I am not an artist when I am reborn

Chapter 178 What About Me?

Chapter 176 What about me?
"It's so late and you haven't returned to the dormitory?" Su Jinxing sat on the sofa, looked at Pei Zhuxuan who was thinking about something with his head down, and asked.

"I want to practice basic skills here for a while." Pei Zhuxuan said softly.

Red Velvet has not returned, and practice will naturally only be the basic skills.

"What about the others, have they all gone back?" Su Jinxing asked again.

"It should be. I came here after our trip."

Although Red Velvet is not under the management of Su Jinxing, because of Su Jinxing's transformation of the EXO label, no schedule will be arranged after [-]:[-] pm. This has more or less affected the major groups of the same company.

Red Velvet also benefited accordingly, although they just debuted, they didn't have a clear understanding of the company's twists and turns.

In their simple concept, leaders are all leaders, and anyone can control them.Compared with old fritters like Kim Taeyeon and Lin Yuner, it is still far behind.

"I see." Su Jinxing nodded upon hearing the words, "It's been a while since we sat and chatted like this?"

"In." Pei Zhuxuan replied in a low voice.

To be exact, there should be more than 100 days.The last time the two communicated like this was last year.

Having not talked for so long, Pei Zhuxuan thought that Su Jinxing had forgotten about someone like her.

Thinking about it, Red Velvet has already debuted, and Su Jinxing is busy with GFriend's affairs all day long. With Jin Shaoqing by her side, she doesn't really need her.

"How do you feel in the first half a year after your debut?" Su Jinxing didn't know Pei Zhuxuan's thoughts, and asked this question according to his impromptu thoughts.

how do you feel?
Pei Zhuxuan pursed her lips.

She thought that she could just make her debut, but when she really made her debut, she realized that it was just a new starting point, far from as beautiful as she imagined.

During this period of time, she also saw the comments on the Internet, and what she said was ugly.Among them are some fans who originally had great expectations for them.

Pei Zhuxuan saw it, but didn't know what to say.

They are soft-spoken and have no right to intervene in the song and comeback concept. Even if they don't like the comeback song, they have to listen to the company's arrangement.

In the past six months, sometimes Pei Zhuxuan would think, is it really right for me to go this way?

The trainee period was so difficult, and then I thought that I had finally made my debut after all the hard work, but the result was still rejected by the whole network.

This feeling of not being recognized and not rewarded for hard work is really hard to accept.

But on the other hand, at least my practice efforts were not in vain, but it has been half a year since their debut, and they are still in a girl group that relies on the popularity of SM to get their name.

SM's new girl group, Red Velvet, is a girl group created by a variety show.

This is the hottest label on them now.

It's not that Pei Zhuxuan never thought of asking Su Jinxing for help, but because he was busy with GFriend's affairs, coupled with some reasons, Pei Zhuxuan still didn't ask Su Jinxing in the end.

Seeing that Pei Zhuxuan was silent, Su Jinxing could more or less guess what was going on in her heart at the moment.

The situation of Red Velvet is not good. There is no problem with the staffing, but there are many girl groups with no problem with the staffing. Whether a group can be popular depends on the songs and marketing, and the strength of the members is second.

Looking at the fourth generation, Red Velvet is also a first-class configuration, but what is the use?

TWICE members have more or less their own flaws, and even a few members were ridiculed when they looked at their peers in the junior and middle stages, but will this affect their popularity?

In the early days of all the groups, the songs lead people. The few songs that Red Velvet releases now are not good, and they are far from the point where they can lead people with songs.

Songs can't even be remembered by people, so why remember your combination?

Good looking?

The most important thing in kpop is beautiful children, is Pei Zhuxuan good-looking?nice.But what kind of four generations of facial expressions do you want to try now?
Without enough popularity as a foundation, any marketing is nothing without roots.

Solving Red Velvet's current predicament is very simple, but it is such a simple solution, but Min Xizhen has been unable to make up his mind.

The advantage of Min Xizhen is that she is very kind to her subordinates and has the courage to recruit newcomers.But her shortcoming is also here, she is too indecisive towards her subordinates.

The problem of Red Velvet is not the members, but the behind-the-scenes team. If the team does not change, Red Velvet will not really solve the problem.

"I understand a little bit about your problems." Su Jinxing pondered for a while before speaking.

Hearing this, Pei Zhuxuan raised her head and looked at Su Jinxing.

