hollywood billionaire

Chapter 362 He is mine

"Wrong time?"

"And the wrong place. A nightclub in Ibiza is the worst place to start a serious relationship."

"But it's not a serious relationship."

Before he finished speaking, Madison raised his hands and showed Barbara his empty palms, indicating that he meant no harm.

"Don't get me wrong, I'm not blaming you, it's just that... no matter from any aspect, this is just a one-night stand."

"I can't deny it." Barbara pursed her lips, "That night, I never thought that I would see him again in the future."

"Primal impulse."

"Primitive impulse, I guess." The Hungarian girl closed her bathrobe, "Or unwilling compensation."

"It's been a long time since there was another person in your life?"

"And that's not you."

"What's your definition of them?"

"We all still have goals we want to accomplish."

"This is the world we live in."

"I just had a big fight with my parents that day."

"Do you really think so?"

"So people in the circle can't do it either." Madison curled up her knees and used them to rest her chin.

Madison Beer knows exactly what Barbara Pavin means by "reluctance." Just like what is described in the song "Faithfully" by the Travelers Chorus, "Some people say that people on the road cannot build a family."

"Physical, spiritual, professional, intellectual." Barbara held out four fingers, "Of the four types, which one do you want the most, or in other words, which one is the most important?"

"So, that day, you landed in Ibiza alone."

"I couldn't agree more." Madison lowered his eyes and looked at his toes, "Although I am still young and far from the point where I should think about this kind of thing, or be close to completing this kind of thing, but I know that I Need a kind of... long-term stable companionship, whether it is in the form of marriage as we are talking about. I need someone to share my joys, sorrows and joys, someone who I can use in front of outsiders as 'my vital other' A person who calls me '...that's what I am, both traditional and conservative, yet deviant at the same time."

This passage consumed Barbara half a glass of wine.

"There is a soul from the 1960s living inside me." Maddie pointed to her chest and smiled sweetly.

"Too much."

She and Barbara were both travelers walking on the long road, searching up and down.

"For example?"

"No one can find where I am, not even myself. Many times when I wake up in a hotel, I have to wait for a while before I can remember which country I am in."

"For example, I think a woman should have a place that she and her beloved can call home. For example, I hope to hold a wedding with him in the small manor of the Pavin family on the outskirts of Budapest. For example, I hope he can come back to live in Budapest with me, or at least stay there for a whole summer every year. For example, I hope I can take my husband's last name and announce it loudly to the world with pride and happiness... you know, that Kind of an old-fashioned love fairy tale.”

"The reason I don't want to mention." Barbara took a sip of wine. "My sister also stood on their side and helped them speak. She was so angry that I didn't want to talk to her anymore. So, I found...it seemed that except for the makeup artist I don’t have anyone I can talk to other than my stylist.”

"I can understand." Madison, who has just completed a three-month tour of nearly 50 shows, can completely relate to it. "It seems that you have a lot of free space and alone time, but you will never find anyone to share it with you, because your Time zones and your schedule change all the time.”

"What kind?" Madison blinked in confusion, not understanding what Barbara meant.

"I understand." Madison understood instantly, "You don't know who, at what moment, will use these things to stab you with a fatal knife in the back."

"Because of what?"

"That day, I was thinking, what's the point of making so much money? I...compared to my peers in Budapest, I am independent, autonomous and progressive most of the time, but with At the same time, I cannot deny that there is something hidden deep inside me that is... very traditional."

"That must have been an uncomfortable feeling."

"If that's what I understand..." Madison pouted and thought seriously for a while, "I'm sure I need each, but... let's put it this way, physical companionship is crucial, if I can't see a person for a long time, or I can't be intimate with him, which will not only have a negative impact on our relationship, but also my emotions. However, I don't need a lot, um...a lot intimate moments."

"not interested?"

"And I am also a person who needs emotional stickiness very much. I am a Libra. Libras can be a quiet listener, but you'd better be someone who can talk to me every day. We need to discover ourselves through intimacy Different sides to let yourself grow and enhance your understanding and confidence in yourself.”

"I don't know...just tell me."

Barbara raised her eyebrows and took a deep breath.

"It's been a long, long time." Barbara replied in the affirmative, her voice low and soft, "I'm always on the road, Paris today, Tokyo tomorrow. Even the long-term apartment, I rented it for two Two, one in New York and one in London."

"What kind of companionship?" Barbara asked.

"You are a super model who earns millions a year, so you must reply to every message from us in a timely manner. It is best to reply the second we see it, otherwise we will think that you have become famous, have become famous, and have started to act. They are big names, or they hang out with all kinds of celebrities, and they are too lazy to pay attention to us commoners."

"It's not cliche." Madison corrected her softly, "It's a classic."

"It's not you either." Barbara threw the comment back to Madison unchanged, "I can see that."

"Friends in the circle?"

