The beauty of the fishing department teases and cries after losing her memory

Chapter 5 005: Before It's Completely Lost

As August is approaching, phoenix trees and camphor trees are swaying on both sides of the campus path, fading away the restlessness of summer, and the slow-heating and gentle autumn is slowly approaching.

The campus was quiet in the afternoon, only two people walked towards the music classroom.Lin Zhaowan has a performance at night, and I heard that Chen Ji'an can also play the piano, so I want him to help with the accompaniment.

She thought changing the music to a solo piano would better suit her theme tonight.

"Chen Ji'an, this is for you."

Chen Ji'an turned his head. During this time, Lin Zhaowan didn't seem to repel him so much, and his attitude became much gentler.

He looked down, and there was a maple leaf in her palm, which had been turned into a vein bookmark.

"I'm not as dexterous as you, so I can only make a leaf vein bookmark."

She has seen the airplane model he made, which is so vivid that it cannot be described in words.

The small plane was obviously only parked in a corner of the gymnasium, as if it had already soared in the blue sky, free and magnificent, like an eagle with young aspirations, spreading its wings to find its own blue sky.

It's great to have such talents in China.

She stayed in London. At that time, she heard a lot of anti-China remarks, saying that there were no technical talents in China, and she would always feel very uncomfortable if China was not as good as abroad.

In her heart, she has always longed for the motherland to have all kinds of outstanding talents.Even if you go abroad to study, the purpose is to come back to shine for the motherland and better win glory for the country.

Therefore, she still chose to return to China despite all kinds of voices of disapproval.

And after seeing Chen Ji'an's works, her "prejudice" towards him gradually began to warm up like the spring when the first snow melts.

He would understand her, just as she began to understand him.

Guan Wei told her that Chen Ji'an almost went to Germany twice.

The second time was in the last two years.

Lin Zhaowan unconsciously said what was in her heart: "For whom did you give up the opportunity to study abroad? It's a pity."

She believed that when Chen Ji'an went abroad to study and came back, his skills would definitely be better, and when he returned to China, he would not be at the current level.

"Think I'm miserable?" He smiled, no wonder she was so abnormal today.

It turned out that she sympathized with him.

"You're not the one who won't let me go abroad." He looked at the maple leaf, the corners of his mouth turned up, and his eyes fainted with indescribable sadness. "Why do you feel sorry for me?"

yes……

Lin Zhaowan realized it later, so what does it matter to her?
Her eyes flickered left and right, and she changed the subject: "Let's go, show off your piano playing skills, Mr. Chen."

"Too bad, is this Lin Zhaowan so easy to chase? How come some people who have been chasing for more than ten years are not as good as others for more than ten days..."

The girl was thin and thin, and she had been hiding behind the two of them for so long, using a tree as a cover, so she was never discovered.

She bowed her head and sent all the photos.

"If you don't come back, there is really no chance!!"

"Fuck, wait for me!"

The loyal dog Jinzhu posted an emoji with a panda head gnashing its teeth.

The girl put on the sunglasses and felt how could there be such a miserable man in this world. It was okay to be weak and sick since she was a child, but it was a fate to chase a girl when she grew up. Before she could confess her love, she was stolen by someone after a few days.

Miserable!

Chen Ji'an played Jay Chou's "Sunny Day" on the piano, which is very suitable for the theme of this story.Lin Zhaowan bent over, her hands that were putting on her dancing shoes stopped for a second, and her eyelashes fluttered.

She seems to remember that there is a person in her memory who also likes Jay Chou, but she can't remember who that person is.

She took off her small suit jacket, and she wore a white tulle skirt, which was gentle and wanton against the backdrop of the sun.His fingertips are constantly dancing, and every note seems to be able to speak.

It seemed to be raining heavily in the classroom, and it was so heavy that it was hard to see the end of a hazy relationship.

The girl did not dare to get close to the man she had a crush on. From the youthful youth to the [-]th year, no matter how far she had traveled, she had to ask in her heart, when would she be able to come to that man?
Desire, fear, unwillingness, struggle, the deeper the growth rings, the more heart-wrenching.

The dance stopped abruptly.

Lin Zhaowan was panting heavily, watching the beads of sweat falling on the ground, she suddenly became afraid, she didn't want to end up like the protagonist!

She sat on the table, and the purple curtains were blown up by the gentle wind.

