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It was almost ten o'clock in the evening when I left Zhang Song's house.
Fang Ning rubbed his stomach, feeling a little uncomfortable after eating this meal.
It was already very spicy, but after Lu Lingyou had to deal with it like this, she felt a little bloated.
"Why did you suddenly take this route? You scared me.
There is obviously a better way, slowly and step by step."

Lu Lingyou walked slowly with his hands in his pockets, but shook his head.
"There is no better way.
They must know where the critical value of their current abilities is.
Those unwarranted self-esteem are all based on the ability to face it.
Reluctance and low self-esteem, coupled with those sensitive cautiousness, will only keep them in the abyss and unable to extricate themselves.
People are like this, they always want to be stubborn and strong, but they are always annoyed because they are powerless.
If we can't do it, everyone will feel uncomfortable.
But if you want to do it, sometimes you really need to leave behind some things that you can’t hold on to now.”

Fang Ning followed him quietly and didn't ask any more questions.
Yes, who can understand their current situation better than Lu Lingyou.
Accepting help may feel uncomfortable, but they may become two outstanding police officers in the future.
If you refuse, if you go step by step at the current pace, there may be two more idle bastards in this alley.
They are orphans, and now they go to school and enjoy compulsory education with almost no money.
What about high school and college in the future?
Not to mention college, just high school textbooks, tuition and miscellaneous fees. With the measly subsidies and the money they earned from selling bottles, they could barely make ends meet.
In the end, one dropped out of school to support the family and the other studied normally, which is the most satisfactory ending imaginable.
Fang Ning looked at the tall figure walking in front and raised his hand to touch it in the air.
He must have been so sensitive and annoyed before.
Accepting help from others may not be easy for someone with his personality.
However, he has only had himself since he was a child, and even his life has been hanging on a tightrope.
If I hadn’t given up my self-esteem and accepted it again and again, I might not be alive today.
so far so good.
He is still standing here, walking firmly and straight.
Lu Lingyou is like the kind of person written in books.
After thousands of sails, he is still strong and strong. He knows how to neither be humble nor arrogant, and he also knows how to act within his ability.
Fang Ning was tracing the outline of his back in the air, but unexpectedly Lu Lingyou suddenly stopped and turned around.
"What are you doing, stabbing me in the back?"

Fang Ning smiled and shook his head.
"It's nothing, I just stretched it out and my stomach is a little bloated."

Lu Lingyou glanced at her up and down.
"Delicate."

The two slowly walked out of the alley and got into the car.
Fang Ning started the car.
"Let me take you back. It may take a while to take a taxi at this time and place."

Lu Lingyou didn't waste any time, opened the car door and got into the passenger seat.
No one said anything along the way, and the passing street lights flickered in time with the soothing rhythm of the music from the speakers.
When they arrived at the downstairs of Luling Youjia Community, Fang Ning parked the car and realized that he still had his eyes closed.
No matter how many times she saw it, she still found Lu Lingyou's face really attractive.
Although it is not handsome, every line is very sharp, but it also brings a sense of calmness.
His skull is extremely straight, his nose bridge is high, his jaw line is clear, and even his Adam's apple is very tense.
The silhouette reflected by the streetlight outside the car window is truly astounding.
After admiring it for a while, the eyelashes of the person opposite slowly moved, as if he had woken up.
"arrive?"

Fang Ning hummed.
"When you get downstairs, go back and have a good sleep."

Perhaps due to the atmosphere, Fang Ning's tone was even softer than usual.
Lu Lingyou rubbed his eyes.
"Are you still feeling sick to your stomach?"

“There’s still a little bit left, maybe I ate too much spicy food.
I didn’t expect that the base was made from real chili peppers.”

Lu Lingyou smiled and looked down at the time.
"10:30.
Come on, follow me up."

Fang Ning looked at him in surprise.
"Ah?
What am I going up for?"

Lu Lingyou didn't look at her anymore, opened the car door and walked out.
"Rape first, then kill, cut the body into pieces and fry it."

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In fact, Fang Ning probably knew what he was going to do when he took her home, probably to continue the topic that he had not finished talking about in the supermarket.
But in the final analysis, I was still a little disgusted by his perfunctory remarks.
Just like that, I followed Lu Lingyou and walked into his house again in a daze.
"You stay in the living room, I'll take a shower, five minutes."

During the five minutes, Fang Ning first looked at the layout of the room again, and then thought of Jiang Moyu's perverted remarks out of boredom.
She said, is it you who can't do it or he can't do it?
Five minutes later, Lu Lingyou came out.
She was fully and decently dressed, not as seductive as Jiang Moyu said, wearing only a bath towel.
Fang Ning suddenly felt like laughing.
"What are you laughing at here?
come over."

Lu Lingyou walked to the kitchen and took two bags of frozen dumplings from the refrigerator.
"Eat two together?"

Fang Ning nodded.
"also."