"A question from the concept production team."

Su Jinxing said a question that Pei Zhuxuan and even most people know.

But unlike Su Jinxing, she knew it, but she couldn't say it.

There is a problem with the production team, but this is not something Pei Zhuxuan and other members can question.

"Actually, if Red Velvet is in my label plan, I have a way to pull you out of the quagmire."

Seeing the gentle smile on Su Jinxing's face, Pei Zhuxuan was slightly taken aback.

"Shouldn't our operations be company operations?" Pei Zhuxuan asked in confusion.

Although the operating officer is director Min Xizhen, shouldn't the operation of a group be the company's decision-making?
"My explanation to the public is not an excuse." Su Jinxing's smile remained unchanged. "Our company is rather special. Generally speaking, the operating rights of major groups are tightly held in the hands of the operating officers, just like EXO's operating rights. Except for me, no one else can intervene. The same is true for you Red Velvet. Except for director Min Xizhen, no one else can intervene."

Pei Zhuxuan was stunned.

This is the first time she has heard of it.

The operating officer operation group is actually fully authorized?

"We..." Pei Zhuxuan stared blankly at Su Jinxing, "The production team is also Director Min..."

"That's right, the production team of your Red Velvet is all from Director Min."

Pei Zhuxuan stopped talking, she was digesting the content that made her a little unacceptable.

That is to say, the director Min Xizhen who created Red Velvet is actually their actual operation and the source of these songs.

Such news made Pei Zhuxuan's brain go down for a while.

After a long time, Pei Zhuxuan, who seemed to have recovered, looked at Su Jinxing.

"Why are you telling me this?"

Although Min Xizhen was quite defensive about their initial management, Pei Zhuxuan did not complain about Min Xizhen because of this. Min Xizhen definitely contributed a lot to their debut, she is not this kind of person.

On the contrary, it was Su Jinxing. From what he said just now, no, or the previous conversations, Pei Zhuxuan felt that he had a strong purpose.

Combined with the particularity of the company revealed by Su Jinxing this time, the combination is fully operated by the company's leaders. In retrospect, Su Jinxing seems to be...

"I think Red Velvet has great potential." Su Jinxing said with a smile, but this smile was so dazzling to Pei Zhuxuan.

"You want the right to operate Red Velvet?" Pei Zhuxuan asked with a blunt tone.

Su Jinxing nodded without changing his expression.

"Joohyun, you will help me, right?"

"I'm soft-spoken, so I can't help you." Pei Zhuxuan shook her head and refused, keeping a distance from Su Jinxing in her words.

Regarding Pei Zhuxuan's tone, Su Jinxing acted as if he had never heard of it.

"No, no, as the captain of Red Velvet, your role is much more important than you know." Su Jinxing looked at Pei Zhuxuan with a smile, "Red Velvet is here with me, so you can show your characteristics."

"Thank you Director Su, but I just want to be an artist and don't want to get involved in these things." Pei Zhuxuan said calmly.

"Do you think I've been using you all this time?" Su Jinxing said abruptly.

Pei Zhuxuan didn't respond, but silence often means acquiescence.

Su Jinxing laughed.

"A trainee who hasn't debuted, is it really worth using?"

Pei Zhuxuan was taken aback.

It's a harsh statement, but it sounds like it's true.

She was just an older trainee who hadn't made her debut before. What is her use value?
Su Jinxing doesn't know how to predict, how can she be sure that she will debut in the end?

Even if it is known that she can debut, how much weight can a rookie group have?

She seems to have overestimated her weight a bit?
"Every step I take is planned. As a newcomer with no background, taking one step and counting three steps is my daily routine." Su Jinxing leaned on the sofa, "For me, everyone around me has their own value, and each person constitutes my rising plan."

"I went from being a trainee to today step by step. Every step I take has calculated various results. But people are not as good as heaven. After all, there are things that I can't predict. What's more, I am far less rational than expected."

"Senior Taeyeon?" Pei Zhuxuan said.

Su Jinxing smiled and nodded.

"I didn't expect that I would have such a deep relationship with Taeyeon. In my prediction, she would be a close relative, a Girls' Generation leader who can be used, but not a girlfriend."

"But she became your girlfriend."

"People's hearts are fleshy. In getting along with her, I was not as rational as I expected." Su Jinxing recalled the time when he was with Kim Taeyeon. He really did not expect that he would have such a deep connection with Kim Taeyeon.

