My secret love for Bai Yueguang turned out to be my blind date

Chapter 27 Secret Love Is the Wandering Between Giving Up and Persisting
Ten o'clock in the evening, the second day after returning from the farm.

In the room, Master Xing's Westward Journey was playing on the computer screen.

Some people go shopping when they are in a bad mood, some people choose to confide in their friends, but Su Ye's habit is to watch Master Xing's movies, he hopes that he will be happier.

In many cases, the sound of movies is more used as background sound to cover up the inner sadness.

Just like, at this moment.

Su Ye's mind is very messy, his thoughts are like catkins, dancing all over the sky, thinking of many, many scenes in the movie:

"I once fell in love with someone. I always wanted to know if she really liked me. I kept trying, but she never responded. I started to make many excuses for her. When I was most disappointed, I I thought about giving up, but I will continue soon”

"She didn't respond to you, not because she was slow, maybe she really didn't like you. Later I realized that some people can't be forced, and the only thing I can do is to give up."

"Ten years is too long, and everything may change. A lifetime is too short, and one thing may not be finished. It is sad to lose the one you love, but what a pity to lose someone who doesn't love you. You can still love on someone else's."

"I thought I would be with her for a long time, like a plane full of fuel, able to fly for a long time, but I didn't expect the plane to change stations halfway."

"There are so many options for supper, let alone a boyfriend."

If you ask what it's like to be in love secretly, now Su Ye can say that he has a good understanding.You will be pleasantly surprised by the inadvertent interaction and intimacy of the other party, and also feel lost by the subconscious words of the other party. You will be like a hot air balloon, the other party is the flame, and you float up and down because of the other party.You, it is no longer you.
At a certain moment, Su Ye wanted to show his cards. He would rather be sentenced to death directly than endure such suffering again.

But he was so unwilling, his dream was to spend his whole life with her!

This is the source of Su Ye's discomfort. He used to say to Jiang Baizhi, if you like it, I will love you forever; if you don't want to, I will love you forever.And now, he's getting too greedy.

When Jiang Baizhi really appeared by his side, it was useless for him to read so many mind-learning Zen, and he couldn't know what to do and be content with his life.

He is only in chaos
Closing her eyes, Su Ye recalled the time she spent with Jiang Baizhi.

He has never felt Jiang Baizhi so truly. She is passionate and bold on the paraglider, delicate and charming in class, delicate and chic under the stars. In many cases, he feels that he is very close to the soul of Jiang Baizhi, so close. Can hear the rhythm of each other's soul.

However, Jiang Baizhi said that sentence: You don't know that when a girl teaches a boy to know a flower, then the boy will think of her whenever he sees this flower in the future.

Did she not want to remind herself of her?
It is very likely that Jiang Baizhi was joking.But secret love is like this, afraid that the other party will know, and also afraid that the other party will not know, and even more afraid that the other party will know but pretend not to know.

The more he thought about it, the more chaotic it became, so chaotic that Su Ye couldn't watch the movie, so he simply walked to the window.

Open the window and see the stars hanging in the night sky.

The starry sky is so deep, the stars that are hundreds of millions of light years away from us are meeting us romantically.

The wind at night was a bit cold, and Su Ye unconsciously tightened his shoulders when it blew, but he didn't want to add more clothes, he just felt that the cold was very comfortable.

And behind it came the classic line of Master Xing, "There was once a sincere relationship in front of me, and I didn't cherish it. If I have the opportunity, I want to tell her I love you. If I must give this love Add a time limit, I hope it is 1 years"

Su Ye suddenly thought of an interview between Master Xing and Chai Jing a long time ago, probably in 2013.At that time, Master Xing was already gray-haired, with visible fatigue written in his eyes.Chai Jing asked: You are so good, there must be many girls who like you.Master Xing shook his head and smiled wryly, "How could that be?"Chai Jing asked again: Do you still have a chance to be with your Miss Duan?Master Xing lowered his head and said: There is no chance.Chai Jing asked again: What do you think of loving you for 1 years now?Master Xing thought for a while, and said with regret full of memories: If there is a chance, 1 years is too long, I want to seize the day.
Thinking of this, Su Ye got up and turned off the computer and pressed the pause button, because an episode was playing: Sea of ​​Bitterness, Love and Hate.In this world, it is hard to escape fate, but a blind date is inaccessible
The singing was so bitter that Su Ye even wanted to smoke a cigarette.

There is no need to smoke, but Su Ye already has an answer, in fact, his answer has not changed at all.It's just that Jiang Baizhi can easily make him mess up.

Master Xing has no chance, but he still has a chance, and he has a chance to seize the day and night.

Life is only 50 years, except for ten years of ignorance and ten years of old and weak, it is only 50 years.In these 25 years, half of the nights will be removed, leaving only [-] years. Eat, drink tea, bathe, change clothes, work, get sick, run around, and really spend very little time with the one you love, not to mention that he is now an adult. In the first year of life, half of life is about to pass, and the remaining time is more than just passing by.

Su Ye really thought it through, maybe soon he will be upset because of a certain action of Jiang Baizhi, and he will no longer be himself.But he will still continue to choose firmly, and he will not leave any regrets for himself.After more than ten years of waiting, the reunion after spending all his luck, the rest can only depend on himself!

This time it's just a practice exercise. It's a long road with no end in sight. This time it's just a small exam.

Looking at the dark night sky, Su Ye suddenly thought of the ending of a book. Its ending reads like this: In the desolate day, I was imprisoned in the ancient dark day dream. All barren.

Until you walk through the wasteland.

Wherever you stepped, the world began to wake up. I saw wild flowers growing wildly along the way, white snow sliding down the treetops, and plum blossoms in full bloom. I saw returning birds and cicadas singing, and the sun was scorching.

I see you at the end of my daydream, and the sky is bright from now on
And at this moment, a message popped up on Su Ye's cell phone:
"Su Ye, are you free tomorrow?"

This news comes from Jiang Baizhi, the end of Su Ye's daydream
　Sorry, I wrote this chapter for two or three hours
　　
　
(End of this chapter)