I go north, you go south

Chapter 200
This also means that Nan Zishu must have more obsession with his mother's sudden death than outsiders can see.

When Nan Zishu came back from the funeral home yesterday, he was exhausted and silent.

When she was in the hospital, she inadvertently expressed the hope that her mother would "stay with her for a while longer".This somewhat morbid idea has been lingering in Ling Bei's mind, he is afraid that Nan Zishu will really do something extreme.

Later, Ling Bei sent Nan Zishu home, but she couldn't help but tell him to go back to rest too, and then walked into Liu Ying's room without saying a word and sorted out the belongings.The back that he endured alone was like a knife piercing into Ling Bei's heart.

He hated himself for not being able to get close to her.

Ling Bei couldn't sleep all night because he was thinking about Nan Zishu.So today he rushed over early again.It wasn't until I saw the girl sleeping soundly in the room that the stone in my heart fell.

Including just now when he came back from the company, he didn't see Nan Zishu after he opened the door and walked in. At that time, Ling Bei instantly felt that his breathing and heartbeat were not his own.For the first time, he was so anxious that he was in a hurry.It took me a long time to realize that I should dial the familiar number first.

Every second waiting for the phone to be answered was an extreme test of Ling Bei's anxiety state, until the girl's still clear voice sounded.

If the last thing waiting is the unconnected mechanical busy signal, Ling Bei thinks that he might really go crazy, right?
Ling Bei was always worried that he wouldn't be able to get into Nan Zishu's heart, and that he wouldn't be able to bear the pain with her.If it was in the past, he would of course feel that the future is long, and there is no rush for these things; but seeing Nan Zishu's pain in the hospital that day, and all the things that happened afterwards, Ling Bei regretted that he couldn't do it. Try to get Nan Zishu to fully open his heart to him earlier.

I remember that day in the hospital, Nanzi Shu Mingming was so sad that he was about to collapse, but he still tried his best to cheer up in front of him.

So whenever Ling Bei thought of Nan Zishu's stubborn and persistent appearance at that time, the distress and guilt in his heart couldn't be added.

Ling Bei really didn't want Nan Zishu to push him away under any circumstances.

But fortunately, it seems that the conversation just now had an effect. Now Nan Zishu's eyes were less hesitant and worried when he answered Ling Bei.Instead, there is trust in the eyes and the most real and clear emotion of joy and anger.

This is what Ling Bei wants to see most, Nan Zishu who completely depends on him.

Ling Bei confirmed the specific matters with the cemetery staff on the other side of the phone, and then hung up the phone.

"Shu Shu." Ling Bei looked at Nan Zishu who was still lying in his arms with his eyes slightly closed, and his tone softened into water involuntarily: "Have you really thought about it?"

"Hmm..." Nan Zishu lazily raised his head to look at Ling Bei, but there was a clear sense of loneliness at the end of his eyes: "Have you thought about it...?"

Maybe because she felt that what she said was a little funny, the corner of Nan Zishu's mouth curled up slightly: "But I can't really put my mother by my side forever, can I?"

"That's always wrong, isn't it?" Nan Zishu looked at Ling Bei with such a real inquiry, as if she was really waiting for Ling Bei to give her a definite answer.

But what was more real than that was the uncontrollable bitterness between Nan Zishu's eyebrows and the corners of his mouth.

(End of this chapter)