He looked at her from the side, the three-dimensional facial features were superior, exuding a cool and bright beauty, and when put together with her graceful dancing posture, it was hard not to move people's hearts.

It's such a heart-wrenching girl. From adulthood to now, there have been suitors successively, but none of them can impress her.

Like, she's been waiting for someone...

When he was in a daze, she suddenly opened her mouth and asked nonchalantly, "Why did you give up the chance to go to Germany for the second time?"

why?
She asked, and he said, as if he had an outlet to vent his emotions: "Because I have a younger sister, if she needs me to come back, I can only come back, I owe her too much."

younger sister?Why didn't she find out?
"That's my neighbor's sister," he explained.

She was a little surprised: "What about your future?"

He turned his head away: "The future is not as important as her life. I will die without her. But I seem to have let her do something stupid. This is the guilt of my life."

"..."

Lin Zhaowan was silent, so, does Chen Ji'an like that younger sister, or doesn't he?

Her mood froze for a moment, and she couldn't tell what it was like. It wasn't loss, but it was more stressful than loss.

She made an excuse and walked out.

Chen Ji'an was quiet for a long time, his heart changed from a quiet sea wave to a turbulent one. After Lin Zhaowan walked out of the classroom, he played Jay Chou's "The Unspeakable Secret".

He, Chen Ji'an, is an asshole.

He fell in love with a girl nine years younger than him.

In the memory, the girl dragged him hysterically, crying until Lihua rained: "Chen Ji'an, you are not my brother! I like you, you want me to say I like you several times, I am not a child anymore, don't you understand? ?”

After he finished playing the piece, he laughed at himself: "Who am I, Chen Ji'an? What qualifications do I have to accept your feelings? Lin Zhaowan, I can't delay your life. Why are you so stupid to punish me by jumping off a building... ..."

He took a deep breath, his brows furrowed, and his heart ached.

If she knew the whole truth, would she hate him, or would she understand and forgive him?

The phone rang.

He picked it up, and the one who should come also came: "Chen Ji'an, I'm back. Lin Zhaowan, don't even try to move."

He was not flustered, with the corners of his mouth raised slightly, holding the phone in his bony hand, and said in a firm tone: "Chu Yuxi, I have been waiting for you for a long time."

The singing of cicadas above her head brought her back to a certain summer day. Lin Zhaowan's skirt was flying, and she was caught in the vortex of summer, but she didn't know which summer day it was?

This feeling that there seems to be something missing in my heart, whether it is the loss that I can never find it again, makes my heart feel dark and uncomfortable.

Now, the more she knew about Chen Ji'an, the more she believed that he was a good person.

even……

The place where her hand stretched out to her chest, that heart was pounding after thinking of him... Could this feeling be called a heartbeat?

Why is she moved?

　Jay Chou's album was ordered last night, and I am even more emotional to write the end of this chapter.I think Jay Chou's song is the youth that everyone resonates with, taking us back to the past.My memories are seagulls, sunsets, Big Ben, noisy streets, warm winds, non-mainstream in 2010...

　　"You said that if you let go of love gradually, you will go farther"

　　"Why change the time that has been missed"

　　"Imagine you by my side before losing it completely"

　　"Maybe fate's lottery only let us meet"

　　I also want to borrow the words of the author of Chapter 005 to say to Ji An and Zhaowan: No matter what age you are, as long as you have a sound outlook and the ability to take responsibility for your own choices when you become an adult, there is nothing shameful about being heartbroken.Within ten years is an acceptable range, right?

　　The male and female protagonists in this book did not overstep their language and behavior before they became adults. Even the heroine was rejecting her before the heroine was 22 years old, allowing her to have more room to choose for herself!The age difference when they met when they were young doesn't mean they can't get married in the future, they didn't do anything wrong.

　　You can also see more connotations of this story in the follow-up: age is not a sin, family of origin is not a sin, illness is not a sin, being bullied by the Internet is not a sin, resisting darkness is not a sin...

　　Any "crime" should not be an excuse to whitewash the real sin.

　　It is not shameful for us to struggle hard to choose our own life, to seek the light, to become the light.

　　In the theme of love, we have never thought about who we will meet in this life. In reality, there is only a gap of nine years, and it may be a lifetime.This story hopes to give us the courage to chase the ideal love in reality.

　　The same is true for me.

　　
　
(End of this chapter)