The beauty of the fishing department teases and cries after losing her memory

Chapter 109 Chapter 109: Chasing Wife Crematorium
Chen Ji'an admired Lin Zhaowan's "outward and outward appearance".

He couldn't use that word to her, but she did, and she did.But he felt a little happy in his heart, which meant that she still cared about him, she was jealous with Su Mingwei and wanted her to leave him.

Su Mingwei pointed at her: "Remember it!"

Su Mingwei stomped out of the ward in anger, Lin Zhaowan looked at her back and sighed, she learned another thing——

Don't use your own judgment to beautify or belittle anyone. Only when you get to know this person can you know what kind of person the other person is?

She thought that Su Mingwei looked like a gentle and bright girl when she heard the name and read the text, but she didn't expect that she would be the exact opposite of what she thought.

Lin Zhaowan turned his gaze to Chen Ji'an, and asked indifferently, "Are you okay?"

In fact, she was also very worried about him. Even though he was under the same roof, he didn't even tell her about his illness. Doesn't it mean that there is something wrong with their relationship?

"I'm fine," he explained with his eyes on her all the time, "I know you have your own things to be busy with these days, my problem is a trivial matter, I don't want you to worry about it, so I didn't talk to you immediately. you say."

Unexpectedly, Lin Zhaowan just picked up an orange, stood beside him and peeled it.

At the moment when the orange peel is peeled off the pulp, a sweet white noise can be heard.But his mood was not at all peaceful and relaxed. Instead, he held on tighter, for fear that she would be angry again because of his "farewell without saying goodbye".

He remembered the trick Uber told him: a man who acts like a baby is the best luck.

He still felt a little awkward at first, but at this moment, he felt that there was nothing to be afraid of, a dead horse was like a living horse doctor.

Chen Ji'an raised his hand and tugged at her sleeve: "Don't get angry with me, okay? I know I was wrong about what happened before."

At that moment, Lin Zhaowan looked back at his acting like a baby, and he looked completely different from the brother Ji An who he had been chasing after him since he was a child.

She even wanted to tell him: "Chen Ji'an, if I told you that I got so angry because I remembered everything, would you believe me?"

He was so angry that he didn't want to tell her anything. He had endured so many things. Did he know that she would blame herself and feel heartbroken?

After becoming his girlfriend, she wants to face more difficulties with him, even if it is life, old age, sickness and death, she can accept it.But he chose to bear it all by himself, as if her girlfriend could only share the joys and sorrows, not the sorrows.

She also hated herself, obviously she was happy when he came back safely, but she still pretended to be indifferent, just to prevent accidents from happening again in the future.

Their world finally calmed down, she was really scared, losing him again...

The orange peel is finished, but the noisy mind has not yet calmed down.

She looked at him, and with the other hand he didn't grasp, passed the orange over: "Eat it."

"I haven't acted like a baby before. You are the first one. Can you take it into account and stop being angry with me?" He took the orange, but still looked at her like a kitten in the rain, okay? Wronged.

In the past, Lin Zhaowan, who had amnesia or not yet, would definitely laugh.

But now, she couldn't laugh.

She was so calm that she didn't seem to be heartbroken at all: "Chen Ji'an, I just blame myself for not being able to understand you, should I ask you to find someone who understands you better to take care of you, not someone like me who will hurt you. "

If she hadn't been pestering him when he was a child, and hadn't met the Chu family, Chen Ji'an wouldn't have had such a hard life...

These things, like nightmares, bound her from time to time after she recovered her memory, making her helpless and anxious.

She turned her head to look at him, with a helpless smile on the corner of her mouth, paler than Yun Duo: "But Su Mingwei definitely can't, if you have someone better to choose, you give up on me and find your own life... ..."

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The yellow night light in the ward was ringing loudly, time seemed to travel back many years, and now Chen Ji'an could finally understand the entanglement and sadness of her girlhood, the sadness and helplessness of being pushed away by him.

God seemed to punish him, but after he wanted to surrender his love wholeheartedly, she began to back down.

Fate seems to be telling him with actions that in the past, he didn't consider other people's feelings at all, indulged in his own world, and thought he was good to others. How about letting him experience it?
"I'm sorry..." He let go of the hand holding her sleeve, and his hand slowly dropped, like that heart, falling into the deepest part of the heart lake.

All the memories flooded my mind at once——

After he sensed her intentions for the first time, he was also upset by the family's urge to marry him, so he simply used this as an excuse to drive her away.

He was colder than the rushing river under his feet, and he didn't dare to look her in the eyes, but he dared to say to her: "Maybe because my parents are urging me to get married, I can just find a suitable girl to marry. "

He just wanted to drive her away, telling her that he wasn't worth it.

He didn't know how many tears she should shed after she went back.

At that time, he even realized that she was no longer a minor and had the right to pursue the happiness she longed for.And he, who obviously had a good impression of her at that time, did not dare to move forward at all, and could only interrupt her "forbidden love".

And she was like a sunflower every time, returning to him with sunshine.

Her wish to choose a school was denied by the teacher, and was talked about by classmates. He even took an adult attitude and said to her disapprovingly: "If you fall down, you have to stand up by yourself. Only you can be reliable."

At that time, Chen Ji'an felt that he would leave her sooner or later, and the more important thing was to cultivate her ability to be independent and strong.

Even if one day he is gone, she will be able to face the difficulties of life.The only thing he has to do is to solve the biggest obstacle and make her safe and healthy.

But at that time, she must have been very sad. He had never given her tenderness and comfort.

Before the college entrance examination, she bought him a carton of milk, soda biscuits, and self-heating rice.I am afraid that he is busy with study and work and has no time to take care of himself.

And he didn't even say "thank you", but he denied her caring behavior first.

His indifferent words revealed his needlessness, probably at that time, she also felt that she was a trouble in his life.

He said to her: "The college entrance examination is the only thing you should prepare for, instead of spending time with me, I don't need it."

Chen Ji'an just hoped that Lin Zhaowan should pursue his dream with flowers in abundance, and not waste time with a flower that is dying.

He was too self-righteous, he was not mature at all, he was stuck in the order of this society, but he was proud that that was her life.

She is alive, she shouldn't even have the chance to try.

But precisely because he likes her, he treasures her so much that he doesn't want her to give up her original life plan for him, and she doesn't want her to be criticized by others.

More importantly, he hasn't told her yet.

(End of this chapter)