From bar band to entertainment circle

Chapter 34 I don't want to be your burden

In a daze, I heard the sound of chopping vegetables in the kitchen. My head hurt so much. I rubbed my temples and wondered how I slept on the sofa. I don’t remember anything. A white Beetle car.

Pressing the back of my head with my fingertips relieved the pain, I stood up and looked towards the kitchen, that familiar and distant figure, yes, it was Xia Qing...I don't know why she appeared here at this moment!
So I walked slowly to the door of the kitchen, and just as I was about to speak, Xia Qing found me.

"Yun Qian, are you awake?"

Xia Qing was dressed differently. She was wearing an apron and her white hair was tied up in a ponytail. She looked like a housewife who cooked for her husband, a good wife and mother, gentle and virtuous.

"Ok!"

I looked at Xia Qing, smiled slightly, and wished that time could stay at this moment forever, nothing else, I just wanted to be able to simply live this kind of warm life.

"What are you laughing at, I made ginger soup for you." Xia Qing wiped the sweat off her forehead with her hands and said, "Yun Qian, go to the living room to rest for a while, and I'll serve it to you when it's done."

"Thank you."

I nodded and said, this sentence is a sincere thank you, Xia Qing responded to me with a simple smile.

Although I can't remember anything, I know that it was Xia Qing who helped me into the house when I was drunk. If it wasn't for her, I think I might sleep on the street outside the house tonight.

Back on the sofa in the living room, I smoked a cigarette, but there were still many things I couldn't figure out in my mind, shouldn't Xia Qing go to have dinner with friends from the band?How did it show up in my house?
Turn on the phone, it is already 1:43 in the morning, I can't figure it out, so I just don't want to, hug me to Miao Miao next to me, and feed the small dried fish that Su Mengyuan sent over a few days ago.

"Yun Qian, ginger soup is here."

Xia Qing put a bowl of ginger soup on the coffee table in front of me, then sat next to me and said, "Don't drink so much wine in the future, drink it while it's hot! It's good for hangover, and it's good for your stomach!"

"Well", I took a sip with a spoon. I used to dislike ginger, but tonight it tastes like honey water, and I praised: "Xia Qing, the ginger soup you cook is much better than my mother's. Come on, give me some more bowls!"

"Pfft, you are the only one who is so drunk and still in the mood to joke. You are always optimistic, even if there are mountains of swords and seas of fire in front of you, you will walk over with a smile!"

I smiled at Xiaqing again, only to hear her sadly say: "In the past, my dad often went home drunk with friends, I... my mother died of illness when I was very young, and it was always my dad Growing up with me, he didn’t have a wife to take care of him. As the only daughter, I took on this responsibility. Every time I came back, I would cook a bowl of ginger soup for my dad, so he wouldn’t lose his temper and talk nonsense... Yunqian, do you know? My happiest time was when I met you in college, met the band... met... you!"

We have been together for so many years, I have never heard her talk about the specific situation of the family, her father is fine, and I never talk too much about my mother. I used to think that Xia Qing's parents were just divorced, so I didn't ask too much until I just found out today...it turns out that my aunt is long gone.

After all, I am not her, I can only experience but not empathize with her.

Xia Qing didn't shed tears, but looked sad. I didn't know how to comfort her at the moment, maybe it was through the strength of alcohol... I don't know where the courage came from. I stretched out my arms and put my arms around her shoulders. Not a word over my shoulder.

I guess she has been used to this kind of loneliness for so many years, day and night!
"It's okay Xia Qing, everything will be fine, no... you won't be too lonely with our friends accompanying you in the future." I comforted, patted Xia Qing's shoulder lightly with my right hand, and smelled it from time to time The faint fragrance in her hair.

"Hmm..." Xia Qing murmured, and said softly, "Yun Qian, do you like that girl?"

"I... I don't like love like that! Sometimes, I think she's cute."

I know this is not an answer with high emotional intelligence, alcohol paralyzes the brain, I can’t tell lies, I admit that I like the girl who loves to bicker with me, I feel that from the time she broke into the yard, she was sent by heaven to give me this loneliness man relieves boredom.

"Really?" Xia Qing looked up at me, looking into her eyes so close, I could hear her rapid breathing.

Hormones stimulated my drunken brain, Xia Qing was caught off guard, I couldn't control her suddenly and pressed her on the sofa, she closed her eyes without any resistance... I stopped when our lips were less than one centimeter apart Move, quietly looking at her closed eyes.

I don't know why I was so cowardly in an instant, it's like the layer of window paper was about to be pierced and I used tape to patch it up, my mind was messed up, maybe it was like what Su Mengyuan said, I was a daring person Maybe I still look forward and backward, and analyze the real problems rationally.

After a while, Xia Qing finally pushed me away, her face was flushed, and the atmosphere instantly became awkward, I said apologetically: "Xia... Xia Qing, I'm sorry... I drank too much... I didn't mean to offend you... sorry."

"Fool... don't you understand this yet? How long are you going to install wood!"

Xia Qing was a little unhappy, "Yun Qian, these years, do you think I, Xia Qing, am an idiot? You do so many things for me, do you think I can't feel it? But why... I want to hear that sentence from you Is it that difficult to say it yourself? If you said it earlier, would we still be in this situation?"

Xia Qing’s words are only so straightforward. If I still don’t understand anything at this moment...I think I am the biggest idiot. Many girls are more reserved and like to wait for boys to speak, but I look forward and backward...I have never revealed this layer of plastic Paper.

"Do you know? I have my last resort." I lit a cigarette, but Xia Qing didn't stop her. Over the years, she was used to me smoking in front of her, and she also took out my cigarette case to light a cigarette. As soon as I took a puff, I choked immediately. I reached out and snatched it and put it in the ashtray, and said to her: "If you don't know how to smoke, don't embarrass yourself, girl, it's better not to smoke. I'm like this choke now." People who don't know how to inhale smoke will choke... Your career is getting smoother now. With the help of Han Yishen's Qinsheng Media Company, it will definitely go smoothly. I don't want to be your burden... to be a drag on your career , Xia Qing! One day you will become a well-known female singer, and I, Yun Qian, am just an ordinary person, can you accept the public opinion!"

I used to be unsure about Xia Qing's attitude towards me. If it was placed in my student days, I would hold her in my arms and say without hesitation, "I love you, we will always be together for the rest of our lives!"

During this period of time, I have experienced many things that I did not experience on campus. Inadvertently, I have gradually become a lot more realistic, and it can be said that I have become a lot more mature. If something happens tonight because of hormone stimulation and summer love, we will be together Together, what about the future!

Will Xia Qing's career be implicated because of me, and will Qinsheng Media still promote and package Xia Qing so vigorously? Your love is still in the interests of the company, if my appearance will threaten Xia Qing's ideal, then I would rather never show up.

(End of this chapter)