"A piece of advice - being an insider is the worst choice. Many of my friends have warned me this repeatedly." Barbara extended her index finger and said seriously, "If you are willing to completely become a subsidiary of his career, then of course you can. "

"Yes, the so-called acceptable and understandable are just self-righteous boasts made without experience." Barbara showed a bitter and helpless smile, "Don't say just now I have come into contact with strangers, even my friends in Budapest who I have played with since childhood, sometimes they cannot understand the nature of my work.”

"There are many good friends, but they are just 'good'. They all have their own careers and lives, and you don't want to show too much vulnerability in front of them."

"Then you should understand what I mean. It's not that women must eventually return to the family, but that everything I do makes sense only if I get a door that can always be pushed open... At least that's how it works for me. .”

"Hmm, go to work." Barbara grinned self-deprecatingly, "I am one of the few unlucky ones who go to Ibiza just for work."

"I'm interested." When this topic was mentioned, Madison's cheeks, which were already reacting to alcohol, became even more flushed. She touched the back of her head and whispered shyly, "It's just..."

"You haven't tried it yet?!" Barbara's volume suddenly went out of control, suddenly soaring, and then she immediately suppressed it forcefully, "Sorry, Madison, it's just... I didn't expect it at all."

In the United States, it is really surprising that a girl of Maddie's level, who has been immersed in Hollywood, the alluring vanity fair, for several years, has not had any experience in this area.

"This matter... is very complicated."

It was impossible for Madison to explain the trauma she had suffered to Barbara when she met her for the first time. That was a secret that only her family and Han Yi had the opportunity to listen to.

"It's my problem, I shouldn't act so surprised." Barbara was annoyed and guilty, "I don't want to put the blame on alcohol, but... Anyway, I'm sorry."

"It's okay, I know you didn't mean it." Madison gave Barbara a comforting smile, "Let's continue the topic...well, I must have spiritual companionship, but I am actually not a godly nag, I must My partner is on the same wavelength as me. Everyone’s inner world is different. What I want to achieve with him is a puzzle-like complementation, rather than an assembly line-like agreement. Sometimes, differences on the spiritual level can even make a difference. There were some interesting sparks.”

"Professional companionship, in my opinion, is how much it can help me progress in my career... I don't want to lie about this. If my partner can make my career path smoother, then I will definitely feel very happy. and satisfaction, because music is everything to me, my past value, future expectations, and the meaning of existence.”

“But even if he can’t do this, I won’t have too many complaints, as long as he can continue to inspire me intellectually and give me the feeling of growing up every day with him. "How do you understand the concept of intelligent companionship?" Barbara asked, "I'd love to hear your opinion."

"In my opinion, wisdom companionship is not one-sided preaching, but the sharing and integration of different ideas. In short, it is the spark of collision between like-minded people, the same values, interests, philosophical views and thinking The way is that any idea can get positive feedback and effective response.”

"A relationship that is accompanied by wisdom is the one that can truly go a long way."

"Do you think you have this kind of relationship with Yi?" Barbara continued to ask.

"I can't answer for him, but at least for me, yes." Madison smiled, "I'm not saying that I'm on the same level as him. I know that in many things, he sees deeper than me. , farther, he is ahead of me on the road of life. But... I can feel that we want to take the same road. "

"This kind of catching up step by step is the greatest fun of getting along with him. And I... I hope that when he looks back at me, he can also find something worthy of nostalgia from this familiar greenness."

"You really... surprise me, Madison. Your views on relationships are much more mature than any seventeen-year-old girl I've ever seen."

Madison's heartfelt inner monologue made Barbara's eyes change involuntarily.

This Long Island musician is not what the Hungarian supermodel imagined. He can be turned around in a few words. His obsession with Han Yi is entirely out of tangible interests and an unrequited love with a teenager who has no basis. Hollywood The most common Industry Plant.

She will be a difficult opponent and a respectable opponent.

"Then you should be able to understand why I would rather be single than settle for a long time, and why I decided to spend that night with Han Yi the night I met him..."

Without realizing that her mentality was quietly changing, Barbara, who was paralyzed by the alcohol above, explained to Madison her seemingly impulsive choice that day.

"You feel that adaptability." Madison's eyelids twitched and she forced herself to calm down.

"After work, I was alone in Ibiza. I was planning to go to bed early to recuperate for tomorrow's work in Paris. But I went through this... emotional roller coaster that I went through today. I couldn't sleep, no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't sleep. No. And I’m afraid of closing my eyes. I always feel that as long as I close my eyes, life will speed up and I will be one step further away from the life I really want.”

"At this time, Diplo sent me a private message on Instagram. He saw that I was also in Ibiza and invited me to go to his party. My first reaction was to refuse, but then I thought about it, why should I How about being closed like this? Can you find what you want by locking yourself in a hotel room? So, I got out of bed, changed my clothes, and walked directly to Pacha Ibiza... That nightclub was in my hotel It’s not far away. Many times, what you miss inadvertently is actually right next to you.”