"What about me?" Pei Zhuxuan asked suddenly.

Su Jinxing looked at Pei Zhuxuan, and met her bright eyes.

"You?" Su Jinxing laughed, "From the day you appeared on the Mapo Bridge, you have been a special existence."

"Maybe you didn't notice it yourself. I told you a lot of things you shouldn't know."

Pei Zhuxuan heard the words and thought about it, and then found...she seems to know a lot of things that Su Jinxing shouldn't let her know?

"Zhuxuan." Su Jinxing sat up and looked at Pei Zhuxuan in front of him, "In this life, you will meet all kinds of people in the crowd. Among these passers-by in life, there will always be someone who you are willing to walk with after meeting in the crowd."

Is he talking about me?
Pei Zhuxuan looked at Su Jinxing silently, she was not a little girl who would be too happy to listen to sweet words, but after understanding the meaning of Su Jinxing's words, she still couldn't help but feel a little more joy in her heart.

The eyes looking at Su Jinxing became less alienated and more evasive.

Su Jinxing suddenly stood up.

Pei Zhuxuan looked up at him.

"Come out for a walk with me?"

Pei Zhuxuan turned her head to look out the French windows of the practice room, it was pitch black, but she thought of Su Jinxing beside her.

"it is good."

……

Seoul at night is not deserted, even during this period of time on weekdays when there are still a lot of people, that is, it is now winter, it is cold outside, and everyone is looking for a place to have fun, so there are fewer pedestrians on the street.

Su Jinxing and Pei Zhuxuan walked side by side on the street, Pei Zhuxuan was wrapped in a thick down jacket, but still could feel the coldness, looked up at Su Jinxing beside him, and approached quietly.

Su Jinxing turned his head to look at Pei Zhuxuan, and suddenly reached out to wrap his arms around Pei Zhuxuan's shoulder.

Pei Zhuxuan froze, and even stopped her pace.

"Not used to it?" Su Jinxing's voice rang in his ears.

Pei Zhuxuan was silent for a moment, then shook his head.

A smile appeared in Su Jinxing's eyes, and the hand holding Pei Zhuxuan's shoulders was slightly stronger, pulling her into his arms.

Seen from behind, the two are like a loving couple, embracing and walking together.

Pei Zhuxuan was wrapped in a down jacket and held in Su Jinxing's arms, her little face was red, she didn't know what she was thinking.

Su Jinxing didn't speak, just walked forward in silence.

Pei Zhuxuan suddenly thought of a sentence he saw on the Internet before.

What is love in life?

Even if two people are together, they won't feel awkward if they don't talk.

Are they now?
Pei Zhuxuan's thoughts gradually flew away.

As the night got deeper, the temperature became colder and colder, but whether it was Su Jinxing or Pei Zhuxuan, the only thing they could feel was each other's warmth.

"It's eleven o'clock." Su Jinxing glanced at the time on his watch and broke the silence.

"This is the first time I've been outside at such a late hour." Pei Zhuxuan murmured, the voice was not too loud, but at least Su Jinxing, who was close at zero distance, could clearly hear it.

"Then did you ever stay away all night?" Su Jinxing asked with a smile.

"No." Pei Zhuxuan's voice followed.

The corners of Su Jinxing's mouth rose slightly.

"The lights are so bright there." Pointing to a building in the distance, he said.

Pei Zhuxuan looked in the direction Su Jinxing pointed, and a brightly shining building came into view, followed by a sign with the name of that building.

"Best Western Hotel Art"

This hotel is on the street in the wilderness of the new building. Pei Zhuxuan can often see it. It is a very good star hotel.

But that's not the point, the point is, this is a hotel.

Pei Zhuxuan thought that Su Jinxing's non-return all night was asking her something else, but she didn't expect it to be this.

The already rosy cheeks even climbed up to a rich blush.

"It's quite bright." Pei Zhuxuan said in a low voice.

The smile on Su Jinxing's face became wider, and the strength of holding Pei Zhuxuan became tighter, as if he wanted to hug him tightly into his body.

"It's dark here, let's go over there."

"Inside……"

Su Jinxing hugged Pei Zhuxuan and walked towards the Aiden Best Western Hotel.

　Regarding this somewhat controversial plot, a supplementary plot was added later, which can be regarded as an emotional inflection point in character creation.

　　
　
(End of this chapter)