Resist the world, but I spread the curse

Chapter 256 Hate
At first, Fang Jingjing was also surprised and moved by this kind-hearted man who suddenly appeared, but Fang Mu, who couldn't bear to hide it from her, still told the other party her real purpose.

After learning the ins and outs of the matter, Fang Jingjing fell into astonishment and a long silence.

From the shocked expression of the other party, Fang Mu felt that the girl didn't seem to know that her brother had been dead for many years. Her eyes showed confusion and sadness, and the thin face tortured by illness seemed to be a little paler.

Fang Mu was about to comfort the girl, but found that Fang Jingjing's body was trembling slightly. Only then did he wake up and realize that Fang Jingjing seemed to be afraid of something.

As if she had been hit hard and fell into some kind of nightmare from which she could not escape, Fang Jingjing became in a trance for a while after that, no matter what Fang Mu asked her or asked her to do, she would simply nod her head in response, Finally, with the help of others, I reluctantly completed the signing of the consent to the operation.

The hospital planned to allow Fang Jingjing's body to recuperate for a while, and the kidney replacement operation will be performed in six days.

Because Fang Mu had already prepared, long before Fang Jingjing signed the operation agreement, he had already adjusted his body according to the doctor's advice, and as a qualified donor, he could start the operation at any time.

However, just the night before the kidney replacement operation, Fang Jingjing jumped off the balcony of the ward without any warning.

This poor girl who committed suicide left only a suicide note and an old-fashioned key in the ward.

Fang Jingjing wrote in her suicide note that she was still unwilling to accept Fang Mu's gratitude in the end, expressing her apology to Fang Mu between the lines, and then began to explain her tragic life experience during her lifetime.

The father of Fang Jianhua and Fang Jingjing disappeared mysteriously in a severe flood in the south in 1998 before Fang Jingjing was born. After that, the two children were basically raised by the mother's family.

Fang Jingjing didn't have a deep impression of her mother, because when Fang Jingjing was only four years old, she and her brother's unlucky mother also died in a landslide accident.

The two brothers and sisters who lost their parents can only live with their grandparents.

Brothers and sisters without parental discipline grew up almost savagely in a small village in the countryside. Before Fang Jianhua learned the bad habit of gambling, Fang Jingjing and her brother had a very close relationship. The two brothers and sisters relied on each other outside. It is very easy to be bullied by the children living with me.

When Fang Jianhua developed the habit of gambling like his life, Fang Jianhua seemed to be a different person. He seemed to no longer care about the younger sister and grandparents he once loved. He disappointed his family members, especially Fang Jianhua. After stealing the family's only 2000 yuan savings, and leaving behind a butt of debts to fly away, Fang Jingjing, who suffered so much for the mess left by Fang Jianhua, decided to break up with him.

The hatred and inability to forgive her elder brother was probably one of the reasons why Fang Jingjing was unwilling to accept Fang Mu's intentions, but Fang Mu was extremely confused when she saw this content at the time, because no matter how unwilling the other party was to accept , It is not necessary to use the extreme method of death to express rejection.

Continuing to read, Fang Mu discovered the second reason that made her feel suffocated.

Although Fang Jingjing doesn't have a deep impression of her mother, she always has a thought. With her vague memory and old photos, she can always think of the warm time her mother had with her.

The image of father is different from that of mother, Fang Jingjing only had fantasies about him.

Because there is no actual reference object, after the flood that she can't remember, all the photos about her father at home disappeared as mysteriously as his father, and she can only rely on her brother's description to complete them in her brain The appearance of a father whom he has never met.

Fang Jingjing only knew that her father was an editor in a small publishing house. Her brother said that her father's health was not good, and his appearance was gentle, which was in line with the public's impression of a literary scholar, or some kind of "prejudice".

After Fang Jianhua left, Fang Jingjing became even more envious of those peers in the village whose parents were still alive. She always longed for someone who was not strong but was willing to give everything for her family when she was threatened and insulted by those debt collectors. The figure was able to stand up and protect them.

For the peace of her grandpa and grandma's family, Fang Jingjing couldn't wait to come to the city to work after finishing high school. She decided to pay off her brother's debt, and at the same time inquired about his brother's news.

Perhaps, in her heart, she still retains her memory of the good side of her brother, hoping that her brother left home not because of debt avoidance, but because of other unavoidable reasons.

On the day when Fang Jingjing met Fang Mu for the first time, Fang Mu explained to her that he wanted her to replace his brother as the object of repayment in order to repay the kindness he had received ten years ago.

Only then did Fang Jingjing realize that her brother had long since died, and she suddenly realized the real reason for her brother's disappearance.

The turning point of Fang Mu's life and death ten years ago was also a turning point in the fate of Fang Jingjing's family, because her brother also ran away from home that year without saying a word.

When Fang Mu, who didn't know about it, revealed his heart, Fang Jingjing fell into deep pain because of it. She had probably guessed that her brother didn't run away from home cruelly, but was forced to "separate" from her. .

Thinking of how deeply she had misunderstood her brother for ten years, and during these ten years she had gone through hardships and dangers that only she could experience, Fang Jingjing's psychological defenses almost collapsed at that time. reason.

At this time, Fang Mu also felt another emotion Fang Jingjing had towards her at that time from Fang Jingjing's words, which was a kind of anger or resentment, because Fang Mu used the heart of her brother who died tragically. .

Therefore, in Fang Jingjing's eyes at the time, Fang Mu was not only a good person who showed kindness to her, but also an enemy who stole her brother's heart.

Such conflicts and complex emotions made Fang Jingjing's mind very confused. After signing the agreement agreeing to the operation in a daze, Fang Jingjing felt a burst of regret and despair that others could not imagine, and chose to commit suicide.

Fang Jingjing's suicide was largely due to her guilt towards her brother, and perhaps also a kind of hatred for Fang Mu, to be precise, her hatred for people with a background like Fang Mu. Perhaps she also had a reason for her suicide that she did not want to give Fang Mu The opportunity for Mu to repay his kindness made Fang Mu, who has a rich emotional world, suffer from a knot in his heart.

But Fang Mu is not willing to speculate on this aspect, although he can feel a kind of anger against him from Fang Jingjing's suicide note, but at the same time, he can also feel Fang Jingjing's sincere apology to himself.

He personally thinks that the remaining reason for Fang Jingjing to give up her life is that she no longer knows how to live in the future. Before that, she worked hard to live to pay off her debts and find her brother, but now she understands that those who came to her house to urge her The debtors are deliberately sucking blood to squeeze these helpless poor ghosts, and she will never find her brother again, so she has lost hope in life and has no motivation to survive.

At the end of the suicide note, Fang Jingjing wrote in a note that although she gave up on the kidney transplant, she hoped that Fang Mu could repay her kindness in another way if she wanted to, that is, to take good care of the elderly in her hometown so that they could enjoy their old age in peace .

Fang Jingjing felt that the weight of this repayment might be too heavy, far beyond the kindness of a heart, so she also decided to repay Fang Mu something.

She decided to give Fang Mu the key and the things the key can open. This key can open a small box in her rented house, which was his father's relic. The occupations are quite suitable, and she feels that most of the things in it are useful to the other party.

(End of this chapter)