The water in the pot gradually started to boil. During this period, Lu Lingyou didn't ask, and Fang Ning didn't take the initiative to speak.
When the dumplings were brought to the table, Lu Lingyou ate a few, then put down his chopsticks and looked at Fang Ning opposite, who was slowly finishing a dumpling.
"Continue what you said before.
What did you find out later?"

Fang Ning knew that he was here to wait, but he had no intention of hiding it, so it didn't matter.
She finished her mouthful of dumplings and put down her chopsticks.
“It’s actually very simple.
I found the old housekeeper who had worked at my grandpa's house for many years.
He had no heirs, and when he got older, he was sent to a nursing home by his grandfather’s family for retirement.”

Lu Lingyou picked up his chopsticks and ate while listening.
"In fact, the two of us had a good relationship at the beginning, so my grandfather felt sorry for his daughter, and even though he was dissatisfied with his son-in-law, he was still willing to help her.
In this way, his career skyrocketed rapidly.
If Ren Hua relied on Huang Huanxin's darknet business to grow his company step by step very quickly, then it can be said that he almost reached the sky in one step.
But the old housekeeper said that he didn't know when his temperament changed drastically.
At first he was always gentle and courteous, but he began to become frequently impatient and even irritable.
A few times, the old housekeeper even witnessed two people quarreling to fighting."

Lu Lingyou raised his head.
"Domestic violence?"

Fang Ning hummed and continued.
"Maybe it was just a few pushes at the beginning. The old housekeeper felt that this was a private matter for the young couple after all, and it was not appropriate to get too involved.
But later on, my mother’s visits to my grandfather’s home became less and less frequent, and sometimes she didn’t show up once for several months.
Once, my grandfather heard that she had a serious cold, so he asked the old housekeeper to bring some of her favorite clearing dishes made in the small kitchen at home.
It's not like my grandpa's house has a housekeeper and many nannies and aunties.
The two of them usually keep to themselves, and have no habit of needing to be served by others, so they want to be quiet.
But as soon as Butler Lao Guan arrived at the door of the villa, he saw him grabbing his mother's neck and smashing the glass of the top floor bedroom.
He strangled his mother and hung her on the second floor, with half of her body hanging out of the window.
There were wounds on the mother's face and arms made by glass, and she bled a lot.
But the strange thing is that after that, my mother completely denied this scene in front of my grandfather.
You say two people have a good relationship, how could they fight."

Fang Ning picked up the water glass on the side and took a sip.
"After that, although the old housekeeper was empty-handed and no longer argued, he would pay special attention to his mother every time he came home.
He said that almost every time he was injured, sometimes it was covered with a silk scarf, and sometimes he wore thick makeup."

Lu Lingyou swallowed the dumplings in his mouth and asked.
"Will you be there?
Moreover, the old housekeeper saw it with his own eyes that your mother's leg injury was caused by him?"

Fang Ning shook his head.
"They had just gotten married at that time, and I wasn't married yet.
This was not something he saw with his own eyes.
However, after that, my grandfather also noticed something was wrong, so he found someone to follow him for a while.
On the day of the accident, my mother was at home and so was he.
The two of them never took a step outside the house from beginning to end, and the people following her in the morning even saw her watering the flowers in the yard.
But in the afternoon, he was wrapped tightly and put in his car and taken to the hospital.
Bones shattered and nerves and arteries were punctured.
If it weren't for the fact that the family doctor couldn't handle it, no one would know about it.
He is the only one in the family, who else could be there instead of him?
But the performance accident was requested by my mother herself. After begging my grandfather for a long time, he agreed to help cover it up.
Because at that time, she was pregnant with me." Fang Ning tried his best to tell the story in a calm tone, and Lu Lingyou also tried his best to listen with a reaction that only talked about the past.
The two of them even took time to eat two bites of dumplings while talking.
"If it was this kind of long-term domestic violence, why would your mother react like this?
Maybe since then everyone has realized the seriousness of the problem, and he has restrained himself.
In other words, your grandfather may use some restraint measures to protect his daughter.
Although your mother was reluctant to part with the child because of it, there are still many ways to prevent an adult man who knows how to gain and lose from committing violence.
But the broken feelings are there.
why."

Lu Lingyou hesitated for a moment, and Fang Ning kindly supplemented his words.
"Why did you insist on giving birth to me?
Why is there Zhong Cheng later?"

Lu Lingyou nodded.
"Besides, you didn't know that she had been domestically abused before."

"Yes, I don't know.
For many years when I was young, I even thought I had a happy and harmonious family.
A mature and steady father, and a mother who, although emotionally unstable, is extremely gentle towards her family.
Lovely little brother.
I never even heard them arguing loudly at home.
Later I learned that there is a word called cold violence."

Fang Ning lowered his head.
“That’s what I can’t figure out.
The old housekeeper didn't know the reason for this, he just thought that he really knew how to restrain himself, or he was afraid.
But starting from that incident, what little trust was left in my grandfather also collapsed.
Since his mother was discharged from the hospital, he has gradually withdrawn from complex business links and isolated him.
This took a long time and was thwarted many times.
The old housekeeper said that when my mother was pregnant with me, my grandfather wanted her to abort the child and get a divorce.
However, the mother refused, and the grandfather was completely disheartened by his unfulfilled daughter at this time.
So after I was born, I didn’t even see the old man a few times.”

