our family is gone

Chapter 98

"Ha~" Lance smiled helplessly, "Although I really want to say that this is God's test for us, you should know that I am not a bishop. In fact, I don't know why that existence did this. It may be like We watch arena fights just to have fun."

"But if that's the case, then what's the point of us?"

It was a war between gods, they were like pawns placed on a chessboard, so what was the difference between him serving the church and participating in an expedition?
The words of the lord led him out of the church's deep pit, and he was thrown into another deep pit when he turned his head. Who could bear it!

"Our meaning is there." Lance raised his head and set his gaze on the square.

Leonard seemed to have a sense of it, and followed to look at the past, singing and laughing on the square, and everyone showed unprecedented joy.

Seeing everyone's smiles, I don't know why my restless heart was soothed.

Lance smiled at the side and said:
"You have also seen that there are some things that do not require gods and religions. Human beings can do it themselves. Now they are all the efforts of human beings like you and me. What we do has always been for human beings."

Speaking of this, Lance himself is quite emotional, he said these are not reconciliation to himself~
But he quickly calmed down and handed the barbecue in his hand to Leonard.

"So are you willing to fight with me for the survival of mankind?"

Looking at the smile on the lord's face, Leonard seemed to have found his goal, stood up immediately, half-kneeled in front of Lance, and took the barbecue with a solemn face, as if it was not a barbecue, but the right to be awarded by the Pope. Staff, at the same time firmly agreed.

"I am willing!"

"Get up, get up~" Lance quickly helped him up, and explained with a wry smile, "It's just eating and chatting, don't be so serious."

It's just that Leonard still had a dignified look on his face.

"I have been trapped in the lies made up by the church for many years. Today, I have learned from the lord that I understand that it is not that the Holy Light abandons us, but that the Holy Light does not care about us at all. You are my God!"

"Still talking about God?" Lance had a weird expression on his face, as if reminding him of something.

"Does your lord hate the church so much?"

"That's right." Lance stopped pretending, "You have to know that the world is material. Simply put, people have to eat. Those gods don't do production but enjoy privileges. Where does everything they enjoy come from? Not to exploit ordinary people?

The essence of religion is slavery and exploitation. No matter how many layers of gorgeous clothes they put on themselves, they still can’t change this fact. Comparing me with them, I feel like you are scolding me~”

Lance didn't say a word.

That should be mine to exploit, that's my money!
How did it get into their pockets?
Leonard suddenly fell silent. Even though he had broken the shackles of the church, he still instinctively anointed the lord with religious logic.

Of course, Lance noticed his reaction. He knew that he had grown up with this set of sayings since he was a child, so he didn’t dare to disobey the orders of the church even though he experienced crimes and even violated the holy law and theft during the expedition. Even now that he understands the logic of religion, he still Habitually use the previous set.

To put it simply, he is living for his beliefs, and now really asking him to get rid of that set is equivalent to making him deny everything about himself.

His current mental state is very unstable, and he may go from one extreme to another. If he becomes delusional and falls into insanity, he will be in trouble.

Lance also realized this and quickly opened his mouth to comfort him.

"Actually, you don't have to force yourself to deny your beliefs, you just need to find a natural law to be a god, isn't it over?
Their theocracy will ignore you, you don't have to worry about being affected, it's just for your spiritual world anyway.

how do you see the sunIt symbolizes light, hope, warmth, strength, and it will shine by itself. Isn't this stronger than your belief in the Holy Light?

If you like, you can add more definitions, such as eternity, vitality, life, and prosperity, you can add whatever you like. "

"This..." Leonard didn't expect such an operation, and he was stunned.

But Lance seemed very casual.

"In fact, belief itself is not a problem. It was an act of the ancients to obtain psychological comfort at the beginning, with a very simple concept of praying for blessings and avoiding disasters, but it was only later used by those who cared.

You just need to know that beliefs are bound by yourself, and it has nothing to do with other people. "

Lance didn't forget to tease himself as he spoke.

"If it's useful, you can let me believe in seven or eight gods. It's okay to believe in a little bit~ Anyway, it doesn't cost money."

Leonard also seemed to understand something under the enlightenment of the lord.

But before he could think about it, Lance asked about something else.

"Have you ever been home?"

Sure enough, Leonard put aside those distracting thoughts after hearing this, and opened his mouth slowly after his expression changed.

"I was expelled from the coalition army, and I went home alone..."

Lance ate barbecue and drank juice to listen to his story.

He became a wandering knight on his way home. Because of the expedition, the locals didn't like him very much. He encountered many dangers along the way, desert horse bandits, local armed forces, jackals, hyenas, poisonous snakes and scorpions...

He even almost died in the desert several times. Fortunately, his previous rescue behavior was rewarded, and he got rescue from the locals, and finally returned to the empire with the caravan.

When he went home again and saw his wife and children, he didn't dare to recognize each other, because he owed them too much.

In order to participate in the expedition, he did not hesitate to sell all his family property. In order to pursue the Holy Light, he abandoned his loving wife.

Apart from a son, all that was left to his wife were some fields and a thatched hut, but now he was just a sinner expelled from the legion, what face would he have to meet them now?
In the end, he could only use faith as an excuse to force himself to forget, and since then he has embarked on a path called Holy Light, but in fact he is escaping.

"I will forget them, remorse is sin."

Leonard seemed very depressed, and described the situation at that time, "I really didn't dare to face them at the time, so I could only force myself to forget them on the grounds of faith. Remorse represents a wavering of faith, that is, sin."

"Coward!" Lance changed his casualness just now, and an angry expression appeared on his face.

"You can't even take care of your family, and you still want to walk in the world in the name of the Holy Light? If I were the Holy Light, I would think you're fucking unlucky!"

Leonard didn't dare to speak about this, but just bowed his head silently.

Seeing this, Lance could only wave his hands, "Oh~ I'll take care of it..."

(End of this chapter)