"However, the funny thing is, I regretted it as soon as I stepped through the door of the nightclub. I remember I got up at... seven or eight o'clock that day. I shot for a whole day, and then I also recorded several interview videos and behind-the-scenes videos. , my body has reached its limit. The Bass Music coming from the subwoofer made my head swell and hurt. At that time, I thought, quickly go to the DJ booth to say hello to Diplo, and then find an excuse to slip away..."

"Then you meet Yi."

"Yeah, that clumsy guy changed the whole night."

"We talked a lot. A lot... I never thought I could share it with anyone, nor did I think of a topic that would get a response." Barbara bit her lower lip, her eyes still looking at Madison, but her eyes were already through He passed her and floated to another dimension, "I don't want to go into too much detail. I know that's not what you want to hear. All I can say is that he is very interesting and can wake me up in a wonderful way. Follow He spoke at 2:30 in the morning...are you sure you want to listen to this?"

"We've all talked about it so far. Is there any difference whether we listen or not?" Madison said quietly.

"Um..."

Barbara suddenly realized that what she was experiencing at this moment was a novel experience that she had never imagined.

In front of another girl, talk about her one-night stand with a man.

The most important thing is that they both have a crush on this man.

What in the Vicky Cristina Barcelona is this? !
Even though it’s not cheating, why do I still feel so guilty?
"To make a long story short, we originally just made an appointment for a late-night snack, but because all the restaurants on the island closed at 2:30 in the morning, we returned to the hotel and ordered room service..."

"Your hotel or his hotel?"

"We are staying in a hotel." Barbara rubbed her fingers nervously for some reason, "Nobu."

"Your room, or his room?"

"His." Barbara swallowed, "My room is very messy and it's not convenient to invite people in...and his suite is much larger."

"So at 2:30 in the morning, he kindly invited a supermodel to his room for a 'eat - snack - night'."

"...I wouldn't use this tone and this rhetoric, but that's kind of what happened."

"Got it." Madison chewed her nails expressionlessly, "He's so dead."

"Getting a little fiesty over there, girl." Barbara pressed her hand down, gesturing for Maddie to remain calm, "I don't want to defend him. I have no position to defend him. Of course, there is a high possibility that you won't. He will believe these excuses...but he really doesn't have that kind of thoughts, or in other words, he hides those thoughts well."

"This is his talent." Madison complained dullly.

"We sat on the terrace of the suite for almost an hour. Yi not only maintained a gentlemanly manner and appropriate social distance, but did not do anything inappropriate. Every topic was taken seriously, and every eye contact was carried with That kind of humility and restraint that makes people very comfortable, even if..."

"Even?"

"Even if..."

What am I worried about?
She wanted to ask.

Just suffer it yourself.

"Even though, I can see that he wants me." Barbara's expression regained her composure, and as she recalled the passion of the midsummer night, there was even a hint of a faint smile at the corner of her mouth, " He wanted me, in a way that made me feel safe and thrilling the most. I like this kind of wolf in sheep's clothing, this kind of gunpowder burning under the lead seal."

"So, I decided to give him what he wanted, and I decided to give me what I wanted."

"I know he can give me what I want, and I also know that if I want to have him for a long time, the best way is to step back, outside Ibiza, outside the darkness where we can't see each other clearly. , continue to be in contact with him and let everything take its time."

"But I also know that there is unlikely to be a real future between us. Tomorrow I will fly to Paris and I may not see him again for the rest of my life, because this is my life and I don't expect anyone else to. Understand and accommodate.”

"So, there were only two choices left in front of me. Or, at that time, I thought that I only had these two choices: catch what can be caught, and then let go wisely. Or let go and catch. Live and spend a long time trying to recreate the same situation."

"There was no need to think, and I didn't want to think about it anymore. I chose the former without hesitation."

"One look, one touch, one kiss and he was mine."

"That was the most wonderful night in my life, maybe none. Until now, for twenty-three years, my life has been looking forward, looking at tomorrow's announcement, looking at next month's fashion week, looking at next year's work plan. But on that night, I finally realized the feeling of living in the present. I could put aside the identity of 'Barbara Pavin', put aside all the aura and burden it brought to me, and go to my heart's content Enjoy this 'no tomorrow' happiness."

"Look, Madison... I was never your competition because I never thought from the beginning that I would have any sort of 'tomorrow' with him. He was just there for me at that particular moment in my life. , just a gas station for a short stop."

"Yeah, gas station?"

"Gas station."

"Then you've stayed at this gas station for too long." Madison, with an evil fire in his heart, became more and more venomous. She looked down at her feet and poured out the unspoken words with her eyes.

You have been at this gas station for half a year.

How big is the oil tank, and it can’t be filled until now?

"Yeah, about this..."

Barbara flipped her hair and said lightly.

"I was driving away from the gas station, but I couldn't stand it and the gas station grew legs and came to find me."

(End of this chapter)