Lu Lingyou finished a whole plate of dumplings, then took a lighter and lit a cigarette.
"It doesn't make sense.
Among the perpetrators of domestic violence, in many similar cases I have experienced, none of them were able to stop in time.
But you have never seen such a scene.
I had a child, then a second child, and we still treated each other like guests for so many years."

He pushed the remaining half plate of dumplings in front of Fang Ning.
"Eat two more, my stomach will feel better."

Fang Ning really couldn't eat it, but he still picked one and put it in the bowl.
"Do you remember what I told you a long time ago that my mother is emotionally unstable and needs medication to maintain her daily routine.
When she started stumbling or holding her head and complaining of pain, she would take medicine.
I was young at that time and could not understand the German language of the medicine bottles. Later, the house was completely burned, and there were no medicine bottles left that could be used to collect evidence.
Strangely, the entire list of medications at home seemed to have been wiped out.
Even at the scene after the fire, there was not even a trace of cold medicine.
But I later checked the expenditure records of my mother's and his accounts.
If there is a problem with daily medication at home, I believe it must be related to the two parties involved.
Each of the two accounts has a transaction with a small amount, but the frequency of expenditures is basically the same.
This kind of transaction only has the total amount and no details.
However, the frequency of purchases between two people is almost the same, but the amount used is different each time.”

Lu Lingyou frowned while holding a cigarette in his mouth.
"You are saying that both of them are buying medicines with the same frequency but different amounts. Maybe they are not buying the same medicine.
There are only two possibilities.
First, they are all taking some kind of medication regularly. Secondly"

Fang Ning took a small bite and continued.
“Secondly, either he was secretly replacing the psychotropic drugs that his mother was taking and controlling her in this way.
Or the mother discovered that there was something wrong with the medicine she took daily and quietly changed it herself."

Lu Lingyou hummed.
"That being said, it's easier to explain earlier.
Why was there no divorce, and why did Xiang Jingru Bin have two more children?
Perhaps your mother became aware of the drug problem much later."

Fang Ning continued to chew slowly and ate a dumpling.
"Yes, I am also inclined to this possibility.
I later studied psychology, and this was partly the reason.
But I don’t know so far that there is any kind of medicine that can make a person forget the murderer who committed a crime against him most of the time, and even only remember that they once loved each other.”

Lu Lingyou's hand moved unconsciously.
"You said most of the time."

"Yes, most of them.
Because in addition to treating each other as a guest most of the time, when my mother is ill, she will also reject his contact.
Sometimes he even hides.
I didn't understand it before, I just thought she was repelling everyone because of her pain.
So it wasn't until the atmosphere at home became unsustainable that I realized something was wrong.
But I can’t remember the details.”

Lu Lingyou saw that she really couldn't eat anymore, so he reached out and took away the plate in front of him, raised his head and cleaned up the remaining dumplings in big gulps, including the half in her bowl.
He wiped his mouth, sat down next to Fang Ning with a stool, and then pulled Fang Ning's chair to him.
"You still can't remember what happened before and after that day?"

Fang Ning wanted to turn her head away from his eyes, but Lu Lingyou raised her hand to support her chin.
She could only nod reluctantly.
"Can not remember.
But after I went abroad, I found a professional agency to do hypnosis."

Lu Lingyou took back his hand and motioned for her to continue speaking.
"A very fragmentary shot.
She came to me the day before and asked me to take Zhong Cheng away, as far away as possible.
She brought me that necklace, which I later pawned, saying it was a birthday present for me."

Fang Ning frowned in pain.
"Also, she said she wanted to kill him."

Fang Ning held her head with both hands. Suddenly her head hurt so much that it felt like it was going to explode.
"I don't know if these clips are true or false.
Maybe it's true, maybe it's an association driven by my subjective emotions.
I later found someone to redeem the necklace and did a very precise inspection, and found no place to hide anything in it.
She asked me to take Zhong Cheng for a run. In fact, I had made an appointment with Zhong Cheng that day to take him to the aquarium.
and also
And she...she said she was going to kill him."

Fang Ning began to gasp for air, and every breath he took felt like he had just emerged from the water in which he was drowning.
"Kill him
Maybe it’s me in the future who dreams about killing him with my own hands every day.”

Lu Lingyou reached out and grabbed Fang Ning's wrist, and pulled her hands off her head with great force.
"Stop, Fang Ning.
Stop, take a deep breath, and look at me."

He lifted her directly onto his lap and lifted her pale face little by little.
"Okay, look at me.
Take a deep breath."

Fang Ning was slightly panicked. It took a long time before she could see Lu Lingyou's face clearly in front of her again.
"Lu Ling You."

He hummed, grabbed his waist and pulled her into his arms, letting her rest her head on his shoulder.
"Okay, I don't want to think about it anymore." (End of chapter)