Deliberate and affectionate

Chapter 37 These Years

As an older sister, but she set such an example, she is simply not worthy of being her own older sister.She will never do such a thing in the future, and she will never make Mom and Dad so sad!

Lin Xi almost forgot how long it had been since he had seen them, Lin Jing became more attractive, she was still so confident and sunny, completely different from herself.

Lin Xi is five years older than Lin Jing.Lin Xi remembered that in the past, she liked this younger sister very much. She looked chubby and soft when hugged. She often liked to run to Lin Jing's crib and look at her.

Later, Lin Jing grew up a little, and she also grew up a lot.What she heard the most was "my sister is still young, you have to let her go."

"You are a sister, you should take care of your sister."

She did give in to her younger sister obediently, but they felt that it was not enough, and felt that she did not take good care of her younger sister.I often compare my sister with myself, saying that my sister is so cute, why are you like a log, you can't even speak.

At that time, Lin Xiye was just a little girl, and after being criticized many times, she became more dull, so like a vicious circle, their relationship became worse and worse.

After obviously feeling their partiality for her sister, she began to dislike her sister a little bit. She felt that her sister stole her love, and she was not reconciled.

She made things worse on purpose, got sick on purpose, and didn't study on purpose, just for them to take a closer look at herself.

Thinking about it later, in fact, she felt that she was quite stupid, deliberately creating damage to get the attention of her family, people who don’t care about you will not worry about where you got hurt, they will only criticize why you did it.

She didn't bother to make them care anymore, because they didn't care whether she was good or bad.

She slowly started to keep everything in her heart because there was no one to tell.

After hiding too much, they began to blame her for being a boring gourd, who would never tell them anything, unlike Lin Jing, who would go home and share whatever she ate at school today.

And Lin Jing knew that her family doted on her, so she often made trouble on purpose. Once she knocked down a relatively expensive vase, Lin Xi was with her at that time.The parents who heard the sound scolded Lin Xi, asking her why she broke the vase, and wondered how valuable it was?What else would you do besides trouble us?
Lin Xi said that he didn't make it, but his sister, but they firmly believed that after Lin Xi smashed it, he would blame his sister, and the tone of blame became more serious.

But Lin Jing seemed to get pleasure from this, she would often sabotage in front of Lin Xi, and she liked to wait for her parents to scold Lin Xi.She has the thrill of doing something bad and not being found out.

What's ridiculous is that even after the parents found out that she didn't do it, they still blamed her for not being optimistic about her younger sister. Such a grown-up person can't even look down on children.

Many times when Lin Xi came home alone after school, he found that the family was happy and full of laughter.She watched her parents and elder brother happily surround Lin Jing, and listened to her share her school stories. She felt that standing there was superfluous.

So since junior high school, she has been living on campus because she didn't want to go home.

Since then, her love for Lin Jing has gradually faded, and the cute little dumpling she once seemed to have disappeared from her memory.

(End of this chapter)