big city small home

Chapter 67
What caused the unpreparedness?

At night, Lu Zhenzhong lay on the wide double bed, rolling from one side to the other, from one end to this end.The curtains that were deliberately drawn at the beginning are now deliberately opened.

The contradiction in his heart is just like his current restlessness.

Why not be prepared?It's a long story.

To make a long story short, one was that he was afraid that he would not be able to face his daughter calmly.His daughter is still too young to judge him, but sooner or later, his daughter will grow up. How should he explain his "extramarital affairs" to her?
The second is that he is worried about the negative impact in the company.Office romances within the same department are not yet encouraged, and extramarital affairs are even worse.To a certain extent, two must go one.At that time, if he lets him go, it will become his shame or unwillingness.At that time, can feelings on the scale still weigh more than career?
The third is contrary to his education.Although values ​​are illusory, they manifest everywhere.In his values, it is immoral to secretly carry out an underground affair behind his wife's back.It's not fair to the wife, and it's not fair to the third person you fall in love with.If he loves Bingbulin enough, he should be reluctant to put her in an immoral intervening role.

If it's just a short game of cheating, can't you just close your eyes and knock on the door of Bingbulin's house in the dark?

But what's the point of indulging for ten, twenty, ten minutes!
Lu Zhenzhong tossed and tossed for almost an hour, and finally came to a conclusion: since there is no lust and insanity right now, let's continue to be rational.

In order to divert his attention, Lu Zhenzhong took aim at the small wooden box that he hadn't seen for many days.

There are some personal letters from Sang Baiyue's girlhood.Although it doesn't make much sense, the stimulation of voyeurism can divert the imagination of Bingbulin's evil intentions.

At 11 o'clock in the middle of the night, Lu Zhenzhong picked up the small wooden box on the top of the corner cabinet, took out an unread letter, and read it backwards.

It was still a letter to Xixi.

I also read two letters written to Xixi earlier.It was originally a pure boudoir friendship between two little girls, but fate played tricks, and one of them, who had been secretly in love with him for ten years, pursued the other.Friendship lost to love, and the relationship between girlfriends fell apart.

Speaking of which, Sang Baiyue is also a rational person.She wrote a farewell letter to the person she had a crush on for ten years, and strangled the love Miao Miao who had grown in love for ten years with her own hands.

She didn't pry into the corner of her best friend, nor did she allow herself to continue her crush.He handled everything decisively and skillfully.For this, Lu Zhenzhong admired her.

"Xi Xi:
See the letter.

In a blink of an eye, we have lost contact by letter for two years.This is something I couldn't imagine before.I thought we were going to be friends for life.

After investigating, it was my fault first.It was my failure to reply to your letter that caused us to break off contact.

And the reason why I didn't reply to your letter is because Ling Fu said, you are very angry that I didn't tell you that my crush is him.You were married to him at that time.You told Ling Fu that you felt like you ate a fly.

After I received your letter, as soon as I saw the words you questioned me in the letter, I couldn't help thinking that I was the fly that made you sick, so I didn't have the courage to write back anymore.

After 2 years, I still wrote this letter.

Because, I heard from Lingfu that the child will be gone within three months of your womb, unfortunately.Do you believe it?When I heard the news, I burst into tears on the spot.My heart, like being grasped by an invisible big hand, squeezed out the juice.You are so weak, how can you bear such pain!

I am extremely regretful, if I was not cowardly back then, if I dared to explain to you face to face, these two years, I could have been by your side all the time, I could have comforted you and encouraged you in time, and you would not have been lonely.Xixi, I have so many hugs to give you.

Xixi, in order to stop the estrangement, I have prepared a belated confession.

Yes, I had a crush on him for ten years.From flower season to your engagement.A whole decade.Sometimes I can't figure out whether I really have a crush on him, or the crush has become a habit, and what I fall in love with is just him in my imagination.

I never dated him privately and he didn't even know I liked him.

I kept my secret love tightly covered, and I still don't know who leaked it.I never planned to publish it, for fear of being said to be unattractive.Later, when you fell in love, I became afraid that you would misunderstand me for being inconsistent and having bad intentions.

When until you had a marriage contract, I forced myself to give up on him.There is no such thing as "mutual" between me and him, but between me and you, it is really "two-way".We, two-way appreciation, two-way support, two-way encouragement.

Xixi, losing my friendship with you is the thing I regret the most.

Without you, I would not have the courage to stand up to my mother.No magic power to heal your own wounds.No motivation to look forward to the future.

In the future, when the latest marriage age I set for myself is 30 years old, I will probably find a man who seems to match in all aspects, and marry as soon as I close my eyes.It's just, my heart, no one can enter as freely as you for the rest of my life.

Xixi, waiting for you to accept me again. "

After reading this letter, Lu Zhenzhong was completely dumbfounded.

It turned out that he was just a passerby who was "matched in all aspects" and "closed his eyes" married!
The extramarital affairs on the balance were increased with a "boo", and suddenly became more important.

The heart demon's face surged ferociously.

A voice sounded from the bottom of my heart: use Bingbulin to take revenge on Sang Baiyue!

Lu Zhenzhong got up from the bed, walked to the window, and looked at No. 11 opposite.

Bingbulin's room was pitch black.

Black, devouring Lu Zhenzhong's deceitful thoughts.

The next day, Lu Zhenzhong woke up dizzy, and the impulse in his heart had calmed down.

His life belongs to him.Not just anything to get revenge on a cat or a dog.

But the heart of the divorce was indeed hardened by the letter last night.

He Qi called Lu Zhenzhong back for the first time.On the phone, He Qi kept crying.She said that she couldn't find anyone to confide in, so she had to call her insider, Lu Zhenzhong.Reason tells her that she should get a divorce and stop the loss; emotionally, she still has a little reconciliation, especially for the unborn child.

Why do other children have parents who love them, but the father of the child in her womb is so incomprehensible?
Lu Zhenzhong's persuasion is between perfunctory and earnest.His attitude fluctuates all the time.When she was emotionally inclined towards Jin Yaming, she would persuade He Qi to take a long-term view and be more tolerant; when her heart fluctuated and thought of her sister Lu Mei, she couldn't help but warn He Qi that the world is easy to change, but the nature is hard to change.

Anyway, adults basically don't listen to persuasion, what they are looking for is words that match their inner voice.

(End of this chapter)