn't go home, she has a place to go, whether it's in the name of work or not. That's okay, anyway, there is never a shortage of men around her, and there is no shortage of people who flatter her.

"The one at home, if you are a coward, swallow your anger, say nothing, and keep all your dissatisfaction in your heart, then you will fight coldly and maintain the superficial peace and decency. If you meet a small-minded woman who suspects that the woman is outside, Every day with this boss and that boss, one way or another, it's a hot battle, and it's hard to fight.

"You can understand me when I say this? Tell me, do I want to open up a battlefield for a cold war or a battlefield for a hot war?"

"You are too pessimistic." Sheng Chuncheng said.

"It's not pessimism, it's the reality." Sun Hong said, "I never had extravagant hopes for this. So I remind you, this woman is untouchable, so be careful."

Sheng Chuncheng laughed loudly and asked, "Then what if I touch it?"

"That's asking for trouble." Sun Hong turned her head in the dark, looked at Sheng Chuncheng and said, "At the beginning, you might be able to bear it. If you don't come back, you won't come back. You passed out downstairs when you got drunk. Will go down and carry me up. But trust me, it won't last long, and it will come to an end before long, if you don't lie to yourself."

Sheng Chuncheng thought about it, if his wife was like this every day, he really wouldn't want to live this kind of life, and this kind of home certainly didn't look like a home.

It's just, "You're so sober, aren't you making trouble for yourself?" Sheng Chuncheng asked.

Sun Hong said yes, that's better than turning one person's trouble into two people's trouble.

"Trouble can't be avoided. We are friends. You are a good person. For my friend, even if I trouble you again and again, you will not find it troublesome. But if I were your girlfriend or wife, this would not be trouble, but a disaster." You will get bored just looking at it, do you admit it?" Sun Hong asked.

"I remember, I seem to have asked you this question on the first day, and you gave the answer back then, very honestly." Sun Hong added.

Sheng Chuncheng said: "What you said is reasonable, but you are not as scary as you said."

"Not scary?" Sun Hong sneered, "You mean when I'm sober, now? I'm still a little cute in this way, so you still have impulses, am I right?"

Sheng Chuncheng nodded and said yes.

"But it will be worn away. All the good sides, the cute side you think, will be worn away after a long time. A woman, no matter how beautiful she is, is she still cute when she is drunk? Do you think it's Shi Xiangyun , you can lie drunk on a peony bush, and still look cute, that’s just a novel.”

As Sun Hong said, she smiled softly:

"Let me ask you, what would you do if you were on the subway and there was a beautiful girl who looked like me sitting next to you, leaning over, like I am now, and resting her head on your shoulder? Your heart would definitely beat Speed ​​up, tell yourself, hold the grass, what luck did you have today, will it, do you think you will?"

Sheng Chuncheng smiled and said, "Okay, yes."

"Then she suddenly opened her mouth and said 'wow', and she spat all over you?"

"I'll go!" Sheng Chuncheng called out.

Sun Hong giggled, and she said: "See, this is your truest reaction. Time will wear out everything, and all the good impressions of me in your mind will be erased, and the last thing left is He gritted his teeth and scolded, 'this drunken woman'."

Sheng Chuncheng shook his head and asked, "Isn't it enjoyable for you to humiliate yourself like this?"

Sun Hong nodded and said yes, "Think about this more, at least there is nothing I can't figure out."

(End of